Zhang Zhongxing and his wife Li Zhiluan
White ash walls, concrete floors.
When a ray of sunlight poured through the window into the old tube building, the "brightest" was the old rattan chair that accompanied Zhang Zhongxing for most of his life.
The reason why it is "the most eye-catching" is not only the layer of oily paste that the years have wrapped around it, but also the love and hate behind this chair.
When the dust falls, everything becomes a passing cloud. The things under the passage of time are human beings, telling a period of red dust farewell love.
In 1932, Zhang Zhongxing was still studying at Peking University.
In a fortuitous moment, Zhang Zhongxing saw this rattan chair on the street. Just one glance, he was in love. Although the bag was a little shy, Zhang Zhongxing still brought it home.
After all, at this time, Yang Mo had already given birth to his first child. As he wished, he began to take care of his daily life, washing and cooking for him.
Young Yang Mo
Although the two people have a little estrangement because of the arrival of the child, after all, they still love each other deeply.
It was in 1931, and Yang Mo was still a flower girl. At the age of 17, she looks very good. Her fair skin, innocent smile, and graceful body make her look very tall wherever she stands.
Youth gave her a heart full of enthusiasm for the future, but it also brought her emotional distress.
The father fell in love with another woman and has not returned. The brother also broke with his mother because of the freedom to pursue love. In this family, only she and her sister are still by their mother's side.
Life is getting more and more strained, and everywhere is a situation of stretching.
Youth Zhang Zhongxing
Therefore, the mother took it upon herself to find a family affair for Yang Mo. She planned to marry her daughter to a young officer with a lot of gold. If this marriage becomes a problem, money will no longer be an issue.
Yang Mo can be a rich wife with peace of mind, and her sister's tuition and living expenses have also been settled. As for whether the two of them had a basis for affection, the mother did not care. After all, that's how she came.
However, today is different from the past, and the people's customs have long been civilized.
People who have read books no longer believe in "the fate of parents, the words of matchmakers." In their bones, they all want to talk about a vigorous love. Yang Mo has read books and received a new-style education. Naturally, she also wanted to break through the shackles that bound her.
Because of this, she fell out with her mother. My mother stopped her tuition and living expenses.
Middle-aged Yang Mo
In order to find a job to live in, Yang Mo had to go to Beidaihe to seek help from his brother. It was only at this time that Yang Chengxun was also tortured by the life in front of him and had no time to take care of him.
Therefore, Yang Mo found his classmate Li Shaoqiang again, hoping that he could help him think of a way. Speaking of which, this Li Shaoqiang is also attentive.
He went around looking for people and relationships, and finally found a student studying at Peking University. The student heard about What happened to Yang Mo, and he felt somewhat empathy.
He said that if he could, he would be willing to find an errand for Yang Mo as a primary school teacher.
He is Zhang Zhongxing.
The two finally met.
Accompanied by friends, Yang Mo returned to Beijing from Beidaihe. Zhang Zhongxing deliberately ordered a few small dishes in Donglaishun, which were counted as receiving the wind for Yang Mo.
Yang Mo in life
He originally felt that this girl's mood at this time should be a little lost, and even a little afraid and uneasy. However, when Yang Mo sat across from him, he realized that this was not the case.
Although life is a little tight, schooling has been interrupted, and now there is a forced marriage of the mother. But her face was still full of smiles, and there was an indescribable enthusiasm. She is positive and optimistic.
In front of Zhang Zhongxing, Yang Mo was undisguised. You can dream of your future unscrupulously, or you can tell your past with a big grin.
At that moment, Zhang Zhongxing was touched by this girl full of sunshine, and she was even more impressed by her courage.
If the 17-year-old had the courage, he would not have married a wife who had no emotional foundation; if the wife had her enthusiasm, and had also attended school and read like her, she would not have been a stranger for a few years after marriage.
In his later years, Zhang Zhongxing
In fact, when Zhang Zhongxing was three or four years old, his parents made a marriage for him.
