Some time ago, I swiped a promotional video about the premiere of the movie "The Annual Meeting Can't Stop", in addition to some well-known young actors, there is also a special existence.
Among a bunch of actors, he seemed particularly cramped, cautious in his every move, and even more nervous when it was his turn to introduce himself, holding the microphone with both hands.
When everyone thought that he was just a supporting role with no name, the audience shouted: "Jia Baoyu, I love you".
As soon as these words came out, the scene exploded instantly, and his eyes lit up on the stage, and he sincerely introduced:
"Hello everyone, I'm Ouyang Fenqiang. ”
He is one of the shapers of the 87 version of "Dream of Red Mansions", and is the most classic "Jia Baoyu" in people's minds.
That version of "Dream of Red Mansions" carries the youthful memories of countless people.
Every time I think of it, that familiar melody will linger in my ears:
"One is Langyuan Immortal, the other is beautiful and flawless, if you say that there is no strange fate, you will meet him again in this life, if you say that there is a strange fate, how to end up with a false mind. ”
This shocking romance is full of ups and downs in the play, and it is also embarrassing in reality.
"Jia Baoyu" became a supporting role in the movie, and "Lin Daiyu" continued to write a tragedy.
When the world mentions Chen Xiaoxu, they all say that she died depressed after being trapped by the play. "Jealous and red-faced" and "untimely death" are synonymous with her.
In fact, her life cannot be summed up in a few simple words.
01
In 1965, Chen Xiaoxu was born in a family with a strong artistic atmosphere, his father was the director of the Anshan Peking Opera Troupe, and his mother was a dance teacher.
However, the excellent family did not promote her smooth life.
Her fate seems to have been determined before she was born.
Chen Xiaoxu's father once shared a "strange thing" on the show:
On the night of a month before the child's birth, the mother, Wang Yuanxi, had a dream of an old man who said that the child's name should be "Chen Yefen".
The word "ye" is a "also" under the cursive prefix, which is a rare word and cannot be found in the dictionary.
After Wang Yuanxi woke up, he felt that this was the name of the gift of the immortals, so he wanted to use it, but his father Chen Qiang felt that this matter was strange, and hurriedly went to visit an old-timer who was familiar with the "Book of Changes" and wanted to interpret the name.
The old man couldn't help frowning after seeing it:
"This name, Lin Daiyu's life, is to grieve for a lifetime, it's not good, it's better to change it. ”
Chen Qiang didn't dare to joke with the fate of the child, so he named the child Chen Xiaoxu after he was born.
The rising sun symbolizes vigor and vigor.
Chen Qiang hopes that such a name can drive away all suffering for his daughter, but he doesn't know that her life is still miserable.
Chen Xiaoxu, who is deeply influenced by the artistic atmosphere, has been versatile since he was a child, and always practices Xi Peking Opera with his father and Xi dance with his mother in his spare time.
Her father, Chen Qiang, hoped that she could inherit her father's business and make a career in Peking Opera, but Chen Xiaoxu preferred ballet and aspired to become a professional ballet dancer.
For this dream, she practiced diligently day and night, and at the age of 12, she was able to independently complete the difficult action Xi of the white-haired girl kicking the purple gold crown.
But just when she passed all the ballet professional examinations and was ready to go to the art troupe for further study and Xi, she found that she had failed the political examination and evaluation, and the teacher's comment was only 9 words:
"This is the seedling of capitalism. ”
This is a painful blow to Chen Xiaoxu, which means that what she has been holding on to for several years will dissipate into nothingness.
Knowing that the dance road would not work, she joined the Anshan Acrobatic Club the following year.
The flexibility she developed in dancing was put to good use here, but she soon faced a new challenge, as the pressure of heavy objects caused her legs to become weak and deformed during tank kicking.
Chen Xiaoxu, who has loved beauty since he was a child, was afraid that it would affect the curve of his legs, and every time he pedaled the cylinder, he would subconsciously kick the cylinder far away. At that time, the acrobatic club circulated the sentence "Xiaoxu kicked the cylinder, and people were panicked", which was a true portrayal of this matter.
However, this troubles did not last long, and in less than a year, the acrobatic club was forced to dissolve due to the strong pressure of society.
