The next morning, Gao Yinghua found the Qin family, who knew that Qin Nan had already taken the morning bus to Suzhou.
In suzhou in the spring, the scenery is pleasant, but Qin Nan has no intention of touring, and hurriedly walks towards his uncle's house under the mountain above. She walked to the door of her uncle's house, and first looked inside, and a five-year-old boy was feeding the chickens, and she cried out excitedly.
Dongdong is her son, and she comes to Suzhou once or twice a month to visit Dongdong.
Hearing the kind shout, Dong Dongfei pounced on him, kissed Qin Nan's face, and sweetly called out to his mother, mother.
In the blink of an eye, two days had passed, and Qin Nan was afraid that his son would be sad when he left, so he had to take advantage of the fact that his son was still asleep and leave fiercely.
Qin Nan returned from Suzhou, it was raining, and there were no stalls on the road. Gao Zhihua took the initiative to help her move the sewing machine into her house.
Gao Zhihua saw that the sewing machine was not very flexible, so he overhauled it and casually asked Qin Nan why he often went to Suzhou?
Qin Nan was shocked, thinking that Gao Zhihua already knew her secret, and immediately said in disguise, Oh, my uncle is in Suzhou.
Gao Zhihua fiddled with the sewing machine, hesitated for a while, and finally plucked up the courage to say, Qin Nan, I bought two movie tickets for tonight, and I want to invite you.
No, I don't go. Qin Nan felt inappropriate, and immediately said, Oh, I have something to do tonight. Fortunately, the postman shouted outside the door, Gao Zhihua, letter, which made him get out of the predicament.
Gao Zhihua opened the letter and read a few lines, cried out in surprise, ah, threw down the letter and left angrily.
Qin Nan picked up the letter and looked at it carefully, only to learn that the letter was written by Xiao Jian, who was sent to labor camp because of his involvement in illegal transactions, hoping that Gao Zhihua would take care of his sister, Xiao Yun, on his behalf.
Qin Nan immediately rushed to the outskirts to visit Xiao Yun. Xiao Yun was a disabled person with inconvenient legs, qin Nan handed her the prepared clothes, and comforted her, your brother went out, it may take a long time.
However, the neighborhood committee had already informed her of Xiao Jian's matter. She was very sad about her brother's behavior, but she was very optimistic and said, I will wait for him to come back, I believe he will be a man again, a person is not afraid of falling, as long as he has the courage to stand up.
Xiao Yun was very grateful to Qin Nan and braved the heavy rain to see her. Qin Nan said, It was Gao Zhihua who asked me to come to see you, he has been very busy lately, and he will come to see you in the future.
Since then, Qin Nan has often taken time to visit Xiao Yun. She saw Xiao Yun's optimistic and tenacious spirit, which also made her have courage and perseverance.
Once, Dongdong got acute pneumonia and was admitted to the hospital. The child was not by her side, Qin Nan couldn't calm down, she thought about it. I felt that I could no longer live in hiding like this, and I wanted to bring Dongdong back to Shanghai.
Uncle, aunt is very worried, afraid that mother and son will be bullied, Qin Nan said, uncle, I have thought about this repeatedly, anyway, I can't go on like this anymore.
The grandson entered the house, but he was happy to spoil the grandfather. He went to the street to buy a lot of toys for Dongdong, and Dongdong was even more grandfather, and grandpa kept shouting.
Qin Nan's face burst into a comfortable smile, and for the first time she felt that this home was full of warmth.
The next morning, Qin Nan led Dongdong out of the house and met his neighbor, Aunt You. She asked curiously, whose child is this, Qin Nan said frankly, it is my child.
Qin Nan didn't go far, and Aunt You said this news every time. The more she spoke, the more bizarre it became, and the more she said it, the more ugly it became.
Gao Zhihua was also very surprised to hear that Dongdong was Qin Nan's child.
Mother Gao was even more surprised to sink her face, and only half a sound did she say to Qin Nan, I didn't think you already had such a big child, and went upstairs alone.
