He was gone, and she never returned

Ling Jun

【I】

The filial piety emperor, the young daughter of the emperor, also, the secret cloud. Empress Cao. The emperor was brilliant, but he regretted that he could not see.

- "Chao Shi XiaoDi Benji"

I realized when I was six years old that I was born blind.

Before that, my food, clothing, shelter and transportation depended on the palace people to take care of it, and I didn't have to do everything myself. Father emperor is also an idle emperor, except for the early dynasty that I had to go to, most of the time stayed in the palace to accompany me for recreation. So whether I can see this matter really doesn't matter to me.

Until a certain Hui palace lady played with a Parrot of the Siamese tribute outside the palace, I heard the laughter and made a fuss about going out to play. Zou Shi, the nurse, is a kind but clumsy woman, and her persuasion will always have a counterproductive effect: "Lord, you can't see, if anyone without a long eye bumps into you, how good can you?" ”

I was in a hurry, and I was anxious to take off the rosa in front of me—blind people usually covered their eyes with rosa, I am, the imperial sister is, and so is the father and emperor. When he was young, he didn't understand it, and he always thought that Rosa was the culprit of a leaf obstacle, and he only needed to take it off to see the light of day again.

The nurse was silent, but exhaled when I reached out to untie the rosa. Countless hands suddenly rushed forward to hold me down, the eunuchs roared angrily, the palace ladies in the court screamed, and then there was the muffled sound of begging for forgiveness, crying, and piercing the body with blades... When my father returned home at night, I was crying so hard that he was holding me tightly and shivering.

Dense footsteps surrounded a man approaching, and the room was silent. I knew in my heart that the person with such prestige and momentum in the current Great Chao Emasculation Party was not the Son of Heaven, but the Great Eunuch Cao Fu.

The Father Emperor put me down, stood up to listen to his admonition, and repeatedly apologized for "Xiao Yun is young and ignorant" and "never dare again". Cao Fu was finally satisfied, and nodded the tip of my nose with interest, and smiled: "Princess, you have to know that these people died because of you today, and willfulness comes at a price." ”

That night I was completely sleepless, and when I reached out, I just touched the soaked rosa in front of my father's eyes—and now I know that this cloth in front of me is not only separated from light and darkness, but also between right and wrong, dignity and humiliation.

After a long time, I carefully asked my father, "Actually, we are not blind at all... Is that right? ”

【II】

Emperor Xiao was the son of Emperor Xiao and Qu Lingjing. Brilliantly enlightened, highly divine, and entering the palace at the age of the general horn, he is famous in Kyoto.

- "Chao Shi Qu Gong Family"

The year after I entered the palace and entered the university was an eventful autumn written by historians.

In that year, Empress Cao xian died, but Emperor Xian was stopped by eunuchs and could not meet his wife for the last time. Later, Emperor Xiandi was so sad and indignant that in the early morning of a warm sunny day, he, who had always been silent, looked up at the dome of the Purple Palace and suddenly said four words: "My room is dim." ”

That's a strange thing to say. The Purple Palace is the main hall of the Imperial Palace, the golden and blue glow, the dome is embedded with a thousand gems, at first glance it looks like a Geng Geng Galaxy, and the night is also full of brilliant halls, not to mention that it is still a scorching sunny day.

Qiankun is upside down, the king is weak and the subject is strong, and the darkness in the mouth of the emperor does not refer to the palace, but to the turbid world.

The courtiers above the main hall quieted down one by two, but the eunuch Cao Fu was still drinking tea calmly and slowly, laughing slowly: "Your Majesty is afraid that he has committed an eye disease, are you not happy to help him go down to rest?" ”

Since then, Emperor Xiandi has been declared blind and forced to be blindfolded in front of his eyes.

Blindness is naturally not inherited, but it is possible in the case of human flesh.

Therefore, the two princesses under the knees of Emperor Xiandi could not escape such bad luck, and the grandeur was full of blind people, how absurd, but those in power pointed out that the deer was a horse, and the world was the only one.

On my way out of school, I would always pass in front of the Second Princess Hall, and the little girl who looked like a powder ball was covered with a veil in front of her eyes, and only after she had no mother, she was lonely and lonely, and she fell a thousand times in the process of toddlers but would not cry. I had helped her a few times, and she would hold my arm and smile happily, generously revealing a newly drilled tiger tooth. It's strange.

On that day, my father urgently summoned his relatives and friends into the house and discussed them until dawn. Now that the eunuchs were in charge of the state, they were especially afraid of the courtiers forming parties, but his father insisted on allying with his fellow Chinese to oppose the eunuchs and support the emperor. The world calls this alliance the Clear Stream.

It is said that the saints are out, the Yellow River is clear, but who has really seen the Haiyan River Qing for thousands of years?

