The Prince of Chess: Disabled for a year, the pain of the cone heart, thanks to the sunshine of chess, it is good to have chess

The bird outside the window flew by, it was so free, and you could only cry blood and song in this cage.

2021 is so unforgettable, the pain of the cone, I don't want to have a second time in my life.

On January 23, the car hit the high-speed guardrail, the debris overflowed, scrapped on the spot, the whole person was unconscious, bleeding non-stop, and the pain was huge.

The first time was issued a critical illness notice, dear patients and families: Hello, your family Duan Pengcheng is now hospitalized in the Second Department of Orthopedics of our hospital, the current condition: serious illness, the condition may further deteriorate at any time, please understand and actively cooperate with the hospital's rescue treatment.

I don't know how my family felt when they received this notification, but I only know that the clothes on my body were cut off one by one in the confusion, and the first (1) operation (micro): traction.

The left leg was hung up and thrown into the air, the kind of pain that went into the bone, the anesthetics were ineffective, the doctor said, "Your life force is very tenacious, almost think you can't do it, fortunately, the brain and lungs these organs are all right."

On the 28th, debridement surgery (micro), the left leg knee knocked off a piece of flesh, need to remove a large area of dead tissue, stop the infection; on the 30th, the filter surgery (micro), blocking the flow of blood clots, opening a hole from the neck, scary.

On February 1, the operation was officially carried out, the original estimated three or four hours, after the lunch set by the main knife, it was just ready to leave work, due to the complexity of the injury, it took more than seven hours, from one o'clock in the afternoon to more than eight o'clock in the evening, it was all dark, and the family waiting outside the operating room could not sit still.

Left femur medial, lateral condyle, intercondylar comminuted fractures, distal fractures, open fractures of the knee, patellar dislocation, patellar ligament rupture, anterior and posterior cruciate ligament rupture, meniscal injury, quadriceps tendon rupture.

Eleven injuries, each one of which is a season-reimbursed injury.

In the first month after the operation, lying in bed could not do anything, every night, the pain was unbearable, there was a feeling that as long as it moved, the bones would break, where to touch, where the pain.

In the second month after the operation, the leg did not get any better, the hand injury was healed, and slowly you can write something, that is, you can't sit up and write one article a month.

In the third month after the operation, with both crutches and his left leg dangling, it takes a lot of courage to walk from this bed in the hospital to another bed, a short few meters.

In the fourth month after the operation, being able to sit up, use the computer desk in the hospital bed, broadcast and report the game to everyone, this is a new beginning, the element of chess has been reintroduced in life, and some happy times have returned.

In the fifth month after surgery, walking on the ground on elderly crutches, occasionally standing on one leg for a few seconds, and being able to travel independently between the bed and the treatment center, although it is very slow and difficult, but this is a change.

In the sixth month after the operation, I tried not to crutch, dragged slowly, and actually succeeded, the most basic function of this normal person, it is so difficult, but it is not a qualitative change.

In the seventh month after the operation, it was identified as disabled, the knee joint function was completely lost, the bending function was almost zero, the straightening function was 20 degrees poor, the leg was stiff, the leg was cemented, and it could only be operated again, and the release surgery could not be avoided.

In the eighth, ninth, tenth, eleventh months after surgery, the leg bones are close to normal bone quality, and other injuries are slowly getting better, 50% of normal people walking independently, 10% of going up and down stairs, running, 0, there is no such option.

2021 is almost over, my wish has not been fulfilled, I once fantasized about a hundred days of broken bones, a hundred days can be good, now it seems, five times better than a hundred days, it is also possible, and I will continue to do surgery soon.

I once hoped to walk in the chess field in the second half of the year and share the joy of chess with chess friends, many good friends and chess organizers sent invitations to me, but unfortunately let everyone down, the door did not have a chance to come out.

Fortunately, the eldest son and the second child followed the grandparents in the rural hometown is very good, the grandfather takes good care of them, the grandmother treats them as a treasure, the third child is fine after the operation, the daughter-in-law takes him, and he is already 1 year old.

Grandma's body has always been very healthy, and when her brother and sister-in-law brought their nephews, they also carried Shi Xiaoxiao. Shi Xin went out to play, his father-in-law and brother-in-law came to Changsha to do things, his mother-in-law raised a lot of chickens and ducks at home, relatives and friends were doing well, everything was fine.

This year, the state of mind has undergone great changes, but also a lot older, the beginning of the car accident is completely unacceptable, unbearable pain, and later under the encouragement of everyone, slowly recover from the injury at the same time, and now strive to adapt to the new life with a crippled self.

Winter is thick pants, standing can not achieve, I sit on the bed legs slowly pulled in, legs can not bend, eat the high computer chair to the living room, legs stretched to very long, straight to eat, as for walking, sitting in the car, up and down the stairs, these have developed a fixed habit.

I don't know whether it's good or bad, I feel that my heart is about to wear out, and every day I recover, I also feel numb in pain, and it seems that there is nothing wrong with living with my own mutilation.

But thinking of those faint sorrows, those inconveniences in life, those who encouraged me, and thinking of a few children who have not yet grown up, I am still determined to recover and work hard.

There are two things in life, chess + rehabilitation, which have lost all time outside of these two things, no entertainment, no communication, no leisure, no thoughts, nothing.

Some are just endless leg presses, leg bends, strength exercises, stretching, watching the painful recovery that is useless but still has to be done.

Lay the foundation for the second operation after the Spring Festival, take two steel plates and six steel nails inside, and do a knee release surgery.

Open the knees, use a surgical metal knife to force the cemented tissue inside apart, and then endure severe pain after separation.

It would hurt, more than the first surgery, stiff limbs vs. living limbs, like cutting off a piece of flesh and throwing out a big hole, but there was no other way.

The only happy thing in 2021 is that the injury is the leg, although the hand has also suffered a big bruise, the typing is not as flexible as before, but it can still stick to the favorite chess.

When I was injured this year, I lay on the hospital bed and played a lot of chess, playing chess is the happiest moment of the day, after I was able to get up in May, I first broadcast the elephant armor live in the hospital, and then I live-streamed and reported a lot of games, and the days with the chess friends were the happiest time.

Thanks to the magic given by chess, from more than ten years ago, he was a fledgling young man, and he had endless strength in chess, and at the highest time, he broadcast dozens of chess games live every day and wrote dozens of manuscripts.

Now immediately thirty-six years old, Ben Four, although the physical strength and energy have not been as good as before, but in chess, it can still evoke a powerful force, this power is supported, after more than ten hours of live broadcast + rehabilitation for a few hours, you can also write three or four thousand words of manuscripts.

Spirit, faith, perseverance, admiration and love, thank you for the magic given by chess, bathe in the sunshine of chess, no matter how hard the days, you can continue as always.

I don't know what the future will be, I can't judge whether I will be disabled for a lifetime, sometimes my heart is trembling, firm and skeptical, smiling and sad, but no matter what it becomes in the future, chess friends will always be my most precious good friends, and my heart to insist on chess reporting will never change.

(The Prince of Chess)