I often brush up on some videos, which create an atmosphere of how beautiful and free a person's life is.
"After work, a person refuses to socialize ineffectively, comes home, listens to beautiful music, cooks a rich and delicious dinner for himself, and chases the drama while eating. Take a shower after a meal, change into comfortable pajamas, take care of your skin, and read a book before going to bed. It gives people a feeling of refinement, self-discipline and ease. ”
After you watch it, when you think of the days when you jump every day, you can't help but yearn for such a life.
I used to think the same way, thinking that if I went to a place that no one knew, there would be no interpersonal troubles, and I could live a free, free, unrestrained life.
It wasn't until later, when I went to live in a place with no relatives and no friends, that I realized I was wrong.
At the beginning, I was really happy, and finally I was free, and no one cared about this or that anymore, and I could do whatever I wanted.
Eat, drink and have fun every day, how dashing and dashing.
But after this went on for a while, I started to get bored.
Live alone, you will be afraid, there is a little noise outside the door in the middle of the night, you will think of a girl living alone encountered an accident news.
Eat alone, you will find that it is difficult to buy a person's amount of meat dishes, buy too much, eat endlessly, do not want to eat every day, put it for a long time is not good.
It is also very troublesome to make a person's meal, and it is already very good not to call takeout, and it is often a casual cooking to cope with eating.
It's not at all like in the video, a person cooking hot pot and preparing a variety of dishes, meat, cakes, juices, etc.
The outside world is wonderful, but it has little to do with yourself. Although living in this place, it still feels strange.
And when I think of going home, I am alone, and I feel cold and clear, but I don't want to go home.
Back home, no one to wait, no one to accompany, no one to chat, that feeling of loneliness is really bad.
Everyone needs the company of family, friendship and love, and it is indispensable.
One needs to have one's own private space, one can walk alone, one person reads, one person listens to songs, one eats ~~~~~
But it's not a person who lives.