You are the person I like, and I think this like will not be faltered to death, because like is different from love, and there is no need for any oath.
Love is selfish, it can make people cautious, and it can also make people bold enough to lose themselves.
It is precisely because of various uncertainties in this life that fate is covered with a mysterious veil,
Attract people to reach out to it and want to unveil the true face under the veil:
The unswerving love that lasts to the death seems to exist forever in the novel, and this sentence is unfair to Guo Jinglin.
His mother died of illness, and his beloved wife, as his girlfriend, helped him take care of his mentally handicapped sister and elderly father.
In order to give her a good life, he picked up vegetable leaves, piled them with bricks to form sofas, and four or five people huddled in the dilapidated house.
The five people in the cold winter moon could not make up the second quilt, and when she came to visit him, she hid her face and cried bitterly.
But when he finally got the chance to make his name remembered by the audience,
The name of his beloved wife Tong Xin appeared on the tombstone.
He stood in front of the tombstone, speechless for a long time, and spoke in his heart with grief
"My wife Tong Xin, now I am alone, and I have nothing to live up to."
Guo Jinglin's deep love is thorough, and now that things are human and non-trivial, he misses his deceased wife and has not yet married.
How can such a rare good boy in the world not let people shed tears for their love?
When the "Yuan Longping" crew found him, his heart was like a knife,
The wife did not know that he was seriously ill, he contacted the doctor, together with Tong Xin, worried that she would be too afraid to know the truth, and even more afraid that she would wash her face with tears all day long.
But making a good play is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and the goal he has worked for so many years.
Guo Jinglin squatted in the corner with his head in his arms, and he repeatedly asked himself, Fate, why are you so unfair?
No one gave him an answer, because whether it was affection or love, the scales never tilted for him.
01 Naughty children also grow up for dreams
Guo Jinglin has known Tong Xin since he was a child, he was born in 1970, when their family was directly opposite the back door of Renyi, listening to the songs coming from inside all day.
The sound of hanging throats, the sound of hanging throats, the sound of the Drum beats, erhu, three strings, guzheng, yangqin and so on.
At different points in time, Guo Jinglin knew which instrument to teach.
Even the drama master Mei Jiubao is an acquaintance he often meets when he walks the streets.
People say that they have read a lot of books and can make up without writing.
In this atmosphere, Guo Jinglin naturally wants to study art.
However, the younger sister was born with defects, and the parents almost spent the family's savings in order to treat the sister's illness.
Guo Jinglin set up a stall with his friends to subsidize his family.
The artistic dream in his heart is still taking root, he took the time to go to a crew interview, but he did not expect to be selected.
Still in high school, he performed his first play.
The experience of touching the film made the dream of an actor in his heart more and more determined.
He told his father that he wanted to be an actor.
The father almost turned upside down, pointing at him and scolding, "If you dare to go, I will break your leg!" ”
In the eyes of the elders, learning art is not as good as joining the army, and this kind of non-doing thing will make the family lose face.
After all, Guo Jinglin has not been a peaceful child since he was a child, and other classmates are sitting in the classroom in rows.
He was taken out alone and sat at the teacher's lectern, and his father thought he just didn't want to go to school so he wanted to be an actor.
At that time, their family was already poor, and Guo Jinglin tried his best to get rid of the control of his family, was admitted to the drama, and became a classmate of Xu Zheng.
For his rebellion, the mother advised the father that "the son is older, he has his own ideas, you should give him a chance to let go"
02 Donating blood fulfills the mother's last wish
Just when Guo Jinglin succeeded because of his "plan", he received a call and his mother was hospitalized for a sudden cerebral infarction.
It was 1993, and Guo Jinglin had just turned 23.
There was no time to ask, he rushed back to Beijing by train overnight, on the way he was anxious, regretful, he had just grown up, how did his mother fall?
He had not yet had time to fulfill his filial piety for his mother, and at this moment he hoped that the train would be faster, and faster.
He had already made a decision that he was going to donate blood and buy his mother a coat.
He thought about borrowing money, managing his classmates, and the leaders of the school borrowed money to use first, but it was not really earned by himself.
He was shy and wanted to donate blood to his mother to fulfill his filial piety.
When he finally rushed to the hospital to put on this new dress for his mother, her mother also closed her eyes peacefully.
The corners of Guo Jinglin's eyes crossed the tears, he did not dare to be sad for too long, his father had to take care of his sister, he began to regret going to Shanghai to study, too far from home, the whip was beyond reach.
Tong Xin of the green plum bamboo horse knew Guo Jinglin's thoughts, and rushed to his house in a hurry to mourn Guo Mu, she took Guo Jinglin's hand and firmly said to him, "Everything in the family is still me, I will treat my uncle and sister as my own relatives." ”
With Tong Xin's understanding and support, he felt as if he had taken a reassuring pill in his heart.
