Sin in the sun

——Mental Counselor's Notes

You have talked many times on the phone about your home and your husband's domestic violence against you, and I am very sad and even more distressed about your experience. Please tell me bluntly, when you first introduced him to me with great vigor, as a psychological counselor, I vaguely felt that this person was not very reliable, and there were some disguises of that kind of love for you that was hiding something. But you were completely captivated by him at that time, and you couldn't listen to me at all, so I could only pray to you in my heart.

After you have children, you become a completely different person, tolerant and generous and strong. He never cared about you mother and son, only that he drank and beat you, and he became a devil and a madman. For you, it is like living in a sea of disaster. For the sake of the child, you clean up the wretched house while coaxing the child with tears, and the pain and pain are known only to you.

Your forbearance is felt by him to be afraid of him leaving, or to be perceived as weak, or even to think that you are bullied. As a result, he became more unscrupulous, more mischievous, more addicted to domestic violence, and more neglectful of the existence of another life. The last time you were hospitalized with an eye injury from him, you gritted your teeth and told me that you were going to kill him and then commit suicide. I was really shocked and advised you not to act stupidly impulsively. It's so unworthy of your life to be with such an asshole. Not to mention that your child is still young, and you can't bear to let him become an orphan? Besides, there are still many shops in this village, and the men in the world can still die! There are many ways to leave him, to leave a family without a trace of emotion, and despair is certainly not the only one.

After you called the police, he was educated to temporarily restrain the point. After a few days, the inferiority has not changed, and it has been abusive to you. For the sake of the children and for the sake of this family, you still chose to endure, suffered physical damage and psychological injuries again and again, and was once again admitted to the hospital. When I went to visit you, you had no tears or a word, only blood oozing from the bandages on your head and those angry eyes. I feel the despair in your heart, afraid that you will impulsively act horribly. I immediately reported your situation to the relevant departments, hoping to get their attention. Although they have made records, perhaps this kind of thing is too much, almost a social problem, and I see the casual and indifferent of the staff.

That night, the hospital called me and said you ran out of the hospital. My head exploded, I felt like you were going crazy and something big, and I called the police right away. By the time the police arrived at your house, it was too late. You killed him while he was drunk and jumped from the nineteenth floor with your child in your arms. In an instant, the three lives that had just been alive came to an abrupt end, and blood flowed from the house to the downstairs. You buried a domestic abuser with a kind and beautiful life, and you also brought your young child to another world, resulting in a family tragedy.

I can't forgive my incompetence, for not being able to save a family's life, for not doing everything I could to stop this tragedy from happening. I also regret for you, you are young, the road is thousands, why do you have to go to the end of the road, but also took away the young life. At the same time, if the relevant departments at that time could attract enough attention to immediately and quickly control the domestic violence of the man, perhaps the tragedy would not have happened.

postscript:

In the cemetery, I buried you and your child together, filled with a circle of yellow and white chrysanthemums. I bought many chocolates and some toys and textbooks that the children liked. Hopefully, you and your child will no longer be violent, no drinking, no clenched fists in that place. Let warmth surround you and happiness accompany you.

Love is mutual, not one's effort. It is the sea of tolerance, the mountain of tolerance, and the hardy cuckoo. Everyone's efforts and gains can never be equal, don't worry about it, don't compare. When you look at the child's cute and childish eyes, everything can be understood, you can endure, it is not a thing! Even if there is no hope for the family, the broken marriage can be dissolved through legal channels, and it is never necessary to use life as a means of revenge. Life belongs to us only once, and we have no reason not to protect and not to fear!

Happy families are the same, unhappy families have their own misfortunes. Magnifies the happiness of a happy family, and does not have the misfortune of an unhappy family. Hopefully, people under the sky are bathed in sunshine and live in the warm blossoms of spring...