The most distant distance
Dear husband you have left me for more than three months, you have taken away all my smiles and hopes, September is a harvest season, you call thousands of miles away to say homesickness, want to come back to play walnuts, send your little daughter to college, but at 12:00 midnight and I video you died in the early morning, leaving behind the lonely orphans and widows, my tears also dried, when I saw your cold body in the morgue, my heart was instantly cold, the sky collapsed, I was like a mountain of strong men fell to the ground, When your strong body pushes into the crematorium, my soul seems to have gone with it, when my daughter holds your urn, she is reluctant to put it down on the way to a thousand miles, husband, how can you be willing to leave my door? My dear ones, I miss you so much! When your coffin is lifted out the door, I will watch you for a long time to move away. Relatives, yin and yang, you said that when the account is paid off, the children will take me to travel, how can you talk without counting, throw me in the middle of the road, young husband and wife, what do you let me do?
Honey, your purr is still in your ears, your affectionate hug is still there, your pillow, your ashtray is still there, but where have you gone, dear, I ignored you, I forgot that you are also mortal flesh and bones, use you as an iron man, I should not let the original timid you carry hundreds of thousands of debts, I should not build so many houses strongly, I should not let my two daughters go to college, let you be in debt, I am sorry for you, I never thought that your beating and powerful heart would stop, and you are so painful in a foreign country, There is no relative around when they go barefoot and even shoes are not worn, let the forensic doctor rudely pick a fine light, you are too pitiful relatives, I miss you so much, you came to see in your dreams, when I went through the deregistration procedures to see your ID card was cut corners, my heart is like a knife cut, that is your pass in this world. Dear when you were transported out of the morgue the door could not be opened for a long time, you died unjustly, you used your life to pay off all your debts, fulfilled your wishes, but what to do with me and my two daughters Dear I miss you.
I know that you have too much reluctance, the wind and rain in the same boat for twenty-five years, never thought you were so desperate, less husband and wife to the old companion, what do you do if you leave me, if not the two daughters have not landed, I will go with you, husband you wait for me. Where do your relatives have to go to find you, your voice is still there, you hug you strongly, I brush your vibrato over and over again to listen to your rough and atmospheric shouting, my man, my husband, where did you go, I stood on the roof looking at your grave, this has become the farthest distance, husband you wait for me, I complete the task to accompany you, your thousands of bad things have become heart-wrenching thoughts, dear, I am sorry, prematurely let you carry too much burden, I forced you to die, I would rather die than I think about you day and night.
Honey, come in the dream, come and talk to me, I am waiting for you in the middle of the night, honey, I miss you so much, I want to hug you.
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Liu Ailing, a lover of literature. Engaged in early childhood education. Special writer of "Sweat Dripping Rain accompanied by pen cultivation".