In 1979, 14-year-old Chen Xiaoxu joined the Anshan Drama Club, initially only playing some supporting roles, but did not make much splash.
Depressed, she began to try to record and express her happiness and frustration in life in the form of words, and finally published her first poem "I Am a Catkins" on the impurity of "Young Poet":
"I am a catkins that grew up in the beautiful spring, because my parents abandoned me prematurely, and I became a confidant with the spring breeze.
I am a catkins, don't ask where my home is, may the spring breeze to the ends of the earth, and I will bring spring news to the corners of the earth.
I am a catkins, born carefree and carefree, my dad is the vast sky, and my mom is the boundless earth. ”
This poem seems simple and unpretentious, but it can always make people feel melancholy and wandering.
Maybe even Chen Xiaoxu couldn't have imagined that this young work would achieve her life.
02
In 1983, Chen Xiaoxu happened to see the news in the "Popular TV" magazine that the crew of "Dream of Red Mansions" was auditioning for Bao Daichai actors across the country.
As a person who is familiar with "Dream of Red Mansions" and loves "Lin Daiyu", she naturally didn't want to miss this opportunity, and hurriedly wrote down her opinions on Lin Daiyu:
"I think that in addition to Lin Daiyu's talent, dexterity, and unique poetic qualities that all beautiful women do not have, I like her innocence the most, and her character of setting a goal and being particularly persistent and pursuing it all the time. ”
then copied "I Am a Catkins" after his own photo, and sent it to the crew with him.
Director Wang Fulin was deeply touched when he saw the unique insights and the poem, and immediately gave him the opportunity to interview.
At that time, Chen Xiaoxu was only ranked third among Lin Daiyu's candidates, and if you ask the reason, director Wang Fulin once gave a detailed explanation:
"Chen Xiaoxu's only drawback is that he is not beautiful enough, Lin Daiyu needs to be more beautiful. ”
Seeing people who are more beautiful than himself participating in the interview together, Chen Xiaoxu couldn't help but retreat, but fortunately, in the end, he still participated in the second test with the idea of "coming here".
Dressed in blue, holding an elegant fan, his hair is combed in a quiet bun, and his eyes are full of affection.
When Chen Xiaoxu came out with the makeup, the crew couldn't help but let out bursts of exclamation, and Wang Fulin was even more stunned:
"It's really two bends that seem to be frowning and not frowning, and a pair of eyes that seem to be crying and not crying, it's her!"
Since then, Chen Xiaoxu has joined the crew of "Dream of Red Mansions" and began a three-year training and filming.
In order to live up to this classic, the crew took great pains to build Beijing Grand View Garden in Xuanwu District, Beijing, and also built Ningguo Mansion, Rongguo Mansion and Ningrong Street in Zhengding County, Hebei Province.
The cultivation of actors is even more refined in the shaping of character, hobbies, and talents.
The entire crew traveled to 10 provinces and cities, 41 regions and 219 scenic spots, costing 6.8 million yuan to complete the filming of this work.
In 1987, "Dream of Red Mansions" was officially broadcast on CCTV, and as expected, the response was very good, and Chen Xiaoxu became a household name "Sister Lin".
While the career is thriving, the relationship is also ushering in happiness.
In the same year that "Dream of Red Mansions" was broadcast, Chen Xiaoxu chose to enter the marriage hall with Bi Yanjun, who had been in love for three years, thinking that this relationship would be rested until death, but soon after marriage, cracks appeared in the relationship between the two.
The difference in status made Bi Yanjun have a big gap in his heart, and he couldn't see him for a few days, and the dissatisfaction in his heart was strengthened, and the two who quarreled endlessly finally chose to end this marriage.
However, along with the emotion, it is also Chen Xiaoxu's career.
At first, Chen Xiaoxu received a lot of film appointments with the name of "Lin Daiyu", but unfortunately, in the end, the response was mediocre.
Over time, Chen Xiaoxu realized that "Lin Daiyu" may become the "peak" of her acting career.
"I couldn't have any more development in my acting career, but I didn't want to give up this wonderful world yet, so I had to take another path on my own. ”
In 1991, Chen Xiaoxu was recommended by a noble person to step into the advertising industry.