His father's hands were shaking during the meal, and he talked about the helplessness and sorrow of The Emperor Xian, and also talked about the bright eyes of the Emperor Xiandi, who cried in the depths of his heart.

I was slightly shocked, not because of the momentary gaffe of my father, who had always been dignified and modest, but because I did not think that the cowardly and incompetent emperor was worth his life.

Several of my brothers also wept, and my silence caused my father's displeasure. When I expressed my thoughts, my father smashed the dishes and chopsticks, scolded me for reading the sage principles into the lungs of the wolf, and punished me, an unscrupulous descendant who had humiliated the Qu family.

He never liked me, so I just knelt down indifferently, saw my own smiling face in my mother's anguished eyes, and said, "Okay." "Youthful grandeur is more or less like that.

The next day, his father entered the palace to fight with the castration party, and after failing, he crashed and died on the Purple Palace. Qingliu failed miserably, my family members were also implicated, and I was punished and grounded in a remote courtyard to survive. By the time I stepped into the lobby of Qu Mansion again, there were already corpses strewn across the field and full of empty eyes.

After that, His Majesty completely became a puppet of the castration party, and as for Qingliu, who died for the loyalty of the king, he was only posthumously honored with a false title. And I was wandering in many places, and I was too poor to present enough sacrifices every time I was clear, but I don't think my father would care.

"Is it worth it?" I asked the cold name on the tablet.

No one answered me.

【III】

Emperor Xian, Emperor Xiao succeeded to the throne, in the twelfth year. At that time, the hundred officials were attached to the castration party, relying on the imperial family, disobeying the young lord, and attacking on the day of the ascension to the throne, known in history as the change of the Zichen Palace.

On the way to the Purple Palace, the nursing mother took my hand and cried as she walked.

The twelve-year-old new emperor, the monarchy that exists in name only, and the situation of being slaughtered by others, are indeed worth crying when you look at them.

On the day of the enthronement ceremony, the snow crushed the city, and the dragon robe dragged a few feet to the ground, and it was not easy to walk, and it was not easy to reach the front of the main hall, but the nursing lady was stopped by the forbidden army, I could not see, and I was deliberately pushed by others, and I stumbled and fell to the ground.

The cries of the nursing mother gradually disappeared into the boiling laughter, and I was buried in the snow stack, and the cold air was like the diamond of a thousand ants, but it made me turn my heart sideways. As the king of a country, it is better to die standing than to live on your knees.

Just as I was about to untie the rosa in front of me, I reached out and pressed a hand to my wrist. These hands have the same temperature as ice and snow, and when the fingertips inadvertently brush the ends of my hair, they are like a wind wrapped in snow particles, more like a fleeting life-saving straw. The unprovoked sense of familiarity made me jerk back.

He lifted me up after a brief pause, and I was freezing to death, and when I sucked my nose, an indifferent irony sounded in my ears, and it sounded like a teenager: "What are you crying?" He was a little impatient, "You didn't cry like that when you were a child. ”

I was uncertain, and before I could explain, he had led me across the threshold through the aisle where the courtiers were attacking. After I sat down in the dragon chair, Dan Qi finally broke out into a deafening question: "The new emperor is just that, how can the emperor be a small doll?" ”

"Is the Former Emperor blind and blind, or does he look down on our civil and military officials?"

Only then did I understand that the young man who had succeeded me to the throne was the new minister whom my father had appointed for me before his death.

The criticism was higher than a burst, and my fragile eardrums quickly caught the sound of soldiers breaking the door, and it seemed that someone was impatient to attack me. I was so frightened that I grabbed only a piece of the teenager's clothes with my bare hands, but he left my hand without any emotion.

When the turmoil subsided, I was safe.

The roar of the courtiers intensified, and I knew that it was not the castrated party who had just broken into the Purple Palace, but the divine strategy army that obeyed the orders of the chancellor. It was the only forbidden army that his father could control before his death, the regulations were rudimentary, the combat strength was weak, and no one knew how the teenager had arranged this weak brigade of less than a thousand people to the extreme, so that he had today's pre-emptive strike.

When the situation developed to this point, Rao was as calm as Cao Fu could not sit still. He should have laughed furiously, and his originally sharp voice could almost split the air: "Is the Qu family prince going to escort him, or is he rebelling?" ”

But the young man replied, "Hoe rape." ”

The sound of killing suddenly started, and there was constantly blood splashing on the DanQi, and the fashion that poured into my shoes was warm. Cao Fu saw that the situation was not good, and seemed to plan to catch me, but I had already prepared to flash his hand and hug the teenager's arm. Such familiarity has almost become my only destination in a desperate situation.

Thankfully, he didn't leave me this time.

