#头条创作挑战赛#
Downstairs in the hotel, Zhang Ya crept upstairs with her sisters who had a good relationship, and as soon as the waiter opened her mouth, a big red hundred-yuan bill was stuffed into her hand. The waiter hurriedly shut up and found an excuse to hide.
Zhang Ya's original name was actually Zhang Ya, and her current name was changed when she went to the police station when she was eighteen years old and an adult. She is the second oldest in the family, with an older sister above and a younger brother below, and she is the least welcome to adults. Her marriage is also the least optimistic about her family, but she is as stubborn as a donkey. I got pregnant before I got married. In those relatively conservative years, her mother slapped her several times with hatred, but it still failed to break her determination to marry each other.
In this way, the mother and daughter have been separated from each other ever since. Didn't move for years. It wasn't until her man made some money in business that she returned home in a car.
It is said that it is easy to share hardships and hardships, but it is difficult to share wealth and prosperity. Zhu Qiang is a tossing character, and within a few years, he scattered all the accumulated wealth.
The two returned to their original lives, but they did not love each other as much as they did at the beginning. Zhang Ya complained that men shouldn't toss around, and men thought that Zhang Ya had long hair and short knowledge. The tenderness and sweetness of the past are exhausted in the quarrels day after day. When Zhang Ya found out that Zhu Qiang had a different heart, he was already fighting with a third party.
Zhang Ya hated, hated him for failing him, hated himself for never giving up on him. How much she wants to call her brother to beat Zhu Qiang hard, she has this capital, and there are several uncles and brothers in her mother's family.
But the first thing that came to mind was the mother's face with a mocking smile. She was scared, afraid that if she didn't get helpers, she would make people laugh. So even if it is to catch the rape, she does it carefully.
The school bell rang, and the students left one after another. Zhu Tingting waited from dawn to dark and did not see her family to pick her up. She is already a junior high school student and can already go to and from school on her own. But the school didn't allow it, so she could only sit in the communication room and watch the cars outside the window slowly approach and silently withdraw from her sight.
"Classmate, why don't you call your parents and ask? The security guard didn't know how many times he looked at the phone screen, and finally raised his head and said to Zhu Tingting.
"I've called a long time ago, but my mom's phone is off. My dad's has never been answered. Zhu Tingting responded with her mouth, but her eyes looked ahead emptyly.
I don't know how long later, there was an intermittent sound of horns outside the door. Zhu Tingting hurriedly raised her head and wiped the saliva secreted by her face because she was sleeping on the table.
"Tingting, Zhu Tingting......" Zhu Qiang patted and shouted through the railing.
"Alright, stop screaming. If you call the dogs around the school again, you're going to wake them up. Zhu Tingting picked up some schoolbags and opened the door angrily and got into the car.
"Who is this aunt? It can't be the tutor you hired for me, right?" Zhu Tingting found that her exclusive passenger seat was occupied as soon as she pulled the car door, and immediately sneered.
"Late autumn, don't care. My daughter was taught by her mother that she was neither big nor small. Zhu Qiang first apologized to the woman with a smile. Then he turned his face to look at Zhu Tingting and scolded angrily: "How can you talk to your Aunt Chen? ”
Although Zhu Qiang has a bad relationship with his wife Zhang Ya, he has always been very doting on his daughter, and he has never spoken loudly, let alone reprimanded. Now that she yelled at her for a strange woman, Zhu Tingting was so angry that she slammed the car door and left.
"Tingting, Zhu Tingting, you stop me!" Zhu Tingting walked alone for a while before Zhu Qiang caught up and stopped her.
"I'm divorced from your mother. The house our family rented has been surrendered. Your mother doesn't want custody of you, and we will have to live with your Aunt Chen in the future. So you can't go on like this anymore. Zhu Qiang's words were concise and to the point, and every word was thrown like a bomb in the softest position in Zhu Tingting's heart.
Her parents are divorced, her mother doesn't want her anymore, her father has a new love, and she still has to live with his new love. No, under the fence to be exact. Zhu Tingting only felt that her brain was down, and it was blank. Then there was a gust of wind: "No, I don't believe it. You lied, it was you who betrayed me and my mother. You're a complete liar!"
Zhu Qiang didn't speak, he was somewhat guilty in front of his daughter. But this guilt didn't last long, and it was shattered by Chen Wanqiu.
