Fiction: A Journey in Search of Love

A journey to find love

1

Junhua and his wife Na'er got on the train to Qinghai.

The train slowly leaves Xi'an Station. Although the ancient capital has scenic spots and monuments, accumulating a thick history, living, but also extra leisurely, comfortable, but the summer of the ancient capital, like a stove, this is the hottest time of the year, the sun like fire, roasting the city.

On the train, looking at the air conditioning, extra cool. Looking at the blazing sun above his head, thinking of the ancient capital like a furnace, Junhua's heart suddenly felt the cool ease after fleeing.

However, the train has been driving on the Guanzhong Plain, through the window, looking at the sun overhead, the endless plain, in the hot sun, only to feel the scorch of the day.

At Baoji Station, the car stopped for a while, and you can see the mountain, which has green trees, blue sky, and white clouds, which make people feel cool.

Baoji, Junhua had heard the name very early, had not come, and now witnessed with his own eyes that the original city was in the mountains. However, what the city looks like, Junhua does not know. Jun'er also felt that this city, still in the Guanzhong Plain, the Guanzhong Plain, the summer sun, too hot, people can't stand it, Junhua just wants to escape, escape from this furnace-like place, first to Lanzhou, heard that it is cool, the ultimate purpose, is to Qinghai, heard that it is cooler, only in this hot place, can find a cool place, just like finding a hometown, just in the comfort, found the body and soul to live in.

2

Junhua's hometown is not in the city, nor in Guanzhong, but in the Qinling Mountains.

Junhua lived and worked in the Qinling Mountains until now.

In a flash, many years have passed, and Junhua has changed from a young man with black hair to a middle-aged man with a glowing forehead and a bloated body. Although he has a family, wife, children, and a house and a car, Junhua feels more and more dissatisfied and bored with life. Children grow older and farther away from themselves. At work, that is, a small clerk, at the bottom, there is no longer a young dream, hope, work, that is, just a mouthful of food to eat. When people reach middle age, they have seen through fame and fortune, money, and other things that they have no desire for, like, live, it seems to be waiting for death, and they will see through the future life path at once, so pale and without content.

Working in the village, the village is gradually empty, can go out to work, are out of the door, left, is the elderly, and left behind children, many people, closed doors all year round, the village, it is particularly dead, empty, only a chicken long, no sound of the call, let people feel that the days are long, hopeless.

In order to find hope in such a hopeless life, Junhua and his wife rented a house in a village in Xi'an, worked in the village, and returned to the city on weekends and holidays.

Working in the village for a few days, in addition to the landscape, which can comfort the heart, others, in the face of the monotony of the work, the emptiness of the village makes Junhua feel that the days are long and difficult.

On the weekend, I can't wait to leave the work unit, the village, drive over the Qinling Mountains, and come to the city. Coming to the city, looking at the streets, high-rise buildings, and bustling crowds of the city, it is as if you have returned to the same kind, and you feel relaxed and happy in your heart.

On weekends in the city, Jun'er walks around the streets without purpose, hungry, eats various snacks, and at night, eats barbecues and beer at night market stalls. In the hustle and bustle, the weekend days always pass in a flash.

When it came to the holidays, Junhua couldn't wait to come to the city with his wife. Children do not follow them, they have to play with their grandmothers in the countryside, perhaps, in the hearts of children, the city is not as fun as their hometown.

Originally thought, in the city, spend the holidays, in the summer, spend happily, but did not think that xi'an in the summer, hot like a stove, he could not stay, he fled.

3

After a short stop at Baoji Station, the train started slowly.

Without going far, I saw the mountain, the mountain is very high, but also shows a variety of shapes, some connected, some independent, the mountains are covered with green trees, the sky above the head, blue and blue, the sun is particularly clear. In the mountains, there is water, the water is very clear. Because there are dams built, in the mountains, a large artificial lake is formed. The lake reflects the mountains, the mountains embrace the water, there are mountains and water, there is a charm, let people feel beautiful, but also feel cool, Junhua's heart is very excited, imagining the road ahead, the scenery ahead.

The train was in the mountains for a while, and in the tunnel for a while, looking at the scenery outside the car window and listening to the rumbling sound of the train, Junhua's heart was very excited, and his wife was probably excited, excited, and relied on Junhua.

In Junhua's heart, he couldn't help but think of his past with his wife.

Before Junhua knew his wife, he was in the pain of lost love, unable to extricate himself, did not know how to face the future life, only felt a darkness in his heart, and could not see the road ahead of him.

At this time, his wife Na'er was assigned to work in the unit.

Na'er is a few years younger than Junhua, good looking, medium-sized, disc face, fair skin, bright eyes, full of vitality, full of yearning for the future. However, in Na'er's eyes, there is a sad look, and Na'er's body also has experienced maturity and vicissitudes after the world. However, these handsome children did not notice. When Na'er first came to the unit, Jun'er was in pain, in the dark, and had no mind at all, to think about who came to work in the unit, how long, what expression, feel everything, but it was all a matter of not letting go.

Junhua gradually got to know Na'er, knew Na'er's name, and remembered Na'er's appearance, when Na'er walked into his house again and again to ask for advice on his work.

After the meeting, after the separation of work, the leader may be joking and tell Na'er that there is something wrong with the work, so he asks him, his name is Junhua.

The leader pointed to Junhua and said to Na'er, Na'er smiled and said yes, greeted Junhua, and Junhua reluctantly made a smile and then left. I felt that maybe it was just politeness. Maybe in the unit, it is he and Na'er who are young people who have not started a family, and the others are all people who have become families, and there is a generation gap!

