One
In early 1977, Yan Chengxu was born into an ordinary family in Taoyuan County, Taiwan Province.
His family was not well-off, even poor, and he began working to subsidize his family when he was in the fifth grade.
Even more unfortunately, his father died suddenly when he was 12 years old, which made his already poor life worse, and he and his sister were raised by his mother's tailoring skills.
When he was a child, Yan Chengxu had enough of the suffering caused by poverty.
The ceiling of his home often fell cement, and the whole house was gray;
Taiwan is very hot, the family can not use the refrigerator to keep fresh food, but their family can only use the old refrigerator that no one wants, often facing the danger of aging wire leakage;
They can't afford fresh fruit, so they go to the wet market to pick up rotten fruit that no one wants...
Growing up in such a way, Yan Chengxu's early trapped life in his heart planted a seed of inferiority and sensitivity.
For example, Yan Chengxu wearing glasses is a cool cover, but he will always be suspicious because of the eyes or words of others that do not exist, and he always feels that someone is talking about him behind his back, and his beloved glasses do not dare to wear them anymore.
Because of poverty, Yan Chengxu unfortunately became an alternative among his classmates.
In high school, the school organized a trip, and the students were dressed in beautiful private clothes, so Chengxu could only wear the school uniform and be pointed out by others.
Lacking father's love since childhood, his mother was busy raising his family and neglecting to take care of him, Yan Chengxu was not only short of money, but also a little lack of love.
The lonely Yan Chengxu thus developed a strange hobby, that is, he liked to be sick very much when he was a child.
He said that because crying children have sugar to eat, illness means that they need to be taken care of, and they can show the care and compassion of the people around them.
For him at that time, a little love from others could make him happy for a long time, and his heart was as sweet as eating honey.
The children of poor families have long been in charge, and under the grind of life, Yan Chengxu has been a child of understanding and filial piety since he was a child.
When he was very young, he told himself that he wanted to be like a father, treat his mother as a sister, and protect her well.
Growing up, Yan Chengxu realized how naïve the idea of liking to be sick was, because being sick meant spending money, which could turn into a disaster for a poor family at any time.
For example, in their family, when he was sick, he never went to the hospital, and when he was a child, his father even taught himself medicine to give him needles when he was sick.
Because of years of hard work, Yan Chengxu's mother became ill with overwork and often fell ill.
Whenever this happens, a family dispute is inevitable.
Yan Chengxu wanted her mother to go to the doctor, but her mother always spent money to shirk because of her heartache, and continued to drag the sick body to work.
Childhood memories are too tragic, after debut, Yan Chengxu's first dream is to hope to earn a million to his mother.
Many years later, when Yan Chengxu, who made a lot of millions of dollars after achieving fame, recalled this incident, he still could not let go of the harm caused by poverty to his family, and could not help but cry.
Confined to poverty, Yan Chengxu's material conditions were much shorter than others, but the teenager had his own pride, and his spine had never softened.
Yan Chengxu is so strong and stubborn, he doesn't want to lose anything, he uses his fists to vent his anger, and swings his fists at all injustices and provocations.
Because of the many fights, he often had a blue nose and swollen face, and sometimes even his mother could not recognize him.
Two
Blessings and misfortunes depended on, misfortunes and blessings depended on, and as he grew up slowly, his life torn apart by poverty finally shone into a little light.
Thanks to a handsome and handsome face, 23-year-old Yan Chengxu was excavated by star scouts and entered the entertainment circle.
Debuting at the age of 23, it is indeed a little late for the star, but he is also lucky, born with red luck.
In 2001, "Meteor Garden" starring Yan Chengxu became popular all over the country as soon as it was broadcast, and he became popular with this one year after his debut, becoming the dream lover of countless young girls.
After Yan Chengxu became popular, the economic company hit the iron while it was hot, and joined him and the other three people in the play to form F4 and began the star-studded road of acting.
Facts have proved that Yan Chengxu's economic company has a fierce vision, fully explored the potential of the four young people, and made enough of the emotional value of fans.
When Yan Chengxu was active in F4, they screamed everywhere they went.
They not only broke the record for the number of celebrities who have opened their public activities since the opening of Hong Kong, but also broke the record of Jay Chou, the king of Heaven, who held concerts in Japan.
Even when they are in a foreign country, they are treated like heads of state, who have met the wife of the Prime Minister of South Korea and the Prime Minister of Japan.
