Author: Dan Yan Editor: Li Jin
Source: Journal of Marriage and Family
ID：hunyinyujiating99
He was the proud protégé of Mr. Li Dazhao, an early revolutionary activist of the CCP, with lofty ambitions and a bright heart.
In the era of overlapping times and the chaos of soldiers and horses, he promised to repay the country with a heart,
He said, "I wish to live as bright as lightning, and I wish to die as swiftly as a comet." ”
She is the cinnabar mole in his heart, the talented woman in the chaotic world,
It is on a par with Lü Bicheng, Xiao Hong, and Zhang Ailing.
They have common ideals and revolutionary aspirations,
"I love, even if the universe becomes a battlefield of embers, the wild smoke is fishy."
In this chaotic world, the blood is gushing, and the children are long,
Like red fireworks blooming in the night sky, short, but incomparably gorgeous.
01
Autumn leaves send acacia
In Taoranting, Beijing, two white jade steles are buried here, gao Junyu and his girlfriend Shi Pingmei, one of the founders of the Chinese Communist Party. The story of the two also begins here.
Gao Junyu and Shi Pingmei's first encounter was at a hometown party in a fellow shanxi countryman.
On that day, dressed in a long gray shirt, he gave an impassioned speech on democracy and freedom. It provoked a lot of girls to be like a fawn, and Shi Pingmei was no exception.
Gao Junyu was indeed dazzling enough, he was a talented man of Peking University, a proud disciple of Li Dazhao, and he and Xu Deheng and several other young people took the lead in "burning the Zhao Family Building and beating Zhang Zongxiang."
In October 1919, Gao Junyu joined the civilian education lecture group presided over by Deng Zhongxia, and together with Deng Zhongxia and others, he first organized lectures in cities, and then organized forces to go deep into the countryside and factories to give lectures.
In 1920, the Beijing Socialist Youth League was founded, Gao Junyu was elected as the first secretary with his outstanding organizational talent, and in 1921, when the Communist Party of China was founded, he became one of the first party members.
At this time, Shi Pingmei was a student at the Beijing Women's Higher Normal School. Under the influence of Li Dazhao, Shi Pingmei began to create poetry and prose, because of her talent, she and Lu Yin and Lu Jingqing were jointly called the three "talented women in Beijing".
The familiar rural sounds narrowed the distance between each other, and what Shi Pingmei did not expect was that Gao Junyu was actually the protégé that his father most admired.
Gao Junyu also did not expect that there was such a sister with such outstanding character and talent under the knee of the teacher.
As soon as the golden wind and jade dew met, the two young hearts burst into fine ripples.
They met in the unnamed lake and strolled through the Taoran Pavilion; they fished and geese back and forth, pouring out their hearts.
They talk about ideas, about ambitions, about the future of the nation, about revolution and literature.
Gao Junyu encouraged Shi Pingmei to actively participate in the struggle to meet the new culture and transform the old world.
His insight, the revolutionary pride of transforming the world as his mission, made her fascinated;
Her talent, her flexible and persistent personality, fascinated him.
The two young men got closer and closer.
The happiest thing in life is to be able to go hand in hand with the soul mate who is compatible with the heart.
But at the age of 18, Gao Junyu was forced to obey his parents' orders and marry a woman surnamed Li in Lou Fu County.
At that time, his father's fate was like a mountain, and this ruthless combination made Gao Junyu feel helpless, and it made him feel extremely miserable in front of the woman he really loved.
But it was this pure love that gave him endless strength and made him determined to dissolve the arranged marriage and let her have a complete love.
02
The heart of the king is like a long moon
On October 26, 1923, he sent Shi Pingmei a fiery red maple leaf, which read: The autumn colors of the mountains cannot be closed, and a red leaf sends acacia.
She replied to him on the back of the leaf: "The withered flower basket does not dare to bear this bright red leaf." ”
Shi Pingmei once said to Gao Junyu: "You can be my only confidant, to be a comrade who spends this life with my career." Let's 'ice and snow friendship' to build a rich and brilliant life. ”
Gao Junyu understood her determination. At that time, she had just experienced an unforgettable first love, and the hurt of her feelings made her think of celibacy. At this time, he also put aside his children's love and turned his lovesickness into a revolutionary driving force. He wrote back to Shi Pingmei, saying: "I am willing to go to the soup to fight the fire to seek what you wish; if you are unwilling, I am willing to go to the soup to stop it." Can't do this, how can I say I love you! ”
In 1924, Gao Junyu was wanted by the Beiyang warlords, and his life and death were unpredictable, and on that stormy night, he risked his death to resign to Shi Pingmei's residence.
The king's heart is like a long moon, but when will it be round?
Since then, north and south have drifted to zero, and the two places have been thinking of each other.
