Li Bai once wrote: "The one who is the master of heaven and earth, the rebel of all things; the one who is time and yin, the guest of hundreds of generations." And floating like a dream, for the joy of geometry? ”
Come to think of it, in addition to lamenting the rush of time, we are looking forward to and yearning for all the beauty of the world.
Of course, everything is beautiful, but love.
Sanmao said: "Love is not necessary, but without it, it is also desolate in the heart." ”
In "Peony Pavilion", it is even more like crying: "Love does not know what to do, it goes deep, the living can die, the dead can live." Those who are born and cannot be with death, and those who die and cannot be resurrected, are not the most emotional. ”
In the face of love, someone said: "Ten years of life and death are two unknowns!" But there are also people who say: "The east wind is evil, and the joy is thin." A few years of sorrow. Wrong, wrong, wrong. Although Shan Meng is difficult to trust in Jinshu. Mo, Mo, Mo. ”
All of the above may be the true meaning of love that makes people addicted, love itself, not all flowers before the moon, people about dusk. In the face of fate and cruel reality, love can not be, get but not love, have no part, all the good can become a passing cloud, yesterday's yellow flowers.
In addition to those poignant and deplorable loves, there is also an initial love that more people can never let go, "which boy does not love, which girl does not cherish spring."
Girlish feelings, the beginning of love, for love is always a lot of expectations and imaginations, that is, so shy, but also so hot.
In the japanese writer Higuchi Ichiba's anthology "Aome Bamboo Horse", it is recorded that such a young love, the beginning of love, began with the "green plum bamboo horse", and finally "the moment when the girl first grew up". We can imagine how lonely there is at the beginning and loneliness at the end.
Higuchi Kazuba is a well-known Japanese female writer whose portrait has appeared on Japanese banknotes. She once said, "I was born into this world to soothe the pain and disappointment of women in this world." ”
I believe that after reading her anthology "Green Plum Bamboo Horse", I have a deeper thinking about her statement.
1. The love he promised will eventually not be able to withstand the actual fame and profit
Zhang Ailing once said: "Say good forever, somehow dispersed, and finally I wanted to come and go, and I couldn't even figure out what the reason was separated from each other in the first place, and then, you suddenly woke up to the fact that feelings were so fragile, able to withstand the wind and rain, but could not withstand the ordinary."
"Walking Clouds" tells such a love story:
Nozawa Keji, a young country boy who is the adopted son of someone else, lives in a relative's house in Tokyo to study. On the surface, he was the adopted son of the family in the countryside, but in fact, he was sent to Tokyo to study because he was trained as a future "son-in-law". And he has already booked a kiss with the daughter of this family.
In Tokyo, he has a secret affection for the daughter of the owner's family, Who is also under the fence. Although Ah Suo is the daughter of the master's family, but after the death of her mother, the stepmother is very harsh on her, and her father is also very cold to her, Xu is long accustomed to this kind of life that is not valued, Ah Su has always buried many of his feelings deep in his heart, and he is always unfazed and not sick.
Gui Ci is very obsessed with such a seam, he does not hide his inner feelings, and he is very fiercely in love with A-su. He was always "messing around" with her, his mind was full of him, and he even clapped his hands together in front of the Statue of Guanyin and prayed, "Please bless my beloved." ”
The man of the country house was seriously ill, let him leave his studies and go home to complete the marriage, seeing that his return date was approaching, he still remembered Ah Su, so he made a promise to her: "... We are separated, I don't hate you, you have your way to go. I'll keep writing to you, I'll write ten, you just have to get back to me with one... ”
At the beginning of the separation, perhaps as he said, on the way home, he wrote to her every day, but in just a few months, he became someone else's husband and the man of the family.
Letters soon decreased, from two or three a month to one or two letters a month, and finally every six months, every year, with only greeting cards and holiday greetings. In the end, the letters were too lazy to be written and became postcards.
Only to stay in her original "sandwich" life and continue to live.
Look, this is the truest love of young people, it comes fiercely, and it goes quickly.
It may just be a bloodthirsty "hypothesis" at some point in time, and it won't take long for all the promises to become the one he once had.
He finally wants to go back to his own life, chasing the fame and fortune he wants, and how can feelings not become a stumbling block to hinder his upward mobility.
Love, for women, is a kind of "commitment", but also an expectation of another life, even if she is love, she can only bury all her feelings deep in her heart.
For men, when they have the feelings they want, they will say and express them in one brain, completely disregarding the situation of girls. In the end this is not pure love, it is a selfish, self-absorbed love.
This kind of love is a kind of sadness as a woman.
2, the love that women want will eventually be shattered by the reality of life
Zhang Xiaoxian said: "The origin of the cause is extinguished, and the edge of the thick edge is weak, which is not something we can control." What we can do is to cherish that short time in the time of karma. ”
In "Thirteen Nights", there is a woman who has been troubled by marriage, Ah Guan, this night, while the child is asleep, she is painfully worried, she left the child and returned to her mother's house alone.
She returned to her mother's house with the determination never to go back. However, from the moment I walked in the house, everything could not go back to the past.
If there was still the sweetness of love at the beginning of the marriage, after she gave birth to a child, her husband began to be obsessed with geisha and empathize with others. Finally, he spoke coldly to her and stopped paying attention.
