Ji Xiaodong:
Hello, I'm nervous, right?
At the end of last semester, I sent you a letter with a one-inch "photo", and it was not too short to receive a letter to inform you. Yes, everything may not be appropriate, but I said "I'll send it to you later", I can't go against it, of course there is no right or wrong here, it's just my personality, just "willful". I can't help but do what I have said, it's my business. You can do whatever you want, I don't care, it's your business, I just hope you can take a moment to tell me if you received the photo.
We didn't have a winter vacation, I took ten days off and went home for the Spring Festival. I met your dad at work a few years ago, and I told him to visit him at home. But I didn't, and I'm sorry I haven't been able to talk to each other when I go home, but I still see you...... Your emotions made me feel a little comforted in my heart, maybe it was the joy of the New Year, anyway, it was the first time I saw that emotion, and it also aroused a little happiness in me. You may have forgotten all this, or you may not have realized it at all. I came out of home at eight o'clock in the morning of the second year of junior high school, ready to go to your house, I didn't walk a few steps, I saw you coming on a bicycle, I stopped, ready to say hello, you didn't stop, seemed to look at me, but rode over. - I went back home. I wasn't wearing a military uniform, I was wearing a red mountaineering suit, a white scarf, a mask, and since you didn't recognize me, I'm willing to explain it this way.
Okay, if there is something in Beijing that needs me, just say it.
We have been performing in the 38th Army for half a month, and we will return to school tomorrow to start rehearsing a new play. The two plays this semester are "Mantolo Flowers on the Edge of Hell" and "Vucik", and the specific roles of the crew will not be known until they return to Beijing.
Best wishes!
Linsha
1982. 2. 28
Lin Sha:
My mind was so troubled, I had so many things to say, but I couldn't say anything—what to say? Now, nothing makes sense. After receiving your letter in the New Year, I wrote two replies in a row, but I didn't send it. My heart is so painful, I-
I remember last New Year's when I sent you a picture, and then I wrote a poem by Dai Wangshu, at that time I was still looking forward to the arrival of the spring of life, but now I know that it will not be, never.
The spring of life will not be repeated,
The old ice will freeze forever.
I'll never see that bright smile again,
Only a distant dream remains.
Yes, everything good does not disappear,
Because they will always be there.
It's just that they're all frozen like ice,
Never re-bloom like a flower!
(Dai Wangshu's original poem:
If the spring of life is re-arrived,
The old ice is thawing with a bang,
Then I will see a bright smile again,
Hear the clear call again—these distant dreams.
None of these good things will ever go away,
Because all good things are always there,
They just condense like ice,
And one day it will bloom again like a flower. ）
Forgive me, I can't write anything, let's talk about it later.
I keep the photos forever.
Sincerely
Ji Xiaodong
1982. 3. 2