Just imagine, when you are only one step away and you will fall into the abyss, and when there is no return, there is a life-saving straw, will you grasp it?
The answer is yes, this is man's survival instinct.
But if the price of holding on to this straw was to kick your loved ones down the abyss, what choice would you make? The terminally ill little girl, Li Mingxin, chose the latter, and she dragged her mother into the abyss.
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Heaven descended on the disaster, suddenly suffering from cancer
In 2000, Li Mingxin's family of three lived happily together, Li Mingxin's family is a restructured family, she has a stepfather who takes good care of her, and she is also very happy. In order to celebrate Li Mingxin's graduation from primary school, Li Mingxin's mother also took Li Mingxin to a photo studio and took a group of art photos.
12-year-old Li Mingxin smiled happily, she had a happy childhood. That night, Li Mingxin told her mother that her calf was in some pain, and when she looked at it, she found that Li Mingxin's calf had bulged with a cell. At first, the family did not think it was good, thinking that after a while, li Mingxin felt that the pain was getting worse, so she came to the local hospital for examination.
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12-year-old Li Mingxin came to a turning point in her fate, and Li Mingxin's mother got a report from the doctor, which showed that Li Mingxin had advanced osteosarcoma. For a while, Li Mingxin and her mother could not believe this result, how could a twelve-year-old girl suffer from this disease?
Li Mingxin's mother even took the report and asked the doctor if she had taken the wrong report, or if the examination was wrong? However, the doctor gave a negative answer, which is Li Mingxin's examination report. Li Mingxin's mother couldn't believe it, she took Li Mingxin to several authoritative hospitals, but all got the same answer.
Osteosarcoma is a malignant disease that occurs more often in young people under 20 years of age, also known as bone cancer, if it is only a general osteosarcoma, it can be removed as soon as possible, but Li Mingxin's osteosarcoma has come to an advanced stage, and the cancer cells have metastasized to the lungs, if there is no treatment, I am afraid that Li Mingxin's life will not be saved.
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Li Mingxin's mother could not believe this sudden bad news, and she asked the doctor hurriedly, is there any possibility of medical treatment? The doctor shook her head, Li Mingxin's cancer cells had spread to the lungs, and the doctor told her that she could live for 5 years in the case of this disease.
Coming out of the emergency room, Li Mingxin's mother cried, Li Mingxin was very dazed, she grew up so big that she saw her mother's tears for the first time. Li Mingxin's mother told Li Mingxin that she had osteosarcoma. Li Mingxin hurriedly asked her mother, what is the disease of osteosarcoma? Li Mingxin's mother rushed to comfort Li Mingxin, which is a disease that can be cured, and asked her not to worry, she can soon return to normal life.
But with the passage of time, Li Mingxin also slowly felt that her illness was far less simple than she thought, and she secretly used her mobile phone to check what kind of disease osteosarcoma was at night, and only after checking it did she know that it was an incomparably serious disease. Li Mingxin finally understood why her stepfather, who had been smiling at her, always looked at her with embarrassment, and she could occasionally hear her mother's sobbing at night.
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Although Li Mingxin is working hard to rehabilitate, the injuries on her legs have become more and more serious, and she is often awakened at night. As her condition worsened, she had to start radiation therapy and chemotherapy.
Tough fight against cancer, amputation of the right leg
The so-called radiotherapy is a treatment method for the human body to receive radiation, which is one of the effective means of treating tumors, however, Li Mingxin's situation is only radiation therapy can not solve the problem, because the cancer cells have spread to her lungs. At this time, chemotherapy must be carried out, and chemotherapy is a treatment that uses chemicals to kill cancer cells in the body, which is currently the most effective treatment for cancer cells that spread throughout the body.
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Li Mingxin was very scared when she began chemotherapy, because even when she was only 12 years old, she knew that this treatment was only for cancer patients, and the sequelae were very large. Before the first treatment began, Li Mingxin asked her mother if she was going to die? Li Mingxin's mother quickly denied, she firmly told her daughter: "Don't think about it, you are just a serious illness, you can get better, believe mother." ”
Li Mingxin bravely received the treatment with her mother's encouragement, however, her hair fell out.