She wanted to escape from this life, although her mother promised to come down, but her father still spread the reality one by one, the "decent" son-in-law, in the eyes of outsiders, how glamorous she is, how "shiny lintel", and if divorced, she has always been attached to the man's life of the woman, in addition to letting herself have nothing, will also let her mother's family have nothing.
The reality, I am afraid, is that outsiders can only see the brilliance of a woman after she is united with another man. Behind this false "prosperity", perhaps with the blood and tears of women.
Unable to get the answer she wanted, she once again fled from her mother's house, and her father burst into tears, telling her to bear the burden of humiliation, pretending that nothing had happened tonight, and returning to that home before her husband ran away from home to find her.
She walked back in a daze and met a "coachman", who had thought that this coachman was the person she had thought of marrying. Years later, things are not human, and she has imagined countless times the picture of a long, sweet life with her beloved.
But the person in front of her, let her fantasy once again shattered, he spent a lot of money in his marriage, squandering. He was a man who didn't know how to cherish from the beginning. Nowadays, of course, there is nothing left, just "alone" as a coachman, and have to live every day. He looks so "vicissitudes" and "sloppy". How could she still be the one who made her hate to marry? In contrast, what about the lack of love in marriage? At least there is the "decency" seen by outsiders.
When the events of the day pulled her back to reality, she did not hesitate to choose to compromise, and took advantage of the dark night to return to her position, even if she could only "reminisce about the past and live in sorrow.".
The love that women want, in fact, is very simple, three meals a day, someone accompanies me to stand at dusk, someone asks me if the porridge is warm.
But in the social reality of "weak women and strong men", it is too difficult to say that women really want to fight with reality and life.
The existence of "Thirteen Nights" is a kind of telling, but also a kind of reflection, if you are her, you continue to return to the married life that makes you "miserable" but makes others look good. Or ignore it, take advantage of the vast night, and completely "escape".
Real life, presumably, makes it impossible for women to really "dash" up. But she has at least done it, fought it, weighed it up, and put it into practice, which is also a success in another sense.
3, green plum bamboo horses, will eventually turn everything into a cloud of smoke.
"Please Answer 1997" said: "The reason why first love is beautiful is because we can never go back to that young and pure time." ”
"Green Plum Bamboo Horse" is the story of 14-year-old girl Midori and teenager Shinru.
Midenley's sister is the top card of the brothel, and the sister's "benefactor" is more, and the wealth obtained is naturally more. Because of her sister, her parents spoiled her, and the old bustard also looked at her differently, very spoiled, and in this environment, she was naturally not ashamed of selling laughter.
Shinru, the son of the abbot of the monastery, was taciturn and had a deep heart. Mereden himself didn't know when he started paying attention to Shinru.
It was only that day, when Shinru went out to run an errand and encountered wind and rain, when he walked to the door of Midenley, the "rope loop" on his clogs was broken.
One inside, one outside. Inside the house, Midori struggled internally, and she wanted to help him. And the letter outside the house, such as, "embarrassment" to the extreme.
Eventually, Midori was blushing and her mother called her, and she hurriedly threw the red rag head outside.
And the panicked letter, knowing that there was Midori looking at him inside the door, was embarrassed, did not dare to look up, and when she left, he looked back lonely, and finally saw the red that Midenley had thrown in the mud in the rain, but he did not want to take it.
In the future life of Midori, she is actually like her sister, in the Qinglou.
In shinru's life, he studied at a monastic school and then inherited the family business.
There was very little communication between him and Midenley, but the affection of the boy and girl, like the spring breeze in the mountains, once blew the lake water in the hearts of the two people.
However, people always have to grow up, always have to accept the arrangement of fate.
Those who were once young and young, ignorant of love, will eventually end up without disease.
The reason why this kind of love is unforgettable is that it seems to have never begun, it has already ended.
The admiration of my youth is the most pure and simple, I like you, just about you, nothing more.
There is also a memorable reason for this love, that is, the two people have never spoken their love and have never confirmed each other.
Since it is a white moonlight, leave this beauty in that young time, in the memory, in the treasure, and so on.
Speaking of "Aome Bamboo Horse", it is necessary to say that Higuchi Kazuba was born in Tokyo to a small official family, and lived happily at an early age, and her parents were very loving.
Her brilliance was only a few short years, and at the age of 22, she entered the peak of her creative period and became famous in one fell swoop, and her life came to an end at the age of 24.
Many people are often willing to compare her with Zhang Ailing, who are models of "becoming famous early". It's just that fate is so cruel as her, and it hasn't even been given to her tomorrow.
She was proposed and engaged, regretted her marriage and retired, and a few years later, she was asked to be engaged, and she refused.
In her diary of the "Green Plum Bamboo Horse" anthology, she once wrote about her heart for him: "Quietly count, and begin to estrange from him, just at this time the year before." On the days when I became rusty, my thoughts changed back and forth. Once, I wanted to bury him in my heart and take the path of enlightenment. Another time, I gave up and said to myself, don't think about this person anymore. The more I think about it, the more tormented I get. Everything is like a dream, and the attachment to him will not last forever, and it is meaningless to sink into the abyss of confusion like this..."
Reading her words, it seems to be involved in the tangled and confused emotional life of a young girl, sad and joyful and in a hurry.
"The Man Who Stole the Shadow" put it this way: "Childhood love is very sacred, nothing can be taken away from it, it will always be there, imprinted in your heart, and once the memory is liberated, it will surface." ”
Then let time stay, let those memories spread out in the text of "Green Plum Bamboo Horse"!