Yan Chengxu also entered the Louise Wax Museum with Teresa Teng, and he was named "the man the Chinese most want to see", with countless fans and great influence in Asia.
There are not many people who are red, and the red Yan Chengxu cannot avoid being tripped by some black materials.
At that time, the young and vigorous Yan Chengxu had a fiery temper and was known as a "Tyrannosaurus Rex".
After becoming an artist, Yan Chengxu, who used to vent his dissatisfaction with his fists, although he no longer fights, he is still cynical and does not learn how to be gentle and polite.
He is cold by nature, used to treat people with a cold face, ignores people when he is unhappy, and often loses his temper inexplicably.
Such a temperament in the entertainment industry that is accustomed to smiling faces will inevitably suffer losses, Yan Chengxu has been rumored to be a lot of scandals of posing stinky faces, playing big names, and being late, the Taiwan media said that he was "difficult to engage", and the Malaysian media called him "the king of late arrivals".
Yan Chengxu also admitted that in fact, children who grew up in single-parent families are not so healthy in their hearts and will not express emotions.
Perhaps such a personality has become one of the reasons for the short-term nature of Yan Chengxu's xingtu.
Yan Chengxu has been popular for a few years, but with the era of idol dramas, the former top stream is facing unemployment.
After playing an eggplant, all the purples will find you.
After "Meteor Garden", Yan Chengxu's role is similar, nothing more than a perfect male protagonist who is cold and handsome, but no drama can reproduce the glory of "Meteor Garden" that year.
Yan Chengxu is a very strong person, inferior to himself, he often feels that he is not worthy of the position, so he has been trying to cherish what he has gained, and he is required to do his best in everything.
Under such a tense emotion, the tighter he held, the faster the things in his hands were lost.
After the continuous similar roles, the much-criticized twisted personality, the so-called feelings and filters have been consumed a little bit, and the repeatedly unambitious Yan Chengxu inevitably fell into the mud of confusion.
He didn't know how to make himself better, he was afraid that there was only praise and good sounds in his ears, and he was also afraid that the media would grab some bad things and amplify them infinitely.
He was like a weak lost and trapped beast, after a rampage, he found that he had more than enough and insufficient strength, so he could only curl up in the corner and silently lick his cracked glass heart, twisted and fragile.
After a moment of redness, Yan Chengxu shrunk into his own world, getting cooler little by little.
Three
Later, Yan Chengxu seemed to have used up the luck of "debut is the peak", for many years, he was labeled "past", most of them only mentioned another girl's name, which caused a brief wave of enthusiasm.
Yan Chengxu and Lin Chiling are models from the same company, and the two met in Weishi.
At that time, they were all small and transparent on the edge of the entertainment industry, there was no requirement that they could not fall in love, the two went with the flow, and they felt good about each other in getting along, and they had a long-term relationship.
The advantage of small transparency is that no one pays attention, so Yan Chengxu and Lin Chiling have a relatively free love period, they go shopping together, huddle in the room together to watch DVDs, enjoy the simplicity and happiness of not being disturbed.
However, soon after, Yan Chengxu became popular with the corner of the Daoming Temple, which received great attention from the media.
Yan Chengxu became the prince Daoming Temple sought after by thousands of young girls, but Lin Chiling was not the first beauty in the future.
The disparity in fame has bound two people in the ascending career, who can no longer let go of love and have to turn their relationship underground.
However, how can the media let go of the private materials of popular stars, they are eager to dig out the old bottom of others.
Later, when Lin Chiling's mobile phone was taken for repair, the person who repaired the mobile phone accidentally exposed the intimate photos of Yan Chengxu in the photo album.
A photo stirred up thousands of waves, and under the close pursuit of the media and the melon-eating masses, the news about the two people falling in love did not go away.
After being forced to make it public, the two remained secretly vague and did not explicitly admit their relationship.
The fuse that made the two people have to take the initiative to admit was Lin Chiling's "horse crash incident" in 2005.
At that time, Lin Zhiling accidentally fell off the horse while filming, breaking six ribs.
Various media stayed outside the ward, collecting first-hand information on Lin Chiling's injury while paying attention to the movements of the male protagonist Yan Chengxu.
At that time, Yan Chengxu was filming in another country, and after learning the news, he was impatient, and hurriedly called Lin Chiling remotely to find a relationship to find a hospital and arrange for someone to take care of her.
He could not hide the relationship between the two, begged and even threatened the director to let him take a leave of absence to go back, and was willing to invest in the media "net".
