See your first love again in 20 years

Time flies so fast, 20 years have passed in a blink of an eye. Today, when I went to work, the leader asked me to go to the office to tell him that the unit had an urgent matter and needed to accompany him to city A for a business trip, because of the nature of the unit, such a business trip was commonplace. But as soon as I heard that it was A City, my mood was extremely tense and complicated. I was nervous because it was a sad place, a place I hadn't been to in 20 years, and I wanted to forget and couldn't forget. The complexity is because his former first love, Xiao Rong, still lives in that city.

20 years ago, Xiao Rong and I were classmates in college, and since the first day of school, they have seen each other and have a good feeling for each other. From freshman year to senior year, we helped each other in our studies, encouraged each other, and achieved excellent results. Xiao Rong has been living in this city since she was a child, is the only girl in the family, her father is the factory director, her mother is a teacher, and the family conditions are very superior. I came here to study in a different place, and I came from the countryside, and I felt very inferior in my heart, knowing that I liked each other, but I did not dare to confess.

In my senior year, I was about to graduate. The students all went to the internship, and put resumes everywhere, everyone wanted to find a job in the city, only I was sullen and unhappy for a day, I didn't vote for a resume, I soaked in the library every day, and used learning to alleviate the pain in my heart. Because I come from Dashan Village, and my family is an only son, when I first went to school, my old father tearfully advised that after graduating from college, I must return to my hometown to work and send my parents to the end of their lives. Xiao Rong did not look for a job, because his father had already arranged a job for him at their factory. Xiao Rong likes to read books and soaks in the library every day. Watching the students sign employment agreements one by one, either state-owned enterprises or large consortiums, my heart was also itchy and very sad. Seeing that more than a week is about to graduate, I feel that Xiao Rong is getting more and more irritable every day, and she also sees my thoughts. One day she asked me to go to the school park to change the road, told me to cherish each other's fate, hope that I can stay in city A to work, her father agreed to help me find a job.

I promised her at the time, but in fact, I was very conflicted in my heart, on the one hand, my elderly parents were waiting for me to go back to take care of her, and on the other hand, the lovers in my heart wanted me to stay. Under the choice of two difficulties, I finally left Xiao Rong when I graduated and returned to the small mountain village where I was born and raised, and since then she has been very angry and cut off contact with me.

This year, through the addition of her WeChat through the classmate group, each other is still endlessly lost and remorseful. On this business trip, I contacted her and sat down in the café, which made me very distressed, and she was so beautiful that she was also tortured by the years and scarred everywhere. Her father died of illness, her mother retired at home, she was laid off from work, divorced her husband, and took her daughter alone. We talked for a long time, talked about the past, told each other, take care of your body. I'm very sad that if we were together, we might be able to live a happier life. After graduating from college, I returned to my hometown to take the township civil service examination, and through my own efforts, I was transferred to the city step by step to work. But family life is also unfortunate, and the marriages initiated by the parents were separated last year because they could not stand each other.

Now that we think about it, the fate is in our own hands, we must fight for the fate, cherish the fate, cherish the opportunity, and live out of ourselves, in order to create the future, otherwise we will hurt each other and regret for life.