If tomorrow is the last day, what else have you not done?

Li Shanglong is a columnist for Burning Insight

1.

At the launch of "Get Out, Tumor Jun", Xiong Dun had already passed away. To be honest, if it wasn't based on real things, I wouldn't have seen the end from the beginning with tears in my eyes. The girls next to her were crying, and the boys couldn't cry from time to time. We cry because such a strong girl has an incurable terminal illness; or rather, a girl who is terminally ill is so optimistic that even at Xiong Dun's funeral, the video she put on still shows a clear smile.

Those who cry because you have so much more than others, but you have not lived the life you want to live.

Those who shed tears, because you are much happier than others, but have been dissatisfied with the status quo, complaining, and do not have the courage to live every day optimistically.

But have you ever thought about whether you will regret it if tomorrow is your last day, in this life.

2.

If tomorrow is the last day, what else have you not done?

I was a very toss-up person, from a military school to an English teacher, to a film director, to a writer. Someone has asked me why you can do so many things, so good. In fact, my answer is very simple, because I am afraid that tomorrow I will be gone, this life, if not enough wonderful, is not too bad.

In 2012, a movie "2012" was all the rage, and believe it or not, I believed it. I lived a very negative life that year, and every time I met a friend, I would ask him what if it was really the end of the world, and there were so many things that had not been done.

The friend smiled and said, rest assured, no.

I wrote down ten goals on paper and said that I would accomplish these dreams this year no matter what. Some of those goals, some of them are very interesting, I want to go to Tibet, to the highest place in the world; some of them are very touching, I want to go to a concert on Mayday alone; some of them are very exciting, I want to travel alone, wherever I go; some are very realistic, I want to make movies, leave something for the world; some write very romantic, to chase a girl who has only met once.

When the target is written on the paper, suddenly the door in front of you opens, and you can easily see the light outside the door.

At that time, I worked hard in Beijing for a few years, with a little savings, I could buy a house to pay a down payment, and then slowly pay off the mortgage, but I always felt that if this was life, this was fate, I was really unwilling.

So I bought a plane ticket to Xi'an and went from Xi'an to Chengdu, from Chengdu to Phoenix, and from Phoenix to Tibet without any preparation. A man, a headset, a book, and off he was.

I wrote a love letter to a girl I had only met once, and after a few whimsy, she agreed.

I used the money I saved to buy equipment, systematically learned how to shoot movies, and made the first movie to give to myself.

That year, Mayday came to the bird's nest, I went to see alone, tears wetting my eyes, I sang loudly stubbornly, humming salted fish, people around me saw that I thought I was out of love, handed me a tissue, told me to be strong.

I said, thank you.

What he didn't know was that at that time, the ten goals I had set for myself were all achieved at that moment.

Later, 2012 did not come.

Later, I broke up with the girl I met because of the meeting, but I grew a lot.

Later, I had my own film studio and made a living by making movies.

To this day, I will take the time of day as two days, because I am afraid that there is not enough time, I am afraid that time is too short, I love wonderful life, I love different youth.

My friend asked me, if tomorrow is really the end of the world, do you have any regrets that you haven't done?

I smiled and said, if tomorrow is the end of the world, I will quietly close my eyes and wait for it to come.

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The year good brother d father died, I was on the scene.

Father was very kind before leaving, and the last words when he left: I did not take good care of your mother and son.

D's father was a leader, socialized, and had a full range of alcohol and tobacco. He worked late every day and even went to bed with alcohol, and D's mother was upset with him, but she couldn't control what was happening. Occasionally ask my husband why I am so tired.

The husband said, no way, today the big leader came.

When D took his father to the hospital for examination, he was already in the advanced stage of cancer, and because he was busy, he did not have time to go to the physical examination.

After the old man's chemotherapy, his hair fell out almost the same, so he told D that he wanted to go around.

D took his father to Xishuangbanna, where he had always wanted to go, to the Manchurian Gate and saw the ice sculptures in Harbin. Father smiled happily, and he said that he had long wanted to go to these places, but he was too busy at work.

He went on to say that if he had only survived for a few days, he might as well have not pursued those official positions and money. Those are nothing compared to life.

His father laughed, as if describing someone else's illness, laughing at the life of someone.

d has cried into tears.

In the last year, D took a long leave of absence, accompanied his father to many places, and before his father left, he was very peaceful, slowly closed his eyes, took the cries of the people around him, and went to heaven.

A few months later, I watched a work with D, "Leaping To the Nursing Home", which is about many elderly people who are sent to the nursing home by their children after they are old, and the children are afraid that they will have an accident and will not let them run around, but they still have a lot of things they want to do, and they know that they don't have much time. So they did everything they could to sneak out, go out on an outing, and participate in the show. The children were furious and said how do you make us worry so much, and the old man said that we are not for a few days, just to continue to make ourselves wonderful.

I saw the ending with D, and I couldn't calm down for a long time.

I said, so old, still pursuing the unknown of life, still exploring the possibility of dreams, we are so small, hurry up, tomorrow I will go to the North Pole to see the aurora, I will be drunk, I will climb mountains, but also to travel around the world!

D, a nine-to-five civil servant, glanced at his cell phone and it was a text message from the leader asking him to go to overtime tomorrow morning.

He was quiet for a long time, then turned off the phone and said: Take me, I will go too.

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On the way, I met a small section.

Xiao Duan is a girl with a good family, from childhood to adulthood, she is clothed to reach out and open her mouth, and in her junior year, he liked the teacher in the class. She didn't care if the teacher was married, crazy pursuit of her love, she wrote a lot of love letters to the teacher, but she didn't expect the teacher to just smile and say, child, you don't understand what love is.

Xiao Duan felt humiliated, and instead of going to the teacher's class, she was with a man ten years older than herself.

Like many girls who are in love with their uncles, they cannot communicate, only physical desires are left, and they have long lost their spiritual equality.

When the uncle dumped her, she was in pain, and suddenly felt that the world had collapsed.

Xiao Duan thought about cutting her veins to commit suicide, and just when she was desperate, her girlfriend discovered her gradually collapsing mental state, and at night, she had a long deep chat with her.

The friend asked her, if tomorrow is your last day on earth, what else have you not done?

It was like she had been punched in the face.

Yes, in addition to love, there are so many beautiful things that can be pursued in this world. Why make your world so small.

A small section of a person carrying a bag and began to release on the road to find herself, on the way, she met many friends, including us.

She told me that she should go back to school to study hard and try to get into a good graduate school.

The train turned into the cave, and the rumbling sound was like the heartbeat of a person's blood. Like the best stories of youth.

5.

If tomorrow is your last day, ask yourself what you haven't done, what you haven't had time to say, and what regrets you have.

This moment is forever, and this moment is everything.

You always have to take the first step, let the rhythm of life that is going to die get out of the way, to pursue those crazy dreams, while you can still breathe, while you are still young, when you still have a free soul.

— the end —

Li Shanglong, young director and writer, author of "You Just Look Hard"

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