This is unacceptable for a girl who loves beauty, whenever she sees her bald scalp in the mirror, Li Mingxin can't help but cry, and Li Mingxin's mother comforts her again: "The old one doesn't go to the new one, and the new hair you grow in the future will look a hundred times better than before." ”
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While comforting Li Mingxin, Li Mingxin's mother also told her that in the future, when her hair grows out, she can also be permed and dyed, which is better looking than before. Li Mingxin was encouraged by her mother and began to look forward to her having a hair in the future, and her mood slowly improved.
One day, after Li Mingxin fell asleep, Li Mingxin's stepfather and Li Mingxin's mother signed their names on the divorce agreement. They are divorced.
Li Mingxin's illness emptied all the family's savings, and huge financial pressure forced Li Mingxin's stepfather to finally make a divorce decision, and Li Mingxin's mother did not blame, let alone pestering Li Mingxin's stepfather, after all, Li Mingxin was not his own flesh and blood.
Li Mingxin's stepfather advised Li Mingxin's mother before leaving: "Give up early, this child's fate should be like this." ”
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However, Li Mingxin's mother ignored this, and in order to save Li Mingxin, she did not hesitate to mortgage all the valuable things, and finally even sold the house.
When Li Mingxin followed her mother to a new rental house, Li Mingxin learned that her mother had divorced her stepfather, and in order to treat her illness, even the previous house was sold, she asked her mother at this time: "Mother, is it that you have no money to treat your illness, if you don't have money, you won't be cured." ”
Li Mingxin's mother touched Li Mingxin's head and said, "No, my mother has money, and your illness is getting better." ”
However, things still did not develop in a good direction, the tumor in Li Mingxin's leg worsened again, Li Mingxin was unconscious in pain, and she was pushed into the operating room for rescue. Outside the operating room, the doctor told Li Mingxin's mother that she must amputate her limbs or she would not survive at all. Li Mingxin's mother trembled and signed her name on the surgical agreement, and she couldn't stop crying outside the operating room.
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When Li Mingxin was pushed out of the operating room again, Li Mingxin's mother rushed forward, but found that one of her daughter's legs had disappeared, and she was even unable to breathe in heartache, and at this moment, Li Mingxin's unconscious whisper came: "Mom, I am in so much pain." Li Mingxin's mother hurriedly comforted: "It's okay, soon it will not hurt." ”
Li Mingxin had been washing her face with tears for nearly a week after waking up, she was suffering greatly, her spirit and body were doubly devastated, and she could not accept the reality of her becoming disabled. However, Li Mingxin's mother encouraged her with the story that the deaf Beethoven did not give up resisting fate.
Gradually, Li Mingxin slowly accepted this reality, she seemed to grow up overnight, she did not ask her mother whether her illness could get better, because she could know the answer from her mother's eyes.
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The disease is merciless
After being amputated, Li Mingxin's condition gradually began to improve, and her body was not so painful. She also slowly got used to crutches and prosthetic walking, and she enjoyed reading very much during her recuperation, and the world in the book gave her great spiritual comfort. Gradually, Li Mingxin's face showed a smile again.
Li Mingxin's mother saw her daughter getting better day by day, and her heart could not say that she was happy, but the treatment of bone cancer was a bottomless pit, Li Mingxin's mother exhausted everything and could only pay for one stage of treatment, after the end of this stage of treatment, Li Mingxin's mother could only take Li Mingxin home for conservative treatment.
At the same time, Li Mingxin returned to the campus after many years, her strong will touched all the teachers and students in the school, in the school she also made new friends for a long time, although Li Mingxin could not walk and jump with them, but the campus life of singing and laughing still made her like a new life.
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Li Mingxin did not disappoint her mother, she studied hard during her school studies, and won countless awards, ranking in the top 30 in the county. After entering high school, she was among the top grades, and was admitted to Peking University in advance in her third year of high school, and she told her mother that she wanted to study life sciences and that she wanted to develop a drug that could eliminate cancer cells. However, before she could rush to the knowledge ocean of Peking University, the disease quietly came to the door late one night.
