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【Mission Release】Bookfish Literature Society Session 97: Broken Dreams Come True
Introduction
"These letters are from Jiang Jiang... Mother, wrote, when she was still alive," Jiang Cheng sat down and lit a cigarette," Jiang Jiang, who was born at the age of twenty-eight, originally planned to be written once a year, writing to Jiang Jiang's twenty-eight years old, a total of twenty-eight letters. ”
Jiang Cheng rummaged through the mountain of coffee tables and found an envelope, exactly the same as the twenty-seven in my hand.
"The last one will be sent out next month, and then it won't be there."
Jiang Jiang, explorer
and stars outside the sky
Author: Li Patu
Qualifier: Origin magic
（1）
"Calm Jiang Jiang:
It's been a long time since our last correspondence, my dive in the Mariana Trench was successful, there are beautiful corals, and some deep-sea fish that are too ugly to see, as for how I got, I was ambushed by a group of pirates on the road, they were two strong, it was a hard battle, in short, their leader was defeated by me, now I am their leader, next I will be a pirate on the high seas, I will take a boat to Argentina, there is a football team, there is a lighthouse at the southernmost point of the world, There I would change to a sightseeing boat to the South Pole.
Stay calm, and we'll continue to communicate at the end of the world.
Explorer"
I looked at the letters on the table that had been opened by Dr. Lin and had some headaches.
"Dr. Lin, you are no longer responsible for treating him, and you should not have unwrapped the letter to Jiang Jiang."
"Take over my mess, lucky boy." He tidied up his desk and ignored my accusations.
I shrugged my shoulders.
"Very few children with this disease can be completely cured, most of them are just alleviated, alleviated, so that they can minimally take care of their own lives, that child is no longer saved," that was dr. Lin before retiring I met him for the last time, "that is the gene plus the environment trigger, do you know what is the gene plus the growth environment, that is God, is fate, we have no way, rebel against God." ”
"It's hard to imagine that you're an oath-taking doctor."
"Hippocrates doesn't mean anything, he's just a fucking dead man, and if I want to die I can create a Lin Ping Oath, and it's not me who's going to be burned out anyway."
I don't know how to refute him.
After the last sound of the suitcase snapping, Dr. Lin dropped the cigarette butt, he let out a long breath, spit out the extra second-hand smoke, walked up to me and hugged me.
"Chen Shu, you are just a doctor, and the doctor has to be sad with the patient, well... Don't let yourself be too upset, that's it. ”
"Goodbye, Dr. Lin."
I watched his back disappear into the door of the department, and I really trance began to conceive his Lin Ping oath.
He is a veteran psychologist who has been doing this line of work for most of his life, has a small reputation in the city, saved, or in his words, suppressed a lot of psychological problems that may take away the lives of patients, of course, there are also some patients who cooperate with treatment, pretend to be cured, and the first time they leave his sight is to end their lives.
He can't save all the patients, this is the doctor's most famous "elephant in the room", we know it when we fill out the college entrance examination volunteer, but maybe we will not mention it in front of others until the day we die.
I think if there is a "Lin Ping Oath", the first one should be what he just said to me.
"You're just a doctor, and the doctor has to be sad with the patient, but don't let yourself be too sad."
（2）
After I sat quietly next to Jiang Jiang and observed for a month, combined with Dr. Lin's notes, I probably got to know this stone-like child.
At the age of five, when I was three years old, my mother committed suicide because of postpartum depression that had not been cured, my father began to drink heavily, and was found by the community women's federation and sent to us, without speaking, without social interaction, completely ignoring the surrounding environment, repeatedly looking at a picture book called "Explorer", with the cover paintings of Adam and Eve who were secretly hugging in Eden.
He would open his mouth when he was fed, sleep on his stomach at the table at the end of the day, go to bed by himself at night, and we would know nothing else, and because of his high disregard for us, we would not even have the opportunity to test his intelligence.
Without any breakthrough at all, I began to study the mysterious letters sent to Jiang Jiang.