【IV】

When Emperor Xian was seriously ill, he summoned the spirit realm of the son of Duke Qu and gave him the right to fight. Qu Lingjing planned for half a year, divided his troops and deployed, and besieged the Zichen Palace with seven hundred divine strategists, rebelled against his subjects, stepped on the blood road, and protected Emperor Xiao to ascend the throne. The world is clear and the momentum is revived.

Young children are difficult to tame.

These were the words that my father used to rebuke me the most, and now it seems to be very applicable to the new emperor.

Although she is intelligent, she does not like to read and is playful, but I am tight on government affairs and cannot take care of her all the time. Often when I returned, I saw several master masters kneeling trembling and crying under the tree, while His Majesty could not see clearly, but dared to climb several small eunuchs up several feet high, and after catching the insects, they happily held them for me.

My throat tightened and I asked her, "Eunuchs are rampant, state affairs are in danger, and Your Majesty is so indifferent?" ”

She grabbed my sleeve and smiled nonchalantly, "Because there is a minister." After pondering for a moment, she pretended to be solemn again, "I trust you, just as my father trusts Qingliu Qugong." ”

Thinking of the former emperor and my father, I only sneered in my heart and flicked away His Majesty's hand: "Bullshit! ”

Unfortunately, the results have been minimal.

It is not easy for the Qing school to grow again, and it is difficult to mediate with the eunuch party, and I have no time to take care of him. His Majesty is willful and arrogant, and many times it is too late to turn a blind eye, but there are also times when it is intolerable.

That day, in order to report on the emergency military affairs in the border area, I came earlier, she had just gotten up, wearing only her shirt and sitting in front of the mirror, and the nursing lady Zou Shi was grate her head. She couldn't see, so she was sensitive to sound, and when she looked back, her black hair was like an empty mountain hanging rain, and Jiaojing fainted a little shocked: "Qu Xiang is coming." ”

It seemed as if it only took a night of wind and rain, and I finally realized that she was over. It wasn't embarrassing, but it wasn't too polite, so I said, "The minister will first go outside the palace and wait." ”

She stopped me.

Zou closed the door of the temple and left, while I waited silently for her command. She was rarely docile, and asked me softly: "Everyone says that my mother was born beautiful, do I really look like her?" ”

"Yes."

"But I don't believe it." She shook her head, "I just want to... See for yourself, just at a glance. ”

"No." I interrupted in a cold voice, "The minister has warned His Majesty countless times over the years that the change in the Purple Palace was just a fluke of the minister for a while, and could not shake the root of the castration party." Cao Fu still controls the world, not to mention the palace, Luo Sha must not be taken! If Your Majesty insists on doing so regardless of his life, then please, please, the courtier will never hinder His Majesty's death. ”

She bowed her head in silence, the tip of her nose was red, but no tears rolled down for a long time. The repeated urging of the entourage broke the silent stalemate, and I bowed my hand slightly, and without hesitation, I retreated.

For a long time after that, no one came back to complain to me about His Majesty's complaint, saving me a lot of thought. I forgot what day it was, maybe I was worried, maybe I was just surprised, and on the way home, I ghostly sent God around to His Majesty's study. She was very tired and was taking a nap, and her homework articles were neatly stacked under her pen, and her handwriting was as strong as a lone pine. It is hard to imagine a woman with such a convincing perseverance, let alone that she can't see it.

Fingers unconsciously flipped through the pages, vaguely catching a glimpse of the three words I knew best, transcribed a thousand times, each time seemingly hiding a story.

I inexplicably heard a long sigh in my chest, as if I had a disease in my heart.

After the illness, everything is as usual. It was on the fourth day of October, when Zou Shi, the nurse, came to me in a panic and said that she had not seen His Majesty for half a day. When I found her in the Purple Palace, she had stacked her seats to the height of several people, as stubborn as ever. She was still hesitant to reach out, but after hearing my footsteps, she confidently tried her best to approach the thousand gems of the dome, as if she were about to pluck the stars.

Just for a moment, the seat mortise was misplaced, and she leaned back sharply, but she still refused to give up, and finally fell like a cloud like a mist. I subconsciously stepped forward—stepped back, and let her fall in front of me.

A dark red slid down her heels, and she was dazed and in pain, stubborn as a child. She opened her mouth, as if to ask why, but in the end she chose to be silent and buried herself tightly.

I couldn't make out what I felt, but I knew that I would never and shouldn't interfere with this inexplicable emotion, so I stepped out of the palace and forced myself not to turn back.

【5】

When Emperor Xiao came to the court, he paid everything for himself and did not ask about foreign affairs.

Before my death, my father was the only one to serve, and his last words to me were too simple and too heavy: "Believe in the prime minister." ”

At first, I was also uneasy and hesitant, but in that year's change in the Purple Palace, when Qu Lingjing desperately cut off the chaos and fixed the hearts of the people for me, I had an ominous premonition, and the power techniques, knowledge, and vigilance that I had memorized in my heart before seemed to be counted.

