Photo of Huang Zongying
Some people say: "She is the screen goddess in the hearts of a generation, a beautiful and moving sweet sister, and a female writer with wonderful pens and flowers."
In this way, she should be a "talented woman", but the word "talented woman" is used on her, but it seems a little shallow.
Li Hui once said of her: "A person who is always curious about knowledge. ”
She is a dazzling flower, but there is a weed in her heart, and hidden under the dazzling appearance is her inexhaustible soul.
She went through four marriages, but they were all sending farewells.
She pursues immortal love, but laments that she has only married the right person in this life.
She is Huang Zongying, Huang Zongying who has walked through her life but has not faded in the slightest.
Huang Zongying in his youth
In 1925, Huang Zongying was born in Beijing, and her parents and several older brothers were very fond of her, and at home, they always called her little sister.
At the age of 9, Huang Zongying's father died of illness. After losing the only pillar in the family, the life of the Huang family became much more difficult, and Huang Zongying made plans to drop out of school.
In the days at home, in addition to helping his mother take care of housework, Huang Zongying was also fascinated by drama.
With the support of his brother, Huang Zongying entered a local drama club.
What she didn't know was that from this moment on, her life was tied to drama.
Here, Huang Zongying starred in her first drama in her life, "Sweet Sister".
As a newcomer, her good performance has been welcomed by many audiences.
If you want to see more scenery, you have to go farther away.
"Let's go a little farther." She thought.
Photo of Huang Zongying in his youth
In 1941, at the age of 16, Huang Zongying went to Shanghai alone to join his eldest brother Huang Zongjiang and joined the Shanghai Professional Theater Troupe.
At first, Huang Zongying just did some miscellaneous work in the troupe, and her daily life was the same, and she was more envious of the actors who could stand on the stage and sparkle than in the backstage.
Little stars also aspire to become the moon.
Therefore, she began to think about acting skills, began to practice diligently, and seized the opportunity to ask the actors around her who were good at talking.
A person's life is a river, and the waves that rush to the reef are a different kind of beauty.
This wave in Huang Zongying's life was finally stirred up.
By chance, Huang Zongying was invited to play the role of his aunt in Cao Yu's drama "Metamorphosis".
From the small stage to the big stage, she was nervous and moved.
The performance was a success, and when the curtain came down, Huang Zongying's eyes were full of tears, and she remembered the days in the background, remembered the dream, the dream that became the moon.
At this moment, standing on the stage, she clearly carries the light of the moon.
Photo of Huang Zongying when he was young
The success of "Metamorphosis" gave Huang Zongying a gradual rise to fame, and soon after, she signed a contract with the film company.
If "Sweet Sister" is the brick that Huang Zongying knocked on the door, then "Metamorphosis" is the key that helped her enter the door.
Throughout her artistic career, she has always been humble and diligent.
The beauty of the rose is flamboyant, it is warm, and in the countless days and nights when the buds are waiting to bloom, it is the sonorous courage that has gilded this beauty.
"Chase", "Happiness Rhapsody", "Chicken Chirping Early to See the Sky"... Huang Zongying uses his body to interpret a variety of life.
Cao Kefan once said: "I prefer to use the word 'idiot' to describe Mr. Huang Zongying." ”
Yeah, she's obsessed with drama, obsessed with art.
Art is a quiet night, stained with the loneliness of its corners, and then embodied as a primitive expression of emotion. Huang Zongying sank in such a night.
In the play, she is always a non-dazzling light, she is gentle, but under the gentleness, her heat is hidden.
"I love theater because in performance I can see the purest things in human nature." Huang Zongying said.
But when her pure encounter with love, it always seems to be unsatisfactory.
In 1941, after starring in "Sweet Sister", Huang Zongying met Guo Yuantong, who was working as a music conductor in the drama club by chance.
He was handsome, funny and humorous, and his talent was difficult to hide, and he was talented and feminine, and soon they came together.
After a year together, Huang Zongying and Guo Yuantong entered the marriage hall.
But this love, which was too quick, died prematurely before it could be practiced.