In 1996, he founded Beijing Shibang United Advertising Co., Ltd. and served as the chairman of the board.
In 2004, she was named one of the "30 Outstanding Female Advertisers in China" in the "China Advertising Billboard".
In 2005, he was awarded the title of "China's Economic Person of the Year" by World Manager Weekly.
At this time, she ushered in the second "peak" of her life and became a well-known strong woman in the industry.
And the noble person who made her again was her second husband - Hao Tong.
03
Chen Xiaoxu and Hao Tong became acquainted with the TV series "Black Grapes", and at that time they were at the trough of her career, Hao Tong never gave up and gave a lot of warmth and help.
This sincerity completely touched Chen Xiaoxu, and the two naturally became partners, and after marriage, they went hand in hand, constantly exploring breakthroughs in new fields.
In 1999, Chen Xiaoxu, who had gained both fame and fortune, fell into an insoluble depression, she began to feel bored in life and confused about the future.
This annoyance was only alleviated after she overheard the tape of the Sutra of Amitayus explained by Master Jingkong, and the rare calm gave her a certain admiration for Buddhism.
When the mood gradually calmed down, the unexpected quietly came.
In 2006, Chen Xiaoxu suddenly felt a tingling pain in his chest, and the results of the examination in the hospital made the whole family sad:
"She had breast cancer. ”
At that time, the cancer cells had spread rapidly, and surgery was needed as soon as possible to undergo chemotherapy to have a chance of survival. But she loved beauty all her life, and she couldn't accept the side effects of chemotherapy at all, so she insisted on taking Chinese medicine to recuperate.
Seeing that the effect was not great, she even came up with the idea of "becoming a monk":
"Illness is born from the heart, and if you want to save yourself, you must first redeem your soul. ”
Eventually, she confirmed her stubbornness with her actions.
In 2007, on the second day of the Lunar New Year, Hao Tong and Chen Xiaoxu called their parents over, which was supposed to be the occasion of family reunion, but the husband and wife knelt directly on the ground and said something that shocked their parents:
"Xiaoxu is about to become a monk on the sixth day of junior high school, and I will go with her at the sixteenth. ”
The decision of the two was obviously well thought out, and it was useless to be admonished by others.
On February 23, 2007, Chen Xiaoxu gave up his net worth of 10 million yuan and held a shaving ceremony in Baiguo Xinglong Temple in Xinyue Village, Fenjin Township, Kuancheng District, Changchun.
At that time, her body was already so weak that she couldn't take care of herself, and she could only rely on medicinal soup to maintain her life, but her stubbornness was still unstoppable...
On May 13 of the same year, Chen Xiaoxu closed his eyes during his lunch break and never opened them again, at the age of 42.
This is a little similar to the "Lin Daiyu" who ended up with resentment.
Since then, there has been more Chen Xiaoxu in heaven, and there is no Lin Daiyu in the world.
On June 1, 2007, the actors in front of and behind the scenes who had participated in "Dream of Red Mansions" felt that Chen Xiaoxu was mourned at the memorial service, and they were regretful in their words:
"I can't choose Lin Daiyu like this anymore. ”
"That proud and clever sister Lin is gone. ”
"I couldn't accept it for a while, it was too unexpected. ”
After Chen Xiaoxu's death, her parents often couldn't sleep at night, and their daughter's house became a place for them to stay for a long time, and their belongings were touched by them until they were bright.
Every time Chen Xiaoxu's birthday, death day, and Qingming Festival, they will bring their daughter's favorite food and flowers to the grave, and tell her the latest interesting stories, which is most of the day.
Although Chen Xiaoxu's husband established a new family after returning to the world, he will accompany the second elder to worship every year, and his persistence for 16 years is even a remembrance and comfort for his beloved wife.
When it comes to Lin Xiaoxu, the world will always associate it with words such as "sad" and "depressed", but in my opinion, I prefer to use "chic" and "free" to describe her.
In the relationship, she dares to love and hate, and in her career, she has a choice.
One play, one character, two marriages, eight years of worshipping Buddha, ten years of business...
Looking back at her life, although it was tortuous and bumpy, she had no regrets, and finally lost her life in stubborn perseverance, how can it not be an attitude, and how can it be called regret.