The car was moving through the torrential rain, the light was getting brighter and brighter, and the driver finally stopped.
Chen Zhi got out of the car with two bouquets of white roses, turned on the GPS positioning, pointed the flowers towards the crash site, and stood silently - this place is only about 2 kilometers away from the crash site, but there is no possibility of entering the rescue scene.
This is the third day of the fall of China Eastern AIRLINES MU5735. On March 23, Chen arrived in Guangxi from Guizhou to present a bouquet of flowers to his friends on the plane.
The white rose was found by him from Wuzhou to Nanning and asked about twenty flower shops. The flowers cannot bloom too much, the petals cannot be too small, the diameter should be large, the color should be good, the packaging should be exquisite, and he should have the best quality white roses.
It was pouring rain in Nanning that day, and he carefully protected the flowers, just like protecting a heart.
Two years ago, they met on a trip, Chen Zhi is a somewhat avid aviation enthusiast, so far in college, nearly 300 times, he is also keen to travel, which is a common hobby of the two.
Usually, they will talk about where to travel: want to go to Iceland to feel the silence of the black sand beach, go to the African savannah to see the animal migration, go to the South Pole to see the aurora, and also discuss the strategy to go to the South Pole, take a boat from Chile, or buy a civilian ticket for a military plane. In reality, they had only seen three times, and the unspecified relationship made Chen Zhi not know what reason to use to find her.
They chatted online from time to time, in addition to traveling, they also complained about the "broken things" encountered in life and work, and slowly got closer.
Not long ago, she asked him: Do you like me? Chen Zhi did not respond positively - he was 28 years old, had never been in love, and his previous fruitless pursuit experience made him "subconsciously" avoid this somewhat straightforward question.
The night rain in the south was big and cold. On the evening of the 23rd, Chen Zhi stood in the rain for two or three minutes, glad to be so close to her, but remorseful, why so close, but could not see it in person.
"The flowers have arrived, I'm leaving." He said he hadn't looked back that day. On the seventh day of the incident, he wanted to go again and ask her personally: I like you, be my girlfriend, do you promise?
Two kilometers from the crash site, Chen zhi put roses on it.
[The following is Chen Zhi's dictation]
【I】
The last chat record with her was at noon (21st), I said I had the opportunity to play together, and I gave her a tour guide.
At 3 p.m., I read the news of an aviation "big V" saying that the plane was missing. I'm not sure she's on that plane, I don't know what the flight number is, I only know that it's a flight to Guangzhou at 1 o'clock, I checked it, that one or two hours, there was only one flight, I actually had the bottom in my heart, but I was contradictory. I quickly clicked on "flightradar24", a professional website that checks the route of the aircraft, and it shows that the connection is missing. (However) "Aviation Travel" (a civil aviation travel software), which shows that it has landed at Guangzhou Baiyun Airport.
I remember very clearly, because the aviation "big v" his home is in Guangzhou, 2 o'clock (more) hanging plane missing, I saw him photographed Guangzhou airport cleared three runways, waiting for the plane to land, the scene a lot of ambulances, fire trucks parked on the apron, but the back of the recovery, he said very strange, in theory this flight should be normal? Near 4 o'clock, some villagers on the Internet took videos of the wreckage of the plane, and a mining company monitored the (crash) footage, but it was not confirmed, and I kept praying that it was fake. Before 4:10, the mobile phone pushed the official message, confirming the crash. "Voyage" only showed two words, I had never seen before, the red "crash." ”
I was crying, standing next to a main traffic road in the city, and there was a lot of traffic.
That night I had to rush back to my home in the county seat, from Zunyi city to the county seat, about 120 kilometers, a highway of one and a half hours, I sat in the car from the beginning to the end, some passengers asked, is it a crash? I don't want anyone to know, but I still answer, yes. Asked for details, I did not say more.
After arriving home, my mother also knew, and I called her as soon as the accident occurred, in fact, my mother did not know what was going on between the two of us. Before I came to Guangxi, she just knew that it was a friend of mine.
