"And let me die first, and die without Ning Ru before me... Gai said that if Ru is weak, I will not be able to forbid the loss of my sorrow, I will die first and leave suffering and Ru, and my heart will not bear it, so I would rather ask Ru to die first, and I will bear sorrow. ”
The love of each other is always touching. Two people who are not related by blood meet in the vast sea of people, meet, and then enter into marriage, everything needs just the right fate and just the right love.
When a person falls in love with another person, then he has an extra layer of bondage with the world. No one can escape this kind of bondage, it is the attachment to the lover, the attachment to life. From green silk to white hair, it is a lifelong relationship, and it is also what many people yearn for.
In the face of feelings, great people will also become ordinary people, when life is about to end, why put out the shelf of great people? The greatness at this time is superfluous, and in the last days, everyone is left with only attachment to the world and attachment to feelings.
Xu Guangping's lover, Lu Xun's last day, completely abandoned the aura of a great man. Xu Guangping recorded this day truthfully and emotionally, she said: Greatness is superfluous, and said that she did not deserve to admire her...
Xu Guangping and Lu Xun are not worldly to accept the teacher-student relationship
As the premier literary figure in Modern Chinese History, Lu Xun pins on current events and satirizes the image of ancient and modern times engraved in the minds of every Chinese. As a Chinese, you may not have read Journey to the West but must have read Lu Xun's articles.
Lu Xun, who "crossed his eyebrows and cold fingers to a thousand husbands, and bowed his head to be a widow and a cow", can be described as the direction of the new culture of the Chinese nation, and a great writer with influence in modern China that is difficult for others to reach.
Such a rock-solid person was melted by Xu Guangping with gentleness. Xu Guangping described the process of two people falling in love like this: The breeding of love is silently mixed and unconscious. It seems that the love between two people is touching, and it seems to be a long stream of water.
Lu Xun and Xu Guangping met in school, and this relationship is also a teacher-student relationship that is not accepted by the world, a process of mutual attraction between spirit and personality, and a process of courage to resist secular feudalism.
At that time, Lu Xun happened to be a contemporary class teacher at the Beijing Girls' Normal School, and this knowledgeable and humorous teacher was unanimously welcomed by his classmates, and Xu Guangping was also one of them. Xu Guangping is a progressive youth who has been baptized by new ideas and is not limited to men and women. She boldly took the initiative to write a letter to Lu Xun, hoping to visit him with her classmates, and the two began to have a deep understanding.
The frequent correspondence between the two allows love to grow quietly, and in the thick letters is the exchange of hearts and the ecstasy of finding a confidant, and it is the consolation of finding people with common revolutionary ideals in the sea of people.
Such love was not accepted by the world at that time, and the age gap and the identity of students and teachers became tools for the old-timers to attack Lu Xun. As the pioneer of the revolution at that time, Lu Xun inevitably became the target of attack, and he had long been accustomed to the accusations of others. But Xu Guangping is just an ordinary student, will she retreat?
In the face of worldly irony and opposition, Xu Guangping was not afraid, she showed an admirable detachment, and very indifferently ignored these gossip. She even wrote articles in response to these unreasonable remarks, saying that she was going to run in the direction of love with all her heart, so none of this could hinder her. This teacher-student relationship, which is not optimistic about the world, has gradually stabilized in the firm choice of the two.
A detached marital relationship between mentors and friends
Xu Guangping once said that in the marriage relationship between himself and Lu Xun, he is both husband and wife and teacher and student, and it is a relationship of teacher and friend. It is precisely because of Xu Guangping's absolute admiration and trust in Lu Xun that this marriage is more solid.
Many people may wonder whether Lu Xun loves Xu Guangping as much as Xu Guangping loves him. Xu Guangping also once laughed and always felt that Lu Xun was still his teacher, and Lu Xun only spoiled Xu Guangping and said that Xu Guangping was a stupid child after listening to it. It can be seen that Lu Xun also likes Xu Guangping very much.
This marriage, which was not favored by the world, did go through two major tests, the first being the separation of the two places.
