This particular sports experience has taught me that there are always many things in life that we can't predict.
At that time, our family came to the arena in high spirits, ready to start challenging our physical strength and intelligence.
However, the joy in my heart was soon pulled back by the cruelty of reality. In recent years, I have started to feel that the expenses of my family are getting bigger and bigger, especially for the children at home.
This is really worse for me. Upside down this fee is a big blow to me and my family.
I know very well that this kind of life is no longer what I aspire to. But for the sake of this family, what should I do? I hope that I can find a way out, I can get out of this predicament, and I also hope that the family conflict can be resolved.
When conflicts at home seemed unrelieved, I was offered a job caring for an elderly family who needed a caregiver to take care of their elderly parents.
I was stuck in a difficult choice. Can I really abandon my family to make money? As I hesitated, I received a phone call from home and learned that my mother was in a state of health.
Now, I'm feeling more and more lost in my life. The sacrifices I made for this family didn't seem to be being duly rewarded, and it made me wonder if I really had to do everything for the sake of this family.
At the same time, conflicts and pressures at home are also increasing. I began to realize that I had long since lost my place and dignity in the family.
But I couldn't let go of this home easily, and this contradictory mood made me feel extremely tormented.
Just when I was hesitating, another thing happened at home that made it difficult for me. The eldest son's job is in trouble and he needs a lot of financial support.
I don't know if this family can still give me some warmth and support, and I don't know if I can make more sacrifices for this family.
I couldn't be more depressed about it. I couldn't let go of the contradictions and troubles in reality, and I began to question my choices, feeling self-blame and helpless.
Suddenly, it occurred to me that I should communicate openly and honestly with my family, put these issues on the table, and discuss solutions together.
I know that this conversation will not be easy, and it may even lead to more conflicts, but I feel that this is the only way to resolve the current family conflicts.
However, when I made this decision, a new conflict suddenly appeared in the family. The children have disagreements over Xi and life issues, which leads to tension in the family atmosphere.
I felt like a failed mother who couldn't give her children a happy and harmonious life, and in fact, I couldn't give them a family that wasn't troubled.
This contradiction wears me out and I don't know how to deal with it. My heart was in pain, and everything became extremely difficult.
I felt helpless and lost, like a disoriented child who didn't know where to go. But I know that facing the problem is the only solution.
Next, how should I deal with the conflicts in my family? I hope I can find the answer and let the family have harmony and happiness again.
It's hard to imagine that I have become a burden to this family now. I've been working hard for the sake of my family, but the reality keeps hitting me.
No matter how much you give, you can't change other people's perceptions, and that's incredibly frustrating.
Conflict seems to have taken deep root in the family. No matter how hard I tried, it seemed that nothing could change that.
But it takes courage to change, and without the understanding and support of your family, it is difficult to make any change.
I was exhausted from all this, but I still didn't want to give up on this home. I wanted to find a balance between my family, and I knew it wasn't going to be an easy thing to do.