The castration party is very powerful, he is very busy to deal with Cao Fu, I rarely have the opportunity to see him, but the Taifu from the Qingliu is fond of mentioning this proud protégé, or maybe it is only because I like to listen, they only do it. So although I couldn't see it, Qu Lingjing had actually lingered in my eyes a thousand times, as if I was more familiar with him than I was familiar with myself.

But gradually, I found that I could not be satisfied with this, not to mention that it was better to hear than to see, I was really curious about whether there would be anyone in the world who was as thick as pine smoke as Taifu said, and whose posture was as tall as a qiong tree. So I have proposed more than once the matter of unraveling the rosa in front of me, but I have been refuted again and again. That time I excused myself and said I wanted to see myself, but I actually just wanted to see him. His patience finally ran out, and he threatened with his life. At that time, I actually felt that it was not a loss to exchange my life for a glance.

But I gave up anyway, and when disappointment had become the norm, I didn't want him to be more discouraged about me.

For a long time after that, I didn't dare to disturb qu lingjing anymore, and instead immersed myself in cultivation. The eunuchs were amazed at my self-motivation and diligence, and only the historian Qi Yan, who was responsible for recording the words and deeds of the king at all times, knew about my gaffe hidden under the scrolls. In the dead of night, he brought me a cup of strong tea, and his voice was thick, as if he was deliberately holding back a smile: "Your Majesty, Qu Xiang's name was written by you in the "Biography of Gu Liang", and Taifu could not see it." ”

I also laughed, strong tea in the mouth, but it is bitter.

On the fourth day of the first month of October, the death anniversary of my father, I sat alone in the Purple Palace for half a day, remembering the sentence "I am dizzy in the room", and the indescribable acid in my chest filled the air. Guoshi once said that after death, the Great Chao would become a star in the galaxy, just like a thousand gems at the top of the Purple Palace. I think my father is among them, and he may be able to tell me what to do in the future.

I disappeared for half a day, and Qu Lingjing did come looking for me, and by then I had climbed very high, and the mortise of the chair had been deliberately dismantled by me, and it was almost natural to fall down. Say that I am tempted, delusional or delusional, when life is too dim to see a glimmer of light, I just want to find a reason to let myself die.

He didn't reach out to catch me after all.

I did trust him, but he saw him as a and didn't need it.

I reached out and hugged myself all night, and when I finally stood up, my legs and feet stiffened, and I fell to the ground several times and struggled to get up, but it didn't matter. Probably I'm used to it.

Later, by chance, when I was passing by the Zi Chen Palace at night, I heard a crisp laugh, and I immediately paused to take a step--it was the voice of the Imperial Sister Folding Iris, who was affected by the lowly status of her birth mother Sheng Ji and originally had no right to enter and leave the Zi Chen Hall.

"A little higher, a little to the left, to the right..." The Imperial Sister suddenly lost her voice and screamed, and then there was a muffled sound of landing, and she seemed to be in great pain, "I hurt you?" Your arm is bleeding a lot! ”

A low but gentle familiar male voice sounded quietly: "No problem." ”

Seeing that I had been stunned for a long time, the nursing mother sighed incessantly: "Originally I wanted to hide from Your Majesty, the marriage between the eldest princess and Qu Xiang was actually decided as early as the previous dynasty, and the feelings were inevitably better..."

I raised my hand to stop her words, because I had long been accustomed to disappointment, not worse this time. What I care about is actually another thing.

This night, the Imperial Sister also played with the heart of picking the Gems of the Purple Palace Dome, and accidentally fell down, saying that Qu Lingjing had shed blood to save her.

The imperial vein, which was also subject to the castration party, was supposed to be tied to her eyes, but the rosa disappeared.

She could see.

I pressed my head in horror, and as if inadvertently, I asked the nursing mother, "Recently, why haven't I heard from my uncle?" ”

【VI】

Emperor Xiao degraded the princess to the Cold Palace, and succumbed to the front, and could not allow it. Emperor opposite.

Folding Iris was inexplicably escorted into the Cold Palace, but it was three days after the urgent report was delivered to the Xiang Mansion, so when I broke into His Majesty's palace, she had been waiting for me for a long time.

"If it weren't for the Imperial Sister as a chip, Qu Xiang probably wouldn't have wanted to see me again." She laughed, "Over the years, I have entrusted all the government to Qu Xiang, who knows that Qu Xiang is really too modest, and he did not even come to tell me about such a great feat as destroying the castration party." ”

I furrowed my brows and groaned, and only after half a moment did I say, "It turns out that there was a disobedient castrated dog that slipped in front of Your Majesty." Let me think...... Is it Cao Fu? Did His Majesty believe in him? ”

The castration party has indeed been eliminated for Qingliu, and Cao Fu has also been taken down by me and sent to Xinzhikuri for hard labor.