Junhua did not expect that na'er would remember his name from then on, and as soon as something happened at work, she would not treat him as an outsider and go to his room to consult him.

This made Junhua feel a little surprised, restrained.

Someone asked for advice, and Junhua could only give it. Na'er was very warm and polite, always calling him by a teacher.

This made Junhua's heart feel warm, and he sincerely told Na'er how to do the work.

Na'er listened carefully, gradually, the work became more and more skilled, more and more smoothly, got the praise of the leader, Na'er was very happy, but did not forget Junhua, wash junhua's clothes, cook for Junhua to eat. In free time, chat with Junhua. This made Junhua happy, gradually forgetting the pain of lost love, sprinkling the sunshine into his heart little by little, having a smile on his face, feeling the warmth of the sun, and seeing the blue sky and white clouds.

Junhua and Na'er also gradually became acquainted, knowing that Na'er's family was also the family of ordinary people in the village, and her father and mother, like Na'er, were ordinary village people, living hard with their hands.

Junhua also knew what Na'er had experienced, after Na'er graduated, a long time was not assigned, she waited at home for a long time, and also experienced a particularly painful and disappointing day.

From Na'er's mouth, Junhua knew that the world was not the most painful for him, different people, there would be different lives, encounter different things, there would be different happiness, and pain.

Thinking about it, Junhua released himself, and felt more and more better in his heart.

On the weekend days, many colleagues in the unit went back, Junhua and Na'er because they were far away from home, did not go back, stayed in the unit, did not have the comfort of work, did not think about work, cooked together, ate. Talk in one piece. Go for a walk in the mountains, feel the natural tranquility of the mountains, look at the blue sky and the mountains flowing with the river, say the words in your heart, Junhua's heart, suddenly, feel so warm.

The relationship between Junhua and Na'er was thus born.

Because at that time, Junhua was still working in a village far away from his hometown, which was also far from Na'er's home. Also because Junhua's father died of illness in the year he worked, his mother was in pain, it was not easy to barely live, his work, life, emotions, must rely on himself, no one to help, or discuss. Na'er also said that her emotional affairs do not matter at home, as long as someone can look at her, she can look at others, she is her own decision, how to do it, let them do it.

Hearing this, Junhua's heart was very happy. I felt that this was very much in my heart, because I did not worry about the marriage for him, and because he had not worked very long, he did not have much money on hand, and he could not bear the marriage that was conducted according to customs. The girl who left him, that is, because he had nothing, left him poorly and married a person from a small county.

In Junhua's heart, he felt that he had experienced ups and downs, pain, and finally found someone who could rely on, accompany, and love, and his heart was particularly excited and happy, and the pain of lost love was swept away, and he and Na'er's love and marriage were full of hope.

In the holiday, Junhua followed Na'er to Na'er's house, Na'er's parents' love marriage to him and Na'er, everything was really as Na'er said, Junhua's heart, especially happy, relaxed, gave Na'er's parents some bride price, simply ate a meal, he and Na'er received a marriage license, even if the marriage was married, and then, leading Na'er, will be the hometown village.

In Junhua's heart, so proud, proud, excited.

4

The train, passing through the mountains, is headed by a blue sky and a gentle cloud. Under the sky, there are turquoise mountains, among the mountains, there is a clear river, everything is so beautiful.

Looking at it, Junhua's heart was full of excitement, feeling so down-to-earth and warm, as if he had returned to his hometown village.

Na'er, quietly clinging to Junhua.

However, after passing through this turquoise mountain, it did not take long for the train to travel in the river road, on both sides, there were mountains, but there were no trees or grass on the mountains, and they were bare and desolate. At the foot of the mountain, there is no water, and some water, like a stream, is yellow. Although the sky is open, without green mountains, it will appear empty.

This made Junhua's heart suddenly become empty again. A feeling of desolation came to mind again.

After Junhua and Na'er got married, their hearts became solid. Thinking about the pain, the ups and downs, finally having companionship, relying on the person, the heart is so solid, happy. With Na'er, she returned to her hometown.

After going back, the mother knew that Junhua was finally married, found a daughter-in-law, and at the same time, she was surprised, she was particularly happy, and she was also very good to Na'er, talking with Na'er, and making food for Na'er.

The people in the village, after knowing it, were equally surprised, and then full of envy. When he saw Junhua, he smiled and spoke to Junhua and congratulated Junhua.

Looking at people's smiling faces and listening to people's congratulatory words, Junhua's heart, especially sweet, felt proud, proud.

The mother did not let Junhua do anything, so she let Jun'er play with Na'er, and if she wanted to do something, she would boil water for them and let Na'er cook for them.

Junhua and Na'er slept until they were comfortable, and when they got up, their mother had already cooked and eaten, and went to work in the fields with her brother, and there was food left for them in the pot. Junhua and Na'er, after washing, after eating, began to boil water, and Na'er was also ready to cook for her mother.

The sky is blue and blue, the clouds are leisurely, the mountains are turquoise, and the sun is clear. In the village, in the seclusion, only the chickens have a long and a short cry, and the hometown village, in the seclusion, has a pastoral atmosphere.

Junhua and Na'er were silently doing these things. The water was boiling, and Na'er had something ready to cook. There is nothing to do, just sit in the courtyard in front of your own home, feel the tranquility of the village, look at the sky, look at the mountains, look at the village, and your heart has become so safe and down-to-earth.

Feeling lonely at home, Junhua led Na'er around the village, and the people in the hometown village greeted them with a smile, poured water, let them sit, and then, casually talking, let Junhua's heart feel warm.

