Cheers to the past
Author: Luo Lili
Late spring night, a little cold, but not cold, just separated from you at the intersection, we walked three kilometers, the road is not long, but it is like walking for ten years.
Ten years ago, you came to my unit, and I came for more than a year. I worked with you for half a year, I am acute, you are chronic, we always joke that you are suitable for research, then the half-year report needs to use slides, but also with sound, in this small county small unit, only you have a mind to study, and then whether it is the installation of video conference rooms or the installation of work systems, you from engineering, always pay silently. Even if you are no longer in the office, sometimes people still call you to help, and you always do it silently.
We often ate together, both of whom were foreigners, both widowed at an early age, and perhaps more common language. You joked that if you couldn't get into college, you would go home and farm, and I also laughed and said that if you couldn't get into college, you might not be able to work in which place. Every year on the ninth day of the first year, you have to go home, which is your father's death day, and I have quietly written it down, and I always feel that everyone is not easy.
The following year, your girlfriend quit her job in the field, and when she came to look for you in this small town, the unit sent you to work in the city where your girlfriend had just quit her job for three months, and in the case that other colleagues did not want to go, you accepted this task, and in this year, I was called back to work overtime by the unit after just two months of giving birth, and I gladly agreed. I suddenly felt that many times, you are me, I am you.
The advanced individuals of that year did not have you, nor me, and even when you returned from other units, some colleagues complained that you had delayed your work, and you did not say anything. I said, let's have a meal together, shall we? But we were all busy on our own tracks, running, and in the end we didn't make it.
Later, you and I became deputy section chiefs at the same time, and you encouraged me to do a good job. I smiled bitterly, and unconsciously, we had become middle-aged.
When the child was sick, I also blamed myself for leaving the child before the maternity leave was over for work, and I also felt guilty that I, a workaholic, had only seen him once when my grandfather was diagnosed with cancer, and I felt that I was so hindsighted, and many things could not be regretted until I lost it.
Halfway through, I was transferred to the higher department for three months, and when I returned to the unit for a meeting, you asked me to go to dinner together. Remember that the most we went to was the "This Year" theme restaurant next to the unit, where we loved the grilled pork belly. It's usually just the two of us, and to this day, I can't remember how many times we've eaten together.
Later, we would ask two other colleagues to play badminton together after work. There was a university in the west of this small town, and we drove to the entrance of the university, and the uncle at the gate asked, "What's the matter?" You say, "Come and pick up the child." Later, we saw the questioning eyes of the uncle, although we are old, but we really do not look like the parents of college students, so every time we enter the door, the excuse became "to send something to my sister."
The hair gym is very big, but sometimes it catches the tail of the physical education class, so we play badminton on the side, and some badminton students are watching the coach do a demonstration, the coach is facing us, I think the students fall on the coach's eyes are not as much as on us. Because a lot of times we arrive here after work before we have time to change our clothes, you wear leather shoes, I wear skirts, it's really not like playing badminton. And the original intention of playing badminton is to lose weight, there are always girls shouting on the side: "Hey, you don't play so gently, otherwise how to lose weight?" "However, badminton for the purpose of weight loss always ends with eating, usually exercising for two hours, eating for one hundred and twenty minutes, and we find that in addition to the delicious grilled pork belly, the beer is also delicious, and sometimes, it is so hot that our tears flow out."
Among them, badminton stopped for a long time, and later I disbanded the badminton WeChat group.
After a long time, you try to ask me: "Do you want to reorganize badminton?" Without hesitation, I said, "Yes." Like I once deleted you and added friends later, I said, "Would you like to have a meal together?" You say, "Yes." ”
I thought we would always be so good, but we quarreled anyway. Because of the work. Finally I said, "This director, I'm not right!" You do it. You say, "Can't I do it well?" I also said: "Don't forget, our unit has been advanced for three consecutive years!" "Then I took sick leave. I was really sick and Angry that my stomach hurt.
I didn't go to work that afternoon, and you called me and apologized. I cried, why? Why should we destroy our private feelings for the sake of our work? Why has life made us like this?
That year, we were all doing a great job, but we were also busy. Your wife works in the township, because it is breastfeeding, the children and the elderly also go to the township, Chinese New Year's Eve night, the family returns to the county, you come home from overtime at eight o'clock in the evening, new year's things, the family has nothing to prepare. Too, I often work overtime in the office alone, neglecting my family and children. However, we feel that it is normal to be hard, and it is normal to be tired, because we are all the most ordinary people. As the book says, "We add sugar to our pain," and we often find happiness in the cracks of difficulties. In addition to going to the university in the west to play badminton as usual, sometimes we also go to the tea room next to the school to drink tea and cards, and also go to the pedestrian street to drink coffee, fried skewers next to the coffee house, twenty yuan can buy a large box, every time, we forget the hardships of life.
Today's dinner, it is a farewell, you are leaving, I think it is not a bad thing, but you always say sad. We asked for two bottles of beer. You say it's easy to get drunk when you're sad. The hot pot we want is so spicy, I said this is very good, when crying can be said to be spicy tears, not too embarrassing. You said that you didn't expect us to argue, quarrel, delete each other, or often sit together and eat. I said that's because the charm of rice is great. You say, "I'm gone, will you miss me?" I said, "You are so nostalgic, so why did you argue with me because of your work?" Then we all laughed.
After dinner, neither of us drove, walked back to the unit, and when you saw a dog on the road, you tugged at my sleeve, and when I crossed the road, I tugged at the corner of your coat. Yes, we don't have any intimate contact, just a relatively close heart.
Running to each other, the tears of late arrival still fall on this cool spring night, and we miss not only the time of working together, but also youth. The old wolf sang in "Youth Without Regret": "The beginning of the beginning is that we sing, and the last one, we are walking." In fact, we are afraid, afraid of "gently, I go, just as I come gently", afraid of "returning, there is no wind or rain and no sunshine". Tonight, I dried this cup of wine, for each other's grand deeds, I dried this cup of wine, and I toasted with the past forever.
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