Probably few people will be completely unfamiliar with the name Bi Shumin.
Everyone who has seen Bi Shumin knows that she always has a smile and is always full of calm and gentle temperament, she only needs to sit there, even if she does nothing, you seem to feel a beam of light sprinkled on her body.
It is with this temperament that Bi Shumin has been writing for more than thirty years.
If you search for her work, you will find that the number of works she has written, and the number of pages rolled by the mouse, cannot be turned to the end.
Looking around, there are really not many writers like Bi Shumin.
The writers who abandoned medicine and literature were not only Lu Xun, but also Bi Shumin.
Bi Shumin is a national first-class writer, attending physician of internal medicine, and a famous psychological consultant.
From her title, it is not difficult for us to see that Bi Shumin's identity as a doctor is not just talk. And the beginning of this identity is particularly special.
As a child, Bi Shumin was very reluctant to the profession of doctor, after all, in the world of doctors, it seems that it is always full of death, pain, salvation and abandonment, which is really not a happy profession.
However, people are often like this, the more they are afraid of something, the more they have to experience something.
In 1969, Bi Shumin enlisted in the army, and after a 12-day trek, she came to the Ali Military Sub-district in Tibet and became a hygienist. At that time, in Tibet, the conditions were unimaginably harsh.
The endless snowy mountains, the biting cold wind, the thin air, the desolate and borderless plateau, all of which she had never imagined in the past.
In the face of such a cruel and extreme environment, she even planned suicide, trying to jump off the cliff and end this pain and torture, but finally gave up because she was afraid of falling down with her teammates.
That year, Bi Shumin was 16 years old, which was the age of desperately drawing nourishment from the world, but she stepped into such a grandeur and desolation.
During her time in Tibet, what impressed her most was the corpse.
Since the conditions of the troops could not meet their human dissection studies, they had to carry the corpses to the top of the snowy mountain for experiments, and most of these corpses were acquaintances they had been carefully caring for the day before.
How to describe this scene, the snow-white mountain peak, the goshawks and vultures hovering in mid-air, and the corpses surrounding them in the middle of the mountain, carefully studying each organ with a scalpel.
When they finished their dissection, they would be placed on the burial platform according to local customs, and watched the vultures eat them, and this life would be lost in the heavens and the earth.
How magnificent the heavens and the earth are, how small the people are.
(Ali, Tibet)
All this is something that people who have been living in traffic for many years cannot understand and imagine.
Bi Shumin stayed in Tibet for ten years, and in ten years, she went from hygienist, to assistant military doctor, to military doctor, witnessing the struggle and demise of one life after another, but still believing in the irresistible power of life in this world.
On the top of the endless mountain, she healed other people's bodies, but also lost another part of her own life. In Ali's 11th year, when she returned home one time, she found that her son was suffering from rickets. At that moment, she was very guilty, as a doctor, she did not care about her son's body.
(Bi Shumin and son)
So after returning to Ali, she immediately reported to the political commissar and applied to be transferred back to Beijing.
"I have dedicated my best youth to Ali, and next, I want to dedicate the rest of my world to my son."
In this way, Bi Shumin returned to Beijing and became an ordinary doctor.
Bi Shumin was 35 years old when she really became a writer and published her first work, Kunlun Death.
Becoming a writer is not accidental, but her decision after calm thinking, she really has too much to say about the world.
After returning to Beijing as a doctor, Bi Shumin will still miss tibet where she has held out for ten years, and think of the "battlefield" full of tragedy, an experience that makes it difficult for her writing to stop once it begins.
There is always a kind of writer who does not win by writing, but by powerful life experiences. She described the experience of Ali's ten years bit by bit to explore the meaning of life.
So she began to work during the day, writing at night, often until the early hours of the morning, but the work of doctors often requires plenty of energy and a clear mind, in the spirit of being responsible for life, Bi Shumin decided to temporarily give up the doctor's job and become a full-time writer.
However, from "Red Prescription" to "Saving breasts" to "Corolla Virus", most of Bi Shumin's works are related to medical treatment.
Twenty years of doctor experience is like a powerful dose of nourishment, nourishing her heart.
Because she has experienced too much life and death and touched too much humanity, Bi Shumin has a deeper understanding and thinking about life, and she also has a more accurate grasp of the struggles and pains in life.
In Bi Shumin's writing philosophy, writing is to sell resources, and only rich spiritual reserves can support a writer to continue to write, otherwise only gorgeous words can never write good articles that are intriguing to read.
So she can always write the grandest life with the smallest strokes, and people can always feel the hardness and strength from life, death, and pain from her gentle and calm words.
And all this is incomparable to the so-called "pain literature" on the market today.
Bi Shumin has searched for the meaning of life and the definition of happiness all her life, but she herself is not an optimist, but always carries a strong pessimism.
Once, in a hospice hospital, Bi Shumin met an old man in his eighties, and the old man once said to her on his deathbed: In this life, I feel that I have never lived.
In this world, there are people in heaven and there are people in hell. So what is the meaning of living, and how should we live our lives?
Bi Shumin took a long time to reconcile with herself, as an excellent writer and psychologist, she was often invited to give lectures at school, and she told every child that she should learn to perceive the happiness around her, and true happiness is simple and trivial.
At the same time, unlike many writers, Bi Shumin seems to be a writer with strong "social attributes".
She seems to care more about the realization of social responsibility than the pursuit of literary value.
In Bi Shumin's article, we can see the despicable observation of human nature, the helpless struggle of the world, and the reverence for the amount of vitality. She seems to always have a sober eye on the world and the society in which we live.
Bi Shumin is not so much a writer as she is more like a compassionate fighter who stands on the side of society, using words as ropes to try to pull the dark or depraved back on track.
Just as she wrote "The Red Prescription" with such a sense of responsibility, to describe drugs, to describe the deepest depravity, and it is worth tasting that the protagonist of this work finally committed suicide to martyr the cause of holiness, to show the power of faith.
Bi Shumin uses this way, not only hoping to save some people with her own words, but also hoping that people can believe in the power of life.
I don't just want to pull you up, I also want to give you the confidence to go on, which is Bi Shumin's compassion.
See the heavens and the earth, see the sentient beings, see yourself.
If she has spent most of her life to complete the first two, then Bi Shumin, who has entered the twilight years, has begun to talk to herself more.
As early as when she was in Tibet, when she read Mr. Lu Xun's writings, she understood that what people should dissect most was not others, but themselves. So in her twilight years, she began to travel to more places, talking to the scenery and talking to herself.
"I know what I want, I know what I want to do, I know what obstacles I will encounter, I hope that I can know the destiny, I can obey, I can do what I want from the heart." 」 Since then, I have no illusions about the world, but I am not pessimistic. I don't think falsely that human nature is good, but at the same time I don't lose faith. ”
The more people who have seen the beings of heaven and earth, the clearer their minds become. The more familiar a person is of human nature, the more sincere and compassionate he is. Bi Shumin not only let us see the best appearance of a writer, but also let us see the best destination of a person.
As mentioned at the beginning, looking around, there are not many writers like Bi Shumin.
The torrents of this era are also becoming more complex and difficult to discern.
However, I hope that we can still believe in people and the world forever, as Bi Shumin hopes.
Author 丨 Wonderful
Editor 丨 Xiaohui'er Summer Night Flight