"Hello everyone, I'm Cui Truth, Shirley is Truth."
Remember her? With a huge controversy, Korean actress Choi Shirley, a woman who has been on countless hot searches.
The year before, because of her death, for the first time ever, Sina Weibo was paralyzed twice.
Later, Cui Shirley's documentary was once again on the hot search.
The first sentence of the opening film makes people's eyes sour.
This documentary reviews her journey from child star to the last moments of her life.
Her life was condensed into 50 minutes.
Image source: Douban Movie
Throughout the life of the 25-year-old girl, she has been surrounded by countless rumors and criticisms.
Someone scolded her for being hot-eyed and vulgar.
Someone said she had mental problems.
More people called her slut. For a long time, rumors circulated on the Internet that she was raised by the company's top brass.
With just a screenshot of a chat that can't be confirmed, people put the rumors as if they were the real thing
But after she committed suicide, public opinion turned in an instant. People were shocked to find that those who scolded her on the Internet not long ago began to remember her, calling for "being born to be kind."
A year ago, we didn't know the exact cause of Shirley's death.
A year later, as the documentary aired, the answer gradually surfaced.
And for those of us who are spectators, perhaps the more important question is, has the world changed for the better in the year since Shirley left?
Shirley was born in Busan in 1994 to parents who owned a small restaurant, she had two older brothers and a younger brother in the future, and although she was the only daughter, she was not pampered.
The only thing that stood out was her looks.
Almost everyone who saw her, whether a neighbor or a passerby, would say, "This child is so beautiful."
Shirley when she was a child Source: "Where Does Shirley Make You Uncomfortable"
In the same year she was born, a Korean actress named Choi Jin-jin won the Best Acting Award at the 30th Baeksang Arts Awards and was a household name for that era.
Therefore, her parents hoped that she could become a wonderful female artist like Cui Zhen, so they named her Cui Zhenzhen.
After joining SM, he took a new stage name, Cui Shirley.
Unfortunately, in 2008, Choi Jin, who was called "never to fall" by South Koreans, also committed suicide at the age of 39.
Cui is real
But back in the days when Shirley had just entered the industry, Shirley's star path can be said to be smooth.
In the fifth grade of primary school, she participated in the SM Korea Junior Selection Conference, won the Junior Appearance Group Award (Champion), and officially became a trainee of SM Entertainment.
In September of the same year, she played the princess in "Potato Nursery Rhymes", because of her cute appearance and very infectious laugh, she suddenly became a little princess in the hearts of the people.
Source: "Potato Nursery Rhymes"
Growing up in a group of brothers and sisters, coupled with her parents divorced, the family is not good, she has been more good at observing and observing colors since she was a child, so on the set, she liked the director and other predecessors, plus she was lively, laughing, cheerful, Shirley became the little princess of SM Company.
In the 10th anniversary celebration, surrounded by Dongfang Shenqi (a popular boy band at that time), he stood firmly in the C position as a representative of SM Entertainment Excellent Trainees.
SM Celebrates its 10th Anniversary
Although she is young, but it does not affect her has a lot of good resources, starring in "Punch girl" in 2007 and starring in "Fool" in 2008, all of which have received good responses.
Source: "Fool"
As a child star, she shines brightly.
Unexpectedly, she grew too tall, 13 years old has 170cm, can not continue to play child stars, for the older role, the face is too childish.
So, in 2009, Shirley embarked on the road of singing and dancing girl group, becoming the face value director and vice captain of F(x).
F（x）
Song Qian was the captain of F(x) at the time, and Shirley was very good friends.
This group swept almost all the group awards in Asia at that time, and it was the limelight for a while.
F(x) Award Source: "Where Does Shirley Make You Uncomfortable"
At the same time as the girl group, SM company has also successively given Shirley film and television resources, and the "To the Beautiful You" starring in 2012 is a film and television copyright purchased specifically for her.
The future seems bright.
But for this group of teenage child stars, beyond the spotlight, is a very different picture.
Because I have not yet completed my studies, I still have to get up early every morning and go to my respective schools; after school at 2 or 3 o'clock in the afternoon, I will go to the practice room to practice hard. SM competes every week, and no one can fish in muddy waters.
Usually at the end of a day of study and hard work, several girls in the same dormitory often cry together and miss home together.
Unable to sleep, Shirley gave her a doll to hold to sleep when she couldn't, and the doll was still lying alone in her bed.
Source: "Where Does Shirley Make You Uncomfortable"
The trainees had to take care of themselves, and as a child, she couldn't even wash her hair, and she was often complained that her hair had a bad smell.
It is conceivable that in other aspects of life, little Shirley, who lacks to be taken care of, has experienced much unknown pain and bitterness.
Because it was far from home, her mother rarely came to see her, and every time she came to see her, she asked "When can my mother come next time?" ”
Behind her glamorous screen, there are tears, major injuries caused by training, and the wandering and loneliness of a teenage girl who comes to Seoul alone, unaccompanied, and only struggles like an adult.
"I've been working since I was very young, there's a lot of pressure on my shoulders and I'm always scared. I do what others have asked me to do, but I don't know why. ”
The smooth journey to the stars may be the envy of many people. But she herself doesn't even have her own ambitions and dreams.
Until now, we have no way of knowing whether she loves acting and singing from the bottom of her heart, or whether she just wants to obey her mother and gain her approval.
"Is life just so hard when you were a kid?"
"It's always been tough."
In 2014, Shirley turned 20.