After a while, Gao Zhihua walked up to Dongdong and asked, What about your father? Dongdong said, I don't have a dad, my dad is dead.
Gao Zhihua no longer asked, he guessed that Qin Nan had many unspeakable secrets, so he sat silently and pondered, and he realized that he did not know qin nan.
He wrote to his sister about the bitterness in his heart, and said that his mother had not spoken to him for many days.
These days, some people in Li Langzhong have made more accusations against Qin Nan, and she has endured silently, and she has long been prepared for this kind of thinking.
When the father heard those evil words, he was very worried that his daughter would not be able to stand it, so he persuaded that in our country today, the remnants of feudal thinking are still very serious, especially in a situation like yours, I am afraid of you.
Qin Nan expressed his determination, and the father nodded, Child, if you think like this, I will be relieved. Qin Nan immediately threw himself on his father and began to cry softly.
This afternoon, Dongdong was playing with leather balls at the door, and Aunt You's grandson Lei Lei came forward to scramble, and the two twisted on the ground.
Qin Nan saw it and hurriedly persuaded the two children to leave, and Dongdong cried and said that he grabbed my ball and hit me.
Lei Lei knew that he was wrong, but blurted out, your ball, you are a wild species.
This kind of inaccessible insult made Qin Nan freeze, and she couldn't say anything in anger.
Immediately, more and more people were watching, but fortunately, Aunt Zhou rushed to persuade Aunt You to calm down the storm.
That night, Aunt Zhou called Qin Nan to her home, told her that the street organization had criticized Aunt You, and advised her not to take the matter to heart.
Aunt Zhou said with concern, Xiao Qin! What will you do next? Dragging a child, I think the little tall child is good, honest and generous, often mention you in front of me.
Qin Nan then said, Mother Zhou, their family is good to me, I am very grateful, but since Dongdong came, they seem to say, how to say? Aunt Zhou then said, Xiao Qin, you don't have to suffer yourself anymore, xiao Gao's matter you consider considering.
A few days later, Gao Zhihua received a letter from Xiao Jian, in which he thanked him for often taking care of Xiao Yun. Gao Zhihua felt strange, he had not been there, who went to see Xiao Yun?
Gao Zhihua immediately rushed to Xiao Yun's house, saw Xiao Yun's current situation, and said very apologetically, Xiao Yun. I don't know you are? I'm so sorry I never came to see you.
Xiao Yun didn't mind saying, What is this? You let Qin Nan care about me, isn't it the same? Gao Zhihua was surprised, what? Qin Nan.
Xiao Yun excitedly told him that Qin Nan came to see her every week, washed her clothes, washed her quilts, cleaned up the room, and bought her books and pens. She said from the bottom of her heart that Qin Nan had such deep trauma in her heart and cared for me so enthusiastically, and I felt very warm in my heart.
Gao Zhihua was deeply shaken by Qin Nan's beautiful heart, and he wanted to learn from Qin Nan's example and make a car for Xiao Yun for the disabled to make up for his past concern for Xiao Yun.
Back at home, seeing that Qin Nan was working, he excitedly walked up to her and thanked her for taking the initiative to take care of Xiao Yun.
Qin Nan smiled lightly, what is this? Xiao Jian is also my friend, and I should take care of his sister.
Gao Zhihua was just about to talk about his heart, but unexpectedly Dongdong snuggled up next to Qin Nan and coddled him, making it impossible for him to open his mouth and stop talking.
After a while, Gao Zhihua found that a part had been taken by Dongdong to play with, and angrily complained, "How do you mess with my things?"
Dongdong dodged backwards in fear, accidentally fell on the wheel, and cried out in pain.
Qin Nan hurried over, lifted the child up, and said, What are you doing here? If you have an opinion on me, why do you take the gas out of your child? Gao Zhihua said with some regret, Qin Nan, don't misunderstand.
Qin Nan then said, I misunderstood something, since Dongdong came, I know that you look down on me. She quickly packed up her things and prepared to move out of gao's house.
Gao Zhihua was anxious to speak from his heart, I think. You've put your heart on your child. Qin Nan said bluntly, I am his mother, and of course my heart is in him.