By the time her mother was about to return, Na'er had already made her meal. The mother and brother came back, there was hot water to drink, after washing, eating, feeling a special warmth in their hearts, a day's fatigue, instantly gone. Junhua and Na'er also sat with their mother, eating and talking, as if they had returned to their memories, when their father was there, the warmth in their hearts.

After eating, cleaning up the dishes, the night came, And Joon-hwa and Na'er, in the silence of the village night, enjoyed the peace, sweetness and happiness that came from the heart.

Junhua and Na'er's vacation, just like this in the old house of their hometown village, spent with their relatives, what remains in Junhua's heart is so sweet and happy.

At the end of the holiday, Junhua and Na'er, in the eyes of their mother and the sound of advice, left their hometown villages and went to work in units outside their hometowns.

5

The train moves smoothly and quickly. Still in Kawado, in Kawado, is a large, large flat field, sometimes a village, sometimes a town, a field, planted with crops, wheat, and green corn. The mountains on both sides still have no long trees, nor grass, bare, some are earthy yellow, some are pitch black, as if they have burned, standing quietly under the open sky, giving people an empty and desolate feeling.

This made Junhua feel a little dry and tired.

Junhua and Na'er left their hometown and returned to their work units.

A holiday did not come, the small courtyard of the unit is still the same, the house stands quietly, but the yard of the unit is full of grass, which makes people feel desolate. In the house. Everywhere there was dust and a musty smell.

Na'er took the quilt out to dry, cleaned the dust in the house, opened the window, and the room became bright and warm.

The colleagues of the unit all came, began to work, pulled up the wild grass in the yard of the unit, swept away the dead branches and leaves in the four corners, and the unit also appeared clean and tidy.

In the unit, the leader changed, he was a fat leader, wearing glasses, a large face plate, a fat body, seeing people with a smile, giving people a kind eyebrow and good eyes. However, behind the spectacle lenses, there is a sharp, murderous gaze.

Junhua and Na'er's work has also changed, which is more cumbersome and heavy than before.

Junhua has worked for many years, in many positions, in many places, and feels that there is nothing. Although Na'er had been working for a short time, she was a little dazed, and Junhua comforted him that as long as he was there, there was nothing to do. People are sick and die, and they are tired and do not die, it is nothing more than to work more, tired, nothing.

In this way, Junhua and Na'er, in the small courtyard of his rural village unit, began their work, life, and longing for work as smooth as before, life as before, full of happiness and happiness.

However, at work, no matter how Junhua and Na'er do it, how seriously and carefully they do it, they always make the fat leader dissatisfied and picky, and when it comes to evaluation, the score is always behind. This made Junhua feel very disappointed and angry, but there was nothing he could do. I thought in my heart, no matter how he provoked and evaluated, as long as he did not affect the key interests and could continue to work. Don't pay more attention to the fat leader, but put the heart, put the heart on Na'er's life, and Na'er's body, and Na'er married, came together, Na'er is his lover, the person who accompanies him, so that his heart has a home, steadfast, Junhua longs to continue the love with Na'er, live the peaceful, happy life he yearns for.

And Na'er, so think that life has been some days, in the free time at work, talking in a piece, cooking, washing clothes. At the end of the day's work, out of the courtyard, along the road at the foot of the mountain, out of the village, to go for a walk, the sun pulled their figures long, into the mountains, the most beautiful scenery.

At night, in the quiet of the village night, in the ease and freedom of a day of work, enjoying the sweet, happy life from the heart.

However, suddenly one day, Na'er became ill, at this time, Jun'er learned that Na'er had a disease that needed to take medicine all her life, could never be cured, and could only take medicine to control, and then be able to live normally.

When he knew this situation, Junhua suddenly understood why the love with Na'er developed so rapidly, why Na'er fell in love with herself so easily, and Na'er's family also agreed to their marriage so easily. Junhua felt that whether he had fallen into a trap or a scam, this was not love, it was marriage, he had just become the one who had to take care of Na'er for a lifetime, and could not break free.

Thinking about it, Junhua felt incomparably angry. However, this was already the case, and no matter how angry he was, he had to bear the consequences, the responsibility, to take care of Na'er, to see Na'er.

Junhua suddenly fell from the peak of happiness to the bottom of the valley of pain.

6

The train is more than ever moving forward, smoothly and quickly. The mountains on both sides gradually receded on both sides, the river road became wider and wider, and there were villages and towns, and the houses gradually increased, and they became taller, with low houses and buildings. There are also large tracts of land, planted with crops, corn long green.

The mountain, although still bare, is earthy yellow, or brownish black color, but there are various shapes, some connected, more vulture, showing a variety of beautiful shapes, like mushrooms, like steamed buns.

Outside the field, there is also a river, and the river flows clearly.

Junhua's heart suddenly became excited again, her eyes widened, curiously looking at everything outside the car window, Na'er snuggled up to Junhua, and also opened her eyes, curiously looking at everything outside the car window.

Junhua listened to the people in the train and said that Lanzhou was coming.

Junhua's heart became excited.

Junhua took Na'er to the hospital in the city to see her. When I went, it was cloudy and raining. Junhua's body, there is not much money, only a little salary of him and Na'er, all taken, send Na'er to the city hospital.

Junhua knew that in his family, his father was gone, and his mother had no money to help him. Na'er's family, which is also an ordinary village family, is also difficult to help. In his village, he didn't know anyone, and the colleagues in the unit were just familiar faces, and they all had their own city governments in their hearts, and they were not familiar with it, and Junhua felt that it was difficult to borrow money from them, and he didn't want to borrow it, for fear of their contemptuous eyes and humiliation, so he took Hena'er's salary and went to the hospital in the city.