She made birthday wishes, she wanted to have a boyfriend, go to a nightclub, have a beer, and be a cool girl. Perhaps, you can have a different life.
At this time, she meets Cui Zi, a man she loves to the death. Cui Zi was 14 years older than her.
Shirley and Trish
After falling in love with Cui Zi, Shirley began to become different.
The public image of the innocent girl is gradually broken, she will raise a glass, send some couple love photos, and begin to go in and out of some entertainment venues, she first took the initiative to propose to her mother that she wanted to manage her own income.
Because Shirley did not want to leave Cuizi, her mother and brother severed ties with her, which was the first time in her life that she had the courage to oppose her mother and speak her thoughts and needs.
In 2016, Shirley went on vacation in Switzerland, during which she posted two photos on INS, and was found by sharp-eyed netizens to be "not wearing underwear" and "bumps".
The scolding surged forward, and netizens scolded her for being mentally retarded and letting go of herself.
Whether it is SM, the media or netizens, they no longer want to see her. People lamented her "depravity" and labeled her "slut" and "self-love."
However, Shirley in love is happy, at least once happy.
If she fell in love with a beautiful teenager of the same age and played a princess and prince, she could probably satisfy the audience's fantasies, would she have a different ending?
Why do people chase stars? Because they can find what they are missing in others.
Sometimes it is beauty, sometimes it is youth, sometimes it is a beautiful life illusion, it seems that watching others live out their expectations, they have less regrets.
Audiences often expect more from an artist than they should.
In this way, as the relationship was exposed, Shirley's relationship with her family broke down, and she quit the F(X) group and was refrigerated by SM.
Attacked by the media and public opinion, secretly filmed, denigrated, and labeled by people who don't know her at all.
The first person who couldn't stand all this was not Shirley, but Cui Zi. The relationship lasted only 2 years, Cui Zi repeatedly proposed to break up, and in 2017, Shirley even attempted suicide.
Shirley completely lost all dependence and sustenance, without the support of her mother and brother, without the company of Cui Zi, without the support of SM Company, and without the fans to follow.
Since childhood, she has been a cautious person. She was afraid of losing her mother, afraid of losing the recognition of the company, afraid of being denied by the audience, afraid of losing Cui Zi.
In the end, she had nothing, in her youth just in time for the age of 23.
So, she was no longer careful. She became deviant.
She is more self-indulgent, not wearing underwear to go out, how comfortable how to come.
In today's South Korea, women are still in a disadvantageous position, they are watched and appreciated, and they are asked to be dignified and decent, and all behaviors are in line with the expectations of men and society.
Shirley once said on the show, "Underwear is something like jewelry, and now I don't have this "jewelry" with me." As soon as the words fell, the male artist in the same scene was suddenly dumbfounded, and her face was embarrassed, as if she had done something bad.
As she publicly supports abortion laws, does not wear underwear, has a carnival party at home with friends, sends indecent photos, posts videos that appear to others to have "sexual innuendo", looks weak in live broadcasts, and has a negative posture...
She has been more and more attacked and criticized, she is a source of traffic for unscrupulous media, trying her best to squeeze every piece of entertainment value, she is the talk of everyone, she seems to be a broken doll, from the former national princess to an "outcast".
No one knew that her new home was littered with bags of various medicines. She suffers from panic disorder and depression, and she will even be frightened by the hook-up of a strange fan, with a frightened face, and instinctively bow her head and hug herself.
The most repeated phrase she said in interviews was: "Even if you say you're tired, no one can listen." I have the feeling of being left alone in the world. ”
No one really cared about her. In her darkest hours of 2 or 3 years, she did not find even the slightest light that could give her the strength to go on.
Shirley had worked hard for herself.
In 2019, she did the reality show "Truth Store" and donated 500 million won of sanitary napkins in her personal name to help people in need;
Shirley donated sanitary napkins
She held a fan meeting and took a photo with them to thank them for loving her;
She wrote her own lyrics, completed her solo album, and held a solo concert.
These may be her last efforts, and she once told everyone at the performance, "I will live seriously."
But she didn't succeed.
On the afternoon of October 14, 2019, Shirley was alone on the second floor of the house, saying goodbye to the world.
On the seventh day after her departure, her parents, mother and brother, who had been absent since childhood, began to compete for her inheritance.
Her best friend, Hora, also died by suicide a month later.
Shirley and Guhola
A few days ago, on September 14, 36-year-old South Korean actress Oh In-hye ended her life.
Image source: Headlines
In the documentary, she talked to her sister Tiffany in the dormitory about the trainee experience and acting life, and cried several times, worried that she would not be the next "Cui Shirley"?
Just today, the first hot search is still "Members of the Korean women's group are prevented from covering their legs with clothes."
Source: Sina Entertainment
There are all kinds of speculations about the Korean entertainment industry, and there are too many secrets that are not known.
Perhaps one thing we can be sure of is that the living situation of female stars in the Korean entertainment industry is also a microcosm of the social status of Korean women.
With the broadcast of the documentary, Cui Zi became the target of the next round of online violence, and her brother Changwen apologized on the hot search, but this has nothing to do with her, and at this moment, Cui Truth has been buried underground.
Shirley's friend's accusations against her brother, as well as her brother's apology Source: Weibo Entertainment
Can she hear an apology?
But I knew that she no longer had to worry about being secretly photographed, talked about, and violently treated by people she didn't even know, and she finally got the peace and freedom she wanted.
Goodbye, Shirley, really goodbye this time.