"Or else? I don't believe in my uncle, but do I believe in a stranger with a sinister heart? ”

Cao Fu was Empress Cao's brother-in-law, and although he was lustful and domineering, he had never done anything that really hurt His Majesty. Since the eunuchs in ancient times seized power, because the foreign ministers had their own thoughts, the helpless Son of Heaven would entrust everything to the eunuchs who took care of their daily lives and give them a handle. Besides, Cao Fu and His Majesty were already blood relatives, and it was no wonder that she would trust him when she was cornered.

"I trust you like that, but from the very beginning, what you and Qingliu wanted to support was the Imperial Sister, and my uncle and the castration party were the ones who protected me." But you lied to me that the eyes and ears of the castration party are everywhere, and I am afraid of my life if I take off the rosa... Now I realize that it was never the castration party that wanted to deceive me, it was you! Qu Lingjing, are you actually afraid that I will see your face as a traitor? ”

The more she spoke, the more excited she became, and I hurried forward, grabbing her left hand the moment before she took off the rosa out of control, and then slapping her right cheek hard.

After a piercing crackling sound, all the people in the temple knelt down. His Majesty stood frozen in place, leaving only his stubborn shoulders together.

I swept through the palace and warned in a loud voice, "Listen, from today onwards, but whenever Your Majesty thinks of picking the veil again, I will kill one person until it is finished." ”

"Slowly—" Someone interrupted in a loud voice.

Naturally, I sent someone to take her out of the cold palace, but I didn't expect that she would still think of seeing her sister.

"Xiao Yun has been stubborn since he was a child, because of the matter of picking the yarn, even the palace maid cane is killed. The palace people were originally hard, so why should they cause trouble because of her willfulness? Folding Iris smiled and proposed to me.

I wondered, "So?" ”

"So, let her really be blind." Folding Iris bit her lip, and there was awe-inspiring hatred in her eyes--in the past, Sheng Ji was forced to die in the Cold Palace by Empress Cao, and Folding Iris naturally wanted to avenge her mother.

I weighed it for a moment, figured it out, and smiled at her with relief: "Okay." ”

When the crowd in the hall dissipated, I lifted the veil, only to see that Qi Yan was still standing silently behind him, and his face was miserable.

"The Qi family has been cultivating history for the emperor for generations, and it has been prosperous for a long time, and it should understand the principle of moving with the times and adapting to local conditions." Whether or not to remember what happened today, how to remember, I think you have a measure. I warned him.

But he still looked directly at me silently.

I just smiled, patted him on the shoulder, and strode out of the temple door.

【VII】

Qu Xiang worshiped Siam LangZhong as a guest secretary and obtained the secret law. With an elephant bone needle piercing the wind pool of the filial emperor, stopping the pulse, reversing the blood flow, cutting off his eyes, and then embedded it with a false pupil, although it is a dead thing, it seems to be alive.

I don't know how many people watched my torture, just like when I fell in front of the Purple Palace on the year I ascended the throne, and everyone except the nursing lady was laughing. And this time the nurse also laughed, she betrayed me.

The Imperial Sister repeatedly asked Qu Lingjing uneasily, "Is LangZhong from Siam really credible?" Such secret techniques are too strange to imagine, in case they are just cheating money... Just blind the clouds, why bother changing a pair of fake pupils? ”

His voice was as indifferent and determined as ever: "You will soon ascend the throne, and you must cherish the feathers." Blinding your sister's eyes is not good for your reputation, and you should not be an outsider. Well, the next thing you see is blood, you don't look at it, beware of being scared. ”

When the crowd withdrew, like a bone needle pierced into the wind pool hole behind my neck, the severe pain eroded the bone and swallowed the heart, sparing me even if I was hard, I couldn't help but cry. You can't ask for death, you really can't ask for death! Before fainting, I was glad that I didn't have to hear my screams when my eyes were dug out by the blade.

When I woke up, the Rosa was gone in front of me, and I was allowed to be dragged by others to change my clothes and wash, take the jade seal, stamp the Zhu seal, and the Zen edict revealed my incompetence and willfulness, and also wrote the true will of the father and emperor - he originally wanted to pass the throne to the imperial sister.

It turned out that the love of the empress dowager recorded by the former dynasty historian was false, and the woman whom the father loved had always been Sheng Ji, while my mother was forced by the Cao family to give the father's wife in order to fight for power. Maybe it was jealousy, or maybe it was just that her husband's heart was invaded by a kabuki who was drinking wine, and the mother queen killed Sheng Ji with her heart, she had Cao Fu as the backstage, and the father even dared to be angry.

Fortunately, there is a clear stream that swears allegiance to the father and emperor to the death. The father emperor knew that the castration party was strong but there was no successor, and that although the soldiers were weak, there were thousands of sons and grandchildren who came to succeed him, even if he died, as long as there were people after Qingliu, then his wish would always come true.