On the 18th day after the wedding, Guo Yuantong died of a sudden heart attack without warning. In an instant, Huang Zongying's world collapsed.
She had just sketched the outline of a beautiful love, but she was shattered by reality.
It was her first love, her unreserved love, her love without any impurities.
She was in excruciating pain, as if she had been pulled out of her soul by something.
There are always some things in the world that passively become the medium to memory, and in order to avoid touching the scene, Huang Zongying left the drama club.
Cheng Shuyao photo
"When you fall in love with someone, you become very low, very low, down to the dust."
Cheng Shuyao was like this.
From the moment he met Huang Zongying, he was bent on inviting her to join his troupe.
He is like a big brother character, he admires Huang Zongying's artistic achievements, but he is more distressed by such a pitiable girl.
Cheng Shuyao was determined, and he knew that he liked her.
But Huang Zongying hesitated, she understood his intentions, but her first love was consumed only by the shell, and her heart was already empty.
Cheng Shuyao did not give up, he carried his own sincerity, trying to touch her fragile heart.
Accompanied day after day, Huang Zongying's inner stubborn stone was finally broken, and in 1946, she agreed to Cheng Shuyao's marriage proposal.
She looked at the slightly clumsy man in front of her who had taken care of herself for so long, and she smiled so brightly.
How nice would it be if everything could stay the same way?
There are too many unfortunate things.
After getting married, Huang Zongying focused more on theatrical performance, and she began to pursue a breakthrough in her career, and in 1946, she starred in her first film "Chase".
This was also the beginning of her transition from drama actor to film actor.
Maybe Huang Zongying is like this, she is obsessed with art, she is not performing the role in the play, but making herself a person in the play.
The excellence of her nature made her transformation successful quickly, and her career was busy.
Soon, she received an invitation from the famous director Chen Liting to shoot the movie "Rhapsody of Happiness".
What Huang Zongying did not expect was that she would have the honor of working with the famous actor Zhao Dan.
What was even more unexpected was that this man would spark with her.
Huang Zongying and Zhao Dan took a group photo
In the play, Huang Zongying and Zhao Dan play a couple, and in the process of filming day by day, they finally have a different kind of affection for each other outside the play.
Huang Zongying is contradictory, she and Cheng Shuyao are still husband and wife, she knows better than anyone how out of bounds her behavior is now.
She tried to restrain her inner impulses, and in loving and being loved, she had always been the one who had no fear, and she felt sorry for her husband.
But in the face of morality and love, she still chose love.
Under Zhao Dan's fierce attack, Huang Zongying, who was already wavering, finally fell.
She understood who she really loved, and that part of Cheng Shuyao, from the day she started, was not love.
After struggling, she confessed to her husband.
"I'm in love with another person, I don't think it's fair to you, let's get a divorce."
Cheng Shuyao just listened quietly, he didn't speak, but was very calm, as if he knew in advance.
He looked out the window, and it was a sunset.
"You see the sunset, how beautiful it is!" He paused, but there were more tears in the corners of his eyes, "However, it is still too short, too short..."
"I promise you."
Zhao Dan and Huang Zongying took a group photo
Cheng Shuyao did not retain it because he knew Huang Zongying too well.
"Instead of letting her stay with me and wither, let it go."
From beginning to end, their marriage was not connected to love. Even if there is, it is only Cheng Shuyao's wishful thinking.
He wants to love a result so much that he gives everything he has without asking for anything in return, thinking that by doing so he will get true love.
But for Huang Zongying, she did not love him, she just mistook the gratitude in her heart to Cheng Shuyao as love.
This impenetrable marriage began to falter after a third person appeared.
Until this moment, Cheng Shuyao woke up like a dream.
"If we can't hold something, sooner or later we'll have to say goodbye."
"I'm sorry for him, Cheng Shuyao is a good person." When the name was mentioned again in his later years, Huang Zongying was only guilty.
In 1947, Huang Zongying remarried, and she married Zhao Dan as she wished.
After that, as a husband and wife, they co-starred in movies such as "Beauty Walk" and "The Crow and the Sparrow", and they all received good responses.