There were 27 letters in all, and since he had lived here, he had received one every month, and the letter paper was the kind of scratch paper that could be seen everywhere, the handwriting was somewhat messy, the font of an adult, and the final drop had no name, and it was a code name: Explorer.
The explorer's letter to Jiang Jiang tells the story of his adventures in traveling all over the world, crossing the border from Coco Siri, one country after another, different civilizations and murals, the same sun and moon, and the explorer said that he was looking for something called "Origin Magic", which is said to be the beginning of everything, the fulfillment of all human wishes.
I have to admit that the explorer's writing is very good, if it were not for such a strange scene, I might have paid for this children's literature.
At the beginning and end of the letters, the explorers will let Jiang Jiang "stay calm", I think these letters may be a breakthrough in Jiang Jiang's condition, and it is also the reason why he is so quiet, many children like him here have associated manic symptoms, when their habitual repetitive movements are prevented, most of the children will start to be manic and drop things, but Dr. Lin tried to take the picture book that Jiang Jiang was reading, and he had no other movements except to clench his fists and shed tears.
The explorer's letter was the only thing that could interrupt his picture book reading, and he seemed to listen to the explorer very much.
I have been with Jiang Jiang and watched him flip through the picture books, and this is how my first communication with him happened.
"Jiang Jiang, do you want to write back to the explorer?"
Jiang Jiang stopped his hand turning the book, and I was startled by the sudden pause.
"I can teach you." Seeing that he still did not continue to turn the page, I quickly continued.
He ignored me and continued to turn the pages.
Yeah, he was only five years old and didn't know how to write a letter, so I tore a piece of paper from my notebook and decided to ghostwrite for him.
"Dear Explorer,
Hello, this is the first time I have written back to you and I wish you all the best.
According to what you said last time, you must have returned to South America now, I envy your long journey, wait until I am better, I want to go to you, until you find the Origin Magic, please wait for me.
Have a safe trip.
Calm Jiang Jiang"
As I wrote, I read it out to myself, a very simple reply, which was mixed with a little bit of my personal goods, hoping to get his response, although he never spoke, although we could not rebel against genes and the environment, but I think there will always be exceptions, right?
"It's Mom," a childish voice sounded softly, and Jiang Jiangtou pointed to the beginning of the explorer's title without looking up, "The explorer is The mother." ”
I guess there's always a miracle, right?
（3）
I followed the address Written in the contact book and went to the tattered apartment where Jiang Jiang's father lived.
When the Women's Federation found Jiang Jiang, his father was yelling at home because he was drunk, and after that, Jiang Jiang was under the management of the welfare institute, and the welfare institute sent him to us, and his father was also prosecuted.
I pinched my nose and walked through the other side's clutter and garbage corridor, frowning and knocking on the door of 1308.
The door opened a slit, and a bloodshot eye opened.
"Who are you looking for?" Hoarse voice.
"Are you Jiangcheng?" Hello, I'm Jiang Jiang...",
"Jiang Cheng is dead." The man inside the door unceremoniously interrupted me and slammed it.
I knocked on the door again, and in the piercing sound of the bolt biting, it was the angry bloodshot eyes again.
"Because of the restriction order that you are not allowed to approach Jiang Jiang, we have your picture in the center, Mr. Jiang." I looked at him expressionlessly, my hand holding his picture, the exact same eyes.
Jiang Cheng closed the door with some irritation and began to curse something loudly, and it took a long time before he opened the door and let me enter his pig's nest, the room was very small, he pulled the beige curtains, the sunlight penetrated the curtains, and the whole room without lights glowed with a warm yellow halo.
"Drinking beer or white?" He was naked, his crotch and stuff flicking into the kitchen.
"I don't drink." I waved strangely.
No one drinks during the day.
"That's a pre-mixed cocktail." He came out and threw me a jar of grape-flavored RIO.
He sat down next to me and started drinking Jack Daniel, and I took the opportunity to take a good look at him, untrimmed, his hair had begun to smell of oil, and his body was covered with bruises and scars.