Gao Zhihua further said, I hope you understand me, do not go. Qin Nan knew Gao Zhihua's sincerity, but what should he do in the long run? It's a real dilemma.
Gao's mother was also worried about her son's marriage, and she went around asking people to introduce suitable people. But Gao Zhihua didn't even want to meet, so anxious that Gao's mother had to say directly, Xiao Qin's matter, you gave me this heart to die early.
Gao Zhihua turned to his mother and said, "I don't care about my business." Mother Gao was also angry, you are my son, you have to listen to me.
Gao Zhihua persuaded me to listen to you in everything, but in this matter, I can't let your feudal thoughts determine my fate. Mother and son could not talk together.
The next day, Gao Zhihua specially took Dongdong to the playground and took a spaceship ride, and Dongdong was very happy to play.
Gao's mother was very unhappy when she heard that her son took Dongdong out to play. She thought about it for a while, and finally said to Qin Nan, there is a sentence that I don't know if I should talk about it.
Qin Nan said, Mother Gao, if you have anything to say, just say it, if I have something wrong with it. Mother Gao said busily, there is nothing wrong with you.
She sighed and looked embarrassed. I am a young widow, only a son like Zhihua, your sewing stall, if you can find a good place.
Qin Nan fully understood the meaning of the old man, stood up and said, Mother Gao, you don't have to say it, I am going to find a place. After saying that, he quickly packed up his things and left the Gao family.
Walking to the door, Gao Zhihua happened to be holding Dongdong back. She took the child, suppressed her feelings, and said, Dongdong, go home.
Gao Zhihua asked her incomprehensibly. What's going on? Qin Nan wanted to say something, but he held back again. Bowing his head, I'll move the sewing machine in a moment.
Gao Zhihua ran back to the house and asked, Mom, what happened? Qin Nan seemed very sad. Mother Gao was speechless and began to cry.
After Gao Zhihua understood the truth of the matter, she was very dissatisfied with her mother's approach. That day, he went to consult with Yinghua, what to do in the future?
Yinghua firmly supported his brother, saying that he wanted to enlighten his mother's feudal ideas. Yinghua felt that Qin Nan was traumatized in her heart, did not believe that anyone would love her, and did not have the courage to dare to love her. Yinghua encouraged his brother that he should tell Qin Nan what he had said in his heart as soon as possible. Gao Zhihua nodded.
In order to understand his mother's thoughts, Yinghua took a leave of absence and rushed home. Gao's mother also regretted that she should not have said such a thing, which hurt Qin Nan's heart, but she was very worried about her son's marriage. Yinghua said, I think my brother is doing the right thing, he will not easily like a person.
Yinghua saw that her mother was silent, so she continued, Mom, you are a woman yourself, why should you look down on women? As long as your brother is willing, what do you care about him? Gao's mother could not withstand her daughter's persuasion, and finally relaxed, you dead, I can't say you. Well, your brother's business, I don't care.
Yinghua happily ran downstairs to tell his brother that his mother had agreed, and now you should take some fighting spirit and take the initiative to attack Qin Nan, wishing you success.
As soon as Yinghua left, Qin Nan panicked and came to the door and asked, Dongdong, has he ever been here? Gao Zhihua said, No? Qin Nan cried out, saying that Dongdong was gone and could not be found everywhere. Mother Gao advised her not to worry and asked Gao Zhihua to take her with her to find it.
Gao Zhihua ran sweating profusely, and finally asked about his whereabouts at the police station. Dongdong was injured by a cyclist and has been taken to the central hospital.
The mother and son of the Gao family accompanied Qin Nan to the hospital to visit the injured Dongdong. Qin Nan was anxious and tired, dizzy, and could not support it. Gao Zhihua asked his mother to send Qin Nan home to rest, and he stayed behind to take care of Dongdong.
That night. Qin Nan couldn't sleep, she was worried about Dongdong, and she remembered Gao Zhihua's deep affection for herself. Her ears seemed to ring aunt Zhou's words, small high things, you consider it.
