Text | Rice grain mom
I remember that when My Mother went to Chengdu for the first time, she was attracted by a couplet in the Wangjiang Tower there:
Gujing cold slanting sun, asked a few loquat trees, where is the school book gate alley? The river is curved across the sills, occupying the first floor of smoke and rain, and it is necessary to level the grass hall of the division of labor.
The young and ignorant rice mother was thinking at that time, who has such a big tone and dares to share the same color with Du Fu, the brother of the language book?
Later, The rice grain mother learned that this couplet was not written by someone else, but one of the "Four Talented Women" of the Tang Dynasty, Xue Tao.
Many people may not be familiar with Xue Tao, but just because they can be on a par with Du Fu, it is absolutely not simple to imagine that this woman is definitely not simple.
In fact, Xue Tao's life is just like her name, there have been stormy waves, but also drifting.
Miss Qianjin, who was originally from the official eunuch's family, was mistakenly reduced to a low-level music trick;
Originally a maniacal and full of poetry, he was injured by the scumbag and cut off his liver and intestines;
Ben was wearing red makeup, but he washed off the fat powder, put on the Robe, and never married.
Any story she takes out to tell is a poignant drama that is unreal.
Xue Tao was born in Chang'an to a family of officials and eunuchs, although his father Xue Yun's official position was not too high, he could also give his younger daughter a stable and happy life, and Xue Tao also lived up to expectations, and he was a cow baby since he was a child.
That year, the father and daughter were cooling under the plane tree, and Xue Yun had a feeling and had two poems: The court removed an ancient tree and shrugged into the clouds.
Xue Tao, who was still in elementary school, turned his eyes and answered: Branches greet the birds from the north and south, and leaves send the wind.
Xue Yun was pleased that his daughter was quick in thinking, but she was vaguely worried:
Although these two sentences are good, they do not have the calm and introverted nature of the woman in the boudoir, but there is a little more crazy jianghu qi, is it... No, no.
He did not expect that the two poems that his daughter casually read were really a proverb.
A few years later, Xue Dad was demoted to Sichuan for offending the magnates, and the family was displaced, and Xue Dad unfortunately contracted miasma and died in Huangquan.
His father died early, his mother lived widowed, and Xue Tao, who was only 16 years old, had to fall into a musical book and sell art for a living.
Naturalization is not an art, but an extremely cruel system.
This is to register the wives and daughters of the criminals and prisoners of war, and generations of people can only do the lowest work, cannot intermarry with civilians, and cannot participate in scientific expeditions, which is equivalent to blocking all the ways to turn around, and changing dynasties cannot be changed.
For a teenage lady, it is undoubtedly a fall from the house of gold into the garbage heap.
However, Xue Tao can only accept the joke of fate, from the boudoir to the vanity fair of the sound and color dog, she is forced to become a lark that welcomes and sends, singing with wine and smiling.
But at the same time, she soberly knew that the Israeli waiter would not last long, nor was she willing to waste her youth in vain, and ended up with the fate of "the boss marrying a merchant's wife".
She did not lament in Gu Ying's self-pity for too long, nor did she exile herself with beauty, but constantly polished her business ability, and worked hard to grow into a hexagonal warrior who was "fluent in music, good at arguing and wisdom, and poetry", lighted up all the skill points, and became a talented girl who moved the capital at that time, which was really a life of "Wuling teenagers fighting over their heads, a song of red silk does not know".
However, Xue Tao still tried his best to stay awake when everyone was drunk, waiting for the person who really appreciated him to appear and save her from the depths of the water.
Soon, she waited for Wei Gao, the first man to rewrite her destiny.
Wei Gao was the envoy of Jiannan Jiedushi at that time, a high-ranking official and a poet.
He had long heard that Xue Tao was not only beautiful but also talented, so he summoned her to a banquet, took a quiz, and improvised poetry.
Xue Tao was not afraid, she groaned for a moment, smiled slightly, and wrote down "After the Gurudwara Mountain" with a pen:
The chaotic ape cries to visit Gao Tang, and the road into the smoke and grass and wood fragrance.
The mountain color could not forget Song Yu, and the sound of the water was like crying Xiang Wang.
Towards the night under the balcony, for the rain for the clouds Chu kingdom died.
How many willows in front of the temple, spring to empty bucket thrush long.
If nothing else, just the boldness between the lines of this word, where is it like a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl writing it?
At this point, Wei Gao was completely shocked, and he did not hide his love for Xue Tao, not only making her the first beauty value + knowledge blogger in Shuzhong, but also taking her in and out of high-end places and drinking with various celebrities and politicians.
