This is the love that Capricorns want

"You say that gradually letting go of love will go further"

I know exactly what kind of feelings I need, but sometimes, I don't know if that's the love I want.

I'm not cold-blooded, I'm not realistic, I'm not a lover, I just know too well that feelings are uncontrollable and it will make my life completely out of control.

I'm always pretending to be strong and don't care, I'm afraid of your departure and denial, so I'm always figuring out in my heart how to keep you, but I can't say it, I really don't know how to make you understand my feelings, I'm afraid of that feeling of being suspended, I'm also too afraid of getting hurt, so I don't dare to take risks, I don't dare to be impulsive, I always try my best to minimize the loss and don't want to waste each other's time.

I know that you think I'm cold, you think I'm stubborn, and I don't bother to explain, because I know that no one will feel my pain if you show your wounds to others.

The love I want is not a vigorous entanglement, but a down-to-earth real life, a little bit of memories that two people have experienced together.

I am not afraid of living a hard life, I like to work hard for the life I want, and I often even fantasize about sharing happiness and suffering with one person, because for me, people who can endure the nature and fight with me against this world can grind out similar souls.

So I'm not materialistic, I just want to see the hope of the future of two people, I have the ability to earn bread for two people, but what I want is in your heart, the future is the two of us.

I hope that the two of us can have the same life goals, love and yearn to live in the same city, have the same values, the same courage, willing to create a life that belongs to two people, and be willing to overcome all difficulties, rather than just talking. The sweet words were too nice to hear, but they couldn't be grasped, and I only believed my eyes.

I also hope you can be patient, understand my temper, and give me some time. I am very slow and hot, and always very defensive, I can trust a person is not easy, can only rely on bit by bit accumulation to understand each other, for me to put a person into the heart is a very serious and solemn thing, so I will never easily say any commitment.

I know that sometimes I can make people very impatient and confused, and my clumsiness and stubbornness often anger you. But I just hope I can grasp the relationship well and not mess up the feelings between two people because of a momentary impulse. I actually have a lot of low self-esteem, but I am often misunderstood.

All I want is someone who can see through the fragile heart under my mask, someone who can favor me and tolerate my small emotions.

So please put your heart down and give each other more time, I'm not indifferent, I'm just convincing myself.