We have been struggling with this strange circle, and suddenly look back to find that silence is not a kind of talk.
At the age of 23, you graduated, and the salary for your first job was 1500 yuan, which became 2000 yuan after regularization. The salary always costs a penny, looking forward to the day of the salary. After a year, you jump ship, the salary becomes 3,000 yuan, the clothes you wear begin to become more expensive, the food begins to get better, but one thing has not changed, and the salary still costs a penny. At this time, you are in love, in order to make a girlfriend, you have to borrow 1,000 yuan a month from your friends, she still thinks that you have less money and kicks you. It is not easy to find a girl next door, the feelings are very good, learned to live, a month can actually save 1,000 yuan, did not expect that when you look forward to the future, her family did not agree, tear you apart. So you were angry and strong, and finally your salary rose to 6,000 yuan, became a white-collar worker, began to club, chased beautiful women, and gave people a tip of 100 yuan. One day, I met your ex-girlfriend on the street and wondered how I could have fallen for her, she was so tasteless.
At the age of 30, you have 100,000 yuan in savings, but you feel very tired and want to find a place where you can sleep soundly. So you get married, your savings become loans, and you have to pay back 4,000 yuan a month, but you and your wife's salary add up to 10,000 yuan, and you don't feel tired at all. A few years later, you paid off the loan and saved 50,000 yuan, your child also grew to six years old, you don't want him to repeat your life, so you want to send him to a foreign country, but people have a mouth is 200,000, you secretly scold "this gang of black-hearted foreigners." Although the wish is good, no money is in vain, and your child is still in China, until he is 22 years old.
When you are 60 years old, you retire, your son wants to get married, you ask for 400,000 yuan, you are not too much, but you feel that spending on your son is more real than giving it to foreigners. After year after year, you are no longer sensitive to numbers except for your own age. Sometimes you lie in bed and wonder how I'm still so strong, is it because I've got calcium or God wants me to be alive.
Finally you rest in peace, and the tombstone is engraved with your simple and ordinary life.
In fact, there are not only a few people who come to record their mood every day, and what do they want to say? In fact, how inexplicable and helpless is that scene of wanting to talk and stopping? It's not busy, and it's not deliberately making yourself very busy, it's just being in different time and living spaces to make each other not know where to start. Perhaps, that's how distance is generated. Everyone, every day, there are too many things happening, there are too many things to say, but suddenly began to wonder whether others are willing to listen, whether they can understand, how meaningful is it to speak or not to talk? As a result, the hand that reached for the keyboard many times shrank back, and the text input window was finally silently closed. But the first thing to do when you open your phone every day is still to look here, although you also know that no one will leave a message. Gradually it became a habit that could not be changed, nor could it be changed!
I think of the Pilgrimage of Muslims – countless people are silently together, no one speaks, but they really feel the kindness between them. Finally understand that silence is not a kind of talk.