In the first few years of the twenty-first century, I was studying at a third-rate university in Xi'an. It was an age in the middle of youth, and naturally had some expectations for the love that people yearned for.
In this girls' school where the learning atmosphere is not heavy, there are too many girls dressed up beautifully, and their good looks cause young boys to come to the school to flowers, and their sweet looks also make me feel excited.
At that time, I was a stupid girl with no appearance and no money, and no stupid boy looked at me, I was like the most remarkable little flower in the garden, waiting for the spring that belonged to me.
About love, most of them are derived from the vigorous and inseparable in love novels. So what kind of love is a good feeling? At this time, our literature teacher told us about Zhang Jie's novel "Love, Cannot Be Forgotten".
The two lovers had to be separated by an accident, and many years later they still silently hung each other on the tip of their hearts, exchanging a long-term forbearance for the holiness of love in their hearts!
It was a few words from teacher Liao Liao that aroused my desire to find this novel and read it.
At that time, there were already female classmates around me who had moved out of the dormitory to live with their boyfriends, and the classmates passed on such small secrets to each other, but no one gave a standard answer to right and wrong.
In the small village where I live, I don't know how many people there are, but every few years there will be some peach news of young people eloping.
There are even news that married men and women have run away with someone else's partner.
Is this the divine love that writers are most willing to celebrate? If love really looks like this, then a person can be considered a good choice.
In film and television works, how many girls go against their parents' wishes, preferring to break off relations with their parents and follow the man, but many years later, those girls who are for the so-called 'love', do they regret their choices?
One Sunday, my classmates and I spent a huge amount of money to the provincial library, the place is bigger than I imagined, the number of books is just as many, I am like a child who fell into the sea of books and lost, and I don't know how much time it took to find Zhang Jie's novel "Love, Can't Be Forgotten".
The opening is set plainly, how does a thirty-year-old young woman Shanshan face the youth that is getting shorter and shorter?
She was an ordinary girl who finally met a handsome and super tall Jolin one day. She is not confident, she wants to find confidence from her boyfriend.
One day she opened one of her mother's two treasures, the notebook that began with the words "Love, cannot be forgotten", one of the two items that her mother asked to be cremated with her, but Shanshan left it privately.
It is also this kind of diary, and this kind of material, and the notebook of the notebook, that there is a woman's love deeply hidden, and the love there is as deep as the bottom of the ocean.
The mother, whose white hair and wrinkles were already on her head, whenever she sat alone in the house, looking at the path outside the window, the daughter who broke in could make her do stupid things, she always poured the tea in her hand on herself with a red face, but that looked like a little girl who had just entered the world of love.
Shanshan swept through all the people in her memory, and no man had ever appeared in the lives of their mother and daughter.
According to her mother, Shanshan's father was also a handsome man, but there was no love between them, and they divorced after a year, and from then on, the mother rejected all the suitors and indulged in the love of her heart.
The youth of the underground party, a worker who died to save him, who took care of the worker's wife and daughter, married the daughter of the worker, whose former lover was Sansan's mother.
Since then, the spiritual couple has been separated, and the two who promised to forget each other at that time will approach their lovers in their own unique ways.
The set of Chekhov Novels that the mother gave to her by the man was considered to be her own private treasure and love keepsake, and she took out one of them and took one of them with her whenever she went out. She counted the time the man had crossed the road behind her house and sat at the window and waited.
And the man looked at his lover on the road, and he was always worried about the safety of the girl on the bicycle.
He would always run around the road in front of the girl's house in his heart on the road without busy work, and he would look for the works published by the girl in his heart in various newspapers.
It is these two people who are worried about each other, occasionally when they meet in real life, but no one dares to look at anyone, they will quickly separate, and once the man saw the girl in his heart in the car, he stopped and ran to the mother and daughter.
The mother's hand holding her daughter was trembling, but her eyes were on the plants on the side of the road. The man also shook hands with the little girl with trembling hands, but the eyes of the two of them did not dare to touch each other. Until the man was called away by the traffic police, they did not speak.
A love story that has not been together for more than twenty-four hours, a love story that has not even held hands, is such a relationship, so that the mother has always fantasized about living with the man, she told him her mood, she fantasized about the moment when the man went to the train station to pick herself up, she thought about the only time they walked far away, the taste of the man she loved on that road, no matter how difficult her life was, she always had a loving person in her heart.
"White head like a kiss, cover as before" love is more or less like this!
This man, who had been engaged in revolutionary work, lost his life in a cultural movement. Her nearly fifty-year-old mother turned white overnight, and she cried and wet her notebook.
And she misses the loved one in her heart and walks back and forth on the path where they only walk together.
What would have happened to the mother's story in modern times? A scandal in which cheating and an affair coexist!
Only people who love each other will sublimate their personal love into all kinds of hidden tolerances for the sake of the overall situation. Regardless of real life, both of them have their own difficulties, but the two of them have love for each other in their hearts, so that they can live in the case of 'love', 'drinking water as sweet as honey' is the happiness between them!
Love is to make the other person's life better, not to use the reason of 'love' to get benefits from the other party!
At that time, I only looked at the love and love around me, and I could only smile and smile!