In September 1924, Gao Junyu went south to Guangzhou and prepared for the Northern Expedition with Dr. Sun Yat-sen. He bought two ivory rings on the street and sent them to Shi Pingmei with a letter: "I hope that our ice and snow friendship is like this white ivory ring, or that our lives are as white as this ivory ring..."
Shi Pingmei, who received the ring, repeatedly chanted this sentence "miserable white into dry bones", and the ice and snow in his heart gradually melted.
Unfortunately, they did not wait for the next spring.
03
Spring breeze accompanies Aozuka
In October 1924, Gao Junyu went north with Sun Yat-sen, and because of overwork, he suffered from hemoptysis and was admitted to the hospital. Every day, Shi Pingmei took a bouquet of plum blossoms to the hospital to visit, and deliberately put on the ivory ring.
After a period of time, Gao Junyu, who had just recovered from his illness, ignored the doctor's advice that he must rest for half a year and went south again. On March 4, 1925, due to overwork, Gao Junyu was once again admitted to the hospital due to illness.
Before the operation, he held Shi Pingmei's hands for the last time to confess to her. Shi Pingmei was distraught, and she carefully read Gao Junyu's letters over and over again, and finally found that her heart had long been firmly occupied by Gao Junyu.
After all, there was no time to say it.
On March 5, the day after the operation, Gao Junyu suddenly died of illness at the age of 29.
Gao Junyu left, with eternal regret and attachment.
Shi Pingmei was full of remorse, at Gao Junyu's funeral, she fainted several times, she put her own photo into the coffin, and buried with Gao Junyu in the Taoran Pavilion where they often strolled, where they had good memories.
On both sides of Gao Junyu's tombstone are engraved the words she wrote in her own handwriting, and on one side it reads:
I am the sword, I am the spark. I wish to be born as bright as lightning, and I wish to die as swiftly as a comet.
On the other side of the tombstone reads:
Junyu, I am powerless to hold on to your comet-like life, and I can only shed the remaining tears to your grave until I can't see you.
He was gone, and she picked up the pen, where he was fighting, and continued to fight. In his absence, she continued to fight for freedom and liberation for forty million of her compatriots. With her sharp brushstrokes, she exposed the dark forces that attacked society and inspired the people's revolutionary fighting spirit.
In 1924, when Shi Pingmei and Lu Jingqing jointly edited the Women's Weekly, which was supplemented by the Beijing News, they received Lu Xun's care and support.
In November 1924, Shi Pingmei, Lu Jingqing and other editors published the "Beijing Daily" supplement - "Women's Weekly".
On March 18, 1926, when her friend Liu Hezhen was unfortunately killed, Shi Pingmei published essays "Blood Corpse" and "Crying and Jane" in the Beijing Daily, saying: "Although your blood is cold, it is our blood that is warm, and although your corpse is stiff, it is our iron will that is forged." "I would also like to follow your soul with this remnant of my life!"
In the first half of 1926, Shi Pingmei edited the Supplement of the Beijing World Journal, Rose Weekly, and worked tirelessly.
During the day, she is a heroic and fearless proletarian fighter, and at night, she is the lonely Chang'e in the Guanghan Palace, the blue sea and the blue sky are infinite, and she knows when to reunite with the king.
She wept bitterly for Gao Junyu and wrote a large number of mourning poems and articles. Every weekend, she brought a bouquet of flowers to his tomb, and for 3 years, she always "hesitated at the fortress and saw the different scenery of spring flowers and autumn moons." ”
She said, "If my tears had really condensed into pearls, by now I have woven a scarf around your jade neck."
If my acacia really turns into a red bean,
So far, I have gathered for you a love that will never be forgotten. ”
After parting, I remembered each other, and several times my soul dreamed of being with Juntong.
She dreamed of that year by the Taoran Pavilion, he and she "walked in the willows of the river embankment and walked over."
We are speechless, and the waves of the heart sea can only be understood by Yue'er.
You lean on the tree and look at the bright moon in contemplation, and I rest on your chest to listen to your breathing. ”
Desperate work and painful thoughts overdraw Shi Pingmei's life.
Or maybe he couldn't bear to see her so lonely, god arranged another way for a couple of lovers to reunite.
On September 30, 1928, Shi Pingmei died of sudden encephalitis at Peking Union Medical College Hospital.
Their youth is forever fixed at the age of 26 and 29.
He, like her, lives as fast as a comet.
Like him, she lived up to this life for the immortal faith in her heart.
According to her will, her friend buried her in Taoran Pavilion, next to Gao Junyu's tomb.
Unable to live together before death, I wish to be buried in the desert hill after death.
Breeze Aozuka, they are finally reunited.
Taoran Pavilion is full of flowers, guarding the belated spring.