Early in the morning, she rushed to the hospital, and when she pushed open the door of the ward, she heard Dongdong asking Gao Zhihua, uncle, just now the little friend asked me, are you my father? I said yes, you won't scold me!
Gao Zhihua asked him, why are you lying? Dongdong said timidly, I am afraid that he will scold me for wild seeds. Gao Zhihua wrapped his arms around Dongdong in pain.
Qin Nan personally saw the intimate appearance of Gao Zhibi and Dongdong, and seemed to have a feeling of relief and solidity.
Dongdong was discharged from the hospital, and Gao Zhihua plucked up the courage to show his heart to Qin Nan. Qin Nan said earnestly, Wait until you understand my past!
When the three returned home, Qin Nan finally made up his mind and handed an old diary to Gao Zhihua and asked him to take it back to read. Gao Zhihua solemnly took the diary.
Gao Zhihua opened the diary, which was well-written, recording Qin Nan's bumpy experience.
When Qin Nan joined the team in the countryside, he was discriminated against because of his bad birth. Meng Bin, a young man in the same team, has overseas connections because they have encountered the same situation, prompting them to be together often.
Meng Bin's father was in business in Canada, and he grew up with his grandfather. His grandfather was placed under quarantine for foreign charges. He felt that his fate was too bad and had lost confidence in almost everything.
Over time, the two developed feelings. After the overthrow of the Gang of Four, Meng Bin's father completed immigration procedures for him and told him to go to Canada. Meng Bin said with great joy, I will go to settle down first, and I will come to pick you up and our children immediately. Qin Nan felt as if he were dreaming.
After Meng Bin left, Qin Nan waited for his news with tears every day, but there was no news. When she was about to give birth, she had to move to her uncle's house in Suzhou. In that bitter winter, the child was born.
After Qin Nan gave the diary to Gao Zhihua, he was always nervous and uneasy, and he always felt that time passed very slowly. She took the initiative to knock on the door of the Gao family and pushed that she would make a dress at night. But somehow? The hand is shaking, and the needle and thread cannot penetrate the needle eye.
Gao Zhihua asked with concern, is that Meng Bin no longer in the news? Qin Nan pulled out a letter and said that when Dongdong was two years old, he sent the first and last letter from Canada.
After reading the letter, Gao Zhihua realized that meng Bin had been abroad for less than two months, and he had obeyed his father's orders to marry a young lady Kuo, saying that he wanted to use money to make up for his mistakes against Qin Nan. Gao Zhihua said with disdain that he was still alive.
But he died in my heart long ago, Qin Nan said with tears in my eyes, I really wanted to die at that time, but when I think about it again, the child is innocent, it is the child who awakens my responsibility as a mother, for the sake of Dongdong, I forced myself to live.
After understanding Qin Nan's experience, Gao Zhihua's eyes were moist, he really fell in love with Qin Nan, and said from the bottom of his heart, Qin Nan, you have been too bitter all these years.
Gao Zhihua handed Qin Nan a handkerchief to wipe his tears, and Qin Nan gently asked, Xiao Gao, are you good to me, are you pitiful to me and Dongdong?
Gao Zhihua interrupted her and said, No, no, why do you think so? Since I met you, especially after I met Xiao Yun, I understand that you are a person who respects your feelings, and Meng Bin not only does not respect yourself, but also disrespects others.
Qin Nan said frankly, Meng Bin and I are hard together, that is not love, no, today I am no longer willing to take this painful road. Gao Zhihua replied simply, Qin Nan, I understand.
Qin Nan asked again, Meng Bin is a poor worm who only believes in fate, Xiao Gao, do you believe in fate? Gao Zhihua smiled, I believe, I only believe that the country is good, we are fine, this is our destiny.
Qin Nan was infected by his truthful words, and unconsciously laughed, wondering, how did I say everything to you today? Gao Zhihua also smiled, I understand.
Qin Nan asked him, what do you understand? Gao Zhihua said, anyway, I understand, you also understand. What followed was silence. The two sat facing each other for a long, long time.