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More than 20 years ago, Leslie Cheung made a big joke for everyone.
The twenty-fourth floor jumped down and chose to commit suicide, drawing the final end to his life.
There are many rumors about the reason for his suicide.
Even his family only said that he was suffering from depression.
However, all this changed after his will was made public.
The last sentence of the will: Why is this happening?
Many years later, his friend Ma Weidu told the truth about Leslie Cheung's will.
A generation of superstars is gone
April 1, 2003, is a day that many people will never forget.
It was just an ordinary April Fool's Day, but at the moment when Leslie Cheung jumped off.
This day has been deeply left in the hearts of many people.
April Fool's Day brings more than just foolery to many people.
It's more about the grief of his passing.
Even at the time, many people were reluctant to believe the truth of the story.
Even when he thought about bringing the people who spread the rumors to justice.
The news of his departure was already on the front page of Hong Kong.
Once again confirmed the veracity of the rumors.
Even in unacceptable reality, that's what has already happened.
But the real cause of Leslie Cheung's death has become the thing that everyone is most concerned about.
In the eyes of fans, Leslie Cheung has always been an optimistic and sunny boy image.
With this sudden departure, it is hard to imagine what he has experienced in reality.
There are many opinions about the truth
Before Leslie Cheung passed away, his relationship with Tang Hede was rejected by the society.
Many people speculate that he may be because he can't resist the pressure given to him by the surrounding society.
Finally came to this point.
But this statement is not necessarily true.
Although there is rejection of him in society, there are still many blessings for him.
This thing is not like the last straw that can break the camel's back at all.
And not long after Leslie Cheung left, his family stood up and said.
Leslie Cheung is already suffering from severe depression.
Leslie Cheung's sister's statement, although it stopped speculation about the cause of Leslie Cheung's death.
But another speculation abruptly emerged, that is, why he had depression.
Was depression the real cause of his death?
Count Leslie Cheung since his debut.
It can be described as all-round in three aspects: film and television songs.
He was once selected as one of the iconic figures of Chinese pop culture.
It is precisely because of his talent that he has deeply attracted the attention and love of many people.
Even in 1997, Leslie Cheung was under a lot of pressure.
used a song "The Moon Represents My Heart" to euphemistically confess to Tang Hede.
This is also a sign of his courage to show his love.
Even after so many years, Tang Hede is still guarding this feeling.
It can be seen that the relationship between the two back then can be described as unswerving.
But in that era, the relationship between the two was not accepted by the world.
But Leslie Cheung still bravely confessed all this, and revealed the matter to the world in public at the concert.
Leslie Cheung's straightforwardness and openness are not accepted by many people in the world.
But this has not affected his status in the hearts of fans at all, and he is still the versatile good brother.
Even when he made the matter public, he received more applause, encouragement and blessings.
But this incident finally brought him extremely huge external pressure.
As for the reason why Leslie Cheung eventually suffered from depression, it is not just this aspect.
There are also crucial reasons for his background and the family's growth environment.
The busyness of his parents in the family, who has rarely received emotional support in the family since he was a child, has always had the shadow of this family conflict in his heart.
The emotional discord between his parents also led to a change in his personality in the future.
The family that grew up with Leslie Cheung was also one of the important reasons why he suffered from depression.
What outsiders see is his most glorious side.
Seeing his success, and his efforts to succeed.
But as his career reached its peak, Leslie Cheung also encountered a turning point in his career.
But when he really tried to transform his career, all the unfair treatment he encountered was a blow to him.
The uncertainty of the unknown future and the setbacks encountered in the transformation of his career are all blows to his soul again and again.
And his own living habits, excessive dedication to work, etc., have increased his psychological burden in many ways.
If it is just depression, let him choose to die, this reason is really difficult to convince.
Especially after his suicide note was exposed in the media.
Ma Weidu revealed the truth
Before Leslie Cheung passed away, Ma Weidu had been dismissed with Leslie Cheung many times.
According to Ma Weidu himself, his first contact with Leslie Cheung was in the studio.
At that time, Leslie Cheung was preparing to shoot "Farewell My Concubine".
At that time, Ma Weidu already felt that Leslie Cheung's condition was not very good.
Not only the physical state, but even Leslie Cheung's mood at that time, Ma Wei could feel his depression and depression.
From the first acquaintance to the heart-to-heart conversation, Leslie Cheung talked to him more than once about the idea of going abroad.
Leslie Cheung once told him that he longed for a life abroad and wanted to escape from the land of right and wrong.
The domestic environment is too stressful for Leslie Cheung.
Even though the two haven't seen each other for many years, when they meet again, Leslie Cheung still keeps telling about wanting to immigrate abroad.
The reason is still to want to rationalize the domestic right and wrong, and stay away from this place that makes him miserable.
Ma Weidu interprets Leslie Cheung's suicide note
Before Leslie Cheung died, it can be said that everything was arranged clearly.
All the inheritance is distributed proportionally to all the people around you.
Even his ex-girlfriend and the driver's maid at home are taken care of.
Such a consideration for others ended up being an "outcast".
Ma Weidu fully understands the deep meaning of the last sentence in Leslie Cheung's suicide note and why it is so.
All of Leslie Cheung's efforts and successes are not the case in the eyes of some.
Even for Leslie Cheung, such success ultimately brought more than just fans.
It's more about the malicious abuse and slander that was carried out against him.
And all this is not accidental.
No matter how hard he tried, there was still endless abuse in the end.
The praise of fans and the scolding of some people have become polarized in the evaluation of Leslie Cheung.
Even the Golden Horse Award is a kind of irony for Leslie Cheung.
Being treated like this, even Ma Wei could see that he didn't want to bear it anymore.
Leslie Cheung's final situation is like being abandoned.
The life abroad he longed for failed to become a reality, and the reality brought him a mental breakdown.
As Leslie Cheung said in his suicide note, he has never done anything wrong, why is this happening.