"Mr. Jiang Cheng, I want to talk to you about your son."
"He hurt someone?"
"No, he's obedient."
"Then you talk to me about chicken/ba?"
"I think I might be able to cure him."
Jiang Cheng's drinking action paused for a moment, and it had to be said that they were father and son, and the look of the pause was exactly the same.
"No one can cure that little monster." Jiang Cheng shook his head.
"I can, I will, I swore when I was studying medicine." I was a little upset with his attitude.
Jiang Cheng suddenly burst out and rode on top of me, he smashed the bottle on the floor with force, holding the sharp fragment against my face, his face getting closer and closer, I smelled the wine rolling in his nose, a little sick to his stomach.
He looked at me for a long time, like he was looking at a rare animal.
"Swearing is a bad habit, doctor, for an animal like a man whose speech does not count," it took a long time for him to come down from me as if he had confessed his fate, and his voice sounded much tired, as if the action had just drained his strength," and the last man who swore in front of me had already left without saying a word. ”
I knew who it was, and everyone in the whole center who knew Jiang Jiang knew who it was.
"That's what I'm here for," I took the letters out of my arms and handed them to JiangCheng, "do you know who this explorer is?" ”
Jiang Cheng held the letters without speaking.
"I tried to communicate with Jiang Jiang before, and when he said that he wrote back to the explorer, he responded to me, he said that the explorer is the mother," I continued, "I think this explorer may be the key to the normal communication between Jiang Jiang and the world, so come to you and ask..."
"Don't waste your effort, doctor." Jiang Cheng interrupted me and threw the letter back to me.
“... I don't understand. ”
"These letters are from Jiang Jiang... Mother, wrote, when she was still alive," Jiang Cheng sat down and lit a cigarette," Jiang Jiang, who was born at the age of twenty-eight, originally planned to be written once a year, writing to Jiang Jiang's twenty-eight years old, a total of twenty-eight letters. ”
Jiang Cheng rummaged through the mountain of coffee tables and found an envelope, exactly the same as the twenty-seven in my hand.
"The last one will be sent out next month, and then it won't be there."
“... These are all sent by you? ”
Jiang Cheng was silent.
"Just fulfill Ame's last wish," Jiang Cheng squeezed out the cigarette butt with his fingers, "I don't have her patience, so I send it month after month." ”
"What about after twenty-eight letters?"
He fell silent again.
"I sneaked to the center to see him, from a distance where the security guards wouldn't notice me," Mr. Jiang said, "and he's doing well now, at least better than following me." ”
I looked at him and didn't speak.
"We're all going to have a new life."
I was a good student who had never fought since I was a child, but I couldn't stand it anymore, got up and punched him in the face, then the next punch, then the next punch, and he didn't resist, he just sat there and let me hit.
……
"Tell me about Ame." I sat panting beside him, he had been beaten beyond recognition by me.
“... Ame, Ame loves to read, write and travel, she is the freest bird in the world. ”
"What about you?"
"Me, I'm just a tree where she rests, it's just that she stopped on me for a long, long time."
"The wound on your body?" I thought about it and added, "Except for those I played." ”
“...... The pain makes me feel that I am still alive," Jiang Cheng took a puff of smoke, "The letter that Ame wrote to him made Jiang Jiang feel that he was still alive in the world, and the pain was the letter that Ame wrote to me. ”
Jiang Jiang is still quietly waiting for the explorer's letter next month, but the source of the letter is alcoholism and self-harm.
"I see," I stood up, grabbed the letters on the table and walked out the door, "next month's letter remember to send it, and then you will fend for yourself, and then the explorer's letter, I will write." ”
“... Thank you. ”
"Shut up."
I slammed the door hard.
（4）
Since I started teaching Jiang Jiang to write replies, his condition has gotten better and better.
He started talking to me, only talking to me, and although it was only when I asked him what he said every time, it was already a lot of progress.