"It was your mother who betrayed you, don't believe it, call and ask why she didn't come to pick you up?" she said lightly, but it was like a hammer in Zhu Tingting's ears, shattering Zhu Tingting's last shred of reason.
"No, I don't believe it. I don't believe it. You're a bastard, vixen ......" Zhu Tingting covered her ears and fell into a frenzy. The reality is too cruel for her to accept.
Chen Wanqiu frowned at Zhu Qiang as she listened to her scolding. There was a "snap", and a slap fell on Zhu Tingting's face. Zhu Qiang regretted it after the fight, but it was too late. Zhu Tingting covered her face and glanced at Zhu Qiang and Chen Wanqiu resentfully, ran and disappeared into the night.
If she could choose again, Zhang Ya would definitely not choose to go to the hotel to catch the adulterer. When she saw the junior, no, the junior, she was stupid, she couldn't accept that she lost to an old woman who was more than ten years older than herself. She stood stunned, and the sisters who came with her reacted quickly, grabbing the woman's hair and slamming it.
Zhu Qiang, who heard the movement, rushed out in disheveled clothes and firmly protected the woman behind him. Zhang Ya's heart died at that moment, and her former attachment became a joke.
Zhang Ya sat in the rental house and poured herself glass after glass. The more I drank the wine, the more I drank it, but the brain was terrible to be sober. She blames herself, blames herself for not knocking on this door, not catching this traitor. The life of confusion can still be lived, everything is on the table, and even the marriage with the last layer of disguise stripped clean cannot continue. At least that's the case for her.
After an initial period of anger, self-denial, anxiety, and self-deception, she finally came to terms with reality. But she felt that there was still a breath in her heart that did not come out. In the game of divorce, she still has one last bargaining chip - children. She wants to use the child to disturb them. She believes her daughter can do it. She also believes that with Zhu Qiang, her daughter can't stand any grievances.
"Zhu Qiang, Zhu Qiang. You're just having a smooth day. I haven't experienced the hardships of raising children, I just know that if you are blindly doting, it is time for you to suffer. Zhang Ya slammed the phone on the ground with her drunken eyes, and the phone cracked. She took another sip of her glass.
Zhu Tingting walked all the way and cried all the way. Before you know it, you have come to a neon glittering place.
"You girls are just timid, you haven't been to a bar. Tubaozi, do you know what wine tastes like?" Standing in the bustling flow of people, Zhu Tingting looked at the door full of temptations and taboos, she remembered the mocking words of the bad boys in the class, and somehow suddenly had the idea of going in and taking a look.
"It was your mother who betrayed you, don't believe it, call and ask why she didn't come to pick you up?" Chen Wanqiu's words rang in her ears again, and the hot pain on her cheeks pushed her behind her back like an invisible hand.
"Give me a drink. Zhu Tingting plucked up the courage to sit on the bar.
Soon a colorful cocktail was pushed in front of her. The mouth is slightly sweet, and there is a slight choking smell. Zhu Tingting picked up the wine glass and drank it all as an adult. Soon he fell drunk in this dark space.
No one knows what Zhu Tingting experienced that night. It's just that some clues can still be seen from her increasingly deviant mannerisms.
"Are you Tingting?" An Guo, who had just picked up his little daughter for self-study next night, looked at the little girl who was hating the sky and had smoky makeup on her head and asked in surprise.
Zhu Tingting's eyes narrowed slightly, her exaggerated long eyelashes almost covered her eyes, one leg under the black stockings was slightly bent and shaking frequently, and her hand skillfully took out a pack of cigarettes from the black crossbody bag: "Uncle An, do you want one?"
An Guo looked at the socially angry girl for a long time and couldn't come back to his senses: "No,...... No need. I don't smoke. ”
"Do you have a lighter? I just don't know where it fell. Zhu Tingting is still the same.
"Nope. An Guo looked at the girl who used to eat and laugh with his eldest daughter and became what she is now, and sighed, and at the end he didn't forget to remind his younger daughter that it doesn't matter if she can't study, you must not learn from her.
When a person makes up his mind to make a complete break with the past, he can be very decisive.
Zhang Ya admired her determination very much, she only got drunk on the day of the divorce. Early the next morning, I got on the train to go out to work.
It's just that although some things are far away, the concern is tighter. She thought that she had broken off with Zhu Qiang, but she still saw her daughter holding her hand and crying in her dreams every night.