03 Eat the bitterness of life and give her the sweetness of happiness
At this time, Tong Xin and he from the two small guesses did not talk about the current intimate, all the superfluous words are not enough to express the gratitude in his heart,
After returning to school, the two continued to communicate with Hongyan.
The burden of taking care of the family fell on Tong Xin, she did not complain, her father slowly walked out of the state of self-abandonment, and her sister would be happy from the bottom of her heart when she saw Tong Xin's arrival.
Every letter sent to the play will detail the recent situation at home, so that Guo Jinglin is very down-to-earth in his heart, and being able to get Tong Xin is the greatest blessing of Guo Jinglin's life.
After graduating from school, Guo Jinglin was faced with the opportunity to step into the society to find a job, but the unit assigned to him had to be rebuilt, and there was no way to let him work normally.
You can only get 60 percent of your salary per month, which is 198 yuan.
This little bit of a small salary made his life very poor, and he and his friend Wang Jinsong found someone to share a private house.
Without a couch, they would pick up bricks and come back to pile one up by themselves, and although the TV set they had picked up from the garbage heap was attached to the remote control, it jumped automatically, and it wanted you to see which one you wanted to see.
Sometimes friends come and the TV suddenly jumps off the stage, and they deliberately ask, "Are you sitting on the remote control?" ”
Take pleasure in this suffering to alleviate the bitterness in your heart a little.
Once Tong Xin came to see Guo Jinglin, pushed open the door, sat on the couch of the hard bangbang, looked at this dilapidated room, there was only a quilt, she asked Guo Jinglin worriedly, "What do you cover at night on such a cold day?" ”
Guo Jinglin took out a pair of large cotton pants from under the bed and lay down on the sofa, and the two legs of the cotton pants were just covered on the legs, "You see, this is not just right."
Where could Tong Xin have imagined that Guo Jinglin actually had such a difficult time, and every time he wrote in his letter, he reported good news and did not report worry.
She had always known that he was not easy, and that there was an elderly father and a mentally handicapped sister in the family, who were not as self-sufficient as ordinary people.
Every time Guo Jinglin earned money, he was eager to break it in half, and he himself had to send money back to his father when it was so difficult.
Thinking of this, her nose was sour, and she hugged Guo Jinglin painfully.
Guo Jinglin comforted her, "These are only temporary, I will definitely marry you home!" ”
Sending Tong Xin away, he went home and passed by the frequented vegetable market, picked up the leftover leaves that were not broken, and took home the knotty soup to eat.
A series of actions flowed smoothly, without a little embarrassment, this kind of life was already accustomed to him.
03 Marry back to your beloved and hang your home in your heart
In 2000, Guo Jinglin, who has been wandering in the supporting role market, really got the opportunity, and he cooperated with Ding Jiali in "The Woman Who Walked the Gobi".
In the same year, he played the art teacher Ma Qian in the campus light comedy "Youth on Time", which was 30 years old.
In 2002, Guo Jinglin's career gradually stabilized, and his dramas also came and went.
Guo Jinglin, who finally survived, couldn't wait to take out the diamond ring and get down on one knee to propose to the beloved girl.
Tong Xin took the ring, tears slipped down, this moment she also waited too long and too long, they finally overlapped each other's names.
Guo Jinglin is distressed that she takes care of her family for herself, so he wants to have children later, just like Tong Xin can relax for two years, enjoy life well, and be a happy and happy wife.
Guo Jinglin concentrated on working outside, handed over the financial power to Tong Xin, and the actresses who worked with him all knew that he was a person with a family.
As long as the filming is close, he will never spend the night outside, and report to Tong Xin every day about his itinerary, so that Tong Xin is full of trust and security for him.
He took on the responsibility of a married man so that his wife could rest under his wing.
In recent years, he has successively filmed many works, "Wang Ji Food Stall", "Violin Dropped on the Truck", "Half Life", "Red Pursuit Order", "Days Related to Youth", "Home Is Bigger Than Heaven", "Dream Glory 1942".
04 There are unexpected storms in the day
Guo Jinglin is trying his best to fulfill the promise he made to Tong Xin, but the balance of fate begins to take back the happiness in his life.
Later, the wives became pregnant, and they were immersed in the joy of the arrival of the child.
During that time, my wife went to the hospital for examination when she was unwell and was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Knowing this result, Guo Jinglin, a seven-foot boy, hid his face and shed tears at the hospital door, how should he tell the truth?
After much thought, he decided to hide it first to avoid his wife's fear.
On the other hand, he pushed away all his work and was single-mindedly by his wife's side.
No matter what he did, he had to accompany his wife, afraid that in the blink of an eye, she would have some accident.
