The inner feelings of a small clerk

I am an introvert, usually do not like to talk, many times do not know what to say, especially with strangers seem to be particularly restrained, although introverted, but chose to sell, because the major is marketing, so can only choose the work of sales. Although I don't particularly like sales work, I also want to challenge myself, want to break through my personality, and change myself.

Less than a month after coming to the company, I usually don't talk much, and some people around me are not familiar with it, and I chat less. In today's company to inform the news of the evening dinner, according to the custom, I definitely did not want to go, but in order to better integrate into the company's employees, I still chose to participate. Just when it was almost time for dinner, the supervisor asked me to go with her to get the information, and I followed the supervisor and went with her. Just arrived at the store inside the group president said to hurry to a store to gather for dinner, the supervisor is still getting information, I am also waiting for the supervisor, there are a lot of people in the group are in the Aite supervisor, let her hurry to eat, but I was deeply forgotten, no one remembered. After the information was finished, I went to the dinner in that shop, I clearly remember that many people were calling the supervisor to eat, the table also left only a stool, asked the supervisor to sit and rest, but the supervisor was not very comfortable to go to the toilet, I looked there to see over and could not find a stool, I wanted to find a stool to sit down, but did not see the stool, they also continued to eat there, no one paid attention to me, I felt that I was superfluous, sensitive and fragile heart began to think more, Finally, he plucked up the courage to ask the hotel attendant to take a stool and sit down. There were a lot of flattery on the table, I could only nod and smile to meet, feeling that this meal was too long, eating for twenty minutes like eating for two hours, because no one paid attention to me, talking to me, I was a small transparent sitting at the table, staying up and finally finishing dinner, the dinner was finally over.

Dinner came back and reflected on it, it is true that this is the case between people, you are in high places others are in awe of you, you are not in the low places. But it is also more firm in my belief that I want to change, I must break through myself, make myself strong, must work hard to earn money, have the confidence to have money, and live the life I want when I have money. No matter which class of society we are in now, as long as we adhere to our original intention and always adhere to the pace of progress, we will one day realize our dreams and become the kind of people we want to become.