That's why my father told me to believe in him as much as he could, because Qu Lingjing was the one who helped him realize his wishes.

Qi Yan read the Zen edict for me word by word, choking up several times on the way. And the more I listened, the more I wanted to laugh, the louder I laughed. In the past, someone told me that the castration party was not credible, and then I found that the clear stream was not credible, and the admirers were not credible, and now I realized that I had long been betrayed by my biological father, and the pawns generally lived for nearly seventeen years.

I don't believe in people, and people do their best for me.

After the Zen ceremony, my palace became a veritable cold palace. The Imperial Sister came to see me several times, from the jade handle of the lupine fan to the tip of the needle as thin as a hair, and she repeatedly held it and stabbed me straight into the eye. A blind man naturally does not have any stress reaction, she is relieved at the same time very disappointed, so she gave me those lupine tips to play with, to pass the boring time. Compared to what my mother did to Sheng Ji, I think I should kneel down and give thanks.

To my surprise, the number of times Qu Lingjing came to the Cold Palace gradually became more frequent. In the past, when I was still on the throne, I could not invite him to see me by divine decree, but now he is willing to come with dignity and dignity, nothing more than to see me in a daze, to see my misery, to see what kind of foolishness and credulity I am to achieve his position today.

I didn't want to pay much attention, I always pretended to sleep, and he sat next to me for a long time in silence.

Once I didn't have time to lie down and was hit squarely by him. I was a little embarrassed and didn't know how to open my mouth, but he was calm and self-assured, sat down, pushed a book into my hand, and said concisely: "The Biography of Gu Liang." ”

The book cover was cold, but I felt that my hands were burning, and suddenly swept it to the ground. This book, which I had inadvertently written his name on, can now be used as evidence of his self-amorousness in mocking me. I tried my best to maintain a sneering smile, but he ignored it, crouched down and picked it up, and the clothes rustled with the writing, and it was a very precious look in my ears.

I thought it was ridiculous, and immediately lay down on the concubine's bed and closed my eyes, ignoring him. He put the book on the table again, and after retreating, he seemed to be in a little hurry, and tripped over a small chair when he went out.

I rolled over, opened my eyes in a daze, and looked around, but my room was still faint.

When the long night is endless.

【VIII】

Emperor Xiao was on the throne, bending to the throne, specializing in merit and killing, and could not be approached. As the saying goes, "If there is something good on the top, there will be something bad in the lower", and the Qingliu officials rule the day by day, and the morale is superficial.

After the folded kites took the throne, I monopolized the power, but over time I felt bored. Mortals still do not know how to feed, a mountain looks at a mountain high, and like me, greed is endless.

Therefore, when I was asked if I could get married as soon as possible so that I could enter the palace in the name of the imperial husband, I weighed the Zhu Pen in front of the throne and smiled, and asked without answering: "Instead of letting me become the imperial husband, would Your Majesty's mother be better in the world?" ”

She was shocked by my blatant usurpation of the throne, and the collision of pearls above the imperial crown was like Kunshan jade fragments, which was caused by her excessive excitement and fear.

Because she couldn't have understood in her heart, all the people who supported her succession were Qingliu, and Qingliu was all my people. I want to change the dynasty, and she has no ability to say no.

But she is also very ambitious, secretly bribed and lobbied a lot of Qingliu important ministers, what I have done over the years, there are too many violations of the purpose of the Qing school, there are actually many people who disagree with me, I know.

But this is not a difficult thing, the killing that should be killed, the exile that should be exiled, the exile is.

With the foolproof plan of usurpation of the throne set, I no longer need to look at the court too closely, and Su Rili only talked to my old friends and went out hunting. But maybe the nerves used to be too tight, and it was difficult to have fun, and often I didn't wait for the shallow and low-singing singers to serve the wine, so I poured out of the wine cup and fell into a deep sleep.

Hunting is even more embarrassing. In the past, the six arts won the championship, but now I can't even hold the bow steadily, clearly aiming at the wild geese on the clouds, and the last thing I hunt is a lamb in the grass that has just been weaned. I was annoyed by the ridicule of the others, so I tied the lamb back to the house, and whenever it was tortured by me to the point of choking, I forced Lang Zhong to cure it, and so on, and many of the attendants in the house sobbed in fright, and even said that I was crazy.

It's really summer worms that can't be spoken of. I was just happy to have nowhere to vent, for what I wanted and everything I wanted.

When the crowd finally cleared, I crouched down in front of the lamb and said to myself, "Isn't it very similar to me and like you?" "I'm a little tired, and my voice is low," Your Majesty. ”

It is true that I should not provoke the deposed emperor on the eve of the usurpation, but I always think of the lamb who can't help myself, and I always feel that I should see her again.

