"I know you're a second-rate, but I love you."
This is the sentence of the British writer Maugham in the novel "The Veil", and it is also the complicated feelings of Zhang Ailing, a talented woman of the Republic of China, for the traitor Hu Lancheng.
Knowing that it is a second-rate commodity, knowing that it is the end of no disease, but still can't stop the fiery love in his heart, the moth puts out the fire.
And in this vigorous, entangled feeling of theirs, there is also a existence that no one wants to mention but has to say -- Su Qing.
She is a famous "literary prostitute" in Shanghai Beach, Zhang Ailing's favorite female writer and girlfriend, and at the same time, she is also An underground lover that Hu Lancheng cannot lift on the table.
When she was young, she played in the world, wandering around with various men; in her old age, she had a desolate evening view, living only in a narrow cottage of 10 square meters.
Su Qing, what kind of woman she really is, and what role did she play in Zhang Ailing and Hu Lancheng's entangled sadistic love.
Today, let us travel through a hundred years of time and space to see those love and hate hidden in the wind and clouds of the Republic of China!
Photo of Su Qing
<h1 class = "pgc-h-center-line" >01 Ten-year marriage: the soto non-human, this heart becomes empty</h1>
Su Qing, whose real name is Feng Heyi, is born in 1914 in Ningbo, Zhejiang.
The family is a famous local scholar's home, the grandfather once served as a Qing Dynasty lifter, and later served as the principal of the middle school, founded the local newspaper, and even the local hospital and railway construction in Ningbo also had his share of credit, which can be said to be extremely famous.
Although his father, Feng Songyu, was not as successful as his grandfather, he was also a high-achieving student in the Department of Economics at Columbia University in the United States.
After returning to China, he worked as a manager in a bank in Shanghai, and he was also a young talent.
Su Qing's father
With such a family situation, Su Qing's life is naturally not bad, especially in his youth, it can be said that he is loved and cherished, and even Feng Heyi's name is taken "Luan Feng and Ming, there is a phoenix to yi" meaning.
However, a good and happy life is always short-lived, and after the untimely death of his father, the situation of the Feng family plummeted.
The former princess goddess also fell into the mortal world and had to accept the feudal arranged marriage and marry Li Qinhou.
And her twisted life began here.
That year, she was 19 years old, and she had just been crowned the "Empress of Ningbo" because of her talent and artistic skills, and had a great future and future.
Her fiancé Li Qinhou abandoned herself because she was worried that her dazzling would be favored by others, so she forced her to marry herself in advance.
At that time, the Feng family was not as good as before, and the Li family's wealth was fatally attractive to them, and as a member of the family, Su Qing could not escape this marriage.
Unexpectedly, however, on the day of the wedding, she learned that the husband, who was bent on marrying her, had an affair with his widowed cousin.
And she, the wife who was born in the bookish, is just a tool person who supports the façade of the Li family and teaches her husband and children.
What "Luan Feng and Ming, there is a phoenix to yi", at this moment, has become the biggest mockery of her.
Su Qing felt extreme anger and sadness, and wanted to abandon this absurd and deformed marriage to pursue her own happiness.
But she couldn't, because she still had a broken family, and a widowed mother who wept and sighed every day, and she could only endure.
In the next five years, Su Qing gave birth to 4 daughters for Li Qinhou, and devoted herself to the Li family and dedicated everything.
But some things were doomed from the beginning, and Su Qing's efforts did not come in return, but made her situation more and more embarrassing.
The youngest daughter died tragically, the in-laws disliked her for not having a son, and even the closest husband also turned cold to her, punching and kicking her.
The former "Empress of Ningbo", the goddess sought after by countless talents and junjie, under the devastation of this feudal marriage, like a broken cotton wool blowing down.
Just confess your fate? Endure her husband's cheating and infidelity, endure the sneers of her in-laws, and she will spend her whole life in this little mansion?
No, she is not willing, she wants to resist, she wants to get out of this heartless and loveless marriage and find her own world.
In the spring of 1943, when her husband's lover came to the door with a showdown, Su Qing finally ended the ten-year marriage and ended the physical and mental torture.
In July 1944, Su Qing's "Ten Years of Marriage", which was based on himself, was published and distributed.
Her writing is beautiful and straightforward, bold and novel, showing her strong pressure throbbing and enthusiastic desire to the fullest, and once published, it set off a hot discussion in the literary circles of the Republic of China, and her name of "literary prostitute" was also born.
In August of the same year, the second edition of "Ten Years of Marriage" was released, and by September, the fifth edition had been printed.
According to incomplete statistics, in the Republic of China era, when talented people and women were born, Su Qing's "Ten Years of Marriage" was reprinted as many as 36 times, becoming a must-read book for countless new women.
Since then, everyone knows that there is an author named Su Qing in the Chinese literary world.
She is a victim of an unhappy marriage and a leader in a new era, stubborn, stubborn, and brave.
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After the divorce, Su Qing put all her energy into literary creation, and because of a "On Divorce", it attracted the attention of Chen Gongbo, the then mayor of Shanghai.
At that time, she had been married, hurt by love, and the man was no longer a simple emotional sustenance for him, but more of a life to rely on, a tool that could realize her ambitions and ambitions.
Therefore, at that time, she was no longer naïve and simple, and began to wander among various men, constantly looking for excitement and dependence. She became a famous "literary prostitute" in Shanghai Beach.
Chen Gongbo's appearance is just right, not only to meet her material needs (Su Qing alone with three children after the divorce, life is difficult), but also to give her strong support, how can she not be moved?
Therefore, Chen Gongbo, who held the heart of hunting Yan, and Su Qing, who was bent on finding a backer, hit it off and began a well-known "underground affair".