"Let's go home and see. Every time she woke up, she said this to herself. But when the sun rises, when the alarm clock for work rings, she will turn back into the hard-hearted Zhang Ya again.
"Today is Tingting's birthday. She must have wanted to see me. Zhang Ya said to herself in the mirror.
"Send her a gift. "There is a voice in my heart that is shouting. It's a pity that she still couldn't take this step, and just turned the money for the gift into a string of numbers in a bank card.
"The small favors that are usually given, the baby may not be able to remember. When you really need it, you give it to him or her again, and you can make sure that he or she weeps bitterly. The divorced woman who shared the house with her said this, Zhang Ya did not answer, but nodded silently in her heart.
"Girl, this is your first child. The walls of your uterus are getting thinner and thinner. If you want to fight again, you won't have a chance to be a mother in this life. ”
Zhang Ya was taking out the garbage in the hospital corridor, and when she heard the doctor say this, she couldn't help but poke her head forward.
"But, but the child's father doesn't want to be responsible. I can't raise him or her alone!Doctor, please think of a way for me. Zhu Tingting panicked, at the age of fifteen or sixteen, she still has rebellious capital. At the age of 30, her motherhood gradually overflowed, but she was told that she might not be able to have children anymore.
"You young people, what are you doing? Either you give birth or you can only ......," the doctor sighed and swallowed the rest of the words back into his stomach.
Zhang Ya looked at it. In the half-hidden door of the consultation room, the girl's eyebrows and eyes looked more and more like her own daughter. Although she hasn't seen her for a long time, she has already described her daughter's appearance countless times in her heart.
"Aunt Zhang, what are you looking at?" a little nurse walked by with a stack of printer paper.
"Nurse Xiao, can you let me deliver paper to Dr. Liu?" Zhang Ya pleaded.
"Okay, it's not a big deal. Nurse Yu handed the paper to Zhang Ya and instructed: "Be quick, don't disturb the doctor's consultation." ”
"Hey, hey. Zhang Ya took the paper and slid into the outpatient room like a fish. The printer was next to the doctor's computer, and she took the opportunity to put the paper and glanced at the information on the computer: Zhu Tingting, female, 30 years old......
"It's my daughter, it's my daughter. She's coming to our city!" As soon as Zhang Ya walked out of the outpatient room, she said this sentence excitedly.
It's a pity that except for the few colleagues who know each other, no one knows what she means.
Zhu Tingting walked out of the hospital crying. She didn't know what to do, and giving birth to a child meant suffering for both mother and child, and without her, she would never be able to have children.
"Actually, it's not a big deal if you can't give birth. I haven't had a mother's love since I was a child, and I'm really afraid that I won't be able to become a qualified mother myself. Zhu Tingting stroked her stomach and muttered to herself.
"No, Tingting! Mom is sorry for you! Mom is sorry for you!" A woman's hoarse voice suddenly came from behind her. ”
Zhu Tingting was stunned for a moment, turned around and saw a middle-aged woman with slightly frosty temples running towards her.
"You...... You...... You may have not called your mother for too long, and Zhu Tingting couldn't shout for a while.
"Tingting, it's all my mother's fault, it's that I didn't learn how to be a mother. I poured all my pain on you. But you have to believe me, Mom misses you all the time!" Zhang Ya saw Zhu Tingting stop, and didn't know what to do for a while, standing helplessly in place, twisting the corners of her clothes, her eyes were full of tears.
"You said it nicely, do you know how I've spent all these years?" Zhu Tingting burst into tears, as if she wanted to cry out the grievances accumulated over the years.
"If you have something to say, speak slowly, don't hurt your body. Zhang Ya stepped forward awkwardly, wanted to hug her daughter into her arms and hung her hand awkwardly. After being separated for too long, they became strangers to each other.
"It's a happy event to be reunited after a long absence, don't cry. I'm going to ask you for half a day's leave, and the mother and daughter will sit down and have a good chat. The colleagues who watched the excitement became the conciliator of the mother and daughter.
The two sat in the hospital cafeteria, recounting the years after their separation, but each of them hid the most unspeakable pain.
At the end, Zhang Ya took out a bank card and stuffed it into her daughter's hand: "This is what I have saved over the years, raising a child may not be enough, but it should not be a problem for you to get through the most difficult years with peace of mind." ”
Zhu Tingting looked at her mother's calloused hands, and tears fell unconsciously.
Zhang Ya looked at her daughter's slightly bulging lower abdomen, and also fell into deep thought.