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Xu Jinglei sat alone by the window, staring out the window at the street she had already knew. The bright sunlight gently shone on her body, but there was still that untouchable loneliness in her heart.
Her eyes were slightly melancholy, as if she had crossed the boundaries of time and space, and went back to the spring morning when she knew and fell in love with Wang Shuo.
Xu Jinglei fondly recalls those days, how she approached Wang Shuo without hesitation, and made all efforts to integrate into his world. Her desire for marriage is so firm that she is even willing to give up herself for this and completely entrust herself to Wang Shuo.
She hopes with great anticipation that she will be able to walk hand in hand with this man through every stage of her life and enter the holy temple of marriage. However, the reality is not as she hoped, and the door to marriage always seems to be out of reach.
"I've tried again and again to open the door to marriage, but I've never been able to leave my mark on it. There was a faint sadness in her eyes, as if she was re-savoring the emotional entanglement between her and Huang Jue and Huang Lixing.
Although they accompanied her through the long years, they were not able to come together in the end.
Could it be that the relationship with Wang Shuo left her with too deep psychological trauma? Xu Jinglei couldn't help but think self-deprecatingly. She was crazy about the relationship, and finally came to her senses in the pain.
However, Xu Jinglei did not stop because of this. She understands that the pain will pass and the wounds will eventually heal. So, she resolutely decided to leave the shackles of the past behind and devote herself to a new life.
Staying in the past will only plunge yourself into a deeper haze.
It was a spring day in 1994, the sun was shining, and the air was filled with the fragrance of spring. 20-year-old Xu Jinglei stepped into the door of Beijing Film Academy for the first time with enthusiasm and pursuit for her artistic career.
Suddenly, a familiar figure came into view -- wasn't that the famous writer Wang Shuo? He was wearing a black trench coat, his expression was calm and calm, and his temperament was extraordinary. As a leading figure in the literary world, he had a very high reputation and status at that time, which made countless women fall in love with him.
And Xu Jinglei, although she is introverted and withdrawn, is deeply attracted by this man's unique charm. Thinking back to that scene, her eyes flashed with excitement.
As a child born into a family of artists, she has a unique and sensitive perception of all things beautiful in the world, which may be the source of her unique temperament.
In that special era, when the talented and famous writer Wang Shuo appeared on campus, it immediately attracted great attention from teachers and students. The students were full of admiration for this literary giant and looked forward to experiencing the master's demeanor in person.
However, Xu Jinglei has always maintained a calm and calm, just quietly watching his figure, and indescribable emotions are surging in the depths of her heart.
Perhaps it was then that she began to fantasize about finding her own home in this man. A strong, never-before-seen impulse crept up in the depths of her young mind, pushing her to make the momentous decision that changed the course of her life.
Although she came from an ordinary background, Xu Jinglei has had a deep love for art since she was a child. Even though her parents were just ordinary workers, they had extremely high expectations for their daughter. Under the influence of a harsh family environment, Xu Jinglei gradually cultivated a unique personality and unique aesthetics.
Since Wang Shuo entered her life, the whole world seems to have changed dramatically. As a young woman, she began to passionately pursue the married man, hoping to keep him by her side permanently.
For Xu Jinglei, this pursuit is not only from the desire for true love, but also from the perfect interpretation of her dream career. Because in the context of that era, only through marriage with powerful figures can a woman from an ordinary background like her win a foothold in the entertainment industry.
And the unique charm exuded by Wang Shuo has undoubtedly become the fuse that ignites Xu Jinglei's inner passion. She offered all her sincerity to this man without reservation, completely ignoring the fact that he had already entered the palace of marriage.
In the face of Xu Jinglei's ardent pursuit, Wang Shuo quickly responded. He unswervingly chose to divorce his wife at the time, Shen Xujia, paving the way for him to marry the young Xu Jinglei.
This move has undoubtedly aroused widespread attention from all walks of life, but Wang Shuo does not seem to care about the world's gossip and public opinion pressure.
Undoubtedly, in the context of that changing times, the influence of the social environment was also one of the crucial factors that led to the occurrence of this incident. In those challenging and special years, it was very difficult for ordinary people to break free from the predicament and control their own destiny.
For women like Xu Jinglei, finding a marriage relationship with a powerful family has undoubtedly become the best shortcut for them to climb up.
Some people point out that the reason why Xu Jinglei took the initiative to approach Wang Shuo was out of careful consideration for career development. However, she herself has a different opinion on this, she is only deeply attracted by Wang Shuo's unique personality charm, and has a sincere love for him.
Since her relationship with Wang Shuo, Xu Jinglei's acting career has gradually stepped on the right track, and with the full support of this mentor and friend, she has participated in many high-profile film and television dramas in a row, and her salary has risen.
It is no exaggeration to say that it was the most dazzling stage of Xu Jinglei's career. She not only won the enthusiastic pursuit of the audience, but also was known as the most popular actress of the times at that time, and became an idol in the hearts of countless people.
Whenever she is surrounded by magnesium lights, Xu Jinglei always holds her head high proudly, shining like a blooming flower.
Recalling that glorious time, Xu Jinglei always exudes a proud look. At that time, she was like a blooming flower, shining in the spotlight, winning countless honors and applause for herself.
However, with the vigorous development of her career, Xu Jinglei has gradually gained insight into the cruel truth behind love. Wang Shuo's "deep affection" for her is not as pure as she once imagined, but more like treating her as a treasure, longing to hold her in the palm of her hand forever.
Once this thought came to mind, Xu Jinglei began to re-examine the relationship between the two. As expected, she found that Wang Shuo's feelings for her were far less than her wholehearted devotion to him.
This made her feel very lost, as if her dreams had vanished in an instant.
As the original author said, when Xu Jinglei realized that Wang Shuo's so-called "deep affection" for her was nothing more than a plaything in the palm of her hand, she felt extremely angry and disappointed. The pain spread through her and made her completely awake.