Since I wanted to teach him to write a reply, Jiang Jiang subconsciously gave up part of the time to repeatedly flip through the picture book, which is a particularly good signal, the autistic child is always repeating some actions in a high degree of synchronization, and when this cognitive impairment begins to decrease, it means that he is slowly becoming normal.
We wrote back to his mom.
"Dear Ame..."
"Dear Mother..."
"Well, dear mother..."
After teaching him to write a reply, I began to try to teach him to draw, he was very clever, he learned quickly, at first he drew geometric patterns such as the sun and the moon, but slowly began to draw people, and the scenes mentioned in those letters, I gave him pictures of places of interest and monuments around the world, he painted, there were three people in the painting, the short man was him, the explorer Ame with a horsetail, and a tall man should be me, and the three of us began to venture in his paintings, to find the "origin magic" that fulfilled human wishes.
The next thing that worries me is how to continue writing in the tone of Amey after the last letter next month, she is a master writer who has traveled the world, and I have not even been abroad except for going to a university in the north, and I feel that I will definitely be exposed.
But take your time, I still have time.
……
The next month's letter date was fast approaching, and I got the last letter from Jiang Cheng in the mailroom, but something was different from the previous twenty-seven letters.
There was blood on the envelope.
I opened the envelope and found that the letter was not written for Jiang Jiang, and the opening title was not "calm Jiang Jiang", but "Dr. Chen who likes to swear indiscriminately".
Dr. Chen, who likes to swear indiscriminately:
Good day.
Didn't you think it was a surprise? Why did the dead Ame know you? Is that the price of your promiscuous swearing?
I think you may have guessed something here, yes, about the letter, I lied, Ame has never loved her son, she may pretend to be a good mother, but she will not write to Jiang Jiang.
My name is Jiang Cheng, I used to work as a columnist for travel magazines, an explorer looking for "Origin Magic".
"Origin magic" is a concept that Amey proposed, she said that was the reason she embarked on her journey, the beginning of the world, the originator of mankind, the first meteor to fall to the earth, she always likes to say something out of the ordinary, that is why I love her.
After she died, I hated my son, he was obviously the culprit who took Ame, but he still sat there every day, pretending to be like nothing happened, I hated him so much, Ame was a bird of freedom, a bird of freedom in exchange for anything that was acceptable, meteor showers, auroras, pirates, pilgrimage roads, but why him, why him, why him.
I think it's because he has the same beautiful eyes as Ame.
"Explorer" is a picture book based on Ame's travelogue, Jiang Jiang likes that story, Ame often told him when he was still alive, and then I told him, now it's your turn to tell him, I secretly see you every day, you are different from those routine perfunctory doctors, I believe you.
Now, I'm going to find Ah Mei, and the twenty-eighth letter is addressed to you, Chen Shu.
Please, become a new explorer.
2nd Explorer"
……
I have forgotten how I arrived at Jiangcheng's apartment that day, ran a red light, forcibly changed lanes, and ran away after scraping the vehicle, I ran there as fast as I could, slammed the door with all my strength, and I broke into Jiangcheng's bedroom, and he fell on the bed without blood, and the cut marks on his wrist were still bleeding out.
I hadn't entered his bedroom, where the walls were densely packed with pushpins of cuts from travel magazines, the floor was stacked with stacks of "lonely planet" and "National Geographic" that were about to be torn apart, the desk was a mountain of drafts, the drafts of the first twenty-seven letters, and on them stood three people, the short one was Jiang Jiang, the ponytail was Ame, and the tall man was Jiang Cheng.
“...... It turns out that you have not been abroad, earth dog. ”
The ambulance whistle sounded, and the two men carrying the stretcher took him away, and I collapsed in front of the bookcase as if I had lost my strength.
（5）
After handling jiangcheng's hospitalization procedures, when I returned to the center, it was already the next morning.
Jiang Jiang sat in the old position looking for me, and after seeing me, he waved at me slightly.
I sat down.
"Letter." He pointed to the crumpled letter in my hand.
I forgot about this stubble.
Fortunately, the last letter was written to me, Jiang Cheng's notes were very sloppy, Jiang Jiang should not understand, I have to read.