In the end, Yan Chengxu traveled thousands of miles and hurried back to Lin Chiling's side.
Passing through the annoying spears and short cannons, the dusty servant pushed open the door and saw the pale sweetheart on the hospital bed, Yan Chengxu's comforting words that he had thought all the way were suddenly stuck in his throat.
The man who is not good at words still chooses to express his love and concern in the usual strange way, leaving an almost accusatory opening statement:
"How come you can't take care of yourself so much!"
Later, Yan Chengxu fondly recalled the visit over the mountains:
"When the prince knew that the princess was ill, the prince was at war. The prince said that he was gone, that he was going to put aside the war, that he was going to flee, that he was going to see his princess. But his comrade-in-arms told him that now everyone outside was watching you and watching your movements. The prince escaped anyway, passing through numerous barriers and sentries, and finally reached the princess's place. Finally she knelt down and cried, and the girl cried too, because she never knew why it hurt so much for two people who loved each other to want to get close when they were suffering. ”
Seeing the last sentence, I know that these two people who have different paths are doomed to not go to the end at that age of fear of pain.
Lin Chiling is intellectually warm and swallowed, and there is water melting and ice-like tolerance, but this dissolution takes time to complete.
Yan Chengxu is irritable and acute, like a self-wrapped hedgehog, lacking patience, always pricking, not taking the initiative not to believe, afraid of being hurt a little.
The collision of the two phases is ultimately a regret, and after the meeting of climbing the mountain and wading through the water, the two people who know each other further go directly to the end.
In 2008, at a concert in Japan, Yan Chengxu said this sentence:
"I love someone very much, just like love never goes away, I want to see someone, but the other person is gone and can't see each other." 」
His affection is unquestionable, but always less courageous and responsible.
Later, on a certain fast book, the program team made things to broadcast the "prince and princess" written by Yan Chengxu that year.
Lin Zhiling was moved to tears and confessed that the separation of the two made her feel sorry.
Although it is a pity, it cannot be repeated, and everything will come to an end.
In those years together, Yan Chengxu hardly publicly acknowledged Lin Chiling's identity on any occasion, although this has long been a tacit fact.
He explained that it was because Lin Chiling was too good, and his nature was very childish, often because the other party was too good and inferior, feeling that he was not worthy of her.
But Lin Zhiling said that what she was most angry about was that he had never understood my heart.
After the breakup, the outside world has been rumored that they have signs of compounding.
Whenever the media mentioned this matter, Yan Chengxu treated it with silence, and even simply kicked the ball and threw the problem to Lin Chiling.
Not brave enough and did not know how to retain, the uncontrollable retreat of the foot, the distance between the two people more and more far, completely away from the broken mirror reunion.
Finally, in 2019, Lin Chiling let go of this 17-year-old relationship and turned around to marry Ryohei Kurosawa of Japan.
At the end of the idol drama, the pair of golden children and jade girls end with the result of a long-distance marriage to Japan and a middle-aged single.
Four
In 2020, Yan Chengxu, who had been hidden for many years, suddenly returned.
He partnered with Shen Yue, who was 20 years younger than him, and staged a bad idol drama.
The play also quotes the line from the Dominion Temple 19 years ago: "If an apology works, what do you want the police to do?"
Unfortunately, in the face of clichés and repetitions, such memories kill the opposite, killing the audience's last bit of emotion.
A year later, he appeared in variety shows and participated in "Brother With Thorns and Thorns".
In the program, big S voice helped him, and there was a sentence that was meaningful:
"He's an unfathomable dead child who makes trouble at every turn."
When people reach middle age, Yan Chengxu still has an elusive sense of brokenness.
His brokenness hurts, but there is also warmth.
Yan Chengxu often goes to the gym with an aunt sweeping the floor, and many people have a lofty arrogance in their attitude towards the aunt.
Only he would loudly greet his aunt and say hello every time.
And the aunt also repaid him with peaches, giving him a meal coupon for beef noodles, which he was very touched and regarded as a very important existence.
This man, on the one hand, is the world's first Daoming Temple, and on the other hand is the inferior and sensitive Yan Chengxu.
In the play, in reality, he interprets two completely different lives.
Everyone mocked him as a small old boy who ran away for half his life and returned to the Dominion Temple.
But I think that if he could really live to become a Daoming Temple, he would not spend his life curing his childhood, wrapping himself in a hedgehog, and greedily warming up a little.