She always likes to stand by the window, Ren Yuehua is a body, and this night is no exception. Although I stood far away and could not see her face clearly, I could imagine that her eyes were as clear as ever, and I could only look back at Gu Pan to touch a pool of stars.

It was rare that she didn't pretend to sleep in front of me, and I didn't want to get any closer to break the long-lost peace of the moment. Who knew that she was the first to speak out: "You come over, will you come over some more?" ”

I did what I said, accidentally stumbled on the small chair, and now I am getting more and more confused. By the time I got out of the shackles, she had groped up to me, her trembling fingers brushing down her forehead, and after a long time my jaw was slightly cool, and I realized that she had a face full of tears.

This was the first time I had seen her cry, not when Emperor Xian died, not when she was betrayed, even if she cried and screamed when she was dug into the pupil of the Thorn Wind Pool, her cheeks were always dry.

Maybe someone relayed the news that I was about to usurp the throne, or maybe she was as wise as she had expected to be today. The Folding Iris will not stop, and the Tomorrow Palace change is just a death battle. And my chances of winning are too great, after the change of dynasty, how can I tolerate the former imperial lineage? Besides, she was still an embarrassing deposed emperor.

But I was wrong, death was still not enough to frighten her. It was her trembling cry that betrayed the real reason for her tears, but she smiled as she wished: "Qu Lingjing, I finally know what you look like." ”

I also laughed, "Oh, what's that?" ”

She opened her mouth slowly, just as I saw her intently reciting poetry books countless times when I passed by the study: "The eyebrows are thick with ink like pine smoke, and the posture is as high as a qiong tree." ”

【IX】

Since the ancestors were ordered to revise the history of the country, the descendants of the Qi family have not dared to be loyal to their sincerity in order to repay The Grace of His Majesty's knowledge. Yu Chen, in the position of Taishi, was not afraid of death and life, did not dare to be selfish, and vowed to take his life as a pen, and made pragmatic and loyal words to warn future generations.

- "Chao Shi Qi Taishi Self-Introduction"

On the sixth day of the first month of June, the usurpation of the throne by the Spirit Realm was on that day, and he also died on that day.

The Qingliu forces he controlled were absolutely superior, and the eldest princess, The First Princess, was only stubborn and stubborn, and was soon defeated. Victory or defeat was imminent, but before everyone could breathe a sigh of relief, the eunuchs who were serving on the side and only promised to keep their promises drew their swords and stabbed at the panicked Qingliu courtiers.

In the end, the chaos prompted a fire to ignite, burning the entire Purple Palace.

A farcical usurpation of the throne, the death of two supreme people, and the complete destruction of the party led to a clear and clear situation. In the meantime, cause and effect have become an eternal mystery.

For the Qi family who repaired history, this generation is also me, Qi Yan, it is really a big trouble.

But speculation is always just speculation, and the only thing that can confirm the truth with me in the end is His Majesty Xiaoyun, who has returned to the throne.

She accepted my request. When I stepped into the temple, I saw her sitting in front of a half-closed window drinking water and making tea. The shimmer of the lake waves, the current of the photo, cut her elegant and precise gestures very clearly. My eyelids jumped: "Your Majesty, your eyes..."

She explained lightly: "My imperial sister has always been a far-sighted person, but that year she guessed one thing correctly, Siamese Lang really had a false name and cheated money, and there is no false pupil secret technique in this world." I used to see it, and naturally I saw it later. ”

I still can't believe it, because When Her Majesty was deposed, the eldest princess had tested her whether she was really blind with all kinds of sharp things, and she never showed a flaw. Now His Majesty seemed to see my doubts, and suddenly shoved the tiny teaspoon into my hand, then tightened my wrist and stabbed straight into her eye!

The teaspoon stopped less than an inch from her eyelashes. My hands trembled with fear, and her eyelids did not move at all, and her tone did not fluctuate: "They want to blind my eyes, so I will count the blind people, also in order to cultivate obscurity in the cold palace." Just by practicing this kung fu, I practiced one hundred and thirty-two embroidery needles. ”

I was shocked, and this also explained how much effort it took her to gather the remnants of the castration party that was no longer in a grand situation after she was deposed, and arrange to disperse the Qingliu forces and fight to the death for the last sandpiper.

This is indeed a beginning and end that can be written into the history books and convinces the people of the world.

But I paid attention to the strangeness—His Majesty avoided talking about that man from beginning to end.

