The Ferris wheel of happiness is not spinning
It's time to grow up
Loneliness has no end like an empty street
Love has been hated ~ love has fallen ~ fate has been ~ division has passed
There is no lamp for you~
Do you feel sad on the way home?
…………
Brothers, is there an inner flavor?
Among many post-80s and post-90s youths, these non-mainstream cultures are not only a "pain point" in memory, but also the most memorable memories of a generation's youth.
After many years, I saw these non-mainstream quotations again, and I don't know how you officials will feel.
Anyway, the author is watching the liver tremble and tremble.
Since non-mainstream culture is mentioned, it is necessary to mention the originator of its creation.
This person is Shen Ke.
Maybe you're not familiar with the name, but you must have seen the non-mainstream network image printed with "CK" printed on it in space, and the song "Flying to Someone Else's Bed".
Thick gothic makeup, stud earrings, tattoos, in Shen Ke's life is full of decadence and rebellion, once by young people as a sought after object.
In 2008, Shen Ke chose to commit suicide because he was plagued by long-term depression.
However, 7 years later, in 2015, Shen Ke suddenly declared on his Weibo that he was still alive and married and had children.
While netizens sighed, it is inevitable to speculate that this domestic first "internet celebrity" should fake death?
Born on October 22, 1987 in Shaoyang, Hunan Province, Shen Ke's parents divorced and he has lived in a boarding school since junior high school.
Lacking the love of her parents, she began to fill her inner emptiness with indulgence and rebellion in adolescence.
She began smoking, getting tattoos, piercing, and posting her "non-mainstream" selfies on the Internet with sad text.
In 2004, the state launched the "Village-to-Village Communication" plan, which connects the network cable to every village, and the Internet café is the earliest carrier of rural network culture.
Take the remaining fifty cents or a piece of ice cream to buy, go to the village Internet café for an hour to drive the machine, turn over the space, and send a message to talk.
In that crowded and narrow corner, many teenagers found their soul's home through Shen Ke's online text.
Shen Ke was a well-deserved Internet celebrity in that era.
That year, Shen Ke was 17 years old, exposed to some underground culture, combined with his many years of "writing" experience, created a song "Flying to Other People's Bed", which was all over the Internet.
At the same time, during this period, Shen Ke's depression also became more and more serious, and began to try to self-harm, and uploaded these pictures to the Internet, combined with gothic wind, produced a wonderful chemical reaction, which was praised by netizens as "the beauty of death".
For the next few years, Shen Ke had been trying to self-harm and commit suicide, taking dozens of sleeping pills, injecting ice du, and frantically scratching at her wrist with a dagger.
After being found to be taken to the hospital for rescue, she also removed the infusion tube and did not cooperate with the treatment.
In 2008, Shen Ke left one last message on his platform:
"I will die again and again to prove that life is endless."
Since then, there has been no trace of Shen Ke on the Internet, so many netizens who follow her think that this time she finally ended her life as she wished.
A year, two years, five years have passed, and with the death of Shen Ke, the era that belonged to the non-mainstream culture seems to have quietly passed.
Slowly, no one remembers Shen Ke, no one remembers CK, and no one remembers the song "Flying to Someone Else's Bed" that year.
Blooming in the online world and perishing in the online world may be a perfect ending for an imperfect girl like Shen Ke.
However, what people did not expect was that in 2015, 7 years later, an account called "ghost puppet" suddenly appeared on Weibo, claiming that he was Shen Ke, claiming that he had not succeeded in committing suicide that year, and now he is married and has both children and daughters.
For her sudden appearance, there are many opinions on the Internet, some people scolded under her Weibo, saying that she brought a bad generation of post-90s; some people expressed tolerance to her, saying that no matter what, as long as she is okay.
She is now married to the one she met when she was 16 years old, the son was conceived before marriage, and the daughter was born after the two got married.
In the face of all kinds of accusations of "promiscuity" on the Internet, she also said frankly:
"One point, after all, being a wife and mother, for "promiscuity", I really have always had ten thousand and eight slashes, counting the men and women I have slept in this life, adding up to three, one forced to separate; A period of division and combination of several times finally took him; A paragraph I don't want to mention, if nothing else, the other party is now entering the marriage, not to add trouble to the other party. ”
Judging from the photos that broke out in Shen Ke's later weibo, the family is harmonious, and a son and a daughter are cute, but under Shen Ke's P chart, it seems somewhat awkward...
According to informed netizens, Shen Ke was sent abroad to forcibly quit D that year, so there was no trace on the Internet.
If this story comes to an end, it will also be a happy ending, but in 2019, Shen Ke broke the news of divorce on the Internet.
As for the outcome, there has been no news since.
As an "Internet celebrity", what Shen Ke brought to that generation is indeed not "positive energy", but her appearance also confirms the pain of a generation.
In any case, it is not an easy thing to get out of depression, and I hope that Shen Ke in the future can forget the past and embrace life.
Author: River Wine