How do I pronounce it? How long can I hide from Jiang Jiang? How many years can I be an explorer?
I took the letter out.
"Red." Jiang Jiang pointed to the envelope.
“... This is called blood. ”
"Blood?"
"Let's live the liquid."
Jiang Jiang nodded, and then eagerly knocked on the letter on the table.
I saw Jiang Jiang's eyes, which were indeed a very beautiful pair of eyes, and I think Ah Mei should also be a very beautiful person.
I didn't open my mouth for a long time, staring at the cover of Explorer on the table in a daze.
Adam, Eve, Eden.
"Origin Magic".
Bloody River City.
Jiang Jiang and Ame's meteor eyes.
I think I know what to pronounce.
"Calm Jiang Jiang..."
……
I took Jiang Jiang to the hospital.
Jiang Cheng had woken up, and he was sitting by the window in a daze.
Jiang Jiang threw himself into Jiang Cheng's arms and cried loudly.
After the familiar pause in Jiangcheng, the father and son hugged each other and cried loudly.
"Daddy."
I am quite sure that this is the first thing Jiang Jiang said to Jiang Cheng.
（6）
"Calm Jiang Jiang:
Like someone who is very good at saying, all adventures come to an end.
I got rid of the Templars' tracking and came to the place where it all began, a beautiful place, unknown fragrant flowers, babbling streams, towering trees, we call this the Garden of Eden, you call it, Heaven.
I found the "origin magic" that I had been pursuing for half a lifetime, and after learning the answer, I was dumbfounded, it turned out to be such a simple question, the "origin magic" of mankind, the beginning of everything, the source of all emotions, called "hug", water and high temperature hugging boiling, and low temperature hugging ice, planet hugging to produce new planets, people embracing to produce new human beings, we are all from hugging, you are from mom and dad hugging.
Mom forgot to hug you in order to pursue the "origin magic", Mom is sorry, but those adventurous journeys are not meaningless, Mom has seen mountains, rivers, oceans, churches, and deserts, there are Mom's footprints all over the world, Mom has left a lot of treasures for Jiang Jiang in those places, grow up well, Jiang Jiang, become an explorer, go to find the scenery that Mom left for you, with Dad.
Dad wrote to say that he wanted to say sorry to Jiang Jiang, Dad hates himself now, remember to hug Dad Oh, when you have walked all the roads that Mom has walked, you will find the Garden of Eden, and Mom is waiting for you at the entrance of the Garden of Eden.
Explorer Ame"
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Comments section
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Judges
A, Teacher Li Patu's works are always cast in one group but there is a faint taste of two groups, magnificent, dreamy, and sharp, which can pierce people's hearts. The Jiang Jiang family of three are all that kind of emotional and sensitive traits, which may be the kind of personality that can have fantastic ideas and a keen sense of the world, but it is also such susceptible traits that will more likely cause postpartum depression, autism and self-destruction tendencies. The whole story is logically reasonable, but emotionally it seems that such a story is outside the real world, and it feels like it is the product of the author's special processing. Those stories all seem to be different, and those stories seem to be similar.
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Su Wu
Everyone has a soft place in their hearts, and Mr. Li Patu can touch it accurately every time, perhaps because Mr. Li Patu's characters will always show us the soft place inside. One of the things I like about my teacher is that every time I finish reading the teacher's text, my heart will be full of hope.
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Jiang Yixia
Loved it!!! Unbearable reality and fantastic adventures intertwine, uncovering the past of Jiang Jiang's parents step by step. The development of the story is always unexpected, from the death of the mother to the fact that the father wrote the letter, unexpectedly but so reasonably. When I saw the end, I also thought, if I were a doctor, how to write a letter, it would not feel better than Dr. Chen wrote. In my own experience (I have been a volunteer at the Autism Children's Rehabilitation Center for a while before), the teacher's writing for autistic children is very realistic, not most people understand or don't like to talk or anything, it looks very smooth and no drama!