I gave up my side course and continued to stay in the village elementary school

Yes, sister, one of my deputy subjects is gone

01

In the 1990s, in his twenties, he taught at a township center elementary school. At that time, I was a hundred and ten yuan a month, and I couldn't get cash. In January, dozens of pairs of socks, or one or two blankets, were also distributed. What was worse was that there was a mortgage on a suite at the time. There is no way to borrow, until now, I still remember the feeling of borrowing money at that time, it is really difficult to say.

At that time, there were few teachers who graduated from regular schools in the townships, and the government advocated that cadres should be younger and more knowledgeable. The county issued a document to select a group of female cadres for the grass-roots township government among the female teachers in the county, and because I am a party member, have a college degree, and meet the conditions, the township education committee recommended me. I heard that these female cadres were promoted to deputy township chiefs a year later. At that time, I was young, and I couldn't see clearly how many pounds I had, and more importantly, when I arrived at the township government, I didn't have to take socks and blankets as a salary every month. So, fill out the form.

At that time, the leader of the Education Commission was working with us in a school, and I handed the table to the director of our Education Committee and carefully asked: "Is it okay to go to the township to work?" He didn't say anything, just said try it and you'll know. He also told me that another female teacher in our township had also signed up. I was very troubled, nervous, and did not know whether to take this step or not.

When everyone is faced with a life choice, they will think about it and weigh the pros and cons. What will I lose by taking this step? What do you get? I will lose the familiar environment, the familiar work, the familiar person. These comforts. I would get paid in full every month and jump out of the cramped relationships that surrounded me by four walls. However, I may face many unknown difficulties.

02

After handing in the table, my heart went up and down, so I went to the eldest sister to seek the opinion of the eldest sister. The eldest sister has been a township cadre and has more than ten years of experience in working in townships, and the sour, sweet, bitter and spicy of them are all known. She told: "Where are the township cadres good to be teachers?" Interpersonal relationships are complex, the work environment is complicated, and your personality is not suitable for going to the township. Be your teacher! ”

Listening to the eldest sister's opinion, I was a little unconvinced, but it also implied my fear of the future, I said: "The table has been handed over, so what to do?"

"I'll go to the organization department and get it back for you." Still in the stage of receiving materials, it doesn't matter if you give up. "The eldest sister's work unit is in the same courtyard as the organization department.

Later, I got the recommendation form, looked at it and looked at it, and I gave up this opportunity, which may be an opportunity that I will never have again in my life. I kept this watch in the drawer for a week, and I hesitated for a week, and several times I wanted to consult other friends, afraid to give the opposite opinion to the eldest sister, just like that, in the mood swinging left and right, the deadline for receiving the materials passed. I no longer hesitated and tore the watch.

I chose ease and gave up the challenging unknown. Of course, one of my sub-departments died. On closer inspection, my personality does lack drive, fear of challenges, and fear of change. There is not much in a lifetime, only suitable for a mediocre life.

03

Later, the female teacher who was recommended with me became the deputy secretary of our township. During a labor organized by the township government, I met her. She was a little embarrassed to see me, and estimated that she thought she had robbed me of my place, but she did not know that I had taken the initiative to retreat. We smiled at each other and said hello. I also didn't initiate it, I don't think it's necessary.

She was working with the township cadres, but I felt that she was incompatible with the township cadres. The secretary of our township and town came from the branch secretary of the brigade, and his work style was very practical, but in the contacts on various occasions, he felt that he had a jealous hatred for people with knowledge and toward teachers, and liked to show his authority by calling and drinking to teachers. When the teachers were present, he did not know whether it was intentional or really found out that the deputy secretary from the teacher had done something wrong, and all kinds of foul language taught her, and I was very angry for her, so I hid far away. Just in case she's embarrassed.

Later, I heard that she and the secretary had a disagreement, and the contradiction became public. Sometimes in the township government, sometimes in the workplace, there will be quarrels. She took some of the intellectuals' reticence, probably at first, still patient, but later saw that the secretary was inching forward, and her words were too rude, and she also hit back a few words. So, the little shoes were put on, and the work was very difficult.

04

Today, some of the teachers who have been promoted to deputy township chiefs and deputy secretaries are still in townships and towns, and have long since retreated to the second line and opened the pension model; some have been transferred to county organs, some have become deputy county chiefs, and some have returned to the education system.

For the teacher who returned to the education system, this experience was exchanged for a side treatment, and there was also a rich experience that ordinary teachers did not have. Of course, her return to the education system should be the result of countless sleepless nights tossing and turning, and finally choosing. It was because she felt that she was still suitable for the educational environment.

Looking back now, I want to go to work in the township government, just like the people in the city want to go out and the people outside the city want to rush in.

The flow of life is indomitable. Today, looking back on the past, it is lamentable.