At night, I saw the plane landing vertically ( the news ) , and I was heartbroken in an instant. I'm an aviation enthusiast and know that the last one has gone down at a speed of more than 400 knots, at least 600-700 kilometers per hour, and now the most accurate statement is more than 800 kilometers.
You're on a roller coaster like you usually have a speed of more than 100 kilometers per hour, and you're bound by tracks. (Aircraft) close to seven or eight hundred kilometers per hour, almost vertical angle, dive force is too large, in addition to professionally trained pilots, ordinary people or crew, can not bear, infinite fear in the heart, one or twenty seconds to faint, crash that moment, even if not lost consciousness, is desperate to the extreme.
I don't know how much jet fuel was left in the plane at that time, but it caught fire, and the burning properties of aviation kerosene were particularly strong, this was a Boeing 737, with a fuselage length of 39.5 meters, and if it took off with a full load of aviation fuel, it was about sixty tons of a thing, and (finally) there was only a little bit, a few hundred square meters of such a small fragment. The fact that the larger remains can be found is a blessing in disguise.
But I still sent another circle of friends, praying for survivors, in fact, I know in my heart, it is impossible, (this is) very complex emotions, I do not know what (language) to express.
The moment I learned that the flight was missing, I sent her a message, and I said aren't you looking for me to play? Why? You must answer me. I also sent it when I confirmed that the crash occurred, and when I saw the plane burning and catching fire. The fourth point in time is to see the surveillance screen of the mining company, and I also sent it.
【II】
On the night of March 21st, I didn't sleep at all, and on the 22nd at 12:00 noon, I hesitated to go to the scene--the scene must have been sealed at that time, and at one or two o'clock I made it clear, yes, I was going.
At 3:00 p.m. on the 22nd, I went to the people's hospital of our county, went to collect nucleic acid, and called Nanning Airport, I had planned to take a plane at more than 9 o'clock to arrive in Nanning, stay in Nanning for one night, and take the earliest train to reach Fujian County the next day, but I was in a hurry, I did not find a car to rush to Guiyang Airport for a while, and I could not drive that state by myself.
That day I told my mother that I was going to Guiyang to deal with a little personal affair, and I went out to relax, and she asked me if I was going to Guangxi, and I said no. When I came back on the morning of the 23rd, my mother asked me directly, I said I did not go to Guangxi, and she asked again, what did you see when you went to the scene? In fact, she must have known in her heart, but did not continue to say.
Continue to say back, the 9 o'clock flight, I have booked a ticket, but because Zunyi has a local case, so I keep calling Nanning 12345, calling the local health commission, Guangxi health commission, constantly confirming, do not go to be isolated.
About an hour and a half to Guiyang Airport, because I often fly, I know that time is definitely not enough, call and coordinate with the airline, wait for me 10 minutes, I can arrive. After half an hour of negotiation, others still disagreed, and could only refund the ticket in tears.
At that time, I was an ant on the hot pot, hurry to see where I can fly to the transfer, as long as I can go to Guangxi, I am willing to fly wherever I want, that will be crazy, let me fly to Harbin, fly a night I am willing.
Just happened to have a plane (transit) in Haikou, ok, I flew to Haikou, the next morning I flew to Nanning, the first time to take a train from Nanning to Fujian County.
I've been looking for a flower shop on the map, I want white roses, I want white roses of good quality, because this bouquet of flowers has to match her. The flowers cannot bloom too much, nor can they be too small, they should be large in diameter, look good in color, and be exquisitely packaged. The price doesn't matter, as long as it's not sold to me at a sky-high price, I can accept it.
Most of the flower shops in Fujian County say that you are going to be sure that there is none, just one store, but the requirements cannot be met. I called many flower shops (phones) in Wuzhou, and contacted at least 20 of them, all of which waited until the evening, or the next morning.
There was really no way, (train) to Pingnan South (station), I quickly got off the bus, looking for the fastest car to return to Nanning, at that time there were 15 minutes before the next train, I rushed out of the station to buy tickets.
