Proust: What is harder to understand than the celestial world is the real world of women

- "The Quest for Volume V: The Female Prisoner" reads the last ten

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Shu Hai Ying:

Desire to imprison home

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We tend to feel innocent that we have desires

The desires of others, on the other hand, are unbearable

Imprison Albertina

At the same time, I returned these glittering wings to the world

These colorful wings that gently flutter on the way out, at the dance, and in the theater

It's tempting for me to become again—

Because Albertina would no longer be tempted by them

I saw this little bird walking on the seawall that night

The group of young girls around them were like seagulls from nowhere

Now Albertina, the little bird, is confined to my home

She is at the same time losing the possibility of being owned by others

Lost all her brilliance

She gradually lost her beauty

She lives in my house these days

It can still be clearly divided into two stages

In the first stage

She's still the radiant actress on the beach (though the brilliance is getting darker by the day)

In the second stage

She became a gloomy-faced female prisoner

It's not good to fade the luster

Only when I recall the joys of the past

will shine again

But in front of the great lake in the boulogne woods that I love

At the foot of the bush

The sun put her shadow -

The silhouette of her legs and upper body was cast as pure shadows onto the fine sand of the trail

It smudges like a watercolor painting

It was like taking the scene of us at home to the outside

Brought to nature

I felt a kind of magic in the fusion of the two shadows

It may not be as practical as the fusion of the flesh

But it's just as soul-sucking

If you are in love with someone

Your heart will also tell you

Tied to another person's life

It's like carrying a bomb on your body

Throwing it away will cause an explosion

Such a life is terrible

He just got cold little by little

It is like an asteroid foreshadowing the fate of future large planets

First, the heat gradually left the earth

Then life is gone

More difficult to understand than the celestial world

It is the real activity of human life

Especially the real activities of our beloved woman

They make up stories of self-justification

to reassure us

Make yourself seem righteous

Our beloved woman made up stories

It is not possible to believe in love that has numbed us for many years

She had a sister who didn't exist in a foreign country

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