On December 26, 2021, heavy snow fell in Changsha.
Liu Jiani shared a video of the snow scene taken from a high-rise building in the circle of friends, accompanied by copywriting. But in fact, she didn't like winter. Because of uremia, her feet are X-shaped and she cannot wear pants. No matter how cold it was, she had to go barefoot, put on a long skirt, and go to the hospital for dialysis.
Dialysis three times a week has been going on for seven years.
After being diagnosed with advanced uremia, Jiani was repeatedly "abandoned" by her family and lived in the public security bureau and the aid station for a period of time. Later, the parents reached a mediation to bear her medical expenses and living expenses respectively, and she has lived alone in the rental house until now.
In June 2019, Liu Jiani filed a private prosecution with the Xinhua County People's Court for "abandonment". Two months later, the court dismissed the case on the grounds of "lack of incriminating evidence".
After learning that the law could not help her "punish" her parents, Liu Jiani did not think much, only hoping that they would "recognize their mistakes".
Drifting
Liu Jiani's impression of childhood is lonely and autistic.
When she was one year and eight months old, Jiani's parents divorced, custody went to her father Liu Jie, and her mother Li Hua went to Wuxi. Liu Jie has been working outside the home for many years, and Jiani has been living with her aunt's family in Xinhua, Hunan.
Hunan Xinhua
In 2011, when Jiani was ten years old, Li Hua took her daughter back to Wuxi. According to Jiani, at that time, her mother had remarried and had a little daughter, "She said that at that time I was too thin, only 27 pounds, maybe she was in good condition and wanted to take me over." 」
According to the description in Liu Jiani's private complaint, it was the father Liu Jie who "requested to change the maintenance relationship in order to evade the responsibility of raising the child", and Li Hua was willing to personally raise the child after obtaining the child's consent, without Liu Jie's living expenses and education expenses.
After returning to her mother, Jiani still did not feel happy. "She ordered me to mop the floor and wash the dishes and do all kinds of housework, which I didn't like to do, and she might beat me." In addition, Li Hua will also punish her daughter for not being allowed to eat and not sleeping at home.
After the junior high school stay, Jiani became very afraid to go home, and every Friday after school, she would linger at the door for a while before knocking.
Talking about her own experience, Jiani was sad
In the second half of 2015, Jiani felt unusual pain in her knees. After Li Hua learned about it, he did not take his daughter to the hospital, but bought a leg orthosis, but the situation did not improve.
After the pain lasted for nearly a year, Garni's feet swelled, her skin festered, and even pus flowed.
One day in her second year of junior high school, her legs continued to fester until they stuck to her pants. After being contacted by the teacher, Li Huacai sent her to the hospital. But by this time, Garni had been diagnosed with advanced uremia.
Jiani on dialysis in the hospital
During the six months of hospitalization, Li Hua hired a nurse to take care of her, but she rarely appeared. After being discharged from the hospital, Jani found that the house she had been living in had been rented out and she had been placed in one of them, while her mother lived elsewhere with her young daughter.
From this point on, living alone became the norm for Janie.
Three meals were prepared by Li Hua and given to her, and she stayed alone in her room on weekdays and went to the hospital for dialysis three times a week. After living in Wuxi for nearly half a year, Jiani was sent back to Xinhua by her mother. "Maybe she thinks the man hasn't paid for it, so she sent me to her aunt again and wants the man to be responsible." But Jiani knew in her heart that Liu Jie would not be responsible.
In the dialogue, Jiani rarely mentions "dad" and "mom", but uses "man" and "woman" instead.
Janie is preparing for dialysis
Li Hua sent her daughter to the door of Xinhua County Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital, told the taxi driver the location of Aunt Jiani's house, and left. Near her destination, Jani learned on the phone that her aunt did not know of her arrival.
More than a month later, my uncle drove more than a thousand kilometers to send Jiani back to Wuxi. Because Li Hua could not be found, Jiani had to live at the local police station.
It was summer, and she slept in two chairs in the conference room at night, and the meal was solved in the police canteen, and dialysis had to be suspended.
A week later, her stepfather came to the police station to pick her up and return to Xinhua, leaving her alone near the hospital and leaving. Jani had to call the police herself and finally arrived at the aid station.
In this way, Jani drifted between the two places, and was "abandoned" by a few relatives in turn.
In October 2016, under the coordination of the aid station, Jiani's parents reached a mediation agreement: her father Liu Jie gave 2,000 yuan per month for medical expenses, and her mother was responsible for rent and living expenses.
Mediation Agreements
At that time, Jiani was on dialysis at the Xianglong Nursing And Rehabilitation Center. Jiani recalled that the dialysis room was small, with less than ten dialysis machines and "flies flying."