Before marriage, the two had been separated for a period of time in a long-distance relationship. Long-distance love is indeed the most emotional test, but Xu Guangping and Lu Xun did not doubt each other because of geographical restrictions. Maintaining normal communication and focusing on their careers allowed the two to survive the test smoothly.
The happy life after marriage did not last long, Lu Xun used the pen as a gun, which naturally made Rikou dissatisfied, and Lu Xun could only take Xu Guangping to avoid assassination in the war.
The hard life of fleeing did not make Xu Guangping retreat, on the contrary, she was very supportive of her husband's career and became Lu Xun's assistant, checking literature, looking for information, helping Lu Xun review manuscripts, and recording Lu Xun's conversations with friends... Yanran is an excellent private editor. It was with the help of Xu Guangping that Lu Xun remained prolific during his escape and wrote many good articles that struck directly at the heart.
Xu Guangping is not only Lu Xun's assistant at work, but also keeps himself and Lu Xun's home in an orderly manner in life. When Lu Xun wrote articles, she forgot to eat and sleep, and she played a role of supervising Lu Xun's regular work and rest, taking care of Lu Xun's body.
Xu Guangping is also a person who has experienced a hard life, so he is also very frugal, basically not wasting every penny lu Xun earns. Of course, giving in a relationship is mutual, and the two also have their own romance. On a summer night, the two will also cool down to drink tea, or take a walk in the evening breeze to experience a short moment of leisure together.
Xu Guangping wrote Lu Xun's last day
Due to the age gap, Lu Xun eventually passed away Xu Guangping. This day is an endless darkness for Xu Guangping, a sorrow that cannot be dissolved, and a suffocation of layers of sadness pressing on the mouth of her heart, so she took up a pen and wrote "The Last Day" to store this sadness, but also to express her thoughts on her husband.
It is also this article that allows us to see a Lu Xun who still adheres to his beliefs even on the last day of his life, which is really admirable.
Lu Xun once said during his illness: "Are you going to attack me when I am sick?" it doesn't matter! I still have a dagger next to me, throw it at the enemy. ”
Even Lu Xun, who was ill, already had tenacious vitality, and his spirit never relaxed. Even at the most difficult juncture, Lu Xun still adhered to his revolutionary ideals and firm convictions.
On the last day of his life, Lu Xun seemed to have lived as if he had not had the same life as usual. On this day, he still looked at the morning newspaper, asked Xu Guangping what major events had happened, asked what was the matter, and cared about the writing of the younger generations.
Lu Xun did not pay much attention to the articles he published, but paid more attention to the writings of his descendants. Xu Guangping was distressed and admired, and when he recalled, he only felt sad that he was not worthy of admiring him. Xu Guangping is also because of Lu Xun's detachment and purity that he will fall deeply in love with Lu Xun.
As his condition worsened, Xu Guangping was informed after dinner that Lu Xun was dying. That night, Lu Xun had been holding Xu Guangping's hand, but Xu Guangping did not even dare to shake it back because of reluctance and pain.
In the last period of time, Lu Xun shed the aura of greatness, he was an ordinary person who longed to live, he was attached to this world, and he was reluctant to Xu Guangping. He irritably pushed aside the quilt and repeatedly held Xu Guangping's hand, his uneasiness and impatience were all longing for life, but this great man could only look at the passage of life powerlessly like ordinary people, and closed his eyes permanently in reluctance.
brief summary
Xu Guangping is affectionate because of Lu Xun's detachment, Lu Xun insists on Xu Guangping's understanding, and the feelings of the two still flourish under the prejudice of the world.
Lu Xun still insisted on his belief on the last day of his life, and this firmness made Xu Guangping admire him from the bottom of his heart, and it was precisely because Lu Xun was such a person that Xu Guangping would fall deeply in love with him.
Although Lu Xun was a great man, the great man was not inhuman. In the face of love, there is still a spoiled side, the guidance and care of Xu Guangping are full of love; there is also a powerless side in the face of death, when everything is about to die, how great is superfluous, but it is just a title of nothingness.