In Nanning, I found a very exquisite flower shop, but also on the high-speed rail in advance to contact well, others also said that I can not get the white rose, I told him my situation, I said I am really sorry, I said MU5735 has my friends, I came from afar, can you think of all the ways, I increase the price.
In fact, I am very grateful to him, running for an hour or two to get the white rose, because I want a lot (not easy to find). It was pouring rain, and my clothes were soaking wet to protect the flowers.
The flower shop is about 7 kilometers away from Nanning East Railway Station, (back) I desperately rushed, it was just 6 o'clock in the evening peak, I almost cried in the car, desperately begging the driver master, I told him that it doesn't matter if you speed, you add me WeChat, all your fines, I pay you, if you want to deduct fees, you have to deduct points, I can send my driver's license to you, you take my driver's license buckle.
Thankfully, I took the last bus to Vine At 6:45. There were a lot of people on the bus that day, and I didn't find a place to put flowers. Put the flowers under my feet the whole time. If someone comes in and out, I will protect my flowers for the first time, and the meaning of spending that time is far greater than anything.
【III】
After passing through Guigang, Guangxi, my heart became heavier and heavier. I was very hesitant in my heart, this time I came to Guangxi, first of all, I was not sure if I could find a way to find someone to help me, let me enter the scene, or bring my flowers in.
The second is this feeling for her, a feeling I can't give you to describe. I thought about it a lot, from knowing her to the accident on March 21st, which was messy.
The moment I arrived in Fuji County and stepped out of the carriage, I stood next to the platform for two or three minutes, thinking about (and) her, and my tears kept falling. I tweeted: "I'm here with your favorite roses." ”
After sending out Weibo, I was thinking about whether to set a position, at first I didn't want to locate, but I still wanted more people to know, and then send a message for help, is there anyone who can help me go in, then I will be very clear that I can't go in, the periphery of the core area is extremely difficult.
After thinking about this, I continued to stand in that place, looking at the flowers, looking at it and crying.
After finding the hotel, the first thing I did was to send Weibo for help netizens, 10:30 to release the help message, (to) 2 o'clock I kept filtering useful private messages, many people private messages to me, a netizen said ask me where I am? Then he said, "You live next to me." Within 10 minutes he replied to me: "I'll take you!" "Tell me to go downstairs right away."
I went downstairs and saw his car parked downstairs from my hotel, the same age as me. Seriously, I'm still a little scared, what is this person?
He said he also flew a lot, and maybe it was a blow to him.
We looked at the map and drove into the side of a Y-shaped intersection with a small bridge above it. He said brother can't do it, it's not that I don't help you, I can't get in. (His) Highlander body was close to two meters, and I was not dead hearted, and personally walked to the bridge to take a look, only the narrowest van (which can be crossed), about 1 meter 5, 1 meter 6 estimated to be less than.
We returned to the intersection, got out of the car and asked if anyone could bring the flowers in, saying that they were looking for villagers to bring them in and were seen, and the impact was not good. We also said whether we can put the flowers in a conspicuous place, nor can we, and someone will clean them up immediately after they are released, which is wasted.
After returning to the hotel, I saw (another) private message from a netizen who was about zero o'clock (sent), with a phone number left on it, and I didn't think about it so much. He was already asleep, but he still accepted my pleas, and then he woke up his friend and borrowed a Van from Wuling Hongguang to come and pick me up.
The second departure, around 4 o'clock, he carried me all the way unimpeded, smooth beyond imagination. A sharp turn, turning left, I saw that there were lights on the hill in front of me, obvious lights, telling me to get closer and closer to the scene at any time.
Chen Zhi took the netizen's car and was getting closer and closer to the crash site.
There (a day) 24 hours a day in non-stop search and rescue, this light, the further forward the bigger and bigger. When he was about to reach the highway, netizens said that he did not dare to take any more risks, (choking) we can only put the flowers on the right side (road), (that) the distance from the crash point will be closer, even if it can be closer than one or two meters. The flower is precisely in the direction of the crash point, and it is only two kilometers straight from the crash point.