Riding the shuttle bus, following the potholed dirt road, driving out of the village, going to the small county town, the road is very muddy, the rain is pouring down, the mountains are silent in the rain, the sky is gloomy and terrible, Junhua leans on Na'er, sits quietly, listens to the sound of the shuttle motor, and goes outside the ravine. Although Junhua was anxious and helpless.

The shuttle smoothly over a mountain beam, drove out of the ravine, according to the black asphalt road, did not travel far, to the small county town, Junhua and Na'er got off the train, did not leave the station, bought a ticket, and took the shuttle bus to the city.

The sky is gloomy, the rain is falling, the ground is full of water, the mountains, and the small county town, all silently standing in the rain, only the horn of the car, and the sound of some popular music, floating in the small county town, people are still living in an orderly manner.

Junhua looked at the side, after getting sick, his eyes were in a daze, there was no expression on his face, an indifferent Na'er, in his heart, he suddenly felt that he and Na'er fell in love so quickly, married, and, without anyone talking about anything, obstructing anything, Junhua felt that he was in pain, from one despair to another despair, unconsciously drilled into a trap. Between na'er and Na'er, this is not about love, but just about using it, so that he can't break free for the rest of his life, and become Na'er's nanny, or a caretaker.

The shuttle pulled out of the station, and in the rain, followed the dark asphalt road, and headed for the city.

The mountains on both sides, silent, stand tall. The small county town is gradually behind, the dark asphalt road, stretching forward, the mountains paved over, along the way are villages, sometimes, is the uninhabited mountains, everything is so familiar, and strange, Junhua thought, when studying in the city, it is to follow this road, go to the city, when the holiday, and come back from this road, at that time, a body of vitality, a brain dream, and the end of the dream, for the so-called love, marriage, fell into such a field, let Junhua feel painful and desperate.

Junhua's heart was full of disappointment and anger. However, this anger can't find the object to vent, who to hate! Hate his ex-girlfriend and push him into such a field, but the family has already entered the city and has nothing to do with his life. Hate Na'er, Na'er is sick, a face of indifference, eyes in a daze, no way to think, and there is nowhere to hate, and then think of her illness, normal time, cook for him, wash clothes, accompany him. During the holidays, when he returned to his hometown, the happy life in the same piece made him hate Na'er again. Hate don't let people, there is no object or reason to hate, you can only hate yourself.

After driving for a long time, for a long time, the shuttle finally entered the city, and after stopping at the station in the city, Junhua snuggled up to Na'er and left the station.

The rain stopped, and the city, after the rain, was as fresh as a wash. It's just, on the ground, wet and wet.

Junhua took a taxi, got into the car with Na'er, and let her be sent to the hospital.

The hospital was on the outskirts of the city, snuggled up to the city, entered the hospital, and the hospital quickly went through the admission procedures for Na'er. Only paid some money, all the money spent on Na'er's treatment was paid when she was discharged from the hospital, and, like Na'er's illness, she couldn't spend much money, and she could be reimbursed after the procedure and went back after being discharged.

This made Junhua breathe, and his nervous heart gradually relaxed and warmed up. In despair, I saw a glimmer of hope, and the anger in my heart gradually receded.

What makes Junhua even happier is that Na'er is getting injections, taking medicine, and when she is in the twilight, she has recovered her expression, has a smile on her face, has a bright look in her eyes, and suddenly has thoughts, and asks Junhua if she is warm, asking Junhua if she has eaten or is hungry.

Junhua was very happy to see such a scene, and said to Na'er, don't worry about me, just worry about yourself. Asked Na'er what she wanted to eat, Na'er said, Junhua left the hospital, at the hospital gate, bought Na'er the fruit she wanted to eat. After Na'er took the fruit and peeled it, she did not eat it, but gave it to Junhua first, so that Junhua's heart was so warm that she suddenly wanted to cry. I also suddenly felt that no matter what I encountered or experienced, as long as I was with Na'er and accompanied by Na'er, I was happy and hopeful.

Junhua stayed in the hospital with Na'er for a few days, Na'er's condition gradually stabilized, but need to be in the hospital, live for a long time, Junhua because of work, first went back, by the way to Na'er also to do the leave procedures, to Na'er discharged, and then brought money, to the hospital to pick up Na'er discharged.

When he left, Junhua told Na'er to cooperate with the doctor's treatment, and if something happened, he would call.

Na Er worried about Junhua, let Junhua be careful on the road, in the unit, there is no one to cook, wash clothes, let Junhua go to buy food, clothes for someone to wash, or wait for her to go back to wash.

Listening to such words, when she left Na'er and left the hospital, Junhua's tears couldn't help but fall.

Staring at the city in front of you, thinking about the scene of going to school in the city, when people are in their youth, vitality, dreams, and less than many years later, with such things, they will come back to the city. Thinking, Junhua's heart is full of emotions, and it is also like a child who has done something wrong, or is confused and confused, faceless to face the city, and there is no walking in the city, hurrying to come, there is a hurry back to the station, take the car back.

However, thinking about Na'er's stable condition, and Na'er's advice to herself, recalling and Na'er's life together, Junhua's heart, after a moment of anxiety and despair, is still full of hope for future life.

7

The train slowly entered the station. The conductor was shouting, Lanzhou Station arrived, and got off at Lanzhou.

In Junhua's heart, he got excited, and Na'er leaned on him, followed the crowd, got off the train, got out of the station, and lanzhou city was right in front of him.

Looking back at the railway station, it is very tall and majestic, and on the top of the railway station house, there are two red words: Lanzhou, telling people that Lanzhou has arrived, which is Lanzhou City.