Originally, Tong Xin thought she was too fussy, but she couldn't help Guo Jinglin, so she went with him, and she enjoyed Guo Jinglin's care with peace of mind.
At this time, the "Yuan Longping" crew found him, his hand holding the script trembled slightly, and after waiting for so many years, he finally saw hope, this year, he was 39 years old.
But Tong Xin couldn't do without people around him, he thought, don't count it.
After Tong Xin knew that he was going to make a movie, he kept urging him, "This is the dream you have always insisted on, have you forgotten how you got to where you are today?" ”
Looking at Guo Jinglin still hesitating, she was about to pull out the infusion needle, "If you don't agree again, I won't be cured."
Guo Jinglin still has a rational existence, and he repeatedly confirmed with the crew that the shooting cycle is only about one month, and the time is fine.
He went to the office and repeatedly asked the doctor Tong Xin about his physical condition, so that he could be slightly relieved.
In recent years, Tong Xin often helped him go home to visit his father and take care of his sister, she was too virtuous and kind, it was she who soothed the harm caused by her mother's death to her family, she encouraged her father to come out of the shadows, took her sister out every day, bought her beautiful clothes, and painted self-portraits for her.
So, God, such a kind person, let her suffer less.
Unexpectedly, when he rushed to the crew with the encouragement of his wife, the girl who had always been brave and strong took a sharp turn.
In 2009, Tong Xin, who was already receiving conservative treatment, suddenly relapsed with cancer cells in his body.
Guo Jinglin did not have time to race against the God of Death, and watched as Tong Xin closed his eyes forever in his arms.
Guo Jinglin's eyes went black, hugging Tong Xin tightly, and his mouth kept chanting, "Baby, I'm back, I'll come back to pick you up and take you home.."
Fate, why do you want to take away the people I care about one by one?
05 Now I am alone, and I will not live up to my lovesickness in this life
He collected all the objects of Tong Xin's life and arranged them neatly, especially one of her favorite photos, which was placed behind the sofa.
When his movies and TV series are released, they can watch them together, so that he can deceive himself that Tong Xin is still there.
Later, "Yuan Longping" won the Outstanding Actor Award at the 13th China Film Huabiao Awards.
Standing on the podium, he could not see the sadness and joy, his eyes were waveless, he held the trophy in his hand, and at that moment he suddenly smiled: "I think I will have a beautiful dream today, in which my mother and wife who are far away in heaven will come to kiss me and hug me." ”
This heavy trophy filled the gap in his heart, and could not fill the hole in his heart.
For a long time, Guo Jinglin was very depressed, and he went to the cemetery for many days in a row, sitting quietly next to "Tong Xin", and the scenes of the past passed through his mind.
With tears in his eyes, he constantly struggled in the long river of memories, trying to jump out of the memories and return to reality,
But there was too much reluctance in his heart, and he couldn't let go of Tong Xin and let her lie alone in this cold land.
Finally, he knelt down deeply, and when he stood up again, he solemnly promised to the tombstone, "My wife Tong Xin, now I am alone, and I have no way to bear it." ”
With a promise to his wife, Guo Jinglin threw himself into work, only by keeping himself busy, he would not have so much grief.
In recent years, he has successively produced works, such as "Blue Bones", "New Bright Sword", "Redemption in the Darkness", "Oriental Chinese Dream", "Dog Thirteen", "Life Apocalypse", "National Bottom Line", "Authentic Heroine", "SilentLy Keeping That Love", "Pioneer's Youth at that Time" and so on.
Until 2017, the 47-year-old Guo Jinglin wrote his story into a script, and he wanted to give his wife a different ending.
In this way, he hopes to pin his thoughts on many years, and this play is "Born on a Brilliant Day".
Carefully reading every word here, it seems that you can hear Guo Jinglin still saying to his wife that this life is not a vow that you will not marry.
Time is silent, but it has quietly changed everything, and Guo Jinglin continues his work in the film and television circle.
This year, Guo Jinglin is 52 years old, and his wife Tong Xin has been away from him for 13 years.
The father, who had been drinking all day since his mother's death, had a new family, and his sister was taken care of.
The old house in the family became his father's marriage house, and Guo Jinglin rarely returned there, and there were too many memories of his mother and Tong Xin.
Occasionally, a friend around him kindly advised him, "If Tong Xin is here, she also hopes that you can live happily."
He rejected these kindnesses and insisted on being single, not marrying or marrying.
Maybe he had long since come out of his grief, maybe he had just buried the pain in his heart.
It was only in his heart that he always kept the position of wife for Tong Xin.
Maybe somewhere, Tong Xin was staring at himself with a smile in his eyes, and he seemed to have been waiting for an answer.
Unfortunately, life is always like this, while reminiscing and moving forward, coming and going involuntarily.