Li Hua rented a room near the rehabilitation center. It was a rectangular basement converted from a garage, about 20 square meters, and the monthly rent was more than 300 yuan.
After renting the house and leaving Jiani with an induction cooker and pot to cook, Li Hua left.
Before becoming an adult, Li Hua gave her daughter 400 yuan per month for living expenses. Janie would sometimes buy a bun at the entrance of the school near the rehabilitation home as a daily ration, or cook some quick-frozen food herself.
Chat history of Jiani and her birth mother Li Hua
There was only a refrigerator and a water heater in the house, and she had to wash her own clothes by hand. Security is also problematic. She once woke up one morning to find that the phone on the table had disappeared and the window in front of the table was wide open.
Today, she can't remember how she stayed in the room and survived the long years of solitude, only that the room was dark and damp, and spiders and cockroaches often crawled by.
Years later, in a chat with Li Hua, she asked her mother why she had left her there. "Chronic killing," she concludes.
After the Spring Festival in 2017, the nurse told Jiani that the medical bills had been owed and could not come back for dialysis. She contacted her father, who said she had no money and asked her to find her mother, who in turn shirked it to her father. "Two people playing leather ball, don't care."
A chat history of Jani and a friend
Janie was left alone in the rental house, "waiting to die" . After half a month of dialysis, she suddenly felt a sharp pain in her heart, and she could only dial 120, and the ambulance took her to the hospital.
Later, the local government paid for Jiani's medical expenses, and her father never gave her a penny.
indict
In April 2019, the internal fistula on Jiani's arm for dialysis was so severe that it could not be treated by the rehabilitation hospital. Jani called her mother, "but she said no." After several twists and turns, she was transferred to Xinhua Jinsui Hospital for treatment.
Day-to-day dialysis, the medical expenses that have no place to live after adulthood, and the ruthlessness of her parents' abandonment, which makes Jiani breathless, and the idea of suing her parents is slowly taking shape in her heart.
In June of that year, Liu Jiani filed a private complaint with the help of legal aid lawyers to sue her parents for "abandonment". She can't remember where she learned of the crime, but she felt that it was very much in line with her situation, "it is sick and lost." 」
The private complaint states that if the circumstances of the "crime of abandonment" are heinous, he shall be sentenced to fixed-term imprisonment of not more than five years, criminal detention or public surveillance. Liu Jiani hopes that her parents can be sentenced for abandonment, which is the "punishment" she can think of for them.
The private complaint concludes, "I implore your court to file and investigate this case in accordance with the law, give the accuser a courage to live, and also play a deterrent effect on irresponsible parents in society."
Two months later, she received a criminal ruling from the court stating, "The private prosecutor did not provide evidence to prove the facts of the defendant's crime, so the prosecution's prosecution, Liu Jiani, lacked incriminating evidence." In the end, the court ruled that it was inadmissible.
Criminal decisions
Liu Jiani did not quite understand how to provide evidence. The scolding encountered in the days of living in Wuxi, living alone in a dark rental house, and the fact that his biological parents were no longer with him after falling ill were all his own experiences, without "evidence".
Later, she heard that because Li Hua transferred living expenses to herself every month, "abandonment" was not established. "Even if she gives 100 yuan a month and hangs on to a life, it is not abandoned." But Jiani repeatedly stressed that the living expenses of 400 yuan per month before adulthood were too small, and eating was a problem. The living expenses of 650 yuan in adulthood are also difficult to cover thousands of yuan of medical expenses.
In August 2020, Li Hua saw the "inadmissible" criminal verdict online, sent a screenshot to her daughter, and said "cow".
After that, Liu Jiani asked her mother for living expenses, and Li Hua would ask her daughter to send voices, photos or videos to herself. Jiani believes that this is all Li Hua deliberately making things difficult for her.
Live alone
In order to survive, Liu Jiani makes money through live game broadcasting, which is the only "job" she can do.
While still in the garage rental house, Jiani met a netizen who was live streaming werewolf killings. When playing games, she is often said to sound good by others, and she tries to open the game live.
She hid her illness and was at ease as a "normal person" in the online world.
Liu Jiani in the game live
In the first month of live broadcasting, she only received 160 yuan. Later, she insisted on live broadcasting for a long time, if she broadcast live for more than ten hours a day, she could earn up to hundreds of yuan, and the most earned a month was 5600 yuan.
After the live broadcast made money, Jiani changed to a shared house, three bedrooms and a living room, 700 yuan a month, but no furniture. She bought an inflatable mattress, went to bed on it after the live broadcast, slept until noon the next day, got up at noon, and went to the hospital for dialysis.
