Xie Yilin inherited his mother's depression, kept climbing the 12th floor and couldn't control himself, and his body and mind were numb

Xie Yilin: I think the fear that my mother brought to me since I was a child was her depression and self-harm.

She would make herself terrible, and at the same time, she would make everyone in the family unhappy by herself. My childhood was full of fear.

Since she was a child, she has seen her mother like this countless times. Even his own sister couldn't stand her mother and ran away from home.

In fact, over the years, Xie Yilin has felt tired of what her mother has done, and she can even say that she hates it.

In Xie Yilin's impression since she was a child, her mother would keep beating her. But after the fight, my mother was still unhappy. My mother was very fond of drinking, and every time she was drunk, she liked to wander around the town.

Xie Yilin has to go to bed at 10 o'clock since she was a child, and if her mother doesn't come home at 10 o'clock, she has to go out to find her mother. If she sees her mother coming home, she has to go one step ahead of her mother and pretend to go home before going to sleep.

And if Dad is at home, they will inevitably have a big fight. Xie Yilin would squat in the corner and listen to their quarrels, living in fear every day.

When my mother gets drunk, sometimes she has a heart attack if it is serious, so she has to be sent to the hospital immediately. And her mother wouldn't let her call an ambulance because her father was a firefighter, and once the fire truck came, the whole town would know.

In this way, Xie Yilin has often carried his mother to the hospital alone since he was a child.

Xie Yilin's childhood was so real and tragic. She didn't exaggerate, and she didn't feel sad.

She was relieved. It turned out that once, Xie Yilin secretly flipped through his mother's diary and found out that his mother had a lot of unhappiness, so he couldn't control it to beat her.

Xie Yilin tried to reconcile with her mother, and you can understand why her mother beat her. Because before her mother became a mother, no one taught her how to be a good mother.

Xie Yilin tried to understand his mother, and reconciled with himself and his mother.

She will never want to run away from home again, but will take good care of her mother.

The harm caused by the original family still had an impact on Xie Yilin after all. Xie Yilin inherited her mother's depression, and she suddenly realized that something was wrong with her.

That is, Xie Yilin once was at home, obviously there was an elevator at home, so she repeatedly climbed the 12th floor alone, and kept climbing up and down the stairs, and she didn't cry or feel sad, she just couldn't control herself to stop, and even her body and mind were numb.

When she got home, she realized the seriousness of the problem. I remembered that my mother suffered from depression in this way, and my mother kept brushing the toilet repeatedly, first using the toilet, then using other tools, and then directly brushing the toilet with her hands.

My mother couldn't control herself and kept cleaning the toilet.

This familiar scene made Xie Yilin feel afraid. So she tried her best to control herself by willpower and wanted to get herself out.

Xie Yilin used the most relaxed tone: I can't let this family have one more sick number. I really like acting, and I'm completely relaxed at this time.

God knows, when Xie Yilin said this, how bitter and sad he felt in his heart.

Now all the financial burden of the whole family is on her alone. My mother still suffers from severe depression, and my husband suffers from myasthenia gravis, making it difficult to breathe.

When others come home, they are healed, and only when Xie Yilin comes out to work can he relax and be free and heal himself.

Because when she comes out to work, she can be herself, she can do nail art, she doesn't have to pee and for a pair of children at home, and she doesn't have to take care of the sick people at home.

She is relaxed and free.

Xie Yilin is really a very strong, kind, filial and optimistic girl, she has always used a smile to give back to everyone, and never transmits negative energy.

Such a girl will definitely be happier and happier in the future.