Behind the train station house, there was an even taller mountain, which had no trees or grass, bare and earthy yellow. On the top of the hill, there are houses with cornices, somewhat like temples.

Facing the railway station, is the city, the streets are wide, next to the streets, there are flowers and trees, buildings, high and low trees, the streets are full of cars, sidewalks, people come and go, and other cities where Junhua has been, full of prosperity, wonderful, lively.

Through the streets, and the tall buildings, you can see the opposite, looming mountains. Junhua knew that Lanzhou City was in the mountains. And what it looks like, Junhua doesn't know.

On the side of the street, there is a newsstand, Junhua bought a map of Lanzhou, it seems that Lanzhou City, indeed in the mountains, the Yellow River, flows through the middle of the city.

Junhua thought, Lanzhou's streets, and high-rise buildings, and other cities, maybe no different, different, I'm afraid it is the Yellow River that flows through the city!

So, Junhua and Na'er went straight to the Yellow River.

Junhua used to be with Na'er, when he went to Taiyuan, sitting on the train, when passing the Yellow River Bridge, through the window, he saw the Yellow River, maybe on the viaduct, and saw that the Yellow River was not as vast as imagined, it was yellow. At this time, when I came to the Yellow River and looked at the Yellow River, when I saw the Yellow River so closely and felt the Yellow River, I knew that the water of the Yellow River was so turbulent and flowing rapidly, and the water of the Yellow River was so vast. The water of the Yellow River flows, with coolness, and the river is on the riverside, rippling one after another, like a naughty child. On the Yellow River, there are all kinds of yachts, and sheepskin rafts, which I have seen on TV before, and when I see it with my own eyes, it feels so different.

Junhua and Na'er sat down by the Yellow River, their feet stretched out in the water, let the Yellow River water purify the turbidity of the body, feel the coolness of the Yellow River water, and also looked at the Yellow River silently, looking at the Lanzhou City by the Yellow River.

In the small county town, Junhua gave Na'er a leave of absence, took a shuttle bus, returned to the rural village work unit, and began his work.

Without Na'er's company, Junhua felt that the house was empty. The water should be poured by himself, the food should be made by himself, the clothes should be washed by himself, in the inconvenience, I felt na'er's goodness, in my mind, it was all with Na'er's scene, Na'er poured him water, cooked for him, washed clothes, accompanied him to talk, Junhua's heart, empty, I especially missed Na'er, worried about Na'er.

At work, put in the work, do not feel, in the free time of work, Junhua's mind, occupied by Na'er, miss Na'er. When she couldn't control her thoughts, there was a phone in the unit, and there was also a phone in the hospital where Na'er saw a doctor, so she made a call, let the doctor call Na'er to answer, listened to Na'er's familiar voice, Na'er's phone, told Junhua that her illness, under the doctor's treatment, got better day by day. Also inquiring about Junhua's work and life, Jun'er also said to Na'er that everything was fine and smooth, hung up the phone, and the tears couldn't help but flow down. In my heart, I hoped that Na'er would get better soon, and he would go to the city hospital to pick up Na'er and come back, and be with Na'er, never be separated.

In Junhua's heart, there is no longer the despair, anger, and feeling that between Na'er and Na'er, there is no love, but deception, trap. At this time, he was in the aftertaste, and he realized that although Na'er was ill, Na'er really loved him and did not abandon his companionship, and since fate was so arranged, she could only accept it. Junhua thought that as long as he was with Na'er and accompanied by Na'er, no matter what he encountered and how much wind and rain he experienced, he would be able to walk over, see the sunshine, and taste the happiness in a peaceful life.

After more than a month, Na'er's condition was not controlled, and Junhua went to the city to pick up Na'er and was discharged from the hospital.

Na'er's face, full of smiles, there is a god in her eyes, she saw Junhua, asked for warmth, was full of concern, happy look, said to Junhua, my illness is cured, the doctor said, as long as you take medicine, the disease can be controlled, you can work normally, life, you can accompany you, work with you, cook for you, wash clothes.

Junhua listened, his heart was very warm, and tears of excitement swirled in his eyes. Leading Na'er, she found the best restaurants in the city and ate. Through the big glass window, looking at the city, the heart said, bless me, I found Na'er, and I don't regret it, Na'er loves me, she is sincere to me, in the future we will be fixed in peace, can find the happy life we want.

8

Junhua and Na'er, by the Yellow River, sat quietly for a long time, for a long time, from getting up. Leaning against the edge of the Yellow River, I walked for a long time, for a long time, looking at the yellow Yellow River water, looking at the sheepskin raft on the river, and feeling the Yellow River, it was so kind.

Then, from the Yellow River Bridge, across the river, the Yellow River Bridge, like a rainbow, across the Yellow River, the Yellow River water at the foot, is even more vast and kind.

After crossing the bridge, they came to the side of the city where they entered Lanzhou City, the bridge head, is the Yellow River style, there is a fountain, the most beautiful, when counting the slowly rotating water wheel, the water wheel scoops up the water, and when it rotates, the water is poured out, flowing out of the sink, so that Junhua feels, as if returning to the idyllic feeling.

A little twilight came, on the Yellow River Bridge, the lights on both sides of the Yellow River turned on, and the Yellow River water, in the grip of the lights, flowed silently.

Lanzhou City, also in the lights, high and low buildings, like a palace.

The surrounding mountains, faintly, the sky above his head, with stars and the moon, made Junhua feel as if he had returned to his childhood hometown.

