Just want to live quietly

I don't know how to evaluate him.

He was not a good son, he had promised his father what he had done; he was not a good brother, he did not know his brother, and he was forced to prevent them from pursuing the future; he was not a good lover, he had killed the woman he loved deeply, he had given up the happiness he could have attained; he was not a good husband, and when his wife died in childbirth, she shouted his name, but he could not go in and look at it; he was not a good father, he had two sons, both of whom died before they had grown up. He wants to do everything well and doesn't do anything well. Countless times, in the face of the incomprehension and reproach of his loved ones, he could only shed useless tears in no one.'s land.

As I write these words, I always see the young man who is not yet thirty years old but has no vitality, the man who is trying to maintain the peace of the extended family, the soul that seems helpless when the old and the new alternate.

Gao Juexin, the eldest son of the Gao family, the eldest grandson of the long house, the object of everyone's attention in the new and old eras.

When I first read Barkin's Riptide Trilogy, the role of Gao Juexin caused me great dissatisfaction, and I didn't even want to pity him. He had countless opportunities to fight for his future, but he always obediently lowered his hands and let others fiddle with him, without making a voice of resistance. His brother rebuked him and said, "You have harmed yourself and others." But he has no malice! Just want to live quietly in this big family full of malice, work, marry, have children, take care of younger siblings.

It is inconceivable that people who have received higher education and achieved excellent results in new schools, in an era of vigorous development of the new culture, will be willing to be puppets of the elders of the family, allowing them to control their own destiny, love their wives and brothers.

I have been wondering how desperate people must be before they give up resistance, only to face the eyes of the godless in the face of unknown malice. The air of the old family really hurt him.

Fortunately, born in such an era, you can live according to your own heart, and you can speak out loud in the face of injustice. As a young man of this era, looking back at the generation that has not yet escaped the oppression of the family, there is a natural sense of superiority in psychology. Thinking of it this way, it is inevitable that it will be a little unfair to blame Gao Juexin for cowardice.

He was also a poor man. In order to fulfill his grandfather's wish to be in the same house as the fourth emperor, and in order to reassure his father as soon as possible, he gave up his plan to go to the big city to continue his studies, and obeyed their arrangement and married his relatives. He thought that he could get happiness, thinking that the future road would be accompanied by his cousin Mei, who was green and bamboo, but his parents decided on his future wife by casting lots. His heart was broken, but he did not resist either, and even after seeing his beautiful and gentle wife, he was somewhat grateful for his parents' decision, completely forgetting what fate his cousin, the delicate woman, would henceforth face.

Before his death, his father entrusted him with the responsibility of caring for his younger siblings, and he was a responsible person who accepted without complaint, even though he was only in his early twenties. In this gentleman's family, the grandfather had five children, and he had five elders. The gossip flew toward him from time to time with full malice, and he swallowed it silently, not wanting to fight back.

The younger siblings were young and vigorous, full of new ideas, they always had conflicts with the elders, and the two sides quarreled, and he was the most difficult and painful person. As an older brother, he approved of his brother's new ideas and wanted to help them resist, but as a junior, he had to obey his grandfather's orders to "oppress" his brother's wishes. The left is also difficult, the right is also difficult, except for crying opposite his wife, he simply does not know what to do.

When the second brother faced the marriage arranged by his grandfather, he resolutely waged a resolute struggle. He escaped from the extended family, forcing his grandfather to make concessions with the help of young friends, despite his grandfather's threat to disassociate himself from him. In the face of the grandson's resistance, the son's disgrace, the elderly patriarch finally could not support it, and the grandfather, who had worked all his life, fell ill and died, taking away the last decency of this rich gentleman's family. In the name of the "Plague of Blood and Light," the fathers sent his wife, who was about to be in the womb, to the countryside to give birth, and they did not allow him to visit. The wife had difficulty giving birth, leaving a young son to leave, leaving him to raise two chaotic children. The third brother saw through the hypocrisy and cruelty of the old family, and also broke his heart because of his cowardice, and within a few days after the end of his grandfather's funeral, he left his hometown to pursue a higher sky.

On the morning of his brother's departure, Juexin was independent of the shore, smiling and waving to him, watching the boat gradually go away. He didn't know what the outside world was like, and he only wanted his brother to take his share and fight hard to pursue the future and happiness that he could never get.

He just wants to live quietly, even if he has to accept all grievances and attacks.