Huang Zongying and Zhao Dan's souls are compatible, and artistically, they have more resonance.
Their married life is very sweet, Zhao Dan said: "My wife and I hate each other late. ”
This cross-moral love can not avoid the criticism of the world, under great pressure, they still know each other.
He had gone through thirty-three years with her, through hardships and ups and downs, but he still had not survived the pain.
In 1980, Zhao Dan died of cancer.
After many years, Huang Zongying once again felt the pain of heart-wrenching.
She lost her lover, and the longer she stayed with her, the stronger the pain.
But at this time, Huang Zongying is no longer a teenage girl, and she is better at burying the pain in her heart than tearing her heart and lungs.
"The one thing I think is the most right thing to do is to marry Zhao Dan." I now think that Zhao Dan is indeed worthy of my love. I could only hold him and tell him I was on his side. ”
After losing his lover, the fifty-five-year-old Huang Zongying put his energy into literary creation.
She has not received a systematic education, but her seemingly innate delicate writing tells one true and touching story after another.
Her pen became another form of her performance, and she never thought of creating outside of art.
Because she was born for art.
Whether it is using form to interpret a hundred forms of life, or using words to write a story of hundred turns, Huang Zongying is using her way to communicate with art.
Her heart is planted with a weed, and the vigorous vitality supports her artistic creation.
She tied the rest of her life to words, and it was her chance to be young again.
In the process of creating in her later years, she met Feng Yidai.
He is a well-known writer and an excellent editor and publisher.
They met because of their literary creations, and it was not long before the two old men began a beautiful twilight love.
"After a lifetime of tossing and turning, is it really appropriate to stage such a play now?" Friends around her advised her.
"I'm long past the age of cowardice, and if I think it's right, I'm willing to do it." Huang Zongying replied.
She and Feng Yidai are sympathetic to each other, they are attracted to each other's literature, and it is a typical love between contemporary writers.
They are more like a precious late love story than a romantic twilight romance.
In his later years, Huang Zongying and Feng Yidai took a group photo
In 1996, Feng Yidai's cerebral thrombosis recurred, he lost his language ability, and his memory began to decline.
Huang Zongying could not bear it, and she was determined to help her husband recover.
She used a brush to write pinyin on paper, and then grabbed Feng Yidai's hand and took him to re-read it with one stroke at a time.
But in the face of life and death, we are still powerless.
In 2005, Feng Yidai died of illness.
He once wrote a poem to Huang Zongying called "This Will Be the Last Gathering.".
Maybe he had expected that his time was short, but he still had too much to give up.
In the poem, he writes, "Realistically, I love you more than I love myself." ”
He hoped to see zong yingneng be happy, and how many tears he left alone after he wrote this poem.
Literally, they can still see each other, just in another way.
After sending Feng Yidai away, Huang Zongying chose to really marry Literature.
She's been through so much that she knows better than anyone how to regulate her grief.
She still insists on dancing, calligraphy, and playing the piano every day, and she has not forgotten her artistic achievements, she wants to dig a little deeper, with the afterglow of her life.
In 2016, at the age of ninety-two, she published the Huang zong English Collection.
In 2019, she won the Lifetime Achievement Award of the Shanghai Literature and Art Award.
In her last love letter to Feng Yidai, she said, "Do you still care about how I live?" I ask myself again to return to a normal life..."
Yes, she is still living well in her own way.
"In my life, I have no regrets."
On December 14, 2020, Huang Zongying passed away.
This was the last time in her life.
Photograph of Huang Zongying in his later years
The background of her life is indelible, and there is always a burning fire in her heart.
As an artist, she does not want to bring sorrow to people, and what she hopes to leave behind is truth, beauty, and happiness.
"It's a soul that never grows old."
For love, she suffers from the play of fate, and in the circle is finally a rare two-way love.
But her impression of love was still so pure.
In Huang Zongying's eyes, love is always so beautiful, even if the ending is painful, she can also peel away that defect.
"As long as it's worth the love."
"What is left in this way can be beautiful memories."