Moreover, Wei Gao found that Xue Tao was also a good hand at handling government affairs, so he boldly wrote a letter and asked Xue Tao to be granted the position of provincial school secretary.
Although the school secretary Lang was not a big official, but the threshold was very high, he had to be a scholar, and at that time, only Wang Changling, Li Shangyin, Du Mu, and Wang Changling, who had met once in a thousand years, were qualified to be qualified.
But Xue Tao, just a dusty woman, was actually recommended as the first girls' school book in Datang, which was simply unprecedented.
This shows that Xue Tao is indeed talented, and it also shows how profound Wei Gao's appreciation and compassion for her are.
However, human nature is often so complicated, how strong the love is, how cruel the hate is.
In those years, Xue Tao was proud of the spring breeze, the admiration of the visit was endless, and there were many people who gave gifts and handled things, but she was uninhibited, and if you dare to send me, I dare to receive it.
Although Xue Tao was not greedy for money and took the initiative to hand over all his belongings, it was inevitable that she would be jealous, and soon she would fall into the pretext of "accepting bribes", Wei Gao was naturally disgraced, and in a fit of anger, he used Xue Tao's distribution to Songzhou as a camp trick.
In an instant, Xue Tao fell from the "First Girls' School Book of the Tang Dynasty" in the spring breeze to the most bitter and cold and lowest frontier, surviving a hard life without dignity.
Wei Gao's resounding slap made Xue Tao wake up:
Don't underestimate the sinister heart, the eunuch sea is floating and sinking, the bravado will die a miserable death, and low-key is the king;
Don't overestimate your status, today can hold you up to heaven, tomorrow can also step on your feet, can only rely on themselves.
Xue Tao, who had re-entered the trough, did not allow herself to be sad for too long, and she wrote four poems to Wei Gao, "Punishment to the Side of Wei Xianggong Two Songs" and "Punishment to the Side with Pregnant Wei Xianggong Two Songs" to review and admit mistakes, but Wei Gao did not respond.
Xue Tao did not give up, but continued to lower his stature and sent Wei Gao the controversial "Ten Departure Poems".
Why is it controversial? Because these ten poems are indeed humble enough to lick the dog a little.
Yes, it is literally licking the dog, do not believe it, the rice grain mother casually put a song out for you to see:
After four or five years of taming Zhumen, Mao Xiangzu purified the master's pity; he bit the family affection for no reason, and was not allowed to sleep on the red silk carpet.
This song is titled "The Dog Leaves the Lord", who could have imagined that Xue Tao, who was arrogant and arrogant, would be willing to compare himself to Wei Gao's abandoned puppy, and still shake his tail and beg for mercy?
Some people criticize that this is not the arrogance that a literati should have, but The rice grain mother feels that it is not necessarily a kind of wisdom to endure humiliation and bear weights, and to be able to bend and stretch.
Han Xin was humiliated by his crotch and was still a big hero, and Xue Tao, as a woman from a lowly origin, wrote a few poems to show weakness and forgiveness in order to survive?
I have to say that it is human nature to eat soft and not eat hard, wei Gao can't bear it in the end, and soon took Xue Tao back, and also allowed her to break away from the music book and restore her freedom.
Of course, it is no longer Xue Tao who has returned, but "Niu Hulu Xue Tao".
If she had ever had illusions about the golden lord Wei Gao, then now, she had seen it incomparably thoroughly. In his eyes, he was just a kitten and a puppy, just coming and going when called.
Therefore, Xue Tao no longer wrote hymns and sang hymns for Wei Gao, and even when he died, Xue Tao did not leave a word of mourning.
Perhaps, she just wanted to use her lifelong silence to digest that period of coldness and humiliation, clench her teeth, and be stubborn and painful.
After leaving Wei Gao, Xue Tao began to concentrate on her career and development, and had very good contacts with more than a dozen Zhennan Jiedushi envoys, and politicians and literati lined up to find her to exchange poetry and talk about politics, becoming a down-to-earth sister in Shuzhong.
No wonder the Ming Dynasty literary scholar Zhong Yu said: Xue Tao is an ordinary woman? "Gudai Nooya."
Not only that, Xue Tao also created his own "Xue Tao Note", which is a peach-red inscription poem made of wood hibiscus skin and hibiscus flower juice, which was a well-known traffic IP around the Internet celebrity cultural creation of Datang's top 1 sales at that time.
But Xue Tao would not have thought that at the age of 42, she could still usher in a bright red and warm love like Xue Tao's note.
In this section of Xue Tao and Yuan Shu, I believe that many rice noodles have been slightly heard.