Na Er has been silently following Junhua, Junhua and Na Er into the city, found a night market stall, ordered a favorite barbecue, grilled fish. Also ordered drinks, beer. She sat opposite Na'er, eating and drinking. Grilled meat is pure lamb, and beer is a local authentic beer in Lanzhou. The lamb is very fragrant, the wine is very mellow, and what makes Junhua feel in his heart is that it is so warm and intoxicating. Being with Na'er, wherever he went, it seemed to be home, which made him feel solid and warm.

After eating the night market, in the city, I found an elegant hotel and stayed. The hotel is very clean and tidy. Junhua listened to the sound of lanzhou city night, hugged Na'er, indulged in it, crazy, as if returning to her first love.

After Junhua picked Na Er back from the hospital, Na Er was able to work and live normally. Pour him water, cook, wash his clothes. Accompany him for walks and chats, let Junhua feel the sunshine after the wind and rain, and feel so happy in his heart.

And one night, Na Er was very shy to tell Junhua that she came on time every month, did not come, and always had the feeling of vomiting, pregnant.

In Junhua's heart, he was so excited, holding Na'er, kissing and kissing. Leaning over where she was, listening to Na'er's belly, she thought excitedly, I'm going to have children, I'm going to be a father. Just say to Na'er's belly, so kindly, child, come out! We are waiting for you.

After Na'er was pregnant for a few months, Junhua took on the housework, boiling water, cooking, and washing clothes for Na'er, so that Na'er felt the sweetness and happiness after pregnancy.

After being pregnant in October, experiencing the discomfort after pregnancy, hardships, and good hopes, after experiencing the pain of childbirth, na'er successfully gave birth to a child in the county hospital, a boy.

Na'er's face showed a happy smile, and the gaze in her eyes was exceptionally bright.

In Junhua's heart, he also felt so excited, happy, calling, I have a child, I have become a father.

Junhua's heart seemed to see the future full of bright roads, and full of hope for a sweet, happy life.

9

Junhua and Na'er, sleeping until they were very comfortable, woke up, and in the cool of Lanzhou City, they slept particularly steadily and peacefully, as if they were back to their childhood.

After getting up, after washing, I left the hotel and came to the street.

The sky above my head is exceptionally blue, and the sun has spread all over Lanzhou City, the sun is clear, warm, and not sunnipe at all. The city is exceptionally cool and the air is exceptionally fresh. The lanzhou city between the two mountains is so beautiful, against the background of green trees and the Yellow River, it is like a fairyland.

Junhua and Na'er, found a place to eat, the restaurant is facing the Yellow River, the environment is elegant, eating Lanzhou beef ramen. The ramen is smooth and fragrant. Through the window, I saw the water of the Yellow River, still in the yellow, flowing rapidly. There are boats on the river, coming and going. The city of Lanzhou on both sides of the Yellow River, in the mountains, is so beautiful and beautiful.

After eating, Junhua and Na'er's hearts, although they like Lanzhou City very much, this place with mountains and water, rich in spirituality, but in their hearts, they were attracted by Qinghai and Xining, so they went straight to the railway station, bought tickets, and went to Xining.

The train slowly drove out of Lanzhou City, Lanzhou City by the Yellow River, stretched a long way, gradually disappeared, only sporadic villages, and then, sporadic villages, also began to become sparse, gradually disappeared, only the blue sky above, the mountains under the sky. The sky is getting bluer, and the sun is exceptionally clear. The mountain is still high, but the one that goes up slowly is not majestic. Some are connected, some are standing, under the open sky, so soft, full of mood. However, there are still no trees on the mountain, only black stones, which makes people feel desolate. Between the two mountains, it is also relatively narrow. It's wild grass, rocky beaches.

However, after the train passed through some holes, between the mountains, it opened up, and there was a very large and spacious river road, and there were people, villages, rivers, fields, and fields with crops, mostly corn, and some other grains, corn green. Beside the fields, in the villages, next to the roads, there are trees growing, green and lush.

On the mountain, although it is no longer black stone, there are no trees, but it has a faint green, or the color of loess. Only some of the mountains, like fires that have burned, are the feeling of mountains of flames.

The sky becomes open, and under the blue sky, under the white clouds, the mountains also become leisurely and full of poetry.

Such a day, such a mountain, such a river road, the villages along the way, exquisite, until xining is almost there.

In the train, with air conditioning on, it was extra cool. The seats are covered with cushions and are very neat and clean. In the train, music was playing, and introductions to some places along the way, from that introduction, let Junhua know the customs and customs here, and some of the characteristics of hell, which is a city on the plateau, cool in summer. There are some very famous attractions.

The people in the car, too, were excited. Some opened their eyes and looked out the window at the scenery. Some are talking, talking about the coolness of the Ningxia summer in the west, and also talking about some famous tourist attractions in Qinghai, Qinghai Lake, Qaidam Basin, Kunlun Mountain, and Coco Xili. These places that made Junhua feel very far away were so close at this time.

Junhua's heart was excited, and Na'er was also excited, like Junhua, her eyes were wide open, looking at the scenery outside the car window.

Gradually approaching Xining, there is an airport, I see the aircraft flying in the air, flying so low, so short, I can see the words on the fuselage.

I also saw the wide places, the factories built, and the wide roads in the mountain passes. Although in the mountains, the sky flies, the ground runs, the traffic is really convenient in all directions.

The mountains have become green, and they also take on different shapes, some low, some tall, some continuous, some standing. Some of the foothills, as if piled up, layer by layer, are particularly beautiful. Let Junhua still think that everything that can be a city is rich in aura, the mountains of this place, the water absorbs the aura, with the landscape of aura, the city is also in the landscape, it looks beautiful.

