A man's day

A man's day

Chen Sujin

The winter of the year of Mr. Pei's death was already the tenth year of his bedridden.

He walked in his sleep.

Early in the morning, when Xiao Di found out, he had no breath, and there were wet tear marks in the corners of his eyes.

In fact, he had been asleep for two years and seven months, living on nasal feeding.

Xiao Di took her daughter, who had rushed back from a university in Beijing and was already a sophomore, to arrange the aftermath together.

Others advised her that before she died, you did enough affection and righteousness, and the farewell ceremony, you should not go.

The person who persuaded did not say clearly, everyone knows that the local custom, if one of the husband and wife dies first, if the other party participates in the farewell ceremony, it means that he or she will not find anyone in the future, and will have to live alone.

What Xiao Di thought in her heart, no one explained it, she knew it herself.

She, resolutely sent Lao Pei on the last ride! Must send! Sent to the funeral home, attended the farewell ceremony, sent to the cemetery, watched him buried, she could not leave her daughter alone to face these. She still had to recognize this place, and she had to burn paper for Old Pei over the years...

Someone praised her for being affectionate enough.

Someone praised her for being strong enough.

Only she knew how the sadness in her heart was, how the cold that seeped out of her bones, from every crevice in her heart, from every pore, had eroded her. She may have a moment of relief, and then, a blanket cold. She, after sending Lao Pei on the same day, had a fever and a high fever and was taken to the hospital. She has not been hysterical so crying, but there have been endless tears, old Pei is gone, she in addition to the sadness and sadness that no one can help, she is still dazed, do not know how to live in the future...

From the sudden illness of old Pei cerebral infarction to the quiet death of old Pei ten years later. Xiao Di's life has drawn a clear watershed in the twenty-two years after her marriage.

Old Pei's kindness to her and the degree of spoiling his wife cannot be described too much. In the compound of the unit where they lived, which daughter-in-law did not praise Old Pei, and if the husband and wife quarreled in this building, the daughter-in-law would say, You learn from Old Pei, and see what people are doing to your wife? This made Xiao Di, who was the third eldest among the five brothers and sisters in the mother's family, even more flattered.

Old Pei's kindness to the girlfriend, but also let Xiao Di moved the sparse rush, because the old Pei brothers, that brothers in a couple only allowed to have a child in the case of a daughter, old Pei at home he is the youngest, parents are the hope of having a grandchild properly deposited here, I heard that Xiao Di is pregnant, it is doing everything possible to be good to her, the result is still a girl, the old man is still calm, the old woman is directly ill, can not eat, sleep can not sleep. But this did not affect Old Pei, "What? Our family has a throne waiting to be inherited? ”

When Lao Pei fell ill, some people also said that the wind and cool words: Look, there is no filial piety in front of the bed for a long time. See when Xiao Di can hold out?

There is no time.

As long as you live.

Xiao Di hired a live-in nanny because she had to send her daughter to school during the day, and she taught in a normal college herself, without having to sit in class, but she had to go to class. Everything in the family still has to run normally, in the past, the net was worried about Lao Pei, and now, Xiao Di knows that Lao Pei is actually very hard, because Lao Pei himself is also the backbone of the unit! There are also a bunch of buddies who also need to socialize.

At that time, Xiao Di came and went in the wind and rain, and he was all alone.

No, at that time, the action was a person, when he came home, Xiao Di and Lao Pei had communication, although he was bedridden, although he was slurred, although he was often confused...

The girlfriend came to see Xiao Di in the hospital, did not persuade her anything, and directly booked two tickets: after the first seven, we flew to Sanya.

During the two weeks in Sanya, Xiaodi was most intimately cared for by her girlfriend and her parents in Hainan Maodong. My girlfriend's parents are people who have seen life and death as soldiers in the past, they have not told her a day's truth, accompany her to walk around, accompany her to see the sea, tell her about their past life and separation with their comrades-in-arms, let her make northern flavor rice with Hainan ingredients, and tell her: You have the obligation to cook for us here now!

Girlfriend's parents, in another way to help her heal, many years later, mentioning the deceased pair of old people, Xiao Di still tears!

Later, Xiao Di's sister came to stay with her for two weeks, and she persuaded her to go back, you can't let your mother-in-law take the child day and night, and then you don't use it for me after work...

Xiao Di was alone at home, a cabinet was opened, looking for the traces of Lao Pei, she took the books in the study, one volume after another, she saw the place where Lao Pei left handwriting on the title page of those books, tears flowed, she put on the apron that Lao Pei cooked for her mother and son, she couldn't help but let out a sad voice, the ears were still echoing the loud voice of "Rice coming", in fact, it was ten years ago, she still remembered telling her to find someone when Old Pei was talking unfavorably, and the most uneasy thing about his death was not his father, not his daughter, It's her little Dick! She also remembered that Old Pei said you have to live more for me!

Xiao Di went to work, still quite lively, and someone talked. She also travels with her colleagues, and she also goes to participate in the red and white things of her classmates, but she is also a lonely figure, and how to look at it is lonely.

The problem of insomnia has completely fallen.

Coming out of Old Pei's sadness, it was a few years later.

Xiao Di's daughter, when she graduated from graduate school, wanted to return to the province for employment, so that she could take care of her a little closer, Xiao Di opposed her daughter's choice, her daughter went to Shanghai, and later, where she met a young man whose family was doing business in Hangzhou, got married, had children, and went smoothly!

The daughter talks to Xiao Di very seriously, so that she can forget her father and start a new life. Or, go to Shanghai with her.

She also wants to open up and start a new life!

But when she came and went, she found that no one could compare with old Pei.

There is a retired old cadre who is quite good in age and learning, he took a fancy to Xiao Di, heard that she was good to her ex-husband, and there was a daughter who had a career, and he was found by someone, Xiao Di heard about his conditions, met in a tea house, and had a good impression. The second time we met, the old cadre came up and said, "Come to my house!" I am in good health, I don't need you to take care of me every day, you will cook two meals in the morning and evening, clean up and clean up, my salary is enough for us to spend, this villa is big enough, the house is my son's...

Xiao Di didn't listen to him and stood up, dare I go to your house as a nanny?

Xiao Di used to be a high school classmate, his wife died, he waited until his daughter got married to consider his own affairs, he said to Xiao Di you don't look for others, let's live a life! I have money. Xiao Di really saw it, he did have money, Xiao Di scared away...

There is a gentleman who used to be a local TV station host, and the cultural literacy is very good. Was introduced to Xiao Di, he came up and said that I and my wife divorced, if we are together, I have to go to your house, I now like to run marathons, every morning I have to get up early..., Xiao Di listened to this I am afraid that it will not work...

Going round and round, Xiao Di retired.

Out and in, Xiao Di is still living alone, she still lives in the same home as Old Pei, but she has renovated the house again, and in the study, there are still photos of their family, where Old Pei is so young, smiling is really happy, and only those who are happy from the heart will have that kind of laughter...