Once, Jiani couldn't help herself and said to Li Hua, "Mom, can you give me some more medical expenses every month, I'm so tired." Li Hua asked her what kind of work she did, and she replied, "Online," and the other person replied, "So what's so tired?"
In the conversation between the mother and daughter, Jiani also hoped that her mother could help her with matching and transferring her hukou to Wuxi, but both were refused.
In March last year, Jiani asked Li Hua for medical expenses, after sending photos, Li Hua also asked for a video, Jiani refused to receive the transfer, and sent several messages to inquire. Li Hua suddenly became angry, "You know how to kill when you have eaten enough and have nothing to do."
Jiani replied, "You've been pushing me for seven years."
Li Hua said, "What does it matter to me that you are sick, I helped you with your illness" "You know that for 7 years, I have not treated you badly." After that, Garni never received any more living expenses.
A chat between Janie and her mother
The relationship between mother and daughter has been good and bad.
In October 2020, Li Hua helped Jiani to get a medical insurance card, and one day two months later, she also sent a message to Jiani: "Ask your father to take you to the kidney source, after the matching, Qian's mother will give seventy percent." Support you with nothing."
Jiani asked her father Liu Jie, who said that he had not made money because of the epidemic. Jiani turned to ask her mother if she could give her a little money, and she went to Changsha herself to match. Li Hua replied: "Then there is no point in matching, your father is not willing to pay for it." Jiani was disappointed: "I thought you were finally going to save me, but I still struggled with whether he paid for it."
Jiani and her father's WeChat chat history
In addition to the deteriorating relationship with her parents, there are also many difficulties waiting for Jiani in life. At the end of August, Jiani's situation was reported by the media, and the landlord learned of her condition and asked her to move out early. She felt aggrieved and helpless, but she also knew that there was no one behind her who could support her.
After the report was issued, it caused heated discussion among netizens. Li Hua saw netizens commenting that she blamed her for not fulfilling her parenting responsibilities and felt angry. In her opinion, she has been raising her daughter, and the living expenses of a few hundred yuan per month plus the rent are enough for her daughter to live, and Jiani's life requirements are too high. And Jani's father is the most irresponsible person, rarely giving Jani money, but her daughter demands more from her.
Late one night in early September, Li Hua sent a lot of messages to Jiani after getting drunk, telling her about the past, thinking that her daughter never knew what she had done over the years. She believes she has never "abandoned" her daughter and came to Xinhua to find Jiani in 2017, but was turned away. Jiani responded because she was afraid that her mother would hit her again.
Her mother told Jani about her grievances
When it comes to when it comes to childhood, the mother and daughter also have different views. Li Hua believes that she scolded Jiani because she was disobedient, for example, Jiani once beat her sister, and Jiani said that her sister painted her legs crooked and was insulting her.
During the chat, Li Hua revealed that he had divorced and now lived alone. The two argued to the end, and Li Hua talked about the bitter past when she gave birth to Jiani: "No one sent me to the hospital for 4 hours of heavy bleeding."
Both mother and daughter softened their hearts and made voice calls for more than an hour. Before this, Jiani had never understood this past, nor had she taken the initiative to say so much to her mother.
Jani apologized to her mother
At this time, Jiani suddenly reacted, "I'm sorry, I blamed you for so many years." You did complete the part of the mediation letter that you were responsible for, and my dad didn't fulfill the part for which he was responsible." When Jiani questioned her father Liu Jie again, the other party still refused to take responsibility on the grounds of insufficient financial ability.
After the relationship between mother and daughter eased for a few days, Li Hua suddenly sent a self-media article, blaming Jiani for not telling the truth, and then blocking her daughter.
A few days later, a netizen sent a private letter to Jiani, saying that she was Li Hua's neighbor and knew that she had been living in Zhuzhou, opened a mahjong hall, and had a house and a car. Jiani felt cheated on her, believing that her mother had the financial ability but did not save her, "and she kept saying that she was in Wuxi", and resentment arose again in her heart.
Janie was on her way to dialysis
A month ago, Jiani got the help of a public welfare person, moved to Changsha for dialysis, and did Changsha medical insurance, "I came to Changsha myself, because I didn't want to stay in that strange place, as if I had been in prison for many years." She doesn't know when she will get better, and recently because she is unwell, she has stopped live broadcasting, "there are still many things that can't be solved."
If there is a future, she said, she hopes to go to a place without winter, forget the misfortunes of the past, and live well.
Photo: Wei Jian | Video: Wei Jian
Editors: Wu Jiaxiang, Ye Zhengxing
Proofreading: Wu Yihe | Typesetting: Li Yongmin
Operation: Han Ningning | Coordinator: Wu Wei
First image source: Tencent Medical Code
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