Life, like walking in an alley, each lane may be another exit, or it may be a dead end.
Being born in a family that is different from the average person is the first trick in my life;
Falling in love with you is the second lane in my life;
The destined three hundred and sixty kilometers is the third lane of my life;
Losing you is the fourth lane of my life;
The death of my mother is the fifth lane of my life;
In these five lanes, I couldn't see the so-called exit, and what appeared in front of me was a dead end.
It's time to end, it's time to say goodbye.
Goodbye, world, is the sixth lane of my life.
"Six Lane Cafe"
My name is Guan Min Green, and they all call me Little Green.
The world is ridiculous to me, and from the day I was born, I was destined to suffer from it all.
Being born in a family that is different from the average person is the first thing in my life. My mother divorced my father and raised me alone. (The film simplifies the protagonist's origin, gets rid of all kinds of trivialities, and is more direct)
But there is no need to grieve for this, though she is alone, but she is still as strict and loving as other mothers, more severe, more loving.
It's just that I didn't understand it then.
Fortunately, there was a nemesis Ah Zhi (Xiao Bozhi), so that my childhood and youth did not leave too miserable memories. We grew up together, went to school together, and we were so similar except for our families, which made me wonder why our lives were so different.
Is it just because the people you like are different?
Falling in love with her is the second trick in my life.
We are young and crazy, we have a crush, everyone comes this way, I like Xinrui, Ah Zhi likes Xinyi.
Xinrui seemed to know that I liked her, but she didn't seem to know. But fortunately, there is Ah Zhi, a wingman, who successfully helped me meet my heart, of course, without my own charming charm, after my true confession essay, she agreed. (The movie changed this place to better effect)
However, the love between the bully and the scum seems to be doomed to not go to the end. Xinrui also seemed to have expected it all, clearly understanding all this, but she still chose to believe first, and I knew nothing about this, just blindly believed, believing that everything could be changed.
But the result will not deceive people, Xinrui was admitted to the university in Taipei, and I can only stay in Kaohsiung, we are three hundred and sixty kilometers apart.
This damn, doomed three hundred and sixty kilometers is the third lane of my life.
The three hundred and sixty kilometers from Kaohsiung to Taipei seem to be a long distance that cannot be close, no matter how hard we try, because it is full of unknowns that cannot be understood.
Xinrui saw these unknowns, and I only saw the distance. I believe that as long as we work to earn money to buy a ticket to see her, our distance will be closer, but it will backfire, but it will lack understanding of her, and the distance will be farther.
The unknowns at a distance cannot be solved, but it seems that the short distance can be solved, and someone has filled the gap of our long distance and created a knowable number.
"Actually... What you need is not to think about who to choose, but to think about what love is for you. If your heart is empty just because of the distance, and the feeling will occur when someone accompanies you, then your concept of love may have a big problem. No matter how far away, I love you, this is my concept of love, I don't think distance is a problem. ”
"You're right, but, Min Green, love can only be produced by two people. If two people have the same concept, then maybe the problem does not exist, and no couple will break up.
——An excerpt from Fujii's "Six Lane Cafe"
As she expected, as fate was destined, the unknown that could not be solved was doomed to be unsolved.
Losing her is the fourth lane of my life.
Her ideal is to open a café that sells cappuccinos that are not very sweet, to go abroad, to see the world, her world is very big, and for me, Kaohsiung is my world, the world is so big.
Is this the distance between us?
All her worries and fears were due to the fear of separation, but when there was a way to solve the problem of separation, she felt that it was not a solution. She doesn't like the fate that is deliberately put together, so if the fate deliberately arranges for us to be separated, at that time, can she gladly accept such a result?
I don't accept it, but I don't have a choice, and as she said, love can only be produced by two people, one side is broken, and the other can only be chosen.
There is also a choice, which is death, quietly.
The death of my mother is the fifth lane of my life.
When I was immersed in the world of Peace and Heart, I left my mother far behind, forgetting that despite the fighting, as long as it was not my fault, my mother would still have a concerned look, forgetting her inner expectations of me.
Even after Xinrui left, I still couldn't break free from that world and looked back at my mother who was still behind me. In my opinion, my mother is an omnipotent being, she is the nemesis of any problem, otherwise she would not have raised me alone.
However, I was wrong, life is much more fragile than I thought, let alone such a life that has been plagued by wind and frost.
The two most important women of my life left me.
When a person is faced with the reality of a dead end, is there still a chance to choose? Still need a choice?
Do you still want to live strongly?
Why bother?
In this way, my short life has no nostalgia, the dry world will be left to Ah Zhi, and the café of xinrui will be handed over to him, and he will help me complete it.
After the fireworks promised to the heart, all the promises I had made have been fulfilled, and I will no longer fail anyone, and I can leave with the last guilt and thoughts.