Yuan Shu does not need to introduce much, there is a real talent, even in the Tang Dynasty where talents are born, he can also be counted;
Slag is also real scum, in order to marry the second generation of officials do not hesitate to abandon the first love, not to mention, even when he hooked up with Xue Tao, the second generation of officials' wives were still lying on the hospital bed dying, and they could not see each other when they died.
However, Xue Tao was moved by this man who was 11 years younger than her, even if he stood up to the rumor that "old cows eat tender grass", even if Yuan Shu Hai Wang was famous, he couldn't take care of anything.
It is no wonder that Xue Tao has been suffering since he was a child, but anyone who tastes a hint of sweetness can be extremely satisfied.
Yuan Shu is handsome and talented and can write love poems, and his appearance has made up for Xue Tao's missing girlhood. In Yuan Shu's arms, she finally dared to be arrogant and spoiled, and for the first time she tasted the taste of innocence, she wrote on Xue Tao's note:
"On the amphibious green pool, flying back towards twilight." More memories will be the day of the chicks, between the lotus leaves. ”
At that time, she sincerely wanted to live a lifetime with Yuan Shu. But who knows, Yuan Shu, who wrote "once the sea was shipwrecked as water", has become the person with the thinnest feelings.
The two fell in love for only three or four months, and Yuan Shu went to Kyoto to take up his post, leaving Xue Tao alone to think about it:
"The boudoir does not know about the horse, and the moon is still on the Wangfu Building."
"That flower is full of branches, turned into two loves."
It can be seen that Xue Tao is by no means just playing on a whim, but really treats Yuan Shu as a husband looking forward to and worrying.
But she didn't wait for Yuan Shu after all.
Where did she know that Yuan Shu had long been busy in the midst of a thousand flowers, while climbing up to the miss of the Fuzhou Assassin Shi Family, while taking her friend and cousin as a concubine, she also had to flirt with the talented daughter Liu Caichun, and even nakedly said that Liu Caichun "Although the poetry is not as good as Tao, but the appearance is beautiful, it is not comparable to Tao."
Yes, a woman from a happy background, old and fading, for him Yuan Shu, in addition to a moment of joy, entertainment and loneliness, what value can it have?
In the hopeless waiting time and again, Xue Tao finally saw yuan shu's thin feelings and widowhood, and saw clearly the deep love and honey of the past, but it was just a water moon mirror flower, and finally became a bunch of ashes.
Mother Rice remembered that in the Book of Poetry, it is said: The delay of a soldier can be said, and the delay of a woman should not be said.
I don't know how much Heartache Xue Tao had at that time, but I believe that Xue Tao must not have indulged in lost love for too long.
Because this time, she did not keep Yuan Shu like begging Wei Gao, she cried and got drunk in the night, and when the dawn came, she waved her sleeve, gently opened the page, and continued to embark on the second half of her journey.
Later, Xue Tao did not seem to have opened his heart to others again, nor did he ever have great joy and sorrow.
She took off the silk of Ayara, removed the pearl jade ring, pulled up her long hair, put on a gray Robe, built a poetry building in Chengdu, and spent the rest of her life with the Green Lantern Scroll, lonely but pure, so lonely and far away.
Fan Zengxiang of the Qing Dynasty commented on Xue Tao:
By the wanli bridge, loquat flower bottom, closed door to sell out the incense. Lonely Duck, no luck to learn Mandarin Duck.
In this life, although Xue Tao was always surrounded by all kinds of men, or gold lords, or admirers, or competitors, she never found someone who could read her heart, childless and childless, lonely and old.
Lonely? Lonely, of course. Pathetic? Nor can it be pitied.
Rice grain mother especially likes a sentence said by the writer Bai Luomei:
I always believe that after walking through the smoke and rain of Pinghu Lake, the mountains and rivers of the years, those who have experienced disasters and tasted all kinds of tastes will be more vivid and clean.
Xue Tao is like this.
Fallen into the wind and dust at an early age, but did not change his sincere heart;
Young people fall from the clouds into the mud, but struggle not to let themselves sink;
Middle-aged people are hurt by dreams, but they can tear up and cut off emotions, and they are no longer trapped by people.
Every hardship, every darkest moment, she did not spend it in vain, but a needle and a thread, endured the pain to repair life, more detached than ever, more awakened than ever, and finally firmly chose the right path that fewer people took.
Therefore, even after all the hardships and vicissitudes, she can still stubbornly say: The late jun can be rewarded, and the cang is vigorous.
Mi Grain Mother believes that even after more than a thousand years, Xue Tao's power can still pass through paper and words and reach people's hearts.
She has spent her whole life just to tell us one word, there is no pearl of luster, it needs to be given by others.
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