In the 29 years that I have been working in a company, I have been like a blind man falling into a taro field, full of hurdles and pits. This is the biggest regret of my life, and it is also an experience that I still can't let go.
My family sent me to the station and gave me full blessings and expectations to think about my life plan and not follow the crowd.
I found a company that looked good with a low starting salary, but I felt like it was the starting point for my growth. As the so-called "optimistic life", but the world is impermanent, what I did not expect was that I would spend 29 years of hard work in this company.
In the beginning, I was full of confidence and drive, and I was full of expectations for everything. But what I didn't expect was that the company's internal deception was deceitful, and you fought for me.
Moreover, the leader is always critical of my work and never gives me a little encouragement, but I don't know how hard I work and how I work with all my heart.
When I talk to my family on the phone, they are always worried about my situation at the company, so I can only say nice things to fool them out and not worry them too much.
"Xiaogang, how are you doing lately?" The concern of the family made me feel a little distressed.
"It's okay, I'm a little busy with new projects, but I'm trying to get used to it. That's all I can say.
"You have to take care of your body, don't work too hard, you can take your time in the company's affairs. Mother's words were full of love.
"I know, Mom, you also have to pay attention to your body, don't work too hard. I replied with some humility.
I didn't tell them about the injustices in the company, and I didn't want them to know about some of the setbacks in my work.
This feeling of discouragement made me feel lost for a while. I didn't know how to face these challenges, and I had to struggle every day, and my life became directionless.
And all of this started with a project bidding in the company. It seems that my hard work in the past has not been rewarded.
And when all this happened, I realized that I had become the lowest point in this family.
I suddenly began to realize that all this in front of me was the real ups and downs of life.
Under such pressure, I endured both physical and mental torment. My family's concern for me also made me feel guilty.
There seemed to be no end to it all, until one day, I stumbled upon some unknown scandals within the company.
"Xiaogang, what's wrong with you? "My family's concern makes me feel a little guilty.
"It's nothing, maybe there's something at work that makes me a little irritable. I forced a smile.
"Is the company's business still like that?" the mother's voice was full of concern.
"It's okay, mother, you don't have to worry too much, I'll take care of it. That's all I can say.
Looking at their genuine concern, I suddenly felt even more guilty. I was wronged in the company, but I didn't dare to tell my family, and this feeling made me feel tormented.
"Xiaogang, don't you really want to tell us the truth?" there was a bit of helplessness in the mother's voice.
"But you don't seem happy at all, we're all family, and you should share it with us. The father's voice was full of anticipation.
Listening to my parents' heartfelt concern, I fell into an inner struggle. Over the years, I have been hiding the humiliation and grievances I have suffered at work, but I dare not confide in my family.
However, I could no longer endure this repression and injustice. I knew I had to change.
When I returned home and faced the questioning of my parents, I finally mustered up the courage to confide in them about my difficulties and experiences in the company over the years.
The father clenched his fists, and there was a bit of anger in his voice: "No wonder you have always looked so tired all these years, we have never known about the grievances you have suffered in the company.
"I'm sorry, Mom and Dad, I don't want you to worry about me. I bowed my head and said.
"Silly boy, we just want to worry about you, you are our heart, how can you not let us know that you have been wronged?" tears welled up in the mother's eyes.
At this time, there was an atmosphere of heaviness and sadness in the house, and I could feel the concern and distress of my parents for me.
After the shock of the scandal within the company, I felt that I had reached the limit of what I could not bear. But at home, I had to hide myself and pretend to be strong.
"Xiaogang, aren't you too tired from work lately? Do you want to consider changing companies?"
"Dad, in fact, there have been some things in the company recently, and I haven't dealt with them yet. I began to hesitate.
"What's wrong? You can talk to the family, maybe we can help you. My father looked at me with concern.
"Actually, there were some unfair transactions within the company, and I felt very uncomfortable. "I couldn't help but tell them the truth.
Hearing this, the parents' expressions also became serious. "Xiao Gang, you have to be careful with these things and don't act impulsively.
"Mom and Dad, I've been thinking about changing jobs lately, and I don't want to stay in that kind of company anymore. I said firmly.
"It's not easy to change jobs, you have to think about it. Father said with a slight reproach.
However, I have already made a decision in my heart. I can't be wronged in a company like this anymore, I need to leave.
Just as I was about to leave my job, something even more shocking happened in the company. It turned out that the company's senior management actually involved me and blamed me.
This is not an injustice to me, but a blasphemy against the morality of the entire company.
Back home, I finally chose to tell my family about these things.
"Mom and Dad, I think I'm really in a desperate situation this time. Everything in the company was unbearable for me.
"So, are these things a conspiracy of the company's top management?" said his father's voice, filled with anger.
"Yes, they've found evidence to blame me. I don't really know what to do anymore. "I felt like I was in a desperate situation.
"Xiaogang, don't be afraid. We'll get through this with you. My mother took my hand, her eyes full of determination.
This time I really felt like I had fallen into the abyss, and I felt lucky with the support of my family. But I know that this fight has only just begun.
Admiring and furious, the power of the stars guiding his thoughts. He was already dizzy and tired from being tortured by fate.
Confusion and confusion haunted his heart. But in the fog, he began to realize something slightly.
He opened the mailbox, and a rush of blood welled up from his cheeks. He finally seemed to be unable to bear it anymore and did not want to be silent and resigned.
His voice echoed through the house, full of excitement.
"Xiaogang, what's wrong with you?" the mother asked with concern.
"I've been working in the company for 29 years, and you don't even know all the bitterness and struggle!
The frustrations and grievances of the past kept coming to mind, "I don't want to go on like this! I want to leave this damn place."
"Xiao Gang, what's wrong with you? Why didn't you tell us earlier?" the mother's voice was full of surprise.
"yes, kid, we don't know I'm sorry. But there will be a solution to everything, and we will figure it out together.
His mother's words made him even more excited, and he said angrily, "Can you understand how helpless I have been all these years? Do you know how I have struggled to get through every day? I don't need you to tell me this, I just feel like I am the lowest in this family!"
Father frowned, trying to break the sudden conflict, but the words swirled around his lips.
"Xiaogang, we have been expecting you very much over the years, but we may have ignored your true feelings while caring about you.
Tears welled up in his face, and the anger in his heart was finally released, but he still didn't know where to go.
Facing his family again, he even felt a little guilty. Such a family reunion did not go as he wished, but showed more contradictions.
Now, he stared out the window, his mind undecided. Whether the future will become more complicated or will become clearer, he has no answer.