There is still some time to draw the curtains. The flowers in the pot were quiet, the flies were gone, and the dishes and chopsticks were rolling. As the sun sets, the sky shakes softly, the smoke slants, shadows gradually envelop, and it gets dark. - The bright face, the silver-gray dress with a straight neckline, the belt, the chest, now came to my eyes, that was when I was a young woman, twenty-five, as plump as a silver carp. The style of my dress alone is not an ordinary life, let alone wearing makeup and long hair...... Not once did I feel mediocre, I didn't think about it, and no one said anything like that. People are smart and intelligent, and most likely, or, perhaps, people know that life is mediocre, as if no one knows it.
I didn't ask what Wang Feng was busy with, he felt very fulfilled, he always brought two or three cousins with him when he went out and came back, and his cousins were at his mercy, and poured water for him with a hook of his fingers, "The second brother is right, listen to the second brother's ......" I understand through his words, he wants to get ahead, he is looking for opportunities, if he can succeed, he thinks there is such a possibility, besides, his cousins all acquiesce to his statement, as if it is a certainty. It's important to have such an idea, who says it's impossible? The blind cat encounters a dead mouse, it's all up to luck, otherwise why would the cat just go that way?" he said. He said it all at a time, one at a time, one at a time. He also said, "God is hungry and blind." At this time, he often repeats it several times.
They spend most of their time drinking. When the food is set, it is served, and the chair is on the side. At first they ate quietly, rustling, and as soon as the wine came up, they continued to argue, and began to argue, without a complete sentence, like ducks chasing into the river halfway.
Theatrical performances were organized in the Qiyi Factory and rehearsals were held in the auditorium. It was a sunny day, and it was especially cool in the empty auditorium, which was comfortable despite the wide doors on both sides. The headlights on the stage were dazzling, and everyone's faces seemed to reflect the morning glow, and the light flowed with the sound of music. There are many people sitting in the rows of orange seats below watching the excitement. A new man and I were practicing singing "Heroic Battle Song", and more than 20 people sang in chorus. I made a T-step, opened my heart affectionately, raised my head with my arms, looked into the distance, and sang.
When I looked back at the next sentence, I saw a person walking from the door, so familiar, Wang Feng, I couldn't help but blurt out. He walked in the middle of the seat as if he jumped up, and my heart jumped wildly, staring at him, and the scattered people gathered in the front row and behind him did not pay attention to him, and the people on the stage did not look, because there were always people who came in to listen for a while and then went out. Wang Feng was wearing a gray and white plaid shirt, he seemed to have just woken up tired, I could already see his angry face, the music was still ringing, I seemed to be waiting, if he came up the steps on the side of the stage, or jumped up from any place, I would run in the other direction. However, he stopped under the stage in front of me and pointed at me: "You give me home, sing, what do you sing, what do you have to sing? Are you still in the mood to sing here, ghosts cry wolves, do you want to eat? The noodles at home stink, go home." He turned and walked out.
His voice was so sharp and eager that everyone around him could hear it, and the people on stage could hear it clearly, and the music stopped when he pointed at me, and people looked at him, and then he was still shouting as he crossed his seat, until he walked out, and people turned back to stare at me. I was motionless, everyone didn't know what to say, Wu Dagong, secretary of the Youth League Committee, comforted me and said, "Don't listen to him, Wang Feng is idle, wait for me to tell him, he has to give me face." "I got off the stage and walked out in a trance, my head buzzing. It was close to noon, I didn't eat in the morning, my throat was a little tight all morning, my legs trembled and shrunk, and resentment surged up from my heart. Seeing Wang Feng's shadow, he walked with his head held high. I didn't look back at the door, because those people thought that I would catch up with Wang Feng, maybe there would be a fight, and I would go fast, but I couldn't see Wang Feng when I turned the east guard.
Maybe I couldn't see him, my steps slowed down, I wanted to cry without tears, if I turned right, I went to class, I hesitated, who told him? The scorching sun shone on my face, and sweat broke out on my forehead and the tip of my nose, and I still wondered, he usually slept at this time, who told him? In two days, he will go to the city to perform, and last time he won the second prize, a towel...... I've already turned the East Gatekeeper and I'm a few steps home_What do those people think of me_How can he do that...... Seeing that the door and the door were open, I heard him talking, and was talking to Liu Xiao about it:
"Why are you yelling in front of so many people, can't you come back and say it?" I asked him.
"If you don't believe it, go again, see what I will do, and give you a discount on your legs. He said.
At a glance, I saw the lamp on the cabinet that I bought the day before, picked it up and fell to the ground, Wang Feng rushed to me, "Oh, I haven't dropped anything yet, do you have the ability......" I also rushed up, Liu Xiao was in the middle, I reached out to scratch his face and didn't reach it. To be honest, I don't have the guts to be there if Liu Xiao is not there. Wang Feng kicked my leg sideways, I took two steps back and sat on the ground, and Liu Xiao pushed him out.
When I stood up, I decided to do something, pack up a few clothes, find the lunch box, and think to myself that the child is older, this time it is really divorced, this time it is real. Take a turn around to see what else to take, at a glance I saw that Wang Feng's clothes were hung on them, tore them off and threw them on the ground, and at a glance, Wang Feng's quilt was in the kang, picked it up and threw it on the ground, a bunch, I washed it, the white quilt cover, picked it up again, patted the dust, and folded it. Touched my leg a little painfully, sat on the stool hesitated, put his arm on the table, reached out to pick up his ashtray and fell to the ground, when there was a loud bang, the cigarette butt flew up, his clothes on the ground were full of ash, the ashtray turned out to be intact, this glass, I picked it up and smashed it again, this time it shattered. Yes, that's right, he should throw all his stuff in the garbage, that's the best.
I walked on the road thinking that I was still singing, how could I not have expected such a result - I had a vision of the future, when I was ten years old, when I was eighteen or twenty, I had a future vision, and my imagination reached a distant distance, everything was in a state of reason, but in fact it was very different every time. I was scolded in public, it was really embarrassing, it was so embarrassing, I was kicked again, he hit me with a sensitive body, I won't hide, I won't do it at all. I was a little choked, didn't I just sing, I cried when I thought of singing, I couldn't sing anymore, I couldn't sing anymore, how could I open my mouth and can't sing......
Since then, no more singing.
The next day, Wu Dagong came to the class to find me, "I went to your house to find Wang Feng and told me, he is just a messy person, you just listen to him, if you don't let you sing, you won't dare to sing?"
"Yes, I don't dare to sing. ”
I don't understand the mediocrity with sad conceit, and I am always hit! No matter how much I believe that life is not mediocre, even if I open the door of my imagination, I can't accept this non-megranity. - Later I added mediocrity to non-mediocrity.
to be continued
2024.4.14
