This time we decided to take a trip to a beautiful small city with a pleasant climate and rich nature.
Everything went smoothly until the sixth day of our arrival.
It was on this day that my body suddenly became unwell, starting with mild dizziness and fatigue, but it soon deteriorated into a high fever and vomiting.
In the hospital, I was quickly diagnosed with a complication of a severe cold and needed to be kept in the hospital for observation. The doctor told Lan Yan's confidant that I needed to rest well and not be disturbed in the slightest.
Anxious, she stayed up all night, and the next morning, she went to the doctor to discuss whether she could hire a nurse to take care of me, but the hospital was full of nurses and could not take in any new clients.
When I woke up, I saw her constantly busy, and from time to time she lowered her head to hide her tears, and I was distressed. It's hard enough for her to be my best friend and a family member who depends on each other in times of crisis.
I lay on the hospital bed, looking at the blue-faced confidant who took care of me, and felt extremely guilty and sorry in my heart. I, a person who only cares about pleasure and does not care about the feelings of my friends, now I don't even have the strength at all, and I even let her take care of all the housework on her own.
But his eyes moistened unconsciously.
"Why are you still thinking about these crooked ways? The most important thing now is to rest well, recover as soon as possible, and I'll take care of the rest.
I nodded, agreeing with her opinion, but I couldn't let go of the guilt I felt for her. In a daze, I suddenly felt that my traveling companion and blue-faced confidante, this girl who usually loves to laugh and make trouble, and is always positive, is now showing another side.
The most important thing now is that I have to rest well, recover soon, and let her stop worrying about me. She's already given so much that I can't let her worry anymore.
My days in the hospital seemed to be getting more and more difficult day by day, and my confidante was like a hard-working little bee every day, busy coming and going.
In order to take care of me, she barely had time to take good care of herself, and even rushed to eat. I really don't know how to thank her.
"Mom, this is my friend, she has been taking care of me. "I was a little embarrassed to explain, after all, my mother had never been very happy with my friends.
"Oh, it's your friend. The mother glanced at Lan Yan's confidante and said lightly.
The confidante immediately got up and respectfully saluted my mother, who was very sensible and didn't want to trouble my mother, so she took the initiative to step aside.
I was torn between whether I should listen to my mother or insist on staying in the hospital and being cared for by my confidante.
I bowed my head in silence.
"Don't embarrass the child, she needs to rest, and you're tired for a day, let's go home first." Lan Yan's confidante's words broke the deadlock, and she took the initiative to back down, making her mother feel guilty.
I twisted over the bed, facing the wall, tears streaming down my face. I was conflicted and couldn't tell my mother.
The entanglements between family and friends have exhausted me and caused unspeakable depression to surge in my heart.
While I was recuperating in the hospital, I didn't know what was going on, but suddenly I received a call from my family.
While I was still feeling guilty and guilty, I started to feel misunderstood and complained about, which made me feel very troubled and embarrassed.
In the hospital, I was irritable and even a little restless. While I was struggling with these questions, the blue confidante walked into the hospital room, her face even paler than before.
But I could tell that something wasn't quite right with her emotions. But she always insisted that it was okay, and repeatedly stressed that I wanted to have a good rest.
It wasn't until the evening, when I couldn't resist asking, that she finally fell silent for a moment and told the truth. It turned out that the news of my hospitalization in the city was unexpectedly heard by my family.
This made them feel that my neglect of my family and my dependence on Lan Yan's confidante were both a betrayal. My family was very upset and even angry.
After listening to her story, my heart was even more conflicted. My trip with my confidante was a secret operation and I never told my family, leaving them in the dark.
The grievances, guilt and helplessness in my heart instantly came to my heart, and I really didn't know what to do.
In the face of this sudden family conflict, I felt helpless. I knew very well that there was no trade-off between my family and my confidantes, because they were both extremely important beings in my life.
At the same time, I also began to worry that the confidante would be under more pressure because she was in this awkward situation because of me.
It was definitely a real test for me. Injuries and relationships between family and friends have exhausted me.
I had to face it and resolve it all so that everyone could understand that this was not a rash and negative trip for me, but a deep friendship and mutual concern between me and my confidante.
Hopefully, in the days to come, everything will calm down and get better.
Soon, I finally recovered under the careful care of my confidant. When I felt like I could move on my own, I decided to leave the hospital early.
I plucked up the courage to thank her, apologize to her, and solemnly thank her when she discharged me.
However, when I got home, I realized that things had not calmed down. I didn't tell my family about my travel plans and hospitalization with my confidante, and I didn't contact them in time.
As soon as I walked through the door, I felt the tension. The elders and other relatives in the family were angry, apparently very angry that I was traveling alone and not informing my family when I was hospitalized.
I tried to explain my actions, but I couldn't say anything because their worries and reproaches were out of concern and love for me.
The accusations of my relatives made me feel very frustrated and guilty. I didn't take their feelings into account and I didn't do my duty as an adult.
Even though I justify my actions, I know in my heart that they are wrong. I should be more concerned about my family's feelings, after all, their worries and anger come from their concern for me.
Especially at home, my favorite grandparents showed more anger in their silence, and they used to expect high expectations of me to be a sensible and responsible person.
I knew that the trip and hospitalization had caused a lot of distress to my family, and I decided to explain and apologize, but I also knew that it would take time to resolve it.
"You're tired enough, I'd better ask my brother or nephew to take care of me. "I finally opened my mouth and presented my thoughts to my confidante.
I kind of regret what I just said, it's not that I don't want to see my family, I just want her to take less responsibility for taking care of me.
I scrambled to my feet and tried to go to her, but was struck down by the pain of dizziness and weakness. I could only lie there weakly, my mind full of sorry and guilt.
In the next few days, the confidante seemed to be a little angry with me, always avoiding my gaze, and speaking to me bluntly.
I was frustrated, I didn't know what I had done wrong and how to make amends for the conflict between us.
I decided to leave the hospital and go home to get on with my life. On the way home, it suddenly occurred to me that there seemed to be too many conflicts and disputes between me and my confidante Lan Yan since that trip.
When I got home, I wanted to apologize to her, but I was still nervous and didn't know if she would forgive me.
All of this left me in a deep struggle.