We say, "Death and death are big things," we see life and death as the top priority in life, and the protagonist of the movie "The Train Driver's Diary" Ilya confessed: "My father and I have killed 53 people, 40 men, 13 women, plus my grandfather a total of 66 people." He added: "We have never been convicted because we have not sinned in the first place." "As train drivers, they can always meet unruly pedestrians, each driver has to kill no less than twenty people in his lifetime, hitting people has become an important indicator of their performance appraisal, and facing death is part of the work of this strange father and son."
The protagonist of the movie "Train Driver's Diary" is a pair of adoptive fathers and sons, an abandoned little boy named Sima who walks on the rails to prepare for suicide, this scene is very similar to the scene of four boys traveling together in "Walk with Me", but when they are also facing the roaring train, the four boys choose to run away and escape, while the 10-year-old boy in this film chooses to stand there and wait for death, fortunately, the driver Ilya stepped on the brakes in time.
Ilya first rescued the little boy on the railroad tracks to give him a way to live, then provided him with education and growth, and after graduation, he found a stable job for him and taught him how to get along with people. As an adoptive father, Ilya's deeds can be called benevolent, but his troubles did not end there. Sima insisted on being a train driver, and after some tossing and turning, the novice driver finally hit the road, who ever thought that he never hit anyone and became a new nightmare for Sima to do so.
The old drivers all told Sima that hitting people was fate, and the novice driver had driven safely for six months without taking "a blood". This became the sword of Damocles hanging above Sima's head, and as long as his train did not hit anyone for a day, he would spend the day in fear of "about to hit someone". The torture day after day drove Sima crazy, and he frequently got out of the car to check every intersection and turn. In the face of Ilya's inquiry, he even frantically said: "I have to kill something... Preferably the kind of half-dead old man! Let my wheels tear them to shreds! ”
In order to save her adopted son, who is on the verge of collapse, the elderly Ilya decides to be killed by Sima on the tracks. In fact, Ilya had always had suicidal thoughts, hallucinations and illnesses that had been tormenting the old man, and he and Sima might be able to be relieved by this opportunity, but the development of events was far from as smooth as expected. Ilya had persuaded a man who was going to jump off a bridge to commit suicide the next day so that he could be killed by the train driven by Sima, and he was even willing to give up all his money as a reward, but the other party gave up the idea of suicide.
In desperation, Ilya put on a neat suit, said goodbye to her lover in the illusion for the last time, and walked onto the railroad tracks, lying calmly on the sleepers waiting for death to come. The story develops to this point, whether Ilya is eventually hit by a car or luckily escapes, it is enough to earn tears. However, the development of the film is unexpected - there are no spoilers here, please see the movie for details. In the movie, Sima failed to step on the brakes in time and was stepped on by the screenwriter, and we finally laughed again after taking a tissue and preparing to cry.
The story sounds absurd, but this is the dilemma faced by the train driver: just like every lawyer has to go through the first defeat, every actor will usher in the first forgotten word, and hitting and killing passers-by walking on the tracks is the inevitable fate of the driver. Ilya had killed the neighbor's only son, the neighbor had killed his grandmother, and even Ilya's long-cherished girlfriend had died under the wheel. When psychologists listened to Ilya paint a vivid description of the tragic death of six gypsies, they almost collapsed, and Ilya, who was supposed to be helped, skillfully channeled them, and the strange and bitter humor revealed in The Train Driver's Diary belonged not only to every train driver who was saddled with suffering, but also to the old father who was determined to fulfill his adopted son KPI with his own death.
The frequent accidents on the tracks are the dereliction of duty of the management of the transportation department and the consequence of the irregularities of the pedestrians who have been hit, and it is the innocent train drivers who ultimately bear these tragedies. Even after decades of tempering, they can talk about their "achievements" in a light and breezy tone, but the fear and pain in their hearts cannot be erased. It was because of his deep love for Sima that Ilya tried to prevent him from choosing the same profession as himself, and in the end, the adoptive father Ilya, who was not good at words, did not explain, and life taught him.
In the confession at the end of "Train Driver's Diary", the number of people killed by four generations of drivers in the Ilya family will rise to 75, and there is no doubt that this number will continue to grow. This time Ilya said: "We didn't commit a crime, but we're really sorry. "It's not difficult to apologize, it's not difficult to forget, what's hard is to have the courage to face life, face the death of others and your own survival." In this pair of adoptive fathers and sons, we can truly feel the weight of life, and the father's love is not limited to the blood-related biological father and son, and the inheritance of this spiritual power of reverence for life is undoubtedly the most moving power of the father's love.
"Life is like a journey against the grain, and I am also a pedestrian." I hope that you will pay attention to safety, walk on the road where you should go, don't run to the tracks if you have nothing to do, care for the healthy growth of train drivers, and let the old father worry less about it!