<h1>01.</h1>
It turns out that being high is far from a good habit.
The primary school teacher gave me an evaluation: "Very smart, very good at talking, just study more seriously."
I know that this is the unified caliber of teachers facing poor students, and she also said that "if you study seriously, you will not be worse than anyone", and even after graduation, even today, college, I have not yet scored a hundred.
At that time, some people praised me as "smart" and were still complacent, but now it seems that there is only sadness.
"Smart but not learning" is essentially a false label, an excuse, a kind of exile that knows that it is impossible to change but still wants to save.
I have always felt that it is a very proud thing to be praised as "smart", but I never expected the word "smart", just a sinister adult world, one of the biggest harm to children - killing.
I can't avoid the invisible damage that this kind of compliment brings to me, so I'd rather not communicate with people, prefer not to like other people's praise, and would rather say some truth to put myself in an awkward position.
This embarrassing pain reminds me that you are just an ordinary person in an ordinary world, everyone is the same, nothing special.
<h1>02.</h1>
After spending a long time in the ivory tower, the beautiful and leisurely life has made me forget the pain of real life, and I have forgotten that life has many monotonous and tedious jobs.
There is no assembly line, artificial top; with the assembly line, many people are unemployed.
The essence of the rapid development of science and technology is the pursuit of extremely high efficiency and maximum economic benefits, and the owners of large factories hope that their money will come quickly and without excessive expenditure.
The development of science and technology is a thing that is beneficial to the whole world, with the torrent of history, this is the inevitable trend of development, no one can deny it, and the problems brought about by the rapid development of science and technology have also changed the concept of mankind.
"Making quick money" has become a social consensus, no one is focused on improving their professional skills, and everyone is keen to draw camps in their posts.
This tendency can be seen as early as two years ago when I filled in the college entrance examination volunteer, and now various propaganda platforms have intensified their propaganda that some disciplines are good and good, and denigrate certain disciplines that are not worth learning.
Use the tiredness and not tiredness of university life, the difficulty and difficulty of professional knowledge as the standard for measuring a discipline.
Medicine is difficult, physics is difficult, mathematics is also difficult, but if because it is difficult, because it needs to learn it for a long time, because it is not easy to find employment in the future, because it is difficult to produce results in future scientific research, then give up learning it, then our country and our nation talk about progress, why talk about rejuvenation?
There is some natural discrimination against liberal arts students in society. I think it's unnecessary.
I studied science in high school, literature in college, as a science student, I know that numbers and logic bring people dizzy, composition and liberal arts students, I also know that everyone is the same is not easy.
At the very least, hair loss has been on the move.
<h1>03.</h1>
A few years ago, the term "craftsman spirit" was mentioned, but it was only a flash in the pan and soon disappeared. The state encourages the spirit of craftsmanship, but the greatest "economic benefits" do not encourage it.
We generally lack a spirit of craftsmanship, that is, the pure enjoyment of immersion in our own world. Currently, in terms of the life I've lived, I've only seen roommates immersed in games in this state.
It is unrealistic not to want to do simple things, and to want to save the country and save the people all day long.
Lu Xun studied medicine and found that he could only save the body but not the national spirit, so he resolutely abandoned medicine and followed the text. This incident tells us that when a generation of celebrities save people, they also need to start from small things.
In high school, I always dreamed, and I had that kind of unrealistic "daydreaming." I dreamed that one day I would be blessed to my soul and be able to take the first place every time. This dream was made for too long, so long that I immersed myself in this dream and refused to come out.
College, woke up from a dream. I finally realized that I was just an ordinary person in the vast world, so ordinary that I couldn't even get a brilliant skill.
Singing I am out of tune, painting I am a person who can't even draw people's facial features, writing is definitely not good-looking, probably the only thing that makes me feel a little at ease is writing, which is no more than that now.
Rejection again and again, inspiration dried up again and again, almost every time it was a perfect weapon to destroy me, without a lot of force, just with the knife called "no", with a gentle pull on my heart, I died.
I want to reflect on my state this year. The whole school year of sophomore year was just a mess, and there was no achievement.
I always didn't understand what I wanted, so I wasted time doing boring things.
But I don't know that many things have to start from small things, and even a plan can't be changed well, and I have changed it many times but it is still a problem.
The problem is with me, if I had known that there was today, if I had known... There won't be. You can only clumsily learn, to learn all the skills that this society needs in advance.
From the mottled little things of life, see the traces of future life.