Na'er was pregnant in October and gave birth to a child smoothly, which made Na'er happy, and also made Junhua feel happy, excited, and felt the days at home, so she was full of hope.

Just as happy, Junhua's mother, relatives, and Na'er's family all came to see the child, and also brought things and made clothes for the child.

After the child was born, Na'er followed Junhua's mother back to her hometown in the countryside and went to confinement, and Junhua went to do the leave procedures for Na'er, and then returned to the rural village, and began to work and live alone.

When parting, Na'er told Junhua to take care of her own life, the water was burned first, the food was made first, the clothes were washed first, and when she came to the unit, she could take care of him. Listening, Junhua's heart was full of emotions.

After coming to the unit, Junhua's heart, Junhua worked, took care of himself and lived, and his heart was full of thoughts about Na'er, worries about children, and worries.

However, the village of my hometown, without a telephone, cannot communicate with my home. However, Junhua thought in her heart, her mother has taken many of their children, and she will definitely take good care of where and the children.

Just like this, after a few months of worrying, Na'er's vacation is full, Junhua returned to her hometown to pick up Na'er, Na'er is still the same, the child looks very cute, the face is like Junhua, the eyes, mouth, and nose are like Na'er, which is the crystallization of their love.

In Junhua's heart, that sweet, happy feeling, indescribable, holding the child, and kissing, and happy, reveling in happiness.

Because of her work and illness, Na'er could not take the child, so she bought milk powder for the child, left money for her mother, and let her mother face the child, Junhua and Na'er reluctantly left their hometown and returned to his rural unit.

When they returned to the unit, Junhua and Na'er, with children, the family was stable, and what was in their hearts was sweet, happy, and stable. With this feeling, serious work, life, mutual care, Na'er boiling water, cooking, washing clothes, Junhua will be in front of the helper. Free time, as usual, sometimes in the cottage, sometimes out of the courtyard of the work unit, along the road at the foot of the mountain to walk, talk about work, more talk about children, worry about children. Na'er also said that when confinement is confined at home, the mother's concern and care for her and her children will also be relieved.

At night, staying in the hut, talking about the words of the heart, thinking about the consummation at this time, the complete family, and the future full of hope, the heart is particularly sweet and happy. In this feeling, the night becomes more intoxicating and beautiful.

However, while Junhua and Na'er work hard and enjoy the happiness of life, as in the past, the leaders of the unit often give tripwires, no matter how well they do their work, there will be no good evaluation, and when they are evaluated, the score is also at the end.

Finally, one day, when some colleagues in the unit made a small report and the unit leader made a trip, Junhua couldn't help but suppress the anger in his heart for a long time, so he rushed to the leader and said, There is no grandfather here, there is a place to stay. I went to write the application, let the unit leader sign it, and sent it. Junhua also went to the small county town to entrust familiar people, and in a few days, Junhua and Na'er, from his hometown unit, were transferred to work not far from their hometown villages, and every week, riding a motorcycle, they could go back to see the children in a short time.

When I went to work in his village, I had a longing for love and a beautiful dream. It was going alone. And in the end, instead of getting the love he wanted, and without dreams, what he got was cheating, hurting. And in the end, it was Na'er who saved him, rescued him from pain, let him find the hope of life from pain and despair, although he experienced some twists and turns, setbacks in life, and from the understanding that what Na'er gave him was true love, and would accompany him without abandonment. After feeling this, Junhua's heart also loves Na'er, through setbacks, disappointments, and finding hope, and only then did he have the sweetness and happiness at this time.

When he left his village village, Junhua's heart, especially happy, relaxed, to the village of the other village, in addition to attaching to the landscape here, the people and things here, in the heart gradually forgotten, never want to think again, just want to return to the hometown landscape as soon as possible.

With excitement, Junhua and Na'er returned to the landscape of their hometown together, looking at the landscape of their hometown, thinking of the familiar people in their hometown, and their hearts were so excited. Calling in the heart, years of wandering, running, finally have a complete ending, and a lot of homecoming, in the future, there may be twists and turns in life, bumps, but as long as they are with Na'er, living in the landscape of their hometown, there are those familiar hometown people, will walk through the ups and downs and setbacks, what belongs to them is the happiness contained in a peaceful life.

10

The train slowly entered the Xining Railway Station, and after stopping, Junhua and Na'er got off the train and left the train station.

The train station is newly built and tall. Behind the train station, there is a very high mountain, the mountain is green, and the railway station is more and more majestic and beautiful with the mountain as the background.

The railway station faces the city, and the streets of the city are wide, lined with high-rise buildings, and the streets are dotted with green trees. Through the tall buildings, you can see the distant mountains on the opposite side, and the city is also in the mountains.

Not far in front of the train station, I saw a river, flowing slowly, and the river was very clear. Reflections overhead the sky, and the surrounding city.

The sky above the head, blue and blue, did not ask for a little dust, like the heart of a virgin. The sunshine, too clear, so warm, is not hot at all, like a lover's hand. The city is embraced by the green mountains, under the warm sun, quiet.

On the streets, cars come and go. People on the side of the street also came and went, hurried, and idle.

Junhua and Na'er, following the street, walked towards the city, and after a while, they walked to the most central place of the city, which was four main streets, the streets were not wide, the streets were very short, and the buildings next to the streets were luxurious and simple. The outskirts of the city may be large, but the center of the city is not very big, but it is like a small town, or a town.

Walking through the center of the city, next to it, there is a large square, a river that flows by the square, the river is clear, reflecting the blue sky overhead, the mountains, and the tall buildings around it. The city is surrounded by water, and the water reflects the city, so that this city, like a water town, in dreams, is full of spirituality and so beautiful.