It was a peasant girl from the same village as him, and she was a few years older than Zhang Zhongxing. The girl had never read a book and was illiterate. Except for the so-called "three from four virtues", she knows nothing about the outside world.
In 1926, Zhang Zhongxing was still studying at Tongxian Normal School. On that day, he received a letter from his mother asking him to go home and complete the marriage.
Zhang Zhongxing himself was resistant, he did not want to marry a girl he had never met and could not read, but he did not want to go against his mother's wishes. Although his heart was entangled, he forced himself to accept the marriage arranged for him by his mother.
In the night of the cave flower candle, Zhang Zhongxing saw his wife for the first time. She was plain looking and wrapped in a pair of small feet. Talking is a little nervous, and there is no logic.
Yang Mo
As for the poetry, song, literature and art mentioned by Zhang Zhongxing, his wife did not understand it at all. Those household chores that are short and the lives of each family are not good for Zhang Zhongxing.
Two people always have no common language, and there is no joy in life.
Compared with guarding his wife at home, it is better to study outside the comfort. As a result, Zhang Zhongxing rarely went home on weekdays. Aside from the winter and summer vacations of each year, he had little more intersection with his wife.
He begged for his knowledge, and she served the old man at home. Whether it is working in the field or dressing and eating, she is hard at work. Marrying Zhang Zhongxing is her "life". She confessed, never thinking of resisting.
The appearance of Yang Mo stirred up a ripple in Zhang Zhongxing's heart. For many days and nights, he longed for such a woman to accompany him. You can talk to him about the heart, you can talk to him about literature and art.
Zhang Zhongxing sat on a wicker chair
Probably undeniable. When they first met, Zhang Zhongxing fell in love with Yang Mo.
Love at first sight is not an exaggeration, it is real.
As for Yang Mo's feelings for Zhang Zhongxing, we must start from another story.
After Zhang Zhonghang and Yang Mo met, the two people chatted very speculatively. In the trance, there is a feeling of seeing each other and hating the night.
Seeing that Yang Mo's situation was really difficult, Zhang Zhongxing agreed to seek an errand for Yang Mo. He wrote a letter to his brother, who was the headmaster of the high school, recommending Yang Mo to work as a teacher at his place.
In those days of waiting for a reply, Yang Mo and Zhang Zhonghang exchanged more.
One day, Yang Mo and his friends went to Zhang Zhonghang's apartment to visit him.
The door opened, and Yang Mo's eyes were filled with books. It was a small apartment, as if it were filled with books, and the smell of books was everywhere.
Zhang Zhongxing was reading a book
Sitting in the house is like wandering in the world of books. Yang Mo was shocked by Zhang Zhongxing in front of him. It turned out that his gentleness and erudition were all poured out by the books in front of him.
She was eager to study, but because of all kinds of things in life, she had to make a conclusion with her studies.
At that moment, Yang Mo's vision of Zhang Zhonghang was different. From the original appreciation, to admiration and love.
Zhang Zhongxing took a book from the shelf. Although there was no dust on it, Zhang Zhongxing still tried to blow the floating dust on it, and wiped it on it with his sleeve a few times. Only then did he hand the book to Yang Mo's hands.
However, for two people, this conveys not a simple book, but from one person's true feelings to another person's true feelings.
Zhang Zhonghang life photo
When Yang Mo also held the book, two hot hearts intertwined. Together, they were pulled into the abyss of love, and it was difficult to extricate themselves.
But soon, Zhang Zhongxing's brother's reply arrived. The letter said there was indeed a shortage of teachers in the school. If Yang Mo is willing, I hope she will go to school as soon as possible.
In Beijing in September, sooner or later, there is already a little coolness.
With the chirping of birds in the morning, Zhang Zhongxing sent Yang Mo to the station. After the air whistle sounded, Yang Mo boarded the train with the crowd.
Although the eyes of the two people were full of reluctance, they still waved their hands, which meant farewell. As for when we will see each other again, no one can give an answer.