Zhang ailing
It is precisely because of chen Gongbo's support that Su Qing founded the magazine "Heaven and Earth".
Her good friend Zhang Ailing was invited to lead the writer and met Hu Lancheng unexpectedly in the form of a text.
When Hu Lancheng saw Zhang Ailing's article titled "Blockade" published in Tiandi magazine, the heart that was hunting everywhere began to stir again.
Such a fiery and bright woman, how could he miss it.
At that time, Hu Lancheng was still Su Qing's good friend, and Zhang Ailing was just a stranger to him.
But because of this article called "Blockade", because of Su Qing, a common friend, It is possible for Hu Lancheng zhang Ailing, two people who are no longer from different worlds, to intersect.
Later, Hu Lancheng asked For Zhang Ailing's contact information here in Su Qing, and soon after, he and Zhang Ailing became the most popular couple in Shanghai.
It is not difficult for us to imagine Su Qing's mood at that time, one is his girlfriend, one is the man who intends to "get closer", and finally become an outsider, or himself.
Therefore, when the morally upright Hu Lancheng found Zhang Ailing again after marrying her and seduced her with rhetoric, Su Qing was moved.
Maybe it was jealousy, maybe it was the passion that was unstoppable, she slept with her girlfriend's husband, became his underground lover, and became the third child of Zhang Ailing's marriage.
However, what people did not expect was that the end of this love triangle was not Zhang Ailing forcing Su Qing and Hu Lancheng to fly in pairs, nor was it Su Qing's little third to snatch Hu Lancheng from the upper position, but ended with Hu Lancheng splitting his legs and making the two women.
The wedding vow of "the years are quiet, the world is stable" still echoes in Zhang Ailing's mind;
The praise of "handsome eyes and eyebrows, there is a kind of boy's handsomeness" still stays on the side of Su Qing's ear.
Hu Lancheng, the man who makes his sisters fight and his girlfriends oppose, has already gone to the dream of a new beauty.
"Maybe every man has two women like that, at least two. Married to a red rose, over time, the red turned into a touch of mosquito blood on the wall, white, or "bright moonlight in front of the bed";
"If you marry a white rose, the white one is a sticky grain of rice on the clothes, but the red one is the cinnabar mole in the heart."
Zhang Ailing and Su Qing, who is the cinnabar mole, who is the white moonlight, or they are just Hu Lancheng's "mosquito blood" and "rice sticky".
In Hu Lancheng's later memoirs and biographies, "This Life and This Life", a total of eight of the most important women in his life are described.
Zhang Ailing, on the other hand, is only one of the eighths, and it is not the one with the most space.
He left his respect and gratitude to his wife Yufeng, his love and regret to the singer Ying Yingdi, and the small yi wencun to the little nurse Zhou Xunde.
For Zhang Ailing, it was only a short marriage of three months, and the damage of a lifetime was difficult to reconcile.
"When I saw him, she became very low, very low, low to the dust." This woman, who has less tears in her life and has only cried three times, has left her pride and self-esteem behind, leaving only a cavity of love and desolation.
As Hu Lancheng said to her: "The world is desolate, there is no stability", everything she has, but delusional and delusional, only nothingness remains.
However, at least in Hu Lancheng's memories, Zhang Ailing has a place, and Su Qing, like a prostitute to a prostitute, has nothing to do with it after a night of affair.
She does not belong to his "This Life and This Life", but he belongs to her "Ten Years of Marriage".
Su Qing made her and Hu Lancheng's underground love affair public, and used "Talking About Weiming" to allude to this unrequited relationship, which also directly led to Zhang Ailing's enmity with her and her old death.
Once they were in the literary world, they were famous for their jade and bi sisters; now they are difficult to live up to the grandeur of the past because of the special path of men.
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When the time turned, Japan was defeated, the chaotic world of the Republic of China came to an end, and the five-star red flag was raised in a new era.
Hu Lancheng traveled from Taiwan to Japan, continued his prodigal career, engaged in ambiguity with the Japanese landlord's wife, and fell in love with the gangster big sister Da She AiZhen.
It was not until July 25, 1981, that he ended his affair debt and closed his eyes forever.
Zhang Ailing went to the United States, married the German writer Laiya, who was 29 years older than her, and finally spent decades of life alone, and died on September 1, 1995.
Zhang Ailing and Lai Ya
These two people who had been entangled with Su Qing for half a lifetime had gone away and never returned to China.
She was the only one who never left, stationed in this land that carried countless loves and hates.
After the founding of New China, she actively performed and responded to the government's call, only to be able to continue the dignity of the past.
Unfortunately, it backfired, and in her later years, her life was difficult and difficult.
Su Qing in his later years
There is no remuneration for writing manuscripts, no one is welcome to find a job, and even if you go to the theater to see the door, you are often pointed out and bullied by everyone.
Until the end of her life, she had to live in a 10-square-meter cottage with her divorced daughter and grandson.
At that time, she was already terminally ill, had no money for diagnosis and treatment, had no one to help, and what she most hoped for in her heart was to die early, to be liberated as soon as possible, and to never suffer from the misery of this earthly world again.
If the time is turned back to the past, the rotation back to the most famous era between her and Zhang Ailing, whether she will still be the same choice, and whether she will resolutely intervene in this love triangle without a winner.
"Everything that has a way of doing things, such as a dream bubble, like dew and like electricity, should be viewed as such." Most of the things in this world are vain, fame and fortune, hatred, love and hate, but the desire in the heart is dreamy, shattered at the touch, and dead when touched.
Sometimes, less serious, less truthful, may lead to salvation.