Junhua faces this city of mountains and rivers, faces the blue sky above his head, the clear sunshine, and the clear river, and feels everything, as if he has escaped from the world, it is so clean, just like the heart of his childhood. In this convenient transportation, superficially modern, and lively highland city, Junhua suddenly felt as if he had escaped from the world and returned to the purity and beauty of nature. No matter what he has tried all these years, what he has tried all the way, what he has encountered, let him face such a pure city at this time, suddenly have the same feeling as when he was a child, feel the body and mind, suddenly become so clean, there are fantasies, dreams in his mind, and his heart is pure, and he has an innocence.

Junhua took Na'er back to his hometown to work in the landscape and water, and in a flash, more than ten years had passed. For more than ten years, Junhua and Na'er, who have worked in many places in the landscape and water, began to work in villages near their hometowns, and returned to their hometowns every weekend. Later, at one point, he returned to his hometown to work, spent some happy days with his children and family. Later, I left my hometown village and went to work in another village, just like working in a village near my hometown, every weekend, I rode a motorcycle home to the old house in the village, watching the children, and spending time with the children.

No matter where they work, Junhua and Na'er are always together. Junhua takes care of Na'er, buys medicine for Na'er, and asks Na'er to take the medicine on time. Na'er boils water for Junhua, cooks, washes clothes, and takes care of Junhua's life. Work things, help each other. In his free time, he either said some trivial words in the house, or walked out of the courtyard of the unit and went for a walk at the foot of the mountain. At night, in a group of talking about work, children, families, in the quiet of the village, enjoy the happiness of each other's company.

The children also grew up healthily day by day, until they reached the age of school, they left their grandmothers, their hometowns, and studied with them.

Looking at the cute look of the child, the ignorant and novel look when reading, let Junhua think of his first reading, his heart was sweet.

On weekends and holidays, Junhua rode a motorcycle, took his children, and went home to his hometown in the countryside, with his relatives, in the familiar landscape of his hometown, and in the familiar people, he felt so calm and happy in his heart.

However, in the village, Junhua's children are growing up day by day, and Junhua is changing when he changes in a peaceful and happy life. It is some kind old people who watched them grow up, one by one, who died one after another, so that their hometown villages gradually became old. Then there are some young people, middle-aged people, who can leave their hometown, gradually leave their hometown, often do not come back, and only come back when the New Year is over, and the hometown villages are empty, and some people's homes often close their doors.

Disturbed by the outside world, the people and things in the hometown village are gradually changing, and people have become no longer as simple, kind and sincere as in memory. Gradually become cunning, selfish, and insidious.

And Junhua's family, also changed, as the brothers grew up, found a daughter-in-law, the mother favored the brothers and daughters-in-law, gave all the money in the family, gave the brothers, locked the door, followed the brothers to go outside as a door-to-door son-in-law's brothers, lived together, only left a small old house for Junhua and Na'er to live in, living.

The landscape of his hometown is still the same, the sky is still the same, but the people and things in his hometown have been different, and then in the face of the sudden changes in his relatives, the change in life, so that Junhua suddenly feels more and more old in the village, empty, feel desolate in his heart, knowing that those peaceful and happy lives have become memories and can never be found again.

Junhua wanted to break away from his hometown, bought a house in a small county town, and later bought a car, and the days were in don't let it look, happy and beautiful.

Junhua also had a dream and could enter the life of a small county town, but after going to the small county town to taste some days, Junhua felt that in the solidified personnel of the small county town, people were suffocating, and they could not find the hope of life, and the future, staying on a tall building one day, making people feel like birds in a cage, feeling suffocated.

Junhua bought a house in a small county town with hope, lived in a small county town for some days, after seeing the people and things in the small county town, he no longer had dreams of the small county town, knew that he could never enter the small county town, just like that in the small county town, more and more people felt disappointed and suffocated, so, just like fleeing, they fled the small county town.

However, I could not go back to my hometown.

By chance, Junhua's hungry wife, to the ancient capital of Xi'an, found a long-lost feeling, felt that this appearance seems to be lively, bustling city, in fact, is so close to the people, eat and live are very cheap, serenely greet everyone who comes to its arms, which makes Junhua find a childhood feeling, feel the ancient capital, can pin its body and mind, initially in the ancient capital of the city village, rented a house, first lived, want to wait for the future to have money, and then bought a house in the ancient capital, worked in the qinling mountain village, Living in the ancient capital, in the future, when you are old, you will retire, and you will be in this city where you can live in your body and mind until you are old.

However, Junhua did not expect that the summer in the ancient capital was so hot, the sun was like a fire, and the ground was like a fire roasting, which made people unbearable. And the others have no place to go, find out Lanzhou, Qinghai is cool, just run to Lanzhou, Qinghai and go.

Junhua did not expect that in this trip, he deeply felt the innocent and happy feelings between him and Na'er in his memories.

The days go by so fast! Junhua sighed, and how Na'er had gone through these ten years in a flash!

Junhua suddenly felt that true love is no reason, and too many words, and the mountain alliance and the sea oath, but is silent companionship, in a peaceful life, feel the little happiness.

In the face of the blue sky of Xining, the turquoise mountains of Xining, the clean sunshine of Xining, and the clear water of Xining, feeling the coolness of spring in the summer here, let Junhua's heart, as if it has been purified, become so pure, as if returning to childhood, with dreams, innocence, in innocence, just look forward to, in the future days, just walk with Na'er like this, all the way to the depths of life, and this trip, Junhua also feels that it is a love journey, let him find and feel love, to make up for and Na'er's marriage, No guilt of honeymooning.

2017-8-7 draft