Today, talk about the sad one, about the genius who died at the age of 25.
At the age of 15, he was admitted to Peking University, at the age of 19, he was assigned to work in the philosophy department of China University of Political Science and Law in Beijing, and at the age of 25, he committed suicide on a track near Shanhaiguan.
It was only ten years from the time he entered Peking University to his death
But during this decade, he left behind millions of words of literature
It still warms people's hearts to this day
He is the one who dreams of the horse and misses his previous life
I only wish to face the sea, the sea of warm flowers in spring
Haizi, formerly known as Cha Haisheng, was born in Chawan Village, Gaohe Town, Huaining County, Anhui Province
The family was poor, and his father supported the family by walking the streets and alleys as a tailor
The mother runs the housework at home and feeds the children
Cha Haisheng's sensitivity to writing first appeared at the age of two or three
When his parents found out that his memories were different from ordinary people, they tried their best to teach him to read, read, and memorize quotations
So, at the age of 4, Cha Haisheng was at the "Mao Zedong Quotations Recitation Contest" held by the commune
More than 50 in a row were memorized
On that day, Cha Haisheng became famous in the village
The news of a little genius in Chawan Village went away
But this did not affect Cha Haisheng's childhood life
He could still go to study normally, to see the wheat fields, to imagine the sea
Until the age of 15
Zha Haisheng was admitted to Peking University
For the new life that is coming
Cha Haisheng was extremely excited and happily got on the train to Beijing
Years later, I recall the journey I took to leave my hometown
He wrote the sentence "The night was almost like daytime at that time."
The early 1980s was the most prominent era of Chinese poetry
Peking University was the university with the strongest poetic atmosphere at that time
Today magazine, founded by Kitajima and Munch, is almost a copy on the Campus of Peking University
Cha Haisheng also came into contact with poetry, fell in love with poetry and began to create poetry
The rather literary pen name "Haizi" gradually appeared in people's field of vision
Haizi has just entered Peking University because of her young age and sensitive personality
No friends, very lonely in life
However, Haizi's path of poetry is not lonely
He met Luo Yihe and Xichuan at Peking University
Until Haizi's death, all three of them maintained a very close friendship
The three of them also became labels of that era
And called "Peking University Three Musketeers"
Luo Yihe was the oldest of the three and read the most
This world-minded poet gave Haizi a lot of inspiration
He taught Haizi the spirit of "elegance, integrity, love of friends, and sense of responsibility"
Haizi has also always regarded Luo Yihe as the elder brother of Yishi and His friend
Luo Yihe
Nishikawa and Haizi met in Haizi's last year at Peking University
The two saw each other at first sight, for the two poets who did not have utilitarian intentions
Together is incredibly comfortable and comfortable
When Nishikawa and Haiko were not famous, no publishing house was willing to publish their poetry collections
Together, the two bought mimeographs
Printing their respective collections of poems on a mimeograph, the two men called the book the Urn of the Wheat.
Nishikawa
In Haizi's life of poetry
He met two close friends
Gave him a life other than poetry
But God's "test" of genius is always tragic and lasting
In 1983, Haizi graduated from Peking University and came to China University of Political Science and Law
The following year, at the age of 20, Haizi met the most memorable person in her life
Her name is Wang Bowan, a native of Inner Mongolia
The acquaintance was at a poetry lecture
At the lecture, Haizi asked the students who their favorite poet was, and the students answered one after another: Gu Cheng, BeiDao, Liang Xiaobin, Jiang He, etc
In this one-after-one answer
A medium-sized girl with a round face shouted: I like Haizi's poetry!
Haizi, who had never tasted love, fell in love at that moment
One is an almost fanatical cult, one sees the other as a goddess of inspiration
The relationship between the two quickly warmed up, and Haizi even wrote a 20,000-word love letter for Bo Wan
Nourished by love, Haizi kept writing poems to show her love to Bo Wan
He wrote in Your Hand – "North / Hold your hand / Hand / Take off your gloves / They are two little lanterns." ”
History – "For the first time our lips had / Blue water / Full of clay pots / And a dozen southern stars." ”
"To the Bodhisattva Around the Neck" – "Two little red sails trembling / between my lips." ”
The two also traveled to Qinhuangdao together
But no matter how strong love is, it is invincible to the world
Wang Bowan's family strongly opposed this poor and unruly poet
Haizi's relationship with Wang Bowan eventually broke down and broke up in the fall of 1986
thereafter
Haizi went through several failed relationships
In each subsequent relationship, Haizi recorded her admiration and longing for her in poetry
One of the most lingering, well-known is
Haizi's "Diary" written by her colleague Bai Peipei
When Haizi met Bai Peipei, Bai Peipei had already given birth to children
Apart from physical and spiritual sustenance, Haizi and Bai Peipei will not have any results
But Haizi still can't help but fall in love with Bai Peipei, calling her "sister"
And wrote down the verse "Sister, tonight I am in Delhi, the night covers my sister, I only have Sister Gobi tonight, tonight I don't care about human beings, I only think of you" such verses
Bai Peipei was forced to gradually reduce her interaction with Haizi under external pressure
Until 1989
Haizi's five relationships ended without a hitch
After graduating, Haizi taught at China University of Political Science and Law and received a monthly salary of 90 yuan
But for Haizi, poetry is more important than salary
His eldest brother Luo Yihe launched the "October Poems" column after working for October magazine for a few years
In a total of only a dozen issues of the column
Haizi monopolized the third phase, which shows Luo Yihe's recognition and care for Haizi
But the move drew the displeasure of a large number of poets
Most of them believe that Haizi's poems are anachronistic and have no depth
Haizi was thus immersed in doubt every day
In addition to being questioned
On many occasions, except for Luo Yihe, no one took care of Haizi
Haizi was crowned a "genius" from the age of four
To this day, in addition to three or two friends, the entire poetry world seems to be squeezing him
Failed feelings and careers are mixed together
This was undoubtedly an extremely fatal blow to Haizi
March 26, 1989
Haizi came alone to Shanhaiguan, Qinhuangdao
Lying on the tracks of the train that took him out of his home a decade ago
Committed suicide
He was accompanied by the Old and New Testaments, Thoreau's Walden, Hayyard's Raft and Conrad's Selected Novels, and several suicide notes
The last words said: I am a teacher in the Philosophy Department of China University of Political Science and Law, my name is Zha Haisheng, and my death has nothing to do with anyone
Nishikawa once talked about Haizi's death: as one of the many possible causes of Haizi's suicide, Haizi's love life may be the most important
I can't guess at Haizi's suicide
But Haizi was probably really lonely at that time
Tormented by the frustration of love and the questioning of poetry
As if no one in the world understood him, he left when he was facing the brightest sun
Perhaps his close friend Nishikawa could feel Haiko's pain at that time
Only today will there be today's others love understand not understand feeling
Image source: Internet, "Thirteen Invitations"