Li Mingxin's illness recurred, this time she was almost taken away by the god of death, fortunately, her mother found out in time, sent her to the hospital, after a night of rescue, Li Mingxin survived the crisis. However, the follow-up sky-high treatment fee made Li Mingxin's mother despair.
In order to raise a huge amount of living expenses, Li Mingxin's mother did not hesitate to find a company to advance her salary for a year, at the same time, she also ran to the homes of all her relatives to borrow money, and if she could not borrow, she would not leave until the loan arrived, for Li Mingxin, she could give up her dignity and give up everything. Many relatives have severed ties with Li Mingxin's mother for this reason and have never been in contact with each other since.
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Li Mingxin's mother also knew that she was sorry for her relatives, but she had no way, she only had this one daughter, and she had to save her.
Deserve to die? I am not guilty!
When Li Mingxin recovered in the hospital, she posted her deeds online, hoping to get help from well-wishers. However, she did not expect it.
Many people on the Internet scolded her for being selfish, making her mother unable to live in order to survive for herself, dragging down a family alone, even her mother did not let go, and all kinds of accusations poured into her like a tide. Li Mingxin was extremely aggrieved in her heart, and she said to these netizens: "I did not voluntarily get sick, why should I die, I should not die!" ”
Although Li Mingxin said these words, she did not think about suicide. In many times of radiotherapy and chemotherapy, she was already in pain, and when she lost her right leg, she felt that there was no hope in life. Many times she felt that living was a kind of torture, she already knew that her illness could not be cured at all, and it would only be futile to cure it, so it was better to die than to die.
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But whenever she had this idea, she always felt sorry for her mother's efforts to her over the years, especially when she thought of her mother's eyes, and there was no way to choose to give up.
After Li Mingxin's mother saw these news on the Internet, she quickly told Li Mingxin not to be affected by the nonsense on the Internet, the mother did not need any reason to save her daughter, and the mother was voluntary, if the daughter you left, then the mother alone in the world has no meaning.
Li Mingxin read everything from her mother's eyes, and she firmly told her mother: "No matter what happens, I will not commit suicide, I will definitely persist until the last moment." Li Mingxin and her mother hugged together, the world is very cold, only when their mother and daughter are together, they will feel a little warm.
Li Mingxin knew that she would not live long, she told her mother that she would donate the organs she could use to save those who also suffered a tragic fate, Li Mingxin's mother respected Li Mingxin's decision, and Li Mingxin signed her name on the organ donation agreement.
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Li Mingxin finally received the help of the Love Foundation, and the follow-up medical expenses will be borne by the foundation.
Mother's love is so great, Li Mingxin's mother can give everything to treat her daughter. And Li Mingxin is equally admirable, many people say that she is selfish, she dragged down her mother in order to live, from the fact that it is Li Mingxin who dragged her mother down the abyss with her. But is Li Mingxin really only alive because of herself?
Man does not live to suffer sin, and when there is only pain in life, no one can survive. The reason why Li Mingxin is still alive in the world is not because she wants to covet the prosperity of the world, but because her mother's love is too deep, Li Mingxin can not live, but she cannot be sorry for her mother's sustenance for her. As long as she lived, her mother would be happy, and if her mother was happy, she would be happy. This may be the real reason why Li Mingxin is alive.
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Tomorrow and the unexpected which one comes first? No one can predict this, life, old age, illness and death are immutable laws, some people even dare to go forward in the face of death, and some people will struggle until the last moment, there is no right or wrong.
Although in the end Li Mingxin ruined her mother's beautiful life, I believe that Li Mingxin's mother will not blame her, whether it is Li Mingxin or Li Mingxin's mother has never given up on each other, they rely on each other and comfort each other, this mother-daughter relationship shows the spiritual will of human beings to dominate life and death.
Li Mingxin's mother knows the way of life but chooses the way of death, Li Mingxin knows the way of death but chooses the way of life, life or death, Li Mingxin and Li Mingxin's mother have made their choices about life, worthy of respect.