In addition to recording His Majesty's words and deeds, I was in fact occasionally responsible for the Prime Minister. So I couldn't help but wonder what I had been wondering for a long time: "Has Your Majesty ever thought that if you... Are you really born blind? ”

She furrowed her brows slightly: "What does Qi Qing mean by this?" ”

I took a deep breath, because I had to support my next words: "You also know that Emperor Xiandi loves Sheng Ji deeply and has a bad relationship with Empress Cao, but Empress Cao has always been quiet and cautious, what kind of hatred will make her prefer to bear the notoriety and kill the killer to get rid of her husband's concubine?" That's because Sheng Ji had been poisoned in the diet of the pregnant Empress Cao! Later, Empress Cao learned the truth and forced her to die in the Cold Palace. ”

"But fortunately, you survived tenaciously, but... Born blind. Emperor Xian endured his hatred until Empress Cao died, and then took you to raise you on his knees. But Cao Fu is not at ease, so he keeps staring, in fact, it is to protect you thoroughly. ”

As for why Cao Fu had such loyalty to his sister-in-law, I had also heard some gossip from the old people of Cao Fu, but I did not want to investigate deeply. After all, this dark deep palace, who has no helplessness? Who doesn't have some heart that would rather rot in the bottom of their hearts than be able to say?

Later, although Emperor Xian died, his heart did not die. He knew that Qu Zhongying, the head of qingliu, was foolish and loyal, so he thought that the son of the Qu family must also have this demeanor. Unfortunately, Emperor Xian bet on the wrong treasure, because that person was Qu Lingjing. ”

Hearing the name, Her Majesty interrupted with a loud voice, and she was still laughing, but I could already see the precursor that she could not hold on.

But I have to say.

"Qu Lingjing was born anti-bone, and has always been Qu Zhongying's heart disease and shame. He never gave this young son any care and upbringing, but before he died, he put the burden of Qingliu on the shoulders of the other party, and only used him as a pawn. The Koqu Spirit Realm believes in the path of the turbid world, a path that is mediocre and has many people, but no companions. But he met His Majesty, a man of the same sickness who, like him, was oppressed by the patriarchal power and had to walk in chains all his life. The world is indeed dark, and he knows that two people cannot get out of the darkness at the same time, so he chooses to leave the light to you. ”

His Majesty finally couldn't hold back, stood up and shouted, "Shut up! ”

I know that my ancestors were all obedient to the emperor, and only then did I have the glory of the Qi family today. I have long been ready to go back to the patriarchs to confess my sins, because I resisted, I did not stop speaking, I want to say.

"Qu Lingjing was suspicious and self-disciplined, and he never lost even his steps. Why doesn't Your Majesty think about why he stumbles on tables and chairs every time he leaves your palace? ”

"Because he invited Siam LangZhong and exchanged his eyes for you!" Later, it was not His Majesty who wore the false pupil, but him. He was clearly invisible, but he was still familiar with every detail around His Majesty, if it were not for my deliberate movement of the table and chair every time, he would have been dripping, and Wei Chen would never have found the mystery. ”

Her Majesty slumped against the edge of the window, slowly slid down, and only halfway through did she raise her head, and there was no light in her eyes: "All this, to put it bluntly, is just your guess." She smiled bitterly and shook her head, "It's a pity that I no longer believe in anyone or anything, including every word you say today." ”

I bowed respectfully, "Yes, the fire burned everything, and all this is the speculation of the minister." The truth lies only in the heart of His Majesty. ”

Before I was about to leave the temple, she suddenly stopped me, pointed to a book at the top of the bookshelf, and begged me to take it off for her. It was actually a copy of the "Biography of Gu Liang" that I had seen before, and I still remember His Majesty's foolish writing of the three words "Qu Lingjing" on the title page, and everything was like yesterday.

"You show me if he also wrote my name in it?" She paused and said, "If not, don't tell me, please burn this book too." ”

Not really.

She faded in my silence, and for a long time she smiled and shook her head, and I withdrew.

【10】

Emperor Xiaoyun, thirty-two years of the Lin Dynasty, Yan'an in the sea, and Kangfu in the people. He died of illness in the autumn of thirty-three years and was buried in Jingling.

- Chronology of the Chaoshi Emperor Xiaodi

Tianzi's funeral ushered in the long-lost guest Qing, which was performed by the former Taishi Gonggong in the early years. He was hanging down from old age, and when he touched His Majesty's coffin, he couldn't help but sigh: "Your Majesty, the subject has come to fulfill the contract." ”

The "Biography of Gu Liang" that Xiao Yun gave him had actually been carefully treasured for him, and it was only now that he asked someone to cage the brazier and burn the book in order to burn it for her.

There was indeed no name for her, but there was a line of handwriting related to her that flew high, and the wind and bone jumped on the paper, and then quickly fell into flames, and no one knew.

- Qu Lingjing confessed his sins here, and there will never be a time to see each other again. The beauty of the country and the mountains are very beautiful, the world is clear, and Your Majesty is full of views, and the prayers are longed for.

The old man hunched over his back and staggered out of the spiritual hall by the man. The joys and sorrows of a generation have come to an end, and the writers of history can never finish the dusty truth and feelings.

He was gone, and she never returned.