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Xiaoxiao has been in Shenzhen for 5 years, and her monthly salary has not exceeded 10,000.
Friends in their hometown have been advising Xiaoxiao to go back quickly, they can introduce a relatively stable job, they can also introduce boyfriends, get married and have children.
Their common tone is: you see you, you are 30 years old, there are no achievements, and you are not in a hurry to find a good partner. More than 30, no man wants, only married divorced people with children.
Every time she heard this, Xiaoxiao just laughed, didn't refute it, and didn't agree, but who knew the fear in her heart.
Xiaoxiao's attitude towards her original family is one of fear, which is why she didn't go back.
Her parents are a typical couple who have lived together.
In Xiaoxiao's memory, his parents rarely had sweet moments and had been arguing and fighting.
When Xiaoxiao was a child, every quarrel between her parents ended with her mother returning to her mother's house. When she grew up, Xiaoxiao became the one caught between her parents.
Causing XiaoXiao to go south to Shenzhen, the fuse was a slap.
During the National Day holiday 5 years ago, Xiaoxiao's parents quarreled again.
The reason for the quarrel is nothing more than that the mother dislikes the father's incompetence, and the father feels that the mother always runs out and does not care about the family at all.
Noisy, the mother went back to the room to lock the door, and the father asked Xiaoxiao to persuade the mother to open the door. Xiaoxiao knocked on the door for a while, and after her mother opened the door, she slapped Xiaoxiao.
This slap confused Xiaoxiao. Just that afternoon, a friend asked Xiaoxiao: Do you want to come to Shenzhen?
Within a few days, Xiaoxiao arrived in Shenzhen and never went back.
For more than 5 years, Xiaoxiao has not been quiet. From time to time, I receive calls from my parents, saying that I will say that I will go, or those, which makes Xiaoxiao annoyed.
After receiving another complaint from her father, Xiaoxiao bought a bottle of wine, drank it on the balcony of the rental house, facing the lights of Wanjia in Shenzhen.
Then the parents' contact information was all blacked out, and the world was finally quiet.
Xiao Xiao was extremely awake at that moment, trapping himself in the past, which was not a good thing. She decided to give up everything in the past and gain a foothold in this city, five years is not enough, ten years, ten years is not enough, just fifteen years.
All in all, wouldn't go back again.
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There are four seasons of spring, summer, autumn and winter in a year, and there are 365 days and nights. At the end of each year, the social platform is full of new year flag sounds, and then greeted with a face punch, enjoy it.
We always hope that tomorrow, next month, and next year will be a new self, but time is passing, and we are always indulging in the joys, pains, and sorrows of the past.
In the e-sports-themed TV series "Crossfire", Lu Xiaobei indulged in the death of his brother Lu Xiaonan in the first 10 episodes and could not get out.
In 2008, the development of domestic e-sports belonged to the extensive stage. Lu Xiaonan is the captain of the Dragon Travel Team, and on the way to watch the opponent's game, he unfortunately died in a car accident.
In 2019, Lu Xiaobei wanted to inherit his brother's will and set up a team to play games. But in the shadow of his brother's death, Xiao Bei played unhappily and had to fight with his father.
Until the time and space intersected, he met Xiao Feng in 2008 in the game, and asked Xiao Feng to stop his brother from watching the game.
History has not changed, but Xiao Feng took Xiao Bei when he was a child to see his brother for the last time, and Xiao Bei's heart knot was completely put down and he fought for himself!
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There is nothing that cannot be stepped over, indulging in sad past, and putting a shackle on yourself that cannot be broken.
The shackles will get heavier and heavier until they crush themselves completely.
Indulging in the happiness of the past will make you dissatisfied with the present, feel that you have failed, and fall into the mood of self-loathing.
My high school classmate Dan Dan often said that she was very good at painting in junior high school, won awards, and still has her own paintings in the high school exhibition room.
But when asked how Dan Dan was painting now, she either changed the subject or said that she had stopped painting for a long time.
Everyone thinks it's a pity that the painting is so good, why not paint it?
In fact, behind a person who always says that he has succeeded in the past is that he is not satisfied with his current life.
Dan Dan's life is indeed not smooth, the work is diligent and earnest, but there is no bright spot, and there is no hope of promotion and salary increase. The boyfriend he had made had been graduating for several years, and he was still as naïve as a child, and he often made Dan Dan feel big.
The bitterness of the moment makes Dan Dan miss the sweetness of the past more and more.
Later, on Dan Dan's birthday, several friends gave Dan Dan a hand-drawn board, so that she could draw two strokes when she was fine or upset, and not to indulge in the past.
The past is like smoke, let her drift away with the wind.
Life is a long way, there are many landscapes in the future, why should we miss the scenery of the past on the next road.
Memories are a terrible thing.
There's a saying on the Internet that says it right:
If a person begins to reminisce about the past, it means that he is beginning to grow old. The long river of years, cold and merciless, always makes people feel the waves of the past.
Let us toast the past a glass of wine, thank the past for the good, let us be happy, thank the sadness of the past, let us grow, and never look back from now on.
May you not be trapped in love, not confused in your heart, not thinking about the past, not afraid of the future, so that you are well.