It was raining very heavily. It was very cold and I stayed in the rain for two or three minutes. I was glad to be so close to her, and I wanted her to see the flowers I had put on. [But] why, so close, I can't go in and see for myself.
It was getting farther and farther away from the scene, but I didn't feel like crying at all, I didn't feel too sad, I didn't know if it was numbness or what, no feeling. Or the flowers have arrived, and I'm going to go first.
I didn't look back at all, and I told him you could drive faster, don't look, don't see it again, don't think about it again.
The first netizen felt that I was particularly sentimental, and the second netizen's reaction was that I was irrational and a little paranoid, and he said a sentence that I remembered very clearly, "It may make sense to you, but for most people, it doesn't make sense." "On the way back, the atmosphere was a little awkward and I was grateful to him, but he had his ideas, I had my thoughts.
I'm actually a bit paranoid.
(My friend asked me to bring a bunch) I didn't actually put that bunch myself. I wondered if I could find someone else to bring me in the next day and take it closer to the site. [But] it's really hard. I wanted to put it in the West River and go down the river, and I knew that there was a reservoir below, and it was impossible for the flowers to enter the sea, but I couldn't find a more suitable place. I was anxious to go home again in the afternoon.
I feel guilty now, why rush home and find a place to put the flowers. Why do such a thing hastily, that there are 21 flowers in that bouquet, and the meaning is March 21st.
【IV】
My (and her) chat history is still there, I can't help but click in to see it, whenever I see the chat history, it is a very good care, for fear of accidentally deleting it by me.
Usually I almost don't dream, these two days every day in the do, although the sleep is very poor, dreaming of the first meeting scene and messy everything, emotionally barely able to control, will not be too out of control,
She is a more optimistic and humorous person, the pursuit of fashion and beauty is a bit humorous, and the surface looks more sunny.
We met three times, but I always remember her face.
She and I mostly chatted on our phones. She loves to travel, food. We mainly talk about where we want to go, whether to go to Northern Europe to see Santa Claus, to the African savannah to see animal migration, we all want to go to the South Pole to see the aurora, consider the way to antarctica, from Chile to have a boat, you can also take a military plane, there are civilian tickets, both ways to experience once. It's all blowing all over the place.
Dessert milk tea she eats. I usually like to make pumpkin pie, and she said she could eat it one day.
If I get into the scene, I should probably message her four more times. When I go in, I will send it to her, when I come out, I will send it when I leave, and the last time I will calm down for a while, summing up. Like everyone says, to start a new life, I don't think about sending her again, and then sealing the chat history - my mother also asked if I could show the chat history, I said no, I don't want to tell anyone, including my best friend.
I am still waiting for them (the scene) to be completely opened, I will plant a tree and do a good job of marking, this is what I read netizens said. Maybe there will be a message (message) at that time, which may be the last one of the Eight Classics.
I'm occasionally urged to get married, after all, I'm 28 years old, I haven't been in a relationship yet, and it's a difficult thing to be in love with. But I pursued this kind of love, a vigorous love. Although life will be dull later, it can't be like this at the beginning.
Anyway, love is my own, I figured it out myself, let's say I like someone, and then I was rejected. For a person with a strong personality like me, in a short time, this memory can be passed away. Mainly the follow-up blow, experience more, you will doubt love, what is love like? You're going to be anxious, is it really that I'm too paranoid?
I still haven't been able to finish her last ride. Her family is different, and if there is, some relics can be taken with them. But I have no right and no right to take relics, and even if I am qualified, I don't want to take them. When I see chat history or something from my lifetime, I can't help but think of her, no matter how long it takes, no matter whether I see it three or five years later or I will (remember).
I want to store it in the depths of my memory. After all, people can't always think about such things, and they can't continue to work and study. But I certainly can't do it these days, and the state consciousness is trapped inside.
Entering the scene, there is a more important task for me, I want to say it myself, "I like you, you are my girlfriend, do you promise?" ”
I didn't say that before she died.
(At the request of the interviewee, Chen Zhi is a pseudonym)