The train started, and Zhang Zhonghang stood on the platform, looking in the direction of the train, refusing to leave for a long time. Yang Mo sat in the carriage, looking at Zhang Zhongxing's figure through a window, gradually drifting away until he could no longer see.
Zhang Zhongxing and friends
Since Yang Mo left, Zhang Zhongxing had some souls instead. He lifted his pen and wrote one letter after another to Yang Mo, pouring out his true feelings.
Yang Mo was a frank person. Her love for Zhang Zhongxing was also unabashedly expressed. Although the two places are separated, the hearts of the two people are closer.
One day in November of that year, Yang Mo suddenly returned to Beijing.
Her mother was already lying in a hospital bed. The sallow face heralded the imminent death. Yang Mo returned to his mother's side and took care of his seriously ill mother.
At the same time, she and Zhang Zhongxing also came to an infatuation that did not want to be separated for a moment.
Soon, Yang Mo's mother passed away, and she also conceived a child for Zhang Zhongxing.
The arrival of the child, Yang Mo was excited. She longs to wait with Zhang Zhongxing for the crystallization of this love. She told Zhang Zhongxing the news with great joy, but Zhang Zhongxing's face showed an indescribable trepidation.
Smiling Yang Mo
At this time, he was still studying, and all his financial resources came from his mother's support. The lives of the two of them are already a bit strained, and the arrival of the children is bound to drag them into new predicaments.
Zhang Zhongxing fell into distress. At that moment, he didn't seem to know how to deal with the rest of his life.
However, in the eyes of the sensitive Yang Mo, she felt that Zhang Zhongxing was indifferent to her and no longer loved her so much. The estrangement between the two men was born.
Yang Mo, who wants to be strong, gave birth to the child at his sister's nursing mother's house and fostered it to someone else.
Originally, she had some hatred for Zhang Zhongxing, but after returning to Beiping, she found that Zhang Zhongxing's attitude had eased somewhat, and she was always upset about the previous events. After all, the two people are in love with each other and soon live together again.
It's just that the two of them have very different personalities. Zhang Zhongxing only wants to be a cultural person in peace and stability and delve into his knowledge.
As for his wife, he hopes to have emotional exchanges with him and take care of his life. However, such a request is something that Yang Mo cannot do.
She is a passionate person, and he has a life that he wants to chase. Soon, Yang Mo walked with left-wing writers.
Zhang Zhongxing is not interested in politics, and he hopes that Yang Mo will be like him and stay away from politics, but Yang Mo is keen on this, and her contradiction with Zhang Zhonghang is getting deeper and deeper.
In fact, in their attitude towards marriage, it can be seen that the two of them will not last long after all. Sooner or later, it will go our separate ways.
Yang Mo is creating
Yang Mo was pregnant and wrote a desperate love letter to Zhang Zhongxing, and walked with another man.
The rattan chair also welcomed a second hostess.
It was a peach blossom spring in 1935, and everywhere was filled with the smell of birds and flowers.
In a small farm yard, Zhang Zhongxing met the woman who had been introduced to him.
The girl's name is Li Zhiluan, who is one month older than Zhang Zhonghang. She is also a native of Shizhuang, Tunxiang, Hebei Province, and is a fellow of Zhang Zhongxing.
However, Li Zhiluan is different from Zhang Zhonghang's first wife. She was the only daughter of a wealthy local family and had attended school and read books.
The two men chatted for a long time under the peach blossoms, and there seemed to be endless words. The atmosphere was so good that both men showed a sense of mutual affection.
At the time of separation, Zhang Zhongxing said to her, "You are older than me, then I will call you sister in the future."
Yang Mo's old age photo
Li Zhiluan's face showed a sweet smile. She didn't speak, just nodded. But she also seems to be very satisfied with Zhang Zhongxing's name for her.
At that time, Zhang Zhongxing was teaching in Tianjin. Li Zhiluan also went to visit him.
Two people walk side by side on the campus in Tianjin, and the atmosphere of love is everywhere. Zhang Zhonghang took her through many good places in Tianjin, but the smile on Li Zhiluan's face became less and less.
