Everything came so suddenly, as if the fall of three thousand feet, so floating, so empty, so long, made me feel frightened and helpless, if I had the choice, I really hoped that in an instant I fell to the ground, and the direct pain might be more comfortable.
marry? What an enviable word, she told me in a tone of happiness and love: I have found someone who has been entrusted with my life, and I have found someone who will not let go for a lifetime. And that person is not me. Suddenly my mind was in a mess, and I thought I would easily and naturally say the two words "congratulations" without even the strength to move, as if my soul had been sucked away in an instant, and I wanted to let time stagnate at this moment.
Loving her exhausted all my passion and courage, leaving me with no spare strength to enjoy the taste of love and being loved, and I could no longer enjoy the process of fruitless love, and I began to envy her that he was so happy.
My love seems to give to nothingness and also to emptiness. I once wanted to find someone I liked to love her tenderly, and I was also loved by her, but now this love has become a disturbance. Perhaps because the time and place of love are not suitable, we are blocked outside the door of the red carpet. Echo that saying: Always meet the right person at the wrong time. In fact, I was wrong, love is not the time and place is inappropriate, there is a "feeling" of this thing, feeling in, love will not go far, just as she told me that she found someone to marry, although only known for a week, but seems to have a lifelong feeling. I knew it was not surprising that I could fall in love with someone for a minute, but I still couldn't accept the fact that my heart was like a burning glass thrown into the cold lake, making a cracking sound, and a kind of fear and pain that had never been felt before struck my whole body - my heart was broken.
For a long time afterwards I slept under the anesthesia of alcohol, but I woke up in pain. When I woke up in the dream, I sobbed, and my ears were ringing: I have found the person who has entrusted my life, and I have found someone who will never let go for a lifetime. Broken pieces of love, coinciding with the stabbing at me, the pain is so hissing and cracking my lungs, so that I don't even have the strength to cry, I am laboriously driving away those fragments, don't feel the taste of heartache anymore! The hand did not listen to the call unconsciously grasped the chest, trying to dig out something, it was so uncomfortable, I blamed myself why I couldn't turn around and leave?
She once told me that she is the ocean, the water, and I am the sky, the sky in the water, and now she tells me that "in fact, forgetting is the best, there is never a sky in the water." I stubbornly protested and opposed. Perhaps, what we once gave each other may be a warm comfort. But there is a sky in the water, and there is always a "reflection" of the sky in the water, which is just as beautiful and moving.
My love for her, she may never understand, and she will never forget it in her lifetime...