On the occasion of the separation, she also said to Zhang Zhongxing, "I don't like a metropolis like Tianjin very much."
At first, Zhang Zhongxing did not understand the true meaning of this sentence. It was not until later through the introduction that Zhang Zhongxing learned about Li Zhiluan's true intentions.
Who wouldn't like a bustling place? It's just that she feels that living in such a place is too expensive. She didn't want Zhang Zhonghang to bear too much pressure in life, she was worried about him.
Mr. and Mrs. Zhang Zhonghang and friends
When he learned of this news, Zhang Zhongxing was completely moved. He had always longed for someone who could share his life for him. If it is said that when they first met, Zhang Zhonghang only had some good feelings for Li Zhiluan. However, this time, he really felt that Li Zhiluan was the person he was looking for in this life.
Soon after, Zhang Zhongxing went to Baoding and, with the blessing of his relatives and friends, tied a happy marriage with Li Zhiluan.
This time, he really touched the right person. Li Zhiluan has culture and knowledge, but she does not have so many ideas. What she thinks and does revolves around her husband, Zhang Zhongxing.
Zhang Zhongxing was thirsty, and Li Zhiluan silently added water to him. After a busy day, the tired Zhang Zhongxing returned home, and Li Zhiluan would serve him his favorite meal.
Zhang Zhongxing finally had time to delve into his own knowledge. As for life, he no longer had to think hard.
Zhang Zhonghang's family
In the early winter of that year, the weather was already a little cold. Zhang Zhongxing looked a little thinly dressed.
So, a colleague asked him, "Aren't you cold?" ”
Zhang Zhongxing smiled shyly. He rolled up his sleeves and said, "You see, I'm wearing a cotton coat inside."
It was a dark plain cotton coat, which Li Zhiluan had changed with one of his own wedding dresses.
In the early autumn season, when Zhang Zhongxing went to sleep. In the dim light, Li Zhiluan rushed to make this cotton jacket with one stitch and one thread. Every knot is full of Li Zhiluan's love and care for her husband.
Zhang Zhongxing wore this cotton coat, and his heart was always warm. Even if it was a cold waxing moon, he was reluctant to change it to a thicker one. It wasn't until Li Zhiluan made him a new cotton coat that he reluctantly changed it to a new one.
Li Zhiluan really took care of Zhang Zhongxing's diet and living like taking care of his younger brother.
Group photo in the early years
Zhang Zhongxing once wrote an article about his life with Li Zhiluan.
"I don't know how to be full when I eat, and if the old wife doesn't give me a full meal, she will be full; if I don't know the cold or warm when I dress, and if the old wife doesn't let me add clothes, she will be warm."
Li Zhiluan also never had a complaint against Zhang Zhongxing. Even in the most difficult days, she silently bears all the burdens of the family, and does not worry about life and distractions for trivial matters.
Zhang Zhongxing recalls his life with Li Zhiluan.
He said they only had spring and autumn in their days. It's not cold or hot. Probably because they all play their own roles, they are silently waiting and paying for each other.
Zhang Zhonghang and his family
In 2003, Li Zhiluan was admitted to the hospital before Zhang Zhongxing. Soon after, Zhang Zhongxing's body also appeared in condition. Lying on his hospital bed, he was always asking his daughter next to him, "How is your mother?" Is your body getting better? ”
One morning, Zhang Zhongxing, who was lying on a hospital bed, suddenly woke up from his dream. His hands suddenly trembled, and he always felt that something bad was happening.
He said to the daughter next to him, "When will you get your mother to come and see me, I miss her?"
My daughter always said, "It's almost fast, and you'll see her when you're well."
I don't know that on that day, Li Zhiluan left him first. His wife, who has been together for 68 years, is ahead of him, probably paving the way for him.
A couple who have been together for 68 years
In 2006, Zhang Zhonghang also completed his 97 years. At the moment of his death, he still had his wife Li Zhiluan in his mouth.
Until he went to